My baby tame dyed bandages to become semen

Ah, I remembered.

We were 14 years old that year.

Not long after the summer vacation, my father told me that next semester he would send me to live with my uncle in Tokyo.

life and death.

I faced my mother's death when I was six years old.That was the first time in my life that I learned to say goodbye.

But now, I need to learn to separate from relatives and friends who are still alive.

What was I thinking at that time?

I was thinking if I just left, what would Azhi do?

He doesn't like that family, he can't bear the hypocrisy and pretense between people, he hates all the stereotypes around him.

He can't find the meaning of living.

He hates me.

He dreamed of leaving.

At that time, I happened to discover a series of preparations Azhi had made for running away from home.

Maps, knives, backpacks, money...

I realized that one day, Azhi would leave me.

I was sad and panicked.

For many years, I have relied on looking at Aji for some kind of nourishment. He is my only fire of life and source of hope.

Father is nice, but that's all.Mother is nice, but that's all.My uncle's family is also very good, but that's all...

Although they have brought me a lot of joy and beauty, my threshold is getting higher and higher, and it is becoming more and more difficult to satisfy.

I love them as much as they love me, but this feeling floats on ice and may be submerged by the undercurrent anytime and anywhere.

Even after many years, I have teachers, partners, and friends...but this feeling has not been completely changed.

Only Aji is special.

Although there are countless dazzling people in the world, there is only one Azhi.

When I was six years old, I attended my mother's funeral with a blank face. The guests who came to express their condolences whispered, and only Aji's milky white fingers touched my cheek.

"Death is something to be happy about, why are you crying?"

When he was weak and weak when he was young, he opened his iris eyes without impurities and asked me this sentence.

From then on, I knew that only Azhi was different.

There are so many human beings, and complex people do not exist, but there is only Azhi, he is the only extraordinary in my eyes.

I looked at him like a mistletoe sucking on nutrients, entangled him hungrily.

Please shine a little more, let me look at you, look forward to you, rely on you, let me continue to exist in this world!

And now Aji is leaving.

It's hard to put into words what I was feeling at the time.

On a summer afternoon when the cicadas were singing, I went to Azhi with comics, ice cream and a game console as always.We spend time together on his tatami.

Looking at the top of the head, it is the colorful posters that we put up without telling the adults when we were young.Looking around, every place is full of memories of me growing up with Aji.

When Azhi once again lamented how boring the world is, I said to him: "Azhi, let's go, since you can't find it here, look outside."

With some secret expectation, I handed over the ticket with the destination in Tokyo written on it.

Although the 14-year-old Azhi is smart and sensitive, the last immaturity remains in his heart.

I watched his eyes widen in disbelief, stuffed the ticket into his hand, and winked mischievously at him.

I gestured towards the bottom of his bed, "I see, Azhi wants to leave! It's okay, you don't have to hide it from me, I will help you."

I leaned into his ear and whispered: "Half an hour after dinner is the easiest time to leave Tsushima house. At this time, the masters who have been busy all day finish dinner, and the servants just finish packing and start eating. Aji's parents are generally It will be held in the study, and Aji's brothers and sisters will go back to the room to prepare for homework. In addition to the last assembly of the day, no one will find out before nine o'clock in the evening."

"At that time, I will put a bicycle at the Qingjin intersection."

"If Azhi wants to leave, this is the best time."

After I finished speaking, I collapsed on Aji’s tatami, looked at the stickers on the roof and murmured, “Even if I don’t tell Aji, he can do it himself.”

Azhi held the ticket with his right hand, the muscles on his face twitched faintly, and the veins must appear between the slender and white knuckles.

In less than 1 minute, all the ripples seemed to calm down.

He put the ticket in his pocket.Lying next to me playing games as if nothing had happened, and even joking with me as always.

me too.

That night, the news that Azhi ran away from home spread throughout Qingjin, and the whole Qingjin was brightly lit.

Father and Uncle Tsushima went to look for Aji, and of course they couldn't find anything.

The next day, I got on the train to my uncle's house in Tokyo ahead of schedule, and couldn't wait to find someone.

However I got nothing.

A year later, Aji was expelled from the Tsushima family.When I heard the news and returned to Qingjin, I sneaked into Azhi's room and found that none of the items he had prepared had been taken away.

From then on, my heart was full of quicksilver, and I was already ready to say goodbye to him.

In four years, I became the only disciple of the King of Gold, and I became the master of Yahara who controlled the mysterious forces. I searched every corner of Tokyo and every corner of this country except Yokohama, but I never found Aji. .

I didn't expect him to go to Yokohama.Only there I can't do anything, I can't get exact information before I become the colorless king.

Then I reunited with him.

On a maple-colored autumn day.

I reunited with Aji who became a mafia.

He was dressed in black, his whole body was soaked in blood and fire, the half of his face that was not wrapped with bandages was as white as snow, full of distress and pleading.

Of course I will grant all his wishes.

He is different from most young people of the same age, he is rooted in the dark thorns, he is a kite bird who has been hurt.

The 22-year-old Azhi's past sharpness has faded and he has become a sunny tree, but his past experiences still leave shadows and wormholes in the trunk.

My heart softened into one piece, like bread being eaten by ants.

Aji looked at me with sweet and determined eyes.

"Xiyue, are you feeling guilty? Or are you regretting the ticket you handed me?"

I nodded silently.

"No, even without you, I will leave that home sooner or later. You have also discovered that I have been planning to run away from home for a long time. "

"Instead I thank you."

"Although I don't understand why Xiyue has such strong expectations of me that she is obedient. But thanks to you, I was able to leave on the best Shinkansen all the way."

He tilted his head like a child, "I got off the bus at Kanagawa halfway, and was rescued by Mr. Mori because of a suicide attempt, and I was forced to stay in Hong Kong and Heilongjiang as a child laborer, but I really don't blame it at all. Xiyue."

"So Xiyue doesn't have to be careful all the time, it's really ugly."

"Did it bother you?" My voice became hoarse.

"To be honest, there must be. Xiyue's guilt and regret gave me goosebumps." Azhi shook his arms in disgust.

"At that time... my father was going to send me to Tokyo..."

Azhi raised his index finger to my lips and made a "shh" expression.

"Needless to say, I know." He withdrew his hand, "But what happened, it happened. What I have experienced cannot be changed."

"I'm sorry..." I looked at him, that was the only guilt and regret in my life.

"I said it doesn't have to be like this. If Xiyue really feels sorry, tell me one thing!"

"What's the matter?" I asked Azhi, as if I would give the answer as soon as he said it

"What kind of emotion is Xiyue looking at me with?"

I don't know, I couldn't answer, so I ran and jumped out of the window.

Only Aji's incomplete "Yuzuki... idiot..." remained in his ear.

There was the whistling wind in my ears, and before I knew it, I ran to the harbor of Yokohama.

Standing in front of the railing, I took a deep breath to calm down.

I really don't know how to face A Zhi, the sudden showdown, the sudden questioning, I feel powerless.

As I said earlier, I came to Yokohama because I didn't know what Aji meant to me.

Not too long ago, I simply understood the fact that he was the most special one to me.

This fact is useless.

I watched him when I was a child, he was the most special one.Now that I look at him, he is still the most special one.

Compared with the simple expectation in childhood, now it is mixed with a series of more complex emotions such as guilt, regret, and distress.

This is all I can figure out for now.

So I can only run.

I don't really want to meet Azhi until my mind is clear, because I can't give him a definite answer.

It's a pity that fate is not going to give me a chance to breathe.

Standing in front of the harbor, I saw Mr. Dubu driving a yacht to a certain place.

Looking forward along the position where Mr. Dubu moved, he could faintly see the fire and gunpowder smoke in the distance.

I squinted my eyes, determined the direction of Mr. Dubu, and chased after him by the boats moored on the coast.

Then I saw the white tiger and the black beast fighting to the death.

It's Atsushi-kun and Akutagawa-kun.

I observed secretly, and found that although the beast under the moon is extremely capable, Mr. Akutagawa has rich experience and superior combat power after all, and has repeatedly suppressed Mr. Dun.

At the same time, because Moonbeast has powerful regeneration and melee capabilities, Akutagawa-kun cannot kill them all.

Hey, Akutagawa-kun's terrible physical skills can't even compare with Aji.

Just as I was feeling the situation on the cruise ship was changing rapidly, the little black-haired girl in a kimono and Atsu-kun jumped onto the yacht where Dubu-kun was sitting in the sky full of flames.

Akutagawa fell into the open sea in an explosion.

Although I don't want to get involved in the struggle between the armed detective agency and the port mafia.

But Akutagawa-kun and I finally got to know each other once. Even if we only look at his relationship with Aji, I won't leave him alone.

It must be no problem for Dunjun to have Jing Zisang on his side.

With a "bang", I jumped into the sea and picked up the appalling Akutagawa-kun as fast as I could.

Before the blond-haired subordinate lady arrived, I used my ability to temporarily freeze Akutagawa-kun's time to ensure that he would not die of serious injuries due to excessive blood loss.

After finishing the treatment, I took a rare taxi back to the seaside villa, preparing to sort out the conversation with Azhi today.

It's a pity that the sky is not satisfactory, and the accident and tomorrow come together.

The author has something to say: Notice: I will fix Chapter 1 to Chapter 5 tomorrow morning, and catch bugs by the way.The content has not changed, just change the rhythm.My little angels, please don’t mind if you see the update, the normal update time is [-] pm, I would like to say sorry to everyone!

Another: Today's post is really long, so don't read down if you're not interested, it's super long!

The complete content of Dazai's sentence is "Xiyue is a super invincible emotional fool!"

After all, Xiyue was so scared that she ran away...

This chapter was originally intended to cause them to have a big fight and a cold war, but when I wrote it, I found that, sure enough, it was impossible for Xiyue to be angry with Dazai.So what follows is Xiyue's unilateral evasion.

Let's finish the plot first, and give the idiot Yuzuki some buffer time! They will definitely make progress before this party is over.

The boy Da Zai was really confused by the ticket that Xiyue handed over, and it would not be an exaggeration to say that it was split.

Think about it from the standpoint of Dazai, you are so kind to me that it scares me, even if you find out that I am going to run away from home and don’t stop me, it’s fine, but you still make clear arrangements for me?

Dazai felt that it was normal to be thrown away.

But the grown-up Dazai can understand Xiyue's actions.

Xiyue's feelings were very complicated, but her thoughts were simple.Instead of letting him leave without my knowledge, I would take the initiative to send him away.

Thinking so, Xiyue is not so cruel, Tokyo is actually his destination.

But is Da Jae a script man? He is not.

Xiyue really lost Dazai, and now it was Xiyue who cracked.

Xiyue regretted it very much, especially after the reunion and found that Dazai was a gangster, and the scene they met at the beginning can be said to be a common psychological shadow for both parties.

Therefore, Xiyue has always been very guilty and cautious towards Dazai. He regards what happened to Dazai after he left home as his own responsibility.

According to the person, would Xiyue be this kind of person? As a person with self-consistent logic, since you want to leave, I will help you as a matter of course.

As Dazai said, Xiyue didn't need to do this, even if he didn't help at that time, Dazai would leave by himself one day sooner or later.

What kind of relationship is it that makes Xiyue worry about gains and losses and hesitate?

Dazai knew the answer to this question, but Xiyue didn't.Dazai wanted Xiyue to think clearly, and at the same time let him not regret and feel guilty.

Their attitudes towards the human world are similar but different.

Yuzuki is positive and negative: Although there are expectations, it doesn't matter.

Dazai is passive and positive: Although it is painful, we still have to look for it.

If the relationship between people is used to represent Xiyue's memory of the world, it is not the effect of 1+1=2, but Dazai>everyone.

Dazai is the most special one!