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Shen Menghan's condition deteriorated faster than Xie Chenyan imagined.

He developed a high fever the next day, Xie Chenyan relieved his dumb acupoint, and he was not able to speak a single word.

A person as ice-like as jade suddenly developed a high fever, even the delirious Xie Chenyan noticed the abnormality.

Leaving the Yin Pavilion, which is as warm as spring all day long, the precious medicinal materials that are kept around the clock, and those rare doctors in the world.He is like a fish out of water, and the vegetation peels off the land.

He violently snatched out the peerless and exotic plants that were pampered in the greenhouse, but there was nowhere to hide; he exposed the precious silk and gorgeous brocades to the wilderness, but they could not block the wind or rain.

Xie Chenyan tried his best to suppress the fear in his heart, he didn't dare to go far, only dared to catch some rainwater at the entrance of the cave.

The rainwater flowed through the cliff, engulfed in sand, Xie Chenyan traveled a long distance before receiving a pool of clear water. He knelt aside and carefully passed it to him one mouthful at a time.

When he was cold, he wanted to warm him up, and when his fever persisted, Xie Chenyan was afraid of the high fever.

His mind is sometimes chaotic and sometimes clear.

There are very few clear days.He occasionally wondered if he was doing something wrong.

Most of the time, he was so dazed that he didn't care about it, and just hugged the person who was already sick and unconscious.

After a few days, Shen Menghan opened his eyes in a daze.

He hadn't woken up for a long time, all supported by Xie Chenyan's true breath.

Xie Chenyan originally thought that the moment when he exhausted his true energy would be the moment of their eternal farewell.

But when he really woke up, it only made Xie Chenyan feel terrified.

He looked at Xie Chenyan quietly, his eyes were tender and tender.

He said softly: "Xiao Yan, don't let me down."

Xiaoyan, don't disappoint.

Don't disappoint Juexi's sacrifice, don't disappoint everyone's expectations and trust.

He always knows Xie Chenyan's pain points and weaknesses.

Only his love and wishes are unimportant in this world.

Xie Chenyan burst into tears.

He was still not cruel enough, he thought he would indulge in this last pleasure.

But he couldn't just watch the one he loved die with his own eyes.

Life and death are too light to speak out, and only those who have really experienced it will know how difficult it is to accept.

He's been through it once, and he knows he can't be indifferent.

He carried Shen Menghan on his back and walked back the way he came.

Cold wind and rain, ice knife and frost sword.

The winter in the south of the Yangtze River is bitterly cold.

The wind and rain swept over the dead branches and leaves in a mess, and the desolation and coldness of the place.

Every step is a silent cry.

Xie Chenyan said in a hoarse voice while walking: "I won't undo the Nai River Gu."

Shen Menghan remained silent.

He chattered endlessly: "Remember, you tricked me into playing the Gu, you owe me a life."

Shen Menghan was silent.

Xie Chenyan wailed loudly: "I want to come back to get it. If you die, give it back to me. I will hate you for the rest of my life."

Shen Menghan still shouldn't.

His heart was full of pity and pain, but he didn't have the strength to say a single word.

Xie Chenyan said sadly: "Can't you work harder for me?"

He said in a low voice: "I have no one else in my heart. They are all shadows on paper to me. In my world, only you are real."

After a long, long time, Xie Chenyan thought that he would not respond at all.

But Shen Menghan responded in a low, inaudible voice: "Yes."

Since it was a doomed dream, why was it so cruel to give him no more sweetness.

The faint voice was quickly blown away by the messy wind and rain, and disappeared without a trace.

From then on, in Xie Chenyan's world, there was a long night of silence, so quiet.

The arms wrapped around his neck slowly dropped.

He could hardly feel the breathing and heartbeat of the person on his body.

This sudden high fever exhausted his blood energy, and the temperature quickly dissipated in the cold Jiangnan rainy night.

The cheek against his neck cooled down little by little.

Xie Chenyan will never forget the coldness of that moment.

Naihe Gu predicted that the child Gu would be dangerous, and the mother Gu was anxiously clamoring in his blood.

For the first time in two years, Xie Chenyan felt the connection between life and death.

He thought he would die willingly.

It really came to this moment, but it turned out not to be.

He can't.

He wanted Shen Menghan to survive.

He is greedy for his person, his body, his words, his tenderness, everything about him.

And the dead end is the unknown.

He is not reconciled to not being able to enjoy the joy of this life to the fullest.

But if he had to part while alive, he thought he would rather die with him.

When things came to an end, it was not the case. He would rather that he lived, even if he would never see him again, he would still wish that he could live on.

He should sit in the high hall and laugh at Yan Yan.

Heaps of gold and jade, clothed in brocade and silk, guarded heavily, surrounded by beautiful maidservants.

Instead of accompanying him, a lunatic, to die in this bleak and rainy winter wasteland.

No one will remember the other end of the Naihe bridge, even if there is an afterlife, Shen Menghan will never remember him again.

He was still wrong, he shouldn't have brought his loved one into danger, why should he decide Shen Menghan's life or death?

Even in the name of love, he is still doing things that hurt him.

Xie Chenyan couldn't forgive herself.

Xie Chenyan gritted his teeth, and gave him the last breath of true energy. With his lightness kung fu to the extreme, he stumbled towards the Yin Pavilion.

Before he rushed into the hidden pavilion, Juexuan snatched Shen Menghan from him.

Xie Chenyan avoided his gaze, unwilling to see the condemnation and disappointment in his eyes.

The wet and heavy hem of the clothes floated away from his hands.

Xie Chenyan was half a beat too late, and took hold of nothingness.

The chaos and lust of yesterday still faintly remained in the sleeping hall.

Xie Chenyan stared blankly at them sitting around in front of Shen Menghan's couch, with confusion surrounding his ears.

When he came back to his senses, the woman who appeared with Juexuan stood in front of him with a frown, and said in a word: "I want to perform a dangerous technique, if you remove the Gu now, there is still time."

"You clearly know that he is seriously ill now." Ruan Sha said coldly, "You want his life?"

Xie Chenyan stared at her blankly, seeming to understand, but also not seeming to understand.

"Unlock the Nai River Gu, let's go." Ruan Sha said: "We can't keep a person who hurts him again and again by his side."

Xie Chenyan looked at Shen Menghan's bedside.

Everyone surrounded him, and Zhou Qian looked at him coldly through the crowd without saying a word.

That gaze was colder than the first time he saw him, than the day he pleaded guilty.

Xie Chenyan stood there blankly.

Xie Chenyan didn't react until Xiao Hua came to hold his hand and drew the knife to take the Gu. He shook off Xiao Hua's hand viciously, got up and walked out.

Leave everyone's exclamation and noise behind, and turn a deaf ear.

She was right.

He is not needed here.

There is no need for a person who hurt Shen Menghan again and again.

Fine jade cannot be placed in the hands of a reckless and impulsive person.

He only needs one carelessness, and it will be irreversible.

He has to heal himself first.

It was raining heavily, but there were no tears in the boy's eyes.

A piece of clarity.

He went straight into the White Horse Temple, and finally bowed solemnly in front of Jue Tan: "Master, please accept me as a disciple."

His heart is empty, and everything that was once full seems to have been washed away with the heavy rain.

He hurt and hugged him tightly, but he was destined to be unable to keep him.

Xie Chenyan was in a daze along the way.

He looked like a boy who had been spoiled since he was a child, but he had never cried bitterly or acted coquettishly once.

Not arrogant or impetuous, respectful and polite.

All the way to Lin'an City, where he ate and slept in the open, but he didn't look distressed.

Rao is as calm as Juetan, but he can't help but wonder.

He also didn't seem to care where Jue Tan was taking him.

Leaving Jinling City, he felt as if he was empty.

Jue Tan randomly chose a mountain temple to rest in the mountains, and Xie Chenyan had no objection.

He sat quietly in front of the window, neither sad nor happy, as if everything was out of his sight again.

Juetan said: "I have already told the presiding officer that I will receive precepts with you in the precept hall tomorrow."

Xie Chenyan lowered his head and said, "Okay."

Juetan noticed that there was a flash of water in the boy's eyes.

Jue Tan warmly said: "Life has eight hardships, taste them one by one, and then you will know that dreams and illusions are all vain."

Xie Chenyan lowered his head, as if he had heard it, but he didn't.

Jue Tan lightly brushed his big acupoints all over his body: "Sleep, I will teach you the first form of Qingshui Jue tomorrow."

After being sleepless for so long, even hardened people can't hold on.

The body seems to have fallen into a dream, but the mind is extremely chaotic and clear.

Cross mountains and rivers.

Return to the haunted place.

The world is so big, all he wants is a corner around him.

Shen Menghan finally woke up.

Wandering at the gate of hell time and time again, the King of Hades also knew that he would bring innocent people into trouble, so he insisted on refusing to accept him.

His cold gaze scanned the hall inch by inch.

Mixed with longing and expectation that he himself didn't realize.

Ruan Sha said, "He's gone."

Shen Menghan withdrew his gaze and let out a "hmm".Wen Yan said: "Thank you for your hard work."

The tone is low.

Ruan Sha has seen him be strong and forbearing, but she has never seen him so lonely.

At this moment, Shen Menghan's gaze made her feel cruel.

Ruan Sha was silent for a while before she said in a hoarse voice: "Ah Han, I would rather work hard, and don't be afraid to trouble us."

Shen Menghan closed his eyes and said softly, "No."

When Ruan Sha retreated, he was the only one left in the huge hall, he turned his head quietly, the low couch that Xie Chenyan usually slept on was still in place, and the quilt was neatly folded on it, as if the master would return tonight return.

He stared blankly at that place.

It seemed that the boy with the baby face was still sitting in front of the couch.

He was always unwilling to sit upright in one place, with his knees crossed, half kneeling, leaning against his feet, or simply lying on the ground.

Hei Zhanzhan's eyes are always looking in his direction, and his eyes are full of him.

His little cigarette.

Shen Menghan's eyes gradually became sour.

There were dried blood stains on the couch that could not be wiped off in the future, whether it was his or his cigarette.

He was so rough and direct that day, did he get hurt?

When the boy left, he was cleaner than when he came, even Xiaohua and Zhaoyue Sword were left in the pavilion.

The noisy young man was missing from the hidden pavilion, and finally fell silent.

The Vatican bell rang in bursts.

Break through the morning fog and reach the lake and sea.

The small temple is surrounded by mountains and faces the lake, with a beautiful scenery. Walking through the narrow hallway, the front suddenly opens up.

The long verandahs on both sides of the courtyard house a hundred and eight arhats, some are solemn and solemn, some are glaring, some are lazily closing their eyes, some are very agile.

Ordinary people walk here slowly, feeling awe.

Xie Chenyan didn't care that the mountains and rivers were beautiful, nor did he have eyes full of gods and Buddhas. He walked calmly and walked through the long courtyard in front of the main hall step by step.

White clothes and black hair, handsome and straight; eyes clear, neither sad nor happy.

Whether it's the benevolent old host or Juetan, they all fell in love with him.

The old host murmured: "If you don't have a Buddha heart, then you have deep attachments."

Jue Tan sighed slightly.

The hall is grand.

The corridor is deep.

Nanyan respects Buddha and respects rituals, and this small temple is also extremely elegant and solemn.

Gods and Buddhas,

Xie Chenyan stood there in a daze.

He couldn't get down on his knees.

In his life, he has only kneeled down to that one person.

Among the gods and Buddhas of the heavens, he only wishes to worship one person for a long time.

The Dao is three thousand, he has limited mental strength, and he only wants to practice the fate of that person.

Xie Chenyan woke up like a dream, and said sadly: "Master, I can't fool myself, nor can I fool the Buddha."

Xie Chenyan's tears fell drop by drop on the ground: "I am deeply rooted in love, and I don't want to become a monk."

Jue Tan seemed to have already guessed this result, sighed lightly, put his hand on the top of his head, and said in a warm voice: "Xiao Xie, your heart is like a child, the Buddha is willing to save you."

The majestic inner breath rushed in.

Knocking on the door of the heart that has been locked for a long time, the fragments of old memories roared in.

Take him away from the warm spring in the south of the Yangtze River, and take him back to the cold and cold northern plains.

Xie Chenyan pressed his forehead miserably.

It turned out that the beginning he thought was never the beginning.

Xie Chenyan lowered his body slowly.

It turned out that what he saw was never all.

Xie Chenyan cried bitterly.

He knew why Shen Menghan had to send him away. He had seen 15-year-old Shen Menghan, but he had forgotten.

He had forgotten him once, and he was sure he would forget him again.

He should have understood earlier how he would be willing to be cruel to him, he would only be cruel to himself.

What virtue and ability he has, Shen Menghan can treat him wholeheartedly.

Xie Chenyan: I will go to Suijiacang (Brain Hospital) for some training, and I will be back soon QAQ