sad li bai

Xu Ning curled up under the quilt holding his phone, the curtains in the room were drawn tightly, and the lights in the room were not turned on.It was too dark to see the furnishings of the room.Only the faint moonlight that sneaked in through the gaps in the curtains, and the light from the mobile phone screen illuminated his slightly haggard face. He hadn't had a good rest for several weeks, his face was not good-looking, and he was very tired, but He still insisted on staying up late every day, so that when Fang Hua fell asleep, he could send text messages to An Ling under the covers, or check his inbox again.

He looked at An Ling's phone number displayed in his contacts. He had already firmly remembered this string of numbers, which was more accurate than his own ID number.But it was useless. Ever since An Ling left his dormitory that day, he hadn't called this call again, and he didn't get a reply to his text messages.He never met An Ling again. He pretended to pass by An Ling's class several times, but he could only see his empty seat. He asked Yan Ying on the sidelines, and Yan Ying told him that since An Ling went to take the specialty exam, he would never come back again. I haven't been to class.

So that time, An Ling's visit to his dormitory should be the last time he came to school.In the end, he was also pissed off.He waited for An Ling to call him all night, hoping that An Ling would call him when he saw him put on his clothes.But only at dawn, a text message came.An Ling said, I'll wait for you to think it over.

Xu Ning persisted for more than 100 days and nights relying on this one text message. He couldn't contact An Ling, couldn't find him, and didn't know where he was.He didn't know what An Ling's words meant. He was very flustered when he first saw this text message. He was afraid that An Ling's words meant that if you think about it, we will separate. He wanted to call immediately. He went to ask on the phone, but he didn't dare. He hesitated for a long time. When he finally got up the courage to call, An Ling's phone was turned off, and he couldn't get through.

He doesn't want others to see his strangeness every day, so he goes to class, finishes class, and eats normally.But lying in bed every day, he couldn't help but want to contact An Ling. He would send a message almost every half an hour, hoping that An Ling would reply him when he saw it.

He just finished posting the seventh article tonight. These days, he typed out all the things he didn't dare to say ashamedly, and sent them to An Ling.Tell An Ling how much he misses him, tell An Ling that every time he gets angry it is because he is jealous of those girls, tell him how afraid he is after An Ling is with him, and finds that he still likes girls more.

There are two selves in his heart, one is relentless, fearless and brave to insist on his feelings for An Ling, and the other is uneasy, anxious and worried about all the overheated emotions that may hurt him.Neither of these two selves can replace the other, making him generous and meaningless at times, daring to reveal his love while the other cares about being weak, timid and shrinking, and can't help but get entangled in some small things.

He is the frank and bold Xu Ning now, so he directly and frankly stated that he has always liked An Ling, and he prefers the feeling of being with An Ling. The other party dislikes me for pestering others, so I always restrain myself.He also told An Ling that what he cared most all the time was that An Ling had been refusing to do the most intimate things with him, and told An Ling that he was worried that An Ling didn't want to do it because he was a boy.These words that he would never say normally, these shameless and seductive words, were all uttered on the [-]rd night when An Ling had no news or trace.

After the text message showed that it was successfully sent, he was so shy that he couldn't breathe. In the dark, he could imagine how red his face was, because it was so hot, and the desolation and panic that made him feel wronged and overwhelmed subsided a little.He buried his face in the pillow, and the sound of his heartbeat was so loud that he worried that he would disturb Fang Hua who was already asleep.This kind of nervousness and apprehension didn't decrease at all because An Ling might not be able to see it.

He doesn't regret everything he's done. He wants An Ling to know how much he likes him, how much he can like him without a limit or bottom line. He doesn't want his relationship to end so easily.

When Xu Ning got up in the morning, he stood in front of the mirror to wash his hands. The water that came out of the pipe was icy cold, and he patted his face with his hands to make himself look more energetic.

After Fang Hua finished tidying up, she looked at Xu Ning who was still tidying up at the door, and felt that she should remind Xu Ning.

"These are the most important three models. You must not miss the exam time. I'm leaving first."

Xu Ning heard the sound of the door closing, he dried his hands and took out his phone.Without looking at the interface, he pressed the step that he was already familiar with and could no longer be familiar with. He let out a sigh of relief and looked at the weather outside which was getting warmer. There was already bright sunshine after [-] o'clock in the morning.Shot through the glass windows into the house.

"Sanmo today, I will work hard, and I hope you will too. Besides, I really miss you." He looked down at the outbox that was already full of text messages, and pressed send.

He walked to the door, put on the off-white overcoat, and checked his documents.Just lock the door and go downstairs.The pocket of his coat suddenly vibrated, and he suddenly had an indescribable feeling that he was extremely nervous, and this nervousness did not come from the upcoming exam, but from the vibrating mobile phone in his pocket.

He took it out, didn't dare to look at it, and pressed answer directly.

"Little idiot, I'm downstairs, come down quickly, or hurry up." An Ling's long-lost voice came in an instant, as if nothing had happened before.

Xu Ning didn't know how he could be so calm, he lowered his head and glanced at his attire, suppressing the unreal feeling of dizziness slowly rising in his heart, before speaking.

"Well, I'll go down right away, wait for me."

He was reluctant to press the phone, so he ran downstairs with his mobile phone. The sound of footsteps landing on the stairs seemed to be a melody that had been in his mind for a long time.The echo echoed in the phone, and An Ling didn't hang up the phone. After he realized it, he couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth.He knew that the reason why he was so calm must be that he had been playing this scene in his mind for a long time. He had always firmly believed that An Ling would not leave without saying anything when he made up his mind. It was because of this. , That's why he has been motivated to keep sending messages to An Ling.Always had the confidence to carry on even without a reply.

When Xu Ning rushed to the lobby on the first floor, he immediately saw An Ling standing in front of the dormitory door, wearing a black jacket of the same style as him.Standing there tall, it is particularly conspicuous.He slowed down his pace and looked at An Ling seriously, as if he was carefully examining the treasure he found after he had lost it.After only seeing each other for a few months, An Ling's facial features seemed to have opened up a lot, his brows became clearer and deeper, with affectionate and hidden yearning shining.His mouth was tightly pressed together, looking a little serious, staring at Xu Ning who was getting closer.

When Xu Ning finally walked in front of him, he stretched out his hand and pulled Xu Ning into his arms, hugging him tightly.It was only then that Xu Ning realized that An Ling seemed to be even taller. He leaned on An Ling, stretched out his arms and hugged An Ling's waist tightly. He felt that An Ling seemed to be thinner, but the muscles on his waist were even stronger. Firm and powerful.

"I read the text messages you sent me. I really don't know there are people with thicker skins than me who talk about love." An Ling lowered his head slightly, and his voice hit Xu Ning's side face and earlobe. superior.There was a blushing patch, he couldn't help but put his lips on it, Xu Ning's body shook in his arms.Looking at the slightly trembling ear tips, his heart felt weak and hot, and he couldn't help but tighten his arms around Xu Ning.

"You showed me all your cards, aren't you afraid that I will treat you badly if I know you like me so much?" An Ling pulled Xu Ning's shoulder away, looked at him and asked.

"But, yes, I really, really like you." Xu Ning couldn't help but want to lean into An Ling's arms again, he missed this embrace so much, he couldn't help but lean forward again.

An Ling looked at Xu Ning like a cute puppy crawling on his master's body, which was very cute.He pulled Xu Ning back and let him return to his arms as he wished.

"Xu Ning, I'll give you a present later, you must like it." An Ling kissed Xu Ning's hair.

"I don't care for gifts, I just like you." Xu Ning pressed his face on An Ling's shoulder, his voice was muffled, and he couldn't hear the words clearly.But after An Ling heard clearly, he couldn't help laughing.He patted Xu Ning on the shoulder.

"The exam will be in a while. After the exam, you can do whatever you want with me. Let's go, I'm going to be late." An Ling dragged Xu Ning's arm to the exam room. There was no one downstairs in the dormitory. Pulling Xu Ning to run.Xu Ning stood there blankly, he looked back at him helplessly, but saw Xu Ning looking at him with bright eyes, like a child who got some great gift.

"Is everything okay?" He eagerly grabbed An Ling's arm and asked again.

"Well, it's all up to you." An Ling couldn't help but smile at him helplessly, his eyes were full of deep doting, I don't know if he noticed it himself.

When the two walked to the entrance of the examination room, most of the students had already lined up to be checked by the teacher before entering the examination room.An Ling saw that Xu Ning was like a little fool. Even though the teacher slid on him with the instrument, he still twisted his body and turned his head, looking at his figure walking in the opposite direction.Those eyes were so hot that even after An Ling turned around, he could still feel the eyes on his back.

He walked towards his examination room more resolutely. He endured so many trials and sufferings in that hell-like review class, just to give Xu Ning a peace of mind and a future that he could count on, so absolutely, absolutely, no Let Xu Ning look at him with red eyes again.Say something to him that makes both of you sad.

He knew that he would never find another person who made him so tempted and distressed like Xu Ning.