Been a child star for many years

Chapter 18 Jingfeng is very good, Chang Ming, come on.

Different from the enthusiasm of other colleagues, Chang Ming is a little apprehensive about the upcoming company annual meeting.If this was the past, he would just sign up to eat, drink, and play by himself, and he never won any big prizes when his character exploded.But the annual meeting of their magazine is held together with the group, that is to say, Fang Yun, as the writer signed this year, will definitely come.

After New Year's Day, Fang Yun did not contact Chang Ming again.But Chang Ming didn't have the courage to contact her.However, the two of them can't just break up with each other for no reason.Chang Ming looked at the water-stained mirror in the company bathroom to cheer himself up, no matter what, he had to make it clear to his young lady.

"Let me tell you, you can't shrink back all the time. You can't let it go so vaguely. You can't do nothing." Chang Ming pointed at himself in the mirror and spoke righteously, then took a deep breath of the air in the toilet , raised his fist and roared, "You are mighty and majestic, you resounding man!"

As a person who has taken muddling along as his adult life creed for many years, when he made this determination, Chang Ming quietly felt that he should still be saved.

Fang Yun came relatively late, and Chang Ming sneaked around the crowd for a long time before seeing him enter the arena with an editor from Group Publishing when the lottery draw was about to start.Fang Yun was wearing a long white dress, smiling and chatting with the people around her, looking pretty good.

Just as Chang Ming was about to simply walk over to find her, the lottery began. Colleagues from the magazine swarmed forward, and someone pulled Chang Ming to the front.Chang Ming casually touched a ball absently, and glanced out of the corner of his eye to see where Fang Yun had gone.Unexpectedly, as soon as the ball was opened, I actually won a prize, a tablet computer.The people next to him booed so loudly that Fang Yun also took a look here.

Looking far away, Fang Yun smiled and turned back to talk to others.Chang Ming sighed inwardly, and casually gave the prize to an intern who was still in his senior year, then hurried out of the crowd and walked towards Fang Yun.

"Sister." Chang Ming greeted, not knowing how to move his hands and feet for a while.

Fang Yun said: "You are lucky, I have never won a lottery before."

Chang Ming laughed twice, and the editor who entered the venue with Fang Yun politely said hello.Fang Yun introduced: "This is Chang Ming, my brother. This is President Qin of the publishing house."

After saying hello, Chang Ming scratched his hair uncomfortably, and Mr. Qin found an excuse to go to the other side, leaving only Chang Ming and Fang Yun standing together.

Fang Yun looked at Chang Ming's bewildered look, finally shook her head, and patted Chang Ming's shoulder: "Okay, let's go, let's go out and talk if we have anything to say."

There is a coffee shop on the second floor of the hotel.They found a seat by the window, and each ordered a drink. When the coffee was served, Chang Ming hadn't organized his speech yet.

Fang Yun recalled that she seemed to have seen many times when Chang Ming struggled.This person is clueless and can't speak, and Fang Yun can't bear it every time to help him start.

Chang Ming, it's up to you to speak this time.Fang Yun thought to herself, picked up her coffee, and looked out the window.

Leaving the banquet hall, the surroundings became quiet.As they got closer, Chang Ming realized that Fang Yun's complexion was actually not very good under the cover of make-up.He took a deep breath and finally asked.

"Sister," he said, "you really like Jingfeng, don't you?"

Fang Yun put down the cup, her expression was very calm: "Yes."

Chang Ming looked at her, opened his mouth, and stopped talking.

"Don't be embarrassed." Fang Yun said, "Really, Chang Ming, just say what you want, it's time for you to mature."

Chang Ming lowered his head: "I'm sorry."

Fang Yun rolled her eyes, a little resentful: "It's so old-fashioned, do you know this sentence?"

Seeing that Chang Ming was too guilty to lift his head, Fang Yun ruffled his hair across the table, and spoke up by himself.

"You have nothing to apologize to me. I have some thoughts about you, but I'm also to blame. I knew you were pissed, so I didn't explain it to you earlier. In the past, I thought you were still young, and pretended to be confused. Then It's okay if my sister spoils you once. But later," Fang Yun leaned back in the chair with a bitter smile, "Chang Ming, you don't even know how energetic you are when you talk about Jingfeng."

Chang Ming listened dully.

"The eyes are always bent, and even complaining is with a smile." Fang Yun murmured as if reminiscing, "I just realized that maybe you are not pretending to be confused, you are really confused. But, I don't know." I'm too sure you like men. So I'll give it a try."

She paused for a while, and then said: "I'm to blame for this, I shouldn't have lied to you to chase after Jingfeng. I'm just, a little bit unwilling. I just wanted to see if I guessed wrong. I wanted to make it clear to you that day Yes, I met Jingfeng in the end. Sigh, you two are so choked that I don't want to say a word to you."

"...I'm sorry." Chang Ming still only had this sentence.

"It's fine, you. I'm sorry, anyway, I took advantage of you that day, and you paid it off."

You see, in the end, Fang Yun had to explain the matter to herself in a few words, while Chang Ming couldn't say anything except "I'm sorry".

He has always despised himself for being cowardly, but never like this moment, he almost hated himself viciously.

After the coffee was finished, Fang Yun stood up with her jacket in her arms, and naturally smoothed out Chang Ming's messy hair.She smiled and said, "Chang Ming, let's forget about it, and I will be your sister from now on." Fang Yun was about to leave, but after thinking about it, she turned around and said, "By the way, how are you and Jing Feng doing? "

Chang Ming was embarrassed: "He..."

As soon as Fang Yun saw his face, she was happy: "It's easy to screw up when you look like this. Don't do it, he is smarter than you. I asked him out for dinner at Christmas, and the question made me speechless as soon as I opened my mouth." Sigh, it’s embarrassing to lose to a little boy, but,” she bent down and said seriously, “Jingfeng is very good, Chang Ming, come on.”

The young lady left, but Chang Ming was still sitting there dizzy, the coffee was already cold.The phone rang several times before he reacted to pick it up. It was a colleague from the magazine who said he was going to play a group game and asked where he was.Chang Ming didn't even understand what he said, so he agreed, and then walked upstairs stupidly.

Back in the banquet hall, I saw Fang Yun again, sitting on the sofa in the corner, as if talking to someone else.They greeted each other from a distance, one looked down at the documents again, and the other walked towards the shouting crowd.

Chang Ming didn't drive today, so he drank freely.But there were too many girls in the department, so there wasn't a lot of drinking, and in the end I got a little drunk.At the end, a group of people swarmed out and waited for a long time at the intersection of the street. The cars that were finally stopped were given to the girls first, and the elders shivered in the cold wind.Chang Ming felt that the wind was blowing quite comfortably, so he went for a walk by himself to a place where it was convenient to take a taxi.

He couldn't tell how he felt.Generally speaking, he is gay, has no father and no mother, and his only relative has long expressed his support for him, and he is outrageously free in love.But he is not brave at all. Over the years, he has had a crush on several people, but he often dies because of a little distance from others, and dare not take a step forward.He is often afraid of being friends with others, or he does not like any relationship that may break down.If he likes someone, then he likes it. If he is found out, it's basically over.

What about Jingfeng, what about Jingfeng.

I like it very hard.

Chang Ming is not very good at expressing feelings.He was a little unclear whether he was better to Jing Chun because of Jing Feng, or whether he was better to Jing Feng because of Jing Chun.But one thing is undeniable, he has never thought about, read about, or entangled anyone in this way.

The young lady said that Jingfeng had already seen it.Also, he is such a smart person.

Jingfeng also kissed him.On the cold balcony.

After the kiss, Chang Ming ran away in despair, and Jing Feng suddenly became polite and alienated.

Chang Ming thought about it as a young girl, could it be that he regretted it?

After thinking about a lot of things in a mess, Chang Ming finally felt cold.Now he had walked a long way, touched his frozen nose, stopped a car, and rubbed his hands in a trance in the heater of the car.

The driver didn't chat with him either, he just hummed along to the music played on the radio, enjoying himself.When they arrived at the place, they happily collected the money, put Chang Ming in the car and left in a hurry.

Returning to the cold air for a while, Chang Ming regained consciousness a bit, looked up in a daze, and said, damn it, this is Jingfeng's community.

Chang Ming stared dumbfounded at the familiar door in front of him, and thought, "Is the young master so demented that he can even confuse his own address?"

He raised his foot and wanted to chase the taxi just now, but the master had already disappeared while humming a little tune.

Chang Ming looked listlessly at the road at the gate, there were so few taxis in this area, and he didn't wait for one for a long time.In the end, the guard couldn't stand it any longer. He paced out with a large teacup in his arms, and asked, "Don't you go in? It's so late." up.

Chang Ming chuckled and chatted with the uncle.Not long after, the uncle's tea was cold, and he was holding ice hands, and wanted to go back to make a new one, and urged Chang Ming: "Hurry up, young people can't stand the cold."

Chang Ming nodded and watched the uncle enter the guard booth, leaving him standing alone in the cold wind.There was still no empty car passing by, Chang Ming was so discouraged, he gritted his teeth and stomped his feet, turned around and ran into the community.

The old man was holding the re-brewed tea and was planning to come out to chat with Chang Ming again, when he saw the young man blowing past the door like a gust of wind, rushing towards the corridor in a hurry.

"These young people can really make a fuss." The uncle shook his head, closed the door and went back.