Quan Zhilong, I clearly loved you for so long

After Li Zhongshuo left, Song Li flipped through a few pages of comics. She didn't know if it was because they were all in Korean or because she didn't like to read comics, so she felt a little incomprehensible.I am used to the crowds in coffee shops and the smell of coffee every day. Looking at the empty room alone, I feel my heart is empty.

Song Li turned on the phone, [SIM card confirmed to be used] The light-white slender fingers hesitated for a long time and clicked to confirm, searched for the signal, and the phone started to vibrate after a while.

[18 new messages, please confirm], the last time I saw this number was the day when I heard about Quan Zhilong's scandal, and so many were posted so soon?

[I'm so tired today, I haven't slept for about [-] hours, no matter how hard I try, there will always be people who hate BIGBANG]

【I’m on the plane every day, from here to there, I’m so tired that I’m about to fall asleep and I still have to smile when I see the fans】

【Flying to Beijing tonight, so close to you, so excited!By the way, Shunhao told me to stop smoking just now, should I quit smoking? 】

【I'm in Beijing, your city.I saw a girl just now, like you. It's been eight years, you should be less reckless, otherwise how would you take care of yourself. 】

【is it you?Even if you don't see me, let me know it's you! 】

【I had an argument with them just now, and was scolded by Yong Pei.Has he changed?How dare you yell at me before, how about you?Eight years, has it changed? 】

Song Li flipped through the numbers one by one, and she was still reluctant to change this number in the past eight years.When she couldn't hear the voice clearly at the beginning, she was very scared and lonely. At that time, she was so afraid that she would never hear his voice again.Every day, she could only fall asleep when she received his messages. During that time, Song Li only did two things.

In addition to cooperating with the treatment, he kept flipping through his phone, reading messages one by one, as if he was still by his side.It's not that he didn't want to reply, Quan Zhilong said that he hadn't eaten or slept for two whole days, and his stomach hurt like there was a blender in it.

At that time, Song Li really wanted to be by his side and make his favorite fried rice for him to eat, but she gave up halfway through typing. Since she didn't plan to continue, she couldn't give him hope.But she was still stupid enough to make an international long-distance call to order him food, but after getting through, she didn't know where to send it.

[Share a link for you to view, please click WHH.kryinyue.cn] Song Li was about to turn off her phone, but a new message came in. Quan Zhilong sent her a link?

Probably because it was too boring, Song Li couldn't help but click on it. It was a music dome, but it was very short, less than 1 minute.

It’s not so much a demo, it’s better to say it’s Quan Zhilong’s impromptu performance. The background sound is a clean acoustic guitar sound. Compared with eight years ago, his voice seems to have not changed, and it seems to be more attractive. His voice slowly ringing in the ears.

"When I'm exhausted, when I occasionally fall, girl.you.always.pick.me.up, like now you're by my side, still by my side as usual..." And then suddenly It's so quiet, Song Li has been listening silently.

Until the last sentence "puguxipoda (missing you)" was finished and the audio was played, Song Li smiled, but felt that her face was wet. In the past eight years, she hadn't paid attention to him at all.

On May 2013th, 5, when Quan Zhilong was on tour in Beijing, Song Li went there alone.Even today no one knows that she has been to his concert, and that night she understood that they were too far apart.

It had been five years since we saw each other at that time, and Song Li was so nervous that her stomach hurt from the moment she entered the stage. The moment she heard his voice, Song Li felt like her heart was about to jump out of her chest.Although she was in the infield, she was far away. She was afraid of seeing him, but she couldn't help but look at his face. Unlike five years ago, he became more confident.

He was smiling at the fans in the audience, yelling "I love you all" in Korean, and occasionally glanced at her position.Everyone around was screaming, but Song Li stood there like a wooden man.Looking at Quan Zhilong on the stage, she suddenly couldn't help but want to find him, but stopped after pushing away the few people in front of her.

They were so far apart, and so many, so many people in between told her they were different.He is a star, the flash lights on the stage are all focused on him, and everyone in the audience is screaming for him, he is the king on the stage!

As for herself, she was so inconspicuous among the tens of thousands of spectators. Song Li, who was standing in the crowd at that moment, felt so insignificant, and she came out of the concert before the concert was over.

If you walked past Wukesong subway station that night, you would definitely see a girl squatting on the ground and crying loudly, as if she had been abandoned by the whole world, mixed with the looming music in the venue, her crying So heart-wrenching and heart-wrenching.

After wiping away her tears, she stood up again and continued to walk forward. For so many years, no one knew that Song Li had been thinking about him so many nights that she couldn't sleep.You see, in this world of mountains and rivers, we still have to go on alone, no matter how difficult it is, no one can accompany you.