gray love

"Hao Hao, wake up, wake up quickly."

I opened my eyes, and two familiar figures appeared dimly in front of my eyes. I blinked vigorously to see the surroundings clearly.

"Dad, Mom, you guys..." I suddenly felt something was wrong. My parents in front of me were ten years younger, and the place I was in was actually a temporary shelter when I fled around when I was seven years old.My brain was buzzing, my heart was clumsy, and the feeling of palpitations came from my back. I saw my father carefully lifted the curtain a crack and peeked out cautiously.

"Mom..." I sat up from the crumbling bed with trembling lips, "We..."

"Shhh" my mother signaled me not to speak, sat next to me, stretched out a hand to stroke my hair, "Haohao, take good care of yourself."

I looked at my mother's crystal clear teardrops, and there were bursts of pain in my abdominal cavity.

"They're gone, we're safe." Dad was limp on the ground, beads of sweat glistening in the sunlight through the cracks in the poor-quality curtains, and my mother hugged me, and the atmosphere temporarily relaxed.

"Bang!" With a loud noise, the door was kicked open by someone outside.

A black pistol @gun stretched out from outside the collapsed door, and Dad quickly rushed to our side, opening his arms to protect us.

A group of people squeezed in. In the dark room, I couldn't see their faces clearly. The leader raised his @gun and walked over slowly.

"Please... please let them go!" Dad begged, beads of sweat slid down his forehead.

"Boom! Boom!" Two gunshots sounded, I opened my eyes wide in horror, blood scattered all over my face and body, I looked at my parents lying in a pool of blood, the back of their heads seemed to be blown by a steel pipe, I supported them The head drank blood and wailed heartbrokenly.

The [-]-square-meter room was filled with the smell of blood, which came from my parents' blood.

I opened my red eyes, staring at the hatred in front of me, stood up and rushed towards them.

He slammed the barrel of the gun into my mouth, my tears hit the floor, I was forced to retreat by him, and in the sunlight filtering through the poor-quality curtains, I finally saw his face clearly - a creepy scene pale.

"Boom!" I saw my plasma splashed on his white paper face.

The bullet shot from the back of my head, the skull lifted, and the brains bloomed peacefully like roses on the floor...

Tonight, there was a thunderstorm, I walked out of the bedroom, the power went out, I reluctantly turned off the light switch, but luckily the lightning could illuminate the room, I comforted myself and groped for a glass of water, the hand holding the glass was trembling , finally the glass slipped from between my fingers and burst on the floor.I spread out on the sofa in despair, fine beads of sweat emerged from my forehead.

A hand rested on my shoulder, and I shuddered with horror, adrenaline nearly choking my throat.

"Huihao, what's wrong with you?" Xiao's voice touched my crazy heart.

She walked to me and sat down, her face was smudged pale by lightning.She raised her hand to wipe the sweat from my forehead: "Are you afraid of thunder?"

My dilated pupils were still open, my expression horrified.

She took my trembling hand and said softly, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

This sentence woke me up, and I slowly said in a hoarse voice: "In a few days, during the winter vacation, they will send me to the special forces training camp in Hainan."

Lightning once again turned our faces pale, and accompanied by deafening thunder, Xiao also trembled. It turned out that she was the one who was most afraid of thunder.

"Eighteen days of training, I want to live like a real special soldier. They won't come back in [-], and I won't come back. I really don't understand why they have to train me again and again, but I seem to understand." I looked up at the flickering ceiling, "Maybe they also had a premonition that I would be shot off my skull like in a dream."

Xiao didn't speak, maybe she was startled by my words.

"If it was before, I really wouldn't be afraid of death, but now," I turned to look at her, "I can't bear you."

Lightning came again without warning, illuminating the scattered glass stubble and the two choked up in the house.

I came to Hainan and wandered alone in this strange island city. No one picked me up. I found the special forces training camp with the help of the map positioning software in my mobile phone that was about to die.I thought that many children from rich families would come here to train, but when I saw the instructors, I realized that the training camp for this year's winter vacation had been arranged by my parents, so I was the only one who trained here during the [-] days.

My mobile phone was confiscated before I entered the gate of the training camp. Later, after some thought work for me, they also confiscated my ID and wallet. I have no complaints. I know that I have entered It's like entering a high wall here, and I'm ready to spend more than two weeks in prison.

Before I had a short rest, they called me to a meeting and gave me a training form, and I was called away by the instructor before I finished reading it.

The first class started like this, absurdly asked me to learn to drive, gave me an afternoon to learn, and I was able to drive five kilometers alone, I was dumbfounded, I adjusted all my potential to the maximum , and finally learned to bite the bullet at the end, and drove five kilometers smoothly, and then they let me run back alone.

I almost died of exhaustion on the bed, and I began to miss Xiao until tears flowed, and I fell asleep without any strength.

Painful training, painful actual combat training, and painful survival drills. Although my training is far from that of real special forces, such overloaded training day after day has resulted in physical rejection for several days in a row, especially It's almost New Year's Eve.

Tactical drills, shooting, swimming, formation, boxing fighting, Sanda, Qigong, capture boxing, dagger, one move to control the enemy. I have to learn everything I can learn. He also personally took me to the wilderness hillside to teach me the skills of survival in the wild. Apart from sleeping, I hardly have any time to arrange for myself.The sun in Hainan can burn people's skin even in this winter, but every afternoon at 01:30, I have to hold the AK47 flat under the sun, with a brick hanging from the muzzle of the gun, without moving. 2 Hours, of course, rain or shine.Before I go to bed, I have to fight with the instructor, and I can’t go to sleep until I am satisfied with my moves. Sometimes when I am asleep, he suddenly wakes me up with a whistle, and I run five kilometers in the night with weight, and then come back sleep.

I suddenly felt how stupid the military-themed dramas on TV are. The hero and heroine there are always energetic and full of positive energy, but only those who have actually been to the military camp can understand that some things are not based on spirit In order to be able to persevere, what really makes you persevere is the idea of ​​"I must do well, so as not to be punished endlessly".

On the tenth day, the day before the new year, I performed a Chinese-style triathlon. I originally discussed simplifying the three items in the triathlon, but the instructor refused. He patted me on the shoulder and said to them: "This kid It's no different from a man, except for swimming, other things are not allowed to be simplified, she can do it!"

This sentence made me miserable.

So I wore a military uniform and had to run 2000 meters, swim 1000 meters, and ride a bicycle 2000 meters within the specified time.

On that day, I completed all the special forces iron man training items completely, but the time was a bit too long. After a few words of training from the coach, I still got a lot of praise.

Also on that day, I became a deserter.

At night, I couldn't stand the deep-seated love for Xiao, so I secretly escaped from the training camp over the wall.I kept running forward, kept running, with the money I had secretly hidden in my pocket, and I ran forward desperately according to the escape route I had planned long ago.

Until I came across the closest phone booth to the military.I wiped the sweat from my eyes, stripped off my soaked t-shirt and put on a tank top to dial the number I couldn't forget unless my brain was removed.

At [-]:[-], maybe she is already asleep, maybe she is still immersed in the hustle and bustle of the Spring Festival Gala, but I can't wait for tomorrow, I miss her so much, I miss her crazily.

She got through, but no one spoke.

"Hello, teacher." My voice was hoarse. It turned out that after living like a man, even my voice became masculine.

"Hui Hao!" She finally spoke, her voice excited and surprised.

"It's me, teacher." I almost cried out, leaning against the phone booth weakly.

"I heard from your dad that your mobile phone was confiscated, why did you call me?" she said.

It turned out that when she couldn't contact me, she found my dad and asked me about my situation. She suddenly felt sore. In this strange place, I finally smelled the long-lost touch. Thank you, remember me.

"Teacher," I leaned my head on the phone booth, "the Chinese New Year will be in 6 minutes."

There was no answer on the phone, and she said in a slightly nasal voice after a while, "Yes, it's the new year."

"Teacher, I miss you." My tears flowed down my eyelids silently, when I said "I miss you".

"When I came here, I realized... I can't live without you, just like I can't live without them, my parents." Her voice and smile appeared in front of my eyes, "Before I met you, I tried my best to stay by their side, but I didn't succeed, now that I have you, I still want to try my best to keep you by my side, but!"

I looked forward in confusion, the deserted street, the redness of the world, my eyes were full of tears, I touched the boiling point of sadness, I gritted my teeth lightly, biting my sorrow, my depression, my fall: "Suddenly I am no longer afraid that you will leave me, I am afraid... that I will leave you."

Her voice choked, on the other end of the phone.

"My love for you has never been a child. From the beginning to now, I love you. I have never doubted it. I wish you were not my teacher. You are just a passerby. We just happened to look back at the moment. Meet, you smile at me, I smile at you, I fell in love with you, a you who is five years older than me, maybe you will fall in love with me too, but...you are my teacher, you must abide by your teacher De, you have to avoid other people's eyes, I understand, I understand. But... It's ridiculous to say that it's me who turned you into my teacher..."

"Hao..."

"I hate it too, I hate why I'm not a man, so that you can't...accept me, not all people are crooked, I should understand from the beginning, I'm going this way, I shouldn't pull My beloved is leaving too, but, but I just can't forget you, I just can't see you alone, I just can't see that the ones who accompany you are always tears, I just want to keep you by my side, I just want to be right Hello, I just want to love you! I’m addicted like a drug! I can’t get rid of it. I once wanted to give up on you, forcing myself to take a cold shower in winter, forcing myself to swallow glass slag, and forcing myself to drive to more than 400 Rushing down the cliff, but...I still can't forget you, but...you are still in front of my eyes, but...I still love you endlessly...Xiao, what should I do, who will save me? I beg you to tell me, Who will save me?"

The sound of crackling firecrackers rang through the phone, and the town opposite also responded with the New Year's celebration.

"New Year's Eve, Happy New Year." I wiped away my tears, suppressed my sobbing, and was about to stand up.

"I love you." Her vague voice came from the receiver.

I froze there, my body was stiff, the sound of firecrackers covered up the words that I will wait until I die, I put the phone close to my ear, suddenly the beeping phone showed a busy tone, it turned out that the balance was insufficient, the phone was automatically cut off, I went crazy She put all the money in her pocket into it and dialed her cell phone again.

"Hey."

"What did you say just now, say it again, I didn't hear clearly!" My voice was so loud that my fingers holding the phone turned white.

The sound of firecrackers is still going on recklessly, and the smell of gunpowder wrapped in the New Year has caused a sensation in the entire northern hemisphere.

"I say--"

My eardrums vibrated, the pinna pressed tightly against the earpiece, and my straight eyes trembled.

"I love you."