gray love

The show was an unprecedented success. For this reason, the principal went to the backstage to talk to us in person after the show. I didn’t like this, and after a few pleasantries, I found an excuse and walked away.

I ran to the auditorium, except for the students, there were only a few teachers who were still there, and there was no Xiao among these teachers. I saw Teacher Wang who was in the same office as Xiao, and I ran over to ask her where she went, but then The dialogue made me feel like I was hit by a bolt from the blue.

"Teacher Yu, I left before the end of the performance. Where to go... I don't know very well."

"Isn't the show over?" I prayed that she left after watching my show, "Then...before or after my show..."

"Before, you were not on stage at that time." Teacher Wang smiled.

I took a step back, not knowing what mood and expression I was in.

"Huihao?" Teacher Wang called me when he saw my expression was wrong.

I turned around and ran out of the lecture hall. I didn't know who I bumped into or knocked down. My brain was like an empty shell on my neck, and thousands of questions crawled like ants in my heart.

"She must have something urgent, otherwise, it's impossible to break her promise." I muttered like a madman.

The hallway on the third floor was empty, the office she was in had a light on, she must be in there, I walked through the hallway where I could even count how many steps, how many classrooms I could pass to get to her office, I stepped through the darkness, I got over the torment and stopped at the door of her office.

In the next second, Xiao, if you are here, I hope that is a reasonable reason for my absence to perform for you.

but…

My gaze passed through the open door, through the quiet water dispenser, through the neat homework, through the pen in the pen holder, through the crossed test paper, and it was fixed on her and the other. on men...

Cardiac arrest, I felt it, the backflow of blood, the flood in my chest, there was no color in front of my eyes, the gray and white annihilated all the colors.

She was packing her bag carefully, and stuffed a large stack of test papers into the bag as usual. The man stood aside and looked at her affectionately.

I lost consciousness and blinked vigorously, trying to restore my color vision, but...it was still gray and white.

The man saw me and said, "Hey, who are you looking for, classmate?"

Yu Xiao raised her head abruptly, and the moment her eyes met mine, I saw panic in her eyes.

"Hui..."

I ran away without hearing her cry.

Escape, escape from all this, escape from you, escape from the color I long for day and night, the color you can't give, the color you can't give!

I was trapped in the gray and white grid, holding my bloody heart, you came, glanced at me, I tried my best to peel my heart to you, layer by layer, blood vessels, blood and flesh It fell down, but I peeled it with forgetfulness, look at it!My heart, my heart is all about you, can you see it?The blood stained my hands, sleeves and shoes red, but in my eyes it was just gray, big chunks of gray, but after you glanced at it, you collapsed proudly.

You broke through and didn't look back.

Without looking back, I picked up my fallen flesh and put it together again, waiting for the next peeling...

It's raining, I raised my face, why is the night sky so blurry, big raindrops hit my face, no, it seems... no raindrops, my clothes, the backs of my hands and my shoes are still so dry, so...that's not rain.

That's tears.

I cried?Hehehe...

The corner of my mouth is crooked, I don't have any strength to move my facial muscles, I can't laugh, but... how dare I cry?

I'm afraid to cry, I'm afraid to show my inner fragility and fear to the fullest, but I'm crying so hard now, I'm obviously crying for her brazenly!

There is the sound of the piano, I propped up my ears, and listened hard, what a beautiful piece, who is it?Who is playing the piano?

I followed the sound and walked to the piano room. The sound of the piano came from the piano room, but the piano room was completely dark.

Haunted again?I smiled sarcastically, without stopping, pushed the door in, and turned on the light.

Beside the elegant piano, a person as elegant as it was sitting. I was shocked and stared at Chu Mo, who was full of tears.

At the end of the song, she finished and stared blankly at the piano in front of her.

"This is my father's piano," she said, her voice echoing through the house.

"When I came here two years ago, it was already deserted. There was no human breath, only lifeless dust and disgusting air." Her eyes were empty, and she didn't know where she had traveled to at this time.

"I made a song here, and later..." She raised her head and smiled wryly, tears flickering in the light, "I was defiled."

"Is that the one who stole your work?" I said softly.

She didn't answer, and said to herself: "It's this song, and some people have a good future because of it, hehe..."

She smiled bewilderedly, and I looked at her with pity. She stood up suddenly, and the piano made a harsh noise: "And me! Me! I even lost the only thought of him, I What face is there to face him! Face myself!"

She was almost roaring, her face was red, veins were beating on her forehead, and her hair was showing her teeth and claws in her collapsed movements. I walked up to her and hugged her in a gentlemanly manner to stabilize her emotions.

She was sobbing in my arms, and my eyes were red, looking at the ground blankly.

"Chu Mo, sister, you should go back to school." I whispered in her ear.

She got up from my arms, and I handed her the paper. She wiped away her tears, thought for a while, and nodded solemnly.

"Before, I was thinking about that man. I thought that if I broke my heart and chose to leave, he would reform himself, but... I was so stupid. I was too innocent at that time."

I nodded.

"I want to go back," she stared with firm eyes, "I want to use my strength to earn back everything."

"Well, sister, and me, you are not struggling alone." I smiled at her, a smile from friendship.

"Thank you, Hui Hao, if you hadn't brought me to your school today, I might not have the courage to step here in my life, and I might still be living in decadence."

I smiled and said, "If you don't come, maybe the haunted incident in our school will really become an eternal mystery."

"What?" She looked at me in surprise.

I smiled and said nothing, suddenly remembered something and said, "Is uncle's name...Chu Mingjun?"

"Yeah, how do you know?"

I smiled wryly, thinking of Xiao, she had misheard the music teacher's name and thought it was Zhu, alas!It's all this time, and I still think about her.

The phone rang suddenly, and I took it out to see, it was her, Xiao.

I pressed the hang up button without hesitation, Chu Mo looked at me and said nothing, the bell rang again, I took out my phone and turned around and threw it out the door.

"What's wrong with you? Who's calling?" Chu Mo asked cautiously.

I lowered my eyes and didn't speak.

"Is it your teacher?"

I remained silent, and my eyes returned to their emptiness.

"Do you like her?"

I looked up at her and said in surprise, "How do you know?"

She pulled the corner of her mouth: "I know everything about you."

I also laughed, and laughed so teasingly: "I think of a song, the lyrics say 'I love you, you love her, she loves her, she loves him'."

She also smiled and said, "It's Hebe Tien's "Love""

"Yeah." We cried and laughed together like crazy

She sat down by the piano and played and sang this song. I followed the music and shed tears.

i love you you love her

she loves her she loves him

you love me i love him

he loves him he loves her

Hey, what is this world

no one is in love

what in this world

everyone is unhappy

what in this world

everyone loves someone else

don't love yourself

"Does she know you love her?"

Leaving the piano room and school, we walked on the crowded street.

"I don't know." I let out a cold breath and looked at the surging crowd.

"But tonight, she should have known..." My soul pulled away from my eyes, hung above my head, and looked at me.

"Do you know I love you?" She looked up at her floating soul.

"Yes," I said, "but... sorry..."

"Don't say I'm sorry..." She smiled wryly, "No one is right or wrong..."

"Then...good luck," I said.

"Good luck to you too," she said.

Sleepless all night, I watched the ticking of the clock with my eyes open, counting silently in my mouth.

There was nothing I could do to get me to sleep, it was such a desperate feeling, so desperate that I thought I was going to die from not being able to sleep.

I got up from the bed, walked to the bathroom, and took a cold shower. The thin pajamas were poured with cold water, my muscles contracted, and my brain curled up like a poisonous sting. I temporarily forgot about her. This kind of pleasure Made me addicted like a drug, I raised my head, let the cold water hit my face, I started to shake, but... as long as I can forget her, anything will do.

After rushing for a long time, I almost lost consciousness. I turned off the switch with trembling hands, opened the door, and walked out of the bathroom tremblingly. Finally, I couldn't stand up and fell to the floor with a "boom" without feeling any pain. , I coughed, huddled together, gasped for breath, spit out water, big drops of water dripped down from my hair, but I could temporarily remove her from every cell in me, this feeling As happy as recovering from a serious illness...

"Can you fall asleep?" I asked myself in a hoarse voice, but no one answered, I only knew that my eyes were still open.

She came again, I tried my best to get up, walked to the floor-to-ceiling windows, opened all the windows for ventilation, the cold outside broke in through the windows, I stood and lay on the vent...

I am asleep.

It’s so warm, I opened my eyes, the warm sunlight passed through the window and shone on my face, I was lying on the bed, covered with a thick duvet, the room was blowing warm, and fried eggs and bacon were still lingering on the tip of my nose the taste of.

"Get up."

The sound was so familiar, I got up suddenly, the pajamas were sticking to my body warmly, I looked at Xiao standing in front of the bed in surprise.

"Big lazy pig, the sun is drying your butt and you're still lying in bed." She walked to the window and closed the open ventilation window.

"And you forgot to close the window, you're going to die."

I looked at her in astonishment.

She turned around and looked at me reproachfully: "What are you looking at, get up quickly, breakfast is ready."

After she finished speaking, she walked out, and I got up, put on my slippers, and followed her out of the bedroom.

The tangy aroma of the rice aroused my greed, and I stared at the sumptuous breakfast on the table, dumbfounded.

Xiao came out of the kitchen with a plate of omelets filled with love. Seeing me in a daze, she pretended to be angry and reprimanded: "What are you doing in a daze, go wash up and eat, it will be cold later."

I was a little flattered and said: "This... these are all prepared for me?"

"Nonsense," she glared at me, and I smiled happily. This scene, the scene I've been dreaming about day and night, finally came true.

I was so excited that I almost shed tears, and I was stupidly at a loss.

"Of course not." She said suddenly and seriously, "And he..."

A man came from nowhere and put his arms around Xiao's waist. Xiao looked at him happily and took his hand to act like a baby.

I was stunned, I lost, even in my dream.

I opened my eyes, looked at the dark blue sky, looked at the curtains fluttering in the wind, I sat up, my pajamas hair was frozen, my fingers were numb, I went to the bathroom with all my strength, turned on the hot water , slowly regained his consciousness.

On December 12st, 31 hours before the new year, I dragged my weak body and walked in the corridor. A group of girls asked me for my contact information. I explained with a smile that I didn’t have a mobile phone. Contact information.

Xiao came from the opposite side, I saw her, she also saw me, I wanted to pretend not to see, but her eyes kept on me, so I just smiled at her and said hoarsely: "Hello, teacher. "

I gave a half-bow, and she suddenly covered my forehead with her cold fingers. Why are her hands always so cold?

"Do you have a fever?" She said eagerly, "I saw your complexion in class just now."

The girls around me dispersed when they saw the teacher coming.I nodded respectfully to her, thanked her for her concern, and walked past her without saying anything.

"I'll take you to the hospital." She took my arm and said anxiously, "Your head is so hot, your face is yellow, and your eyes are red..."

"I'm fine," I turned my head slightly, "what kind of illness is a fever?"

My illness is thousands of times more painful than a fever and cold, but which hospital can cure me?

I broke free from her hand and walked forward alone.

At noon, I supported my sore body to eat, and I felt as if my abdominal cavity was empty after I took two bites. I tried my best to look at the chaotic crowd, but I couldn’t open my heavy eyelids, so I lay down I closed my eyes on my arm and lost consciousness.

I slept for a long time, and I had many, many dreams. I dreamed that when I was a child, I dreamed of the small courtyard buried under high-rise buildings, and dreamed of the toon tree that was sawed in half and lay in a pool of blood. , dreamed of her, dreamed of her... She was smiling at me and said to me: "Hui Hao, I will not give up on you."

I opened my eyes.

I lay in a strange environment, neat room, elegant bedside lamp, bookshelves filled with books, clean sheets, and the fragrance from the pillow and bedding—her fragrance.

The towel on my forehead was still warm. I took off the towel and sat up. The pungent smell of alcohol immediately poured into my nostrils. I coughed and looked at the bottle of alcohol and cotton wool on her bedside table. I knew , She must have used alcohol to cool down my fever, I looked down at my clothes, luckily it was my own clothes, I don't want to be seen by her.

I put on my slippers and walked to the bedroom door.

My hand slowly rests on the cold doorknob, the past is shown in my mind like a movie, she is outside the door, I am inside the door, the next second, I open the door, my eyes will pass through the obstacles Landing on her eyes, I opened my mouth and said "I love you" to the colorful you in the gray and white world I saw, and then, waiting quietly, all annihilation...