A certain CV that is not noble and glamorous

The expression on Jiuci's face was tense, and under the reflection of the monitor, his skin was almost white and transparent.

Shen Qingchuan naturally heard the nervousness of the old speech, he also trembled his lips, and then replied: "Here, he even sent me audio to provoke our relationship."

Shen Qingchuan also released the audio, and Jiu Ci frowned until he heard the last sentence, his face changed, and he roared eagerly: "The last sentence is false, I didn't say that I would Break up! He cut the sound, what I said is that I will not break up with you, you can listen to the background sound, it was cut!" After speaking, the voice was hoarse, and he tried his best to explain.

His gaze was firmly fixed on Shen Qingchuan, and his voice was filled with unwillingness, "He just doesn't want me to have a better life, so should I owe him a lot? I'll let him die with him? Shen Qingchuan, ignore him, Don't leave me!"

"Xiao Ci, don't get excited, don't get excited." Shen Qingchuan put his hand on the back of Jiu Ci's head and stroked it gently, "I won't be influenced by him, I didn't believe him at first, and I sent audio messages from beginning to end , I don’t know what kind of heart you feel, even if you want to be broken up, you have to listen to yourself and tell me, what’s the point of sending me an audio message?”

The old words just repeated firmly: "I will not break up with you."

"I believe you." Shen Qingchuan calmed down the emotions of the old Ci before asking him, "What do you mean by dying with Liang Dada just now?"

The words that Jiu Ci said emotionally just now were subconscious, and maybe he also forgot to hide them, so Shen Qingchuan heard the voice-over.

Why didn't Liang Dada show up once to defend the old Ci when the old Ci was at the peak of the wave, why the old Ci was so convinced that it was not the Liang Bo who was pretending to be the real one, and why Liang Da was pretended to be the old Ci instead of looking for Liang Da Is to find his cousin.

In fact, Shen Qingchuan could guess it without asking.

He finally knew why the old Ci said that he had never contacted Liangda again, because there was no way to contact him anymore.He also finally understood where the source of Old Ci's depression was.

"Is the depression caused by Liang Da? Because he died?" Shen Qingchuan asked again.

Old Ci showed a faint smile, and his voice was erratic. "Yeah, he died. He committed suicide. He suffered from depression and jumped off the 24th floor. On the night YY confessed to me, he called me that day. Maybe it was because of too much pressure. His parents have always had great expectations of him, of course, it may also be because of me."

Old Ci's eyes were empty, recalling the past, what he said was clearly about himself, but he spoke in an insignificant tone, but Shen Qingchuan could hear the self-mockery in the words.

"I've always felt that Liang was irresponsible. He was afraid that as a homosexual himself, he would not dare to come out to the reality. I don't know why he would confess his love on YY. Maybe he wanted to go all out and tell everyone who was there that night Proving that he can do it, he may want to try again for the last time. But I still refused as always, I can't imagine how he was feeling at that time, I didn't know he had depression, he hid it very well from me, Usually, I just complained to me about being too tired at work and putting too much pressure on my parents. If I knew that he had depression, I would definitely not refuse in such a direct way, so he committed suicide probably because of me."

Jiuci glanced at Shen Qingchuan, he even felt that Shen Qingchuan looked at him with scrutiny, and the depths of his pupils were full of fear. "It was me who was too selfish. I knew he was interested in me and still kept in touch. Because I didn't have many friends, I was so selfish that I didn't want to sever ties with Liangda. It was me who made his depression worse and worse, and even made him want to commit suicide. Yes. Did you know? Before he committed suicide, he even sent me a video, just because he was afraid that I would be pinched by his fans in the online distribution circle after he quit the circle, and he even thought about the way out."

Old Ci turned his head to the side, rubbed the corners of his eyes, took a deep breath, and tried to calm his emotions. "It's indeed my fault. Liang Da's fans think it's my fault, and Liang Da's family thinks it's my fault. His death is my fault. Shen Qingchuan, do you think so too?"

Before Shen Qingchuan could speak, Jiu Ci shed tears silently, crying so painfully and depressingly.

He must have had a hard time in the days after Liangda left.Facing the vicious words from fans and the accusations from Da Liang's family, he must have felt uncomfortable.He has no one to tell these words, Liang Da's fans don't know, and they foolishly think that Liang Da is safe in the third dimension and will come back one day.When he chewed up his sadness and pain and swallowed them into his stomach, from time to time someone would remind him that Liangda's death was because of him.

Shen Qingchuan couldn't empathize with the painful experience of the old words, all he could do was tell him: "You are not selfish, Liang Da is not selfish, but he is not strong enough."

He thought that death would bring him relief, but he was crushed by multiple factors such as sensitive sexuality, pressure from his family, and emotional refusal to ask for it.When Liang Da was suffering from depression, he had a group of fans, family, and friends, but he was probably alone.

"I'm also selfish. I don't know about Liangda, but you are the one I like. I don't think it's your fault. I don't care what Liangda is because of you. I even want you to forget him. I just want to You are happy, I don't want you to torture yourself."

Shen Qingchuan pulled the old words into his arms, the old words shrank into a ball, his voice was slow and dry. "The influence is subtle. Ma Chaochao has been annoying you like this. I'm afraid you really hate me."

Shen Qingchuan wanted to laugh when he heard this, he really didn't care about Ma Chaochao's way of putting on airs in front of him.

"It doesn't matter if you say that my three views are not right. I won't think you are wrong in whatever you do. In the beginning, you were pinched so badly in the online distribution circle. I didn't even understand the reason and I took your side. It is still the same now, even if you I really promised Ma Chaochao to break up with me. Even if you want to use me and don’t take our relationship seriously, I won’t resent you. If you tell me to leave, I will leave, but I will still be pissed Keep coming back, I am the one who is infatuated with you, I am willing to treat you with all my heart..."

"Stop it!" Jiu Ci grasped Shen Qingchuan's arm tightly. "Don't be so nice."

Shen Qingchuan smiled at him, and said leisurely: "But you're not that bad, you didn't promise to break up with me, you were still afraid that I would hate you, you care so much about me, you can't leave me long ago, Lu Ci. "

Old Ci leaned closer to Shen Qingchuan, looked straight into Shen Qingchuan's eyes, touched his cheek with both hands reverently, rubbed the tip of Shen Qingchuan's nose gently and carefully with his own.

"I told you everything, and I didn't hide anything anymore. If there is any situation, you can tell me, okay? Let's solve problems together, so there should be no conflicts."

His eyes were eager, like a drowning man looking at driftwood in the deep sea.

Obviously the atmosphere was so heavy and gloomy, but Shen Qingchuan chuckled inappropriately: "Fool, it seems that I should say this to you, right?"

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Aww, happy new year~