I am the white moonlight of the giants who died early

At night, it seems that someone pulled up a black cloth to cover the sky tightly, but dotted with some star lights, adding some invisible beauty to the dark night.

The city is still bustling with people, the neon lights are flashing, the large LED screen in the square is still on, and the most popular actress is smiling enthusiastically at the people who keep coming and going in the square.

Zheng Shaowei wiped his face, he was walking aimlessly in the street, and Fu Mingrui's words still echoed in his ears: "Do you think Qing Cen takes you seriously? He has stood in front of you so many times, do you think he is so serious?" Did he come out? You pretend to be a widow, and you still leave a tomb for yourself next to Qingcen's tomb, so what? Can you be buried together? Are you worthy?"

He couldn't stay at home anymore, as long as the surroundings were a little quieter, Fu Mingrui's words were recorded and played repeatedly in his ears every minute and every second.

With Fu Mingrui's words, what he didn't understand before, and what he thought was wrong, has been explained.

No matter how fantastic and unbelievable this explanation is, only this explanation can solve all doubts.

Why are Fu Mingrui and Zhao Hexuan willing to help Yun Qing?If it's just because of Qing Cen's face, then Su Ming is obviously more like the one.

Why did Zhou Xuyao, who has been traveling all over the country all year round, but never return to this sad person?

These questions were finally answered.

But this answer made him feel so heartbroken—he was indeed late.

Zheng Shaowei walked alone, next to him were couples holding hands, a family of three with their children in their arms, and old couples supporting each other, only him alone.

He held the mobile phone tightly, but knew that the call would not work, and Yun Qingcen would not answer his call.

Many years ago, he also walked outside alone for so long. That was the first time he and Yun Qingcen quarreled. They were in the same class, and Yun Qingcen was very popular. Every time Valentine's Day, love letters would fill the desk. , There will also be senior seniors who will come to see him in the class during the recess. In private schools, most of the parents are prominent people, and they are all young people. Close your eyes.

Zheng Shaowei lost his temper. He took out all the love letters from Yun Qingcen's desk and threw them all into the trash can.

Yun Qingcen went to pick it up, and he asked Yun Qingcen if he had his eyes on someone. After many years, Zheng Shaowei couldn't remember what he said at that time, but he only remembered that it must have been ugly.

So much so that Yun Qingcen, who had always been kind to him, got angry for the first time.

Yun Qingcen doesn't yell when he gets angry, he has always been like this, he doesn't show his emotions on his face.

He was just cold, not the cold of the cold war. Yun Qingcen didn't have a cold war with him. He talked to Yun Qingcen, and the other party would still answer. When the two had dinner together, Yun Qingcen would laugh and say which dish was delicious.

But his eyes are cold, the kind of coldness that pierces the heart.

Zheng Shaowei didn't want to experience it a second time after experiencing it once.

So he can be said to be obedient to Yun Qingcen, even if the relationship between Yun Qingcen and Zhao Hexuan became better later, and they got too close, Zheng Shaowei's temper can be tolerated, he told himself countless times, Yun Qing Cen is not someone who likes to be controlled, he has his own pride and persistence, and all he can do is stand where Yun Qingcen can see him, and when Yun Qingcen wants to find a place to rest, he will be able to see him naturally.

He is almost pious, and loves Yun Qingcen like masochistic, trying to get some unequal love from Yun Qingcen.

He's grumpy, but he's not stupid.

He believed that Yun Qingcen had feelings for him, but it was not love.

When he found out that Yun Qingcen had passed away, his world suddenly collapsed, and he didn't even know how he called Zhao Hexuan and the others.

Later, Zheng Shaowei also thought, why did he call Zhao Hexuan and the others?

But Zheng Shaowei has not figured it out so far, maybe it was because Qing Cen loved to be lively during his lifetime, or it might be because he couldn't face Qing Cen's death alone.

Fu Mingrui's words are still in his ears: "Did you think about today when you were proud? You don't know Qingcen's temper? Does he still have a crush on you?"

He is clear, he feels that no one knows better than him, Qing Cen is a very stubborn person, his stubbornness does not show on the outside, the things he believes are rarely changed, Fu Mingrui and the others are not as clear as he is.

It was precisely because of the clarity that he was so desperate.

Qingcen's bottom line is very high, so high that even if others make a mistake, he can immediately draw the line.

Zheng Shaowei looked around, for a moment, he felt that he might as well have died the first time he committed suicide, in that case, at least in Qing Cen's heart, he was still the one who could give everything for Qing Cen.

But Su Ming turned his once affectionate into a joke.

He knew that he couldn't blame Su Ming, he couldn't blame him, he chose the road and people by himself.

He still remembered Fu Mingrui's expression at that time, it wasn't the jealousy in the past, nor the anger later, but a kind of compassion.

Even Fu Mingrui felt sorry for him.

Zheng Shaowei didn't know how long he had been walking, the sky seemed to be getting darker, and there was no one around, he stopped under the street lamp, and the pale light of the street lamp hit his face, Zheng Shaowei touched his face at this time, but found that his cheeks were already wet .

When was the last time he cried?

It seems that during the treatment abroad, the psychiatrist asked him to let go of the past and forget about Yun Qingcen.

He went crazy.

His parents never cared about him. Wealth and status were their lifelong pursuits, but they were just an embellishment of their happy life.

Qingcen is too important to him, there will never be another person to accompany him through the most savage youth.

Zheng Shaowei took out his mobile phone again and called Yun Qingcen.

He didn't ask Yun Qingcen to forgive him, as long as Yun Qingcen was willing to say a few words to him and let him hear his voice, he was satisfied.

But this time, the phone was not pressed, and Yun Qingcen answered the phone.

Zheng Shaowei stood on the empty street, his hand holding the mobile phone was trembling, his lips opened and closed several times, but in the end he didn't say a word.

Instead, it was Yun Qingcen who sighed on the phone and called out, "Shaowei."

Zheng Shaowei held on to the pole of the street lamp, and lowered his upper body in this empty street. His other hand grabbed his clothes on his chest. He couldn't breathe, and the severe pain spread from his chest, tormenting his ears. The humming sound, only Yun Qingcen's voice passed through the sound and continued to ring in his ears.

"I thought you would know later." Yun Qingcen's voice was very soft.

Zheng Shaowei still didn't speak, he couldn't speak, let alone know what to say.

Are you sorry?beg for mercy

He knew Yun Qingcen's temper, even if he knelt in front of Yun Qingcen at this time, the other party would not give him an extra look.

Yun Qingcen: "Are you still there?"

Zheng Shaowei squeezed out a word from his throat: "Yes."

Yun Qingcen: "Shaowei, I'm not angry."

Zheng Shaowei's heart fell to the bottom of the valley.

Yun Qingcen is not a tolerant person, he knows better than anyone else that the mutual companionship for so many years is not fake, only those who Yun Qingcen doesn't care about, Yun Qingcen will not be angry.

Maybe Yun Qingcen himself wouldn't believe it, but Zheng Shaowei knew him.

Yun Qingcen's heart is very small, apart from himself, the former Zheng Shaowei also takes up a little of the people he can accommodate.

Childhood sweethearts, skipping classes together, playing games, eating snacks and watching movies together.

Zheng Shaowei raised his hand to cover his eyes, he choked up and said, "Qingcen..."

He said, "I can't ask you to forgive me..."

Yun Qingcen seemed to be comforting: "You didn't do anything wrong. I'm dead. Whoever you find is your freedom. I can't control it, and I can't control it."

Zheng Shaowei's tears slipped from between his fingers and fell to the ground without a trace.

Zheng Shaowei's mind was confused, he said with difficulty: "I can't go on."

"During that time, I couldn't sleep every day, so I could only rely on sleeping pills, and then increased the dose..."

But Yun Qingcen interrupted him, Yun Qingcen said: "Shaowei, there are some things I don't want to say, it's too hurtful, but you know me."

Yes, Qingcen never tolerates sand in his eyes.

When he is kind to a person, he can lift that person up to the sky and make that person think that he is unique and the most important existence to Yun Qingcen.

But when he was bored with a person, even if the other person tore open the flesh of his chest and showed his heart to Yun Qingcen, Yun Qingcen would only say: "I've seen it, and then what?"

Yun Qingcen's passion makes people fall into a dream.

His unfeeling can make people fall into hell.

There will never be another Yun Qingcen, and time cannot be turned back.

Zheng Shaowei didn't even know when Yun Qingcen hung up the phone, he only remembered that when he was still conscious, he seemed to see their past again.

"You look good in this." Yun Qingcen told him to tie a tie. It was the first time he was wearing a formal suit. He couldn't wear a tie. Yun Qingcen said he was clumsy while learning how to tie a tie online, and then asked him to bow his head. , fastened his hands nimbly, and finally patted his chest, and said to him with a smile, "He's very handsome, he will definitely blind a lot of people's eyes when he goes out."

Then he said: "I don't want to blind others' eyes, as long as you think it looks good."

Yun Qingcen would laugh at him when he was making up lessons, saying that his English is so bad, how can he talk about international business in the future.

He said that he could ask for an interpreter in the future, no, he didn't want an interpreter, Yun Qingcen's English is so good, and they can talk together in the future.

Meng does not leave focus, focus does not leave Meng.

Zheng Shaowei slowly fell to his knees on the ground.

The street lamp seemed to be broken, the light flickered on and off, flickering on and off.

Yun Qingcen in the room hung up the phone, and Zhao Hexuan was sitting next to him, peeling grapes for him. The grapes were dark purple, plump, and very sweet. Zhao Hexuan had a smile on his lips, and Yun Qingcen knew what he was laughing at. , but Yun Qingcen didn't expose it, he picked up a grape from a small bowl next to him with his slender fingers, and the juice slid down Yun Qingcen's fingers to his wrist, and before it fell, it was picked up by the black man lying next to him. The cat jumped up and licked it away.

Yun Qingcen laughed and pushed the black cat away with his feet.

Then he turned his head and looked at Zhao Hexuan peeling the grapes. The scene of Zhao Hexuan peeling the grapes was really pleasing to the eye. His hands were slender, but less fleshy than Yun Qingcen's, with distinct joints. They were powerful and bigger at first glance.

Zhao Hexuan lowered his head slightly, Yun Qingcen looked at him with his chin up after wiping his hands clean.

Zhao Hexuan put a peeled grape into the bowl, then looked at Yun Qingcen, and asked softly, "What are you laughing at?"

Yun Qingcen: "You are gloating."

Zhao Hexuan did not deny it, he said very naturally: "I used to be very jealous of Zheng Shaowei."

It seems that this quiet night is very suitable for telling the truth, Zhao Hexuan did not hide a bit, and showed Yun Qingcen his straightforward analysis.

"When I first met you, Zheng Shaowei came to trouble me and even got into a fight." Zhao Hexuan also smiled when he remembered the scene back then. He was young and frivolous, and fighting seemed to have become a common occurrence. Before Zheng Shaowei troubled him, he He has never fought with anyone before. He is arrogant and looks down on such barbaric behavior. Barbarians rely on fists to determine victory or defeat.

Yun Qingcen leaned on the sofa, the black cat curled up beside his legs, Yun Qingcen patted the black cat's head: "Really?"

Zhao Hexuan: "Zheng Shaowei was about to cry, his eyes were red."

It wasn't until Zhao Hexuan finished speaking that he felt bad—he didn't come to complain to Zheng Shaowei, but the more miserable Zheng Shaowei was, the happier he was.

"I was most jealous of him at the time, and then Zhou Xuyao. He has been with you for more than ten years, and these ten years have passed. No matter what, no one can replace you."

Zhao Hexuan looked into Yun Qingcen's eyes: "Qingcen, have you ever been tempted by him?"

Yun Qingcen said indifferently: "No."

The black cat let out a hoarse cry.

Zhao Hexuan smiled, but didn't ask the next question - he knew that what he heard would be the answer he didn't want to hear.

Yun Qingcen: "It's getting late, you should go back."

Zhao Hexuan stood up, put on his coat, and said to Yun Qingcen, "Call me when you need me, and I'll be there for you."

Yun Qingcen smiled and waved: "Go back and rest early, don't worry, I won't be polite to you."

Zhao Hexuan took a deep look at Yun Qingcen.

After Zhao Hexuan left, Yun Qingcen went to wash and sleep.

He stood in front of the mirror, and he in the mirror became more and more similar to his original appearance, especially the eyes, nose and mouth were still somewhat different, but the eyes were almost exactly the same.

Yun Qingcen still remembered that his mother once praised his eyes, saying that his eyes were not like his parents, but like his grandma.

Born to be a passionate seed.

But the more passionate people are, the more ruthless they are.

Yun Qingcen smiled at himself in the mirror, then went back to the room and had a good night's sleep.

He can weave dreams for himself, and he can make up whatever he wants to experience in his dreams.

This dream was also made up by him himself, only he himself was the main character, and the people who appeared in the dream were all interesting, all kinds of bizarre stories and people made it rare for him to have a full sleep.

When he got up the next day, he had to go to the company - to inspect the decoration, and then wait for the opening.

Xu Fan also called shortly after he woke up.

"I have another customer in three days, do you want to come?" Xu Fan asked him.

Yun Qingcen asked: "Are you still catching ghosts?"

Xu Fan smiled over there: "No, it's changing someone's life."

Yun Qingcen pretended not to understand, and asked ignorantly, "What is life changing?"

Xu Fan: "It is to make people who should be poor all their lives rich, and let people who should die prolong their lives."

Yun Qingcen said in surprise: "So powerful?!"

Xu Fan asked coaxingly, "Are you coming?"

Yun Qingcen excitedly said: "Of course I will come! If it's really that powerful, I can ask Brother Xu for help if I have anything to do in the future!"

Xu Fan smiled and said, "I knew you would say that, then I will call you when the time comes and take you with me."

Yun Qingcen: "Okay, then I'll wait for your news!"

Yun Qingcen hung up the phone. He was already a little impatient to send Xu Fan away. He just waited for the next meeting, and he made a slight move to make Xu Fan's blindfold fail. Without him doing anything, Xu Fan would be backlashed.

At that time, there will be Ma Ge in the underworld to help cover it up, and he will be able to have a good meal.

Yun Qingcen only misses Xu Fan when he thinks of this.

When checking and accepting the company's renovation, Yun Qingcen mainly sat on the sofa to see if it was soft, and then looked at the carpet, tables and chairs, and asked Su Ming to pay the final payment if he thought there was no problem.

Su Ming now seems to be Yun Qingcen's personal secretary - the kind who doesn't need money.

And he is very self-conscious as a secretary, Yun Qingcen feels that Su Ming is really abusive, he can endure everything that ordinary people can't bear.

He was quite happy when Yun Qingcen scolded him, and then began to reflect on himself. After the reflection, he would even feel that Yun Qingcen was doing it for his own good, and then he could work harder.

If Yun Qingcen complimented him, it would be amazing, he could be happy all day long, with the corners of his mouth reaching to the ears.

Moreover, Su Ming has already released the recruitment information on the Internet, and also marked a paragraph naturally: "Reject people who are not superstitious."

Then Yun Qingcen caught this and laughed for a day: "Rejection is a tactful way to say it when you refuse, you just write it out."

It was only then that Su Ming realized that he had made a mistake, so he hurriedly corrected it. After correcting it, he felt that the word "reject" was too blunt, and he struggled with it for a long time.

Yun Qingcen asked him: "If you didn't enter the entertainment industry, what would you do?"

Su Ming thought for a while and replied seriously: "I don't get good grades in school. If I don't enter the entertainment industry, I will probably sell houses or cars. The threshold is low. It seems that I have a basic salary of more than 1000 a month."

Yun Qingcen: "Do you think you can sell it?"

Su Ming is very confident: "It's all through training. Maybe if I sold the house at that time, my performance would be good now?"

Yun Qingcen was amused by Su Ming again, he thought Su Ming was a real treasure, Yun Qingcen lay on the sofa in the company, and hooked his fingers at Su Ming.

Su Ming walked over obediently, and then squatted down under Yun Qingcen's signal.

Yun Qingcen could only see the top of Su Ming's head. Su Ming's hair was quite black. Yun Qingcen reached out and rubbed Su Ming's hair like a black cat. He smiled and said, "I think you It is suitable for being squeezed by the boss."

Su Ming lowered his head and said in a muffled voice, "Why?"

Yun Qingcen: "Because you won't complain when you are squeezed, and you will reflect on what you did wrong."

Su Ming didn't say anything, he was probably thinking of how to refute, and after more than ten seconds he said: "I also do well sometimes."

But he hesitated for a long time, and still didn't say what he did well.

Then he said with low self-esteem: "I really have nothing to do well."

He sincerely thought that he was lucky to meet Zheng Shaowei, otherwise the money he earns now would not be enough for his father to buy medicine, his father didn't buy insurance and couldn't be reimbursed, the house at home had been sold long ago, When he was desperate, he even thought that whoever could give him a good price would sell a kidney.

Zheng Shaowei saved his kidney, for this, he will be grateful to Zheng Shaowei for the rest of his life.

Su Ming guessed that thinking of Zheng Shaowei diverged for a while, he blinked and said, "Brother Zheng loves Yun Qingcen very much."

Yun Qingcen didn't expect Su Ming to say this, he smiled at the corner of his mouth: "And then?"

Su Ming: "Tell me, what kind of person is Yun Qingcen? They all say that I look like him, but I don't think so, and I don't have the same temperament. When I look at his photos, I feel that I am different from him. people."

"He must be very confident. When he was alive, he was in high spirits. No one can steal his limelight."

It was the first time Yun Qingcen heard such a neutral evaluation from others, and she was quite interested, so she said to Su Ming, "Go ahead."

Su Ming: "I heard Brother Zheng said that Yun Qingcen has a bad temper."

Yun Qingcen frowned: "Have a bad temper?"

He has a bad temper?He was more considerate back then than he is now, and he replied one by one to those love letters that made him want to vomit.

Su Ming nodded: "Brother Zheng said that he looks gentle, but he is very stubborn and stubborn. If he decides to do something, ten bulls will not be able to pull him back. If anyone makes him unhappy, he will bear a lifetime grudge."

Yun Qingcen regained his composure, this comment didn't sound like him at all.

Is he like this in Zheng Shaowei's eyes?

Yun Qingcen didn't remember the details of his relationship with Zheng Shaowei either.

But at that time, he was young, and he might have revealed some true temperament when getting along with Zheng Shaowei, but he didn't realize it himself.

When Zheng Shaowei appeared in front of him, wasn't it also the most difficult time for him?

Both parents died, the orphanage refused to accept him, and a bunch of relatives coveted the only house left by his family.

Without Zheng Shaowei "falling from the sky", even if he could study, he would have to work on his own.

It's just that unlike Su Ming, he didn't fall in love with Zheng Shaowei because of kindness, he just regarded Zheng Shaowei as a tool that could be used.

But maybe at some point, he was also sincere about this tool.

Yun Qingcen raised his hand and lifted Su Ming's chin.

Su Ming squatted on the ground and looked straight at Yun Qingcen. Yun Qingcen's peach blossom eyes sized Su Ming from top to bottom.

Su Ming's hands and feet were numb, a tingling sensation stretched from the soles of his feet to the top of the sky, making him feel as if he had been struck by lightning.

His breathing became short of breath, and his face became red. If he touched it with his hands at this time, he would be very hot.

Yun Qingcen suddenly laughed, like a child's successful prank.

Su Ming lost his strength and sat down on the ground. Fortunately, there was a carpet, so he didn't hurt from sitting on it.

Yun Qingcen looked at him condescendingly, with a smile in the corner of her eyes, a sinister and charming smile.

Su Ming just raised his head like this, unable to take his eyes off.

He felt as if he saw a siren, but he was powerless to resist.

Even if he knew that the other party was moody, vicious and fickle.

Su Ming scolded himself in his heart——

"Am I really abusive?"