Long grass warbler flying

In July, the summer was scorching hot, and everyone received notices one after another, deciding their future fate.

Zhai Xinen and Ji Xiao continued to be good friends from the same school and department, and went to the Yangtze River Delta.Jiang Xinghe stayed in the well-known universities in the province to be their backing.Zhou Yang went north, was admitted to a key university in the capital, and unexpectedly chose to dedicate his youth and blood to the construction of the socialist legal system, while Fan Fan went south to continue his studies and became the closest person to Chu Lan.

Ji Xiao felt rather relieved that at least the news of Chu Lan's admission was heard from Chu Lan's mouth immediately, instead of waiting a long time before learning from others.

He could understand Chu Lan's mood, but that didn't mean he was happy.Ji Xiao is also an ordinary person, so it is inevitable that he has some complaints. No one likes to be hung up, but he continues to be mean in "forget it" with himself day after day—even after many years, Ji Xiao thinks of this paragraph In time, there will be sympathy.

He hates himself like this, but he has a vague premonition, and relies on this small hope to support him, and he can continue to chat with Chu Lan, except for his feelings.

Since the short greetings at the dessert shop that day, Chu Lan seemed to have evaporated from the world.This person doesn’t like to socialize. The occasional photos he posts in Moments are all his dog and reading notes. It’s very boring. Now he doesn’t even post the dog. Ji Xiao has to be surprised. He has sent Chu Lan several times. , the other party did not reply without exception.

Ji Xiao's mind was filled with "Chu Lan was kidnapped" and "Chu Lan was seriously ill", until Fan Fan took the initiative to contact him.

Since joining WeChat, Ji Xiao has often been swiped by Fan Fan - logically speaking, the two of them are not very close, but they like each other day after day, and occasionally comment and exchange, and they are considered friends.

In the private message box, the first message sent by Fan Fan seems to have read his mind: "Ah Xiao, are you really wondering why you haven't seen Alan recently?"

After whetting Ji Xiao's appetite, she said, "Alan went to Europe to relax. Traveling freely in the seven countries is very cool."

Ji Xiao's Korean drama speculation about kidnapping and terminal illness immediately vanished, he was relieved, and sent Fan Fan a smiling emoji.

"Originally, I thought our relationship was a bit weird." Fan Fan sent a long paragraph, "I am a good friend of Chu Lan, and I should speak for him in terms of emotion and reason, but he told me about this matter. After that, I felt very angry, he was so worthless, it was useless to talk to him, so I came to you with the cheek."

Ji Xiao sent a question mark: "What's the matter?"

Fan Fan: "How much do you like Chu Lan?"

Ji Xiao: "..."

He was confused by the question, and for a moment he didn't know whether to question Chu Lan's lack of words or to get straight to the point when he was angry with Fan Fan. I really like Chu Lan, but in fact, if he ignores you, he will give up. But it’s human nature, don’t blame you, it’s fine like this.”

Ji Xiao's typing fingers couldn't help but to pause, and immediately speeded up.

"Don't say that."

Fan Fan put on a pose for a long talk: "I hope he has a good life, but I don't want him to fall into a relationship that is too small for no reason. Chu Lan has a long-term love and is persistent. If you just think of it on a whim, he will be sad. of."

The last few words made Ji Xiao's heart ache, and he typed almost instinctively: "You have to be honest, I don't know how much I like him, but every time I see him, it's like seeing him for the first time. I can walk, I can’t speak, and I don’t look like myself at all. As for ‘I like it more’, I never had such an idea, Chu Lan is different.”

Fan Fan became interested: "Oh, love at first sight?"

Ji Xiao: "Not only——if it was just love at first sight, I wouldn't do everything possible to transcribe the text, accompany him early in the morning to punish him for being late, copy his math homework for him, and use various reasons to borrow his test papers to correct them just for more Talk to him. I won’t listen to his favorite playlists, read his favorite books, wash clothes and socks for him, fetch hot water, make up notes, and do everything I can for him. It can't be done, as long as he opens his mouth."

He spoke incoherently, he didn't know what he wrote, it was a lot of mess.It seems that he kept this secret for a long time, and finally waited for someone to ask, and hurriedly proved that he was definitely not joking, fearing that the other party would veto it coldly, so he persuaded others to convince himself——

You see, I like him so much, and I will never like someone like this again.

In addition to material and time, what I paid was all my courage and patience throughout my youth.It doesn't matter to be his foil, it doesn't matter if he sees it and doesn't respond, as long as he is still there, I can still do everything for him.

Because it is him, I am willing.

His liking has been suppressed for too long, without any romance and commitment, he opened his heart and showed it nakedly.It was too exciting and intense, and for a moment even Ji Xiao himself didn't dare to watch it a second time.

Fan Fan didn't reply for a long time, Ji Xiao thought she was being numb, and typed two words "I'm sorry", and the other party suddenly sent a screenshot of the chat history.Ji Xiao rubbed his eyes, even if it was a small blurry picture, he could still recognize that the person Fan Fan was chatting with was Chu Lan.

In that screenshot, Fan Fan posted two rows of ellipses, and the rest were Chu Lan's murmurs: "I really don't know, I'm sorry for him. But he's very nice, I wonder every day if I can accept him, will he be right? Is he fairer? But emotional matters cannot be settled with fairness, otherwise Song Shiyong wouldn't have cuckolded me."

"I don't want to come out. If it was Ji Xiao, maybe I hesitated for ten days and a half months, and I wouldn't be so determined."

"What do you think I should do? It's not comfortable to go out to play, and I think of him when I see everything. I passed by Milan yesterday, and I went to San Siro to have a look. I remember he said he likes AC Milan. He wanted to buy a jersey and bring it back to him. He, I don't know who he likes...God is annoying, am I so scumbag and annoying?"

"Will he ignore me?"

Looking at these records, Ji Xiao suddenly felt a little sore nose. He rubbed his eyes, and the back of his hand was wet immediately.

He seemed to have waited for a vague response suddenly, even if it wasn't clear, at least he didn't have to grope in the dark anymore.Chu Lan is thinking about him. Is there anything more exciting than this fact?

Fan Fan shook him: "Anyway, Chu Lan doesn't really hate you, he is interested in you, but he can't accept that kind of himself, and it takes time to digest."

Ji Xiao: "...Well, I understand, I didn't mean to bend him."

Fan Fan sneered: "Brave? You're still far behind. He's not 100% heterosexual, but he doesn't admit it, and he firmly believes that the steel pipe is straight. Ah Xiao, you don't have to feel guilty."

He hadn't found a response yet, and Fan Fan sent another string, and I don't know why she typed so fast: "Look at the time, it's four o'clock in the morning in China, and I woke up in the middle of the night to worry, but it was all about you... ...Isn't that obvious enough? He should be returning to Jincheng the morning after tomorrow, you can figure it out, I'll help you get here."

Except for "thank you", it was too futile for Ji Xiao to say anything, he threw himself on the bed fiercely, hugged the pillow, buried his face in it, listened to his heartbeat, the corners of his mouth raised, he was happy for a long time.

According to Fan Fan, Ji Xiao didn't know Chu Lan's flight number, he searched the internet for the flight back from Paris for a long time.Because there is no direct flight yet, we have a connecting flight in Beijing. Calculated in this way, including the connecting flight time, the journey lasts nearly [-] hours, which is really exhausting.Ji Xiao turned off the computer and made up his mind.

At ten o'clock in the evening, his alarm clock rang.

Ji Xiao had just finished taking a shower, and his hair was still dripping.He wiped it casually, changed his clothes, and brought a coat for fear of the air-conditioning at the airport, and stuffed it into his backpack together with his power bank and reading materials when he was bored.

He tiptoed out. His stepfather and the others had already rested. Qiu Yu, who had been abroad for a year, had just returned recently and was still jet-lagged.Ji Xiao thought the movement was light enough, and when he was about to open the door, there was a "creak" sound from behind him.

He turned his head, and Qiu Yu held a cup in his pajamas, as if he just came out to drink water.

The four eyes met for a moment, Ji Xiao unnaturally staggered away.Qiu Yu was one year older than him, and the relationship was already estranged. After the other party learned that he was gay, he avoided them like a snake and a scorpion. They were not people who cared about each other in any sense.Before Qiu Yu went abroad, they lived under the same roof, and then they were strangers, and now they can't speak a few words all year round.

Ji Xiao continued to change shoes, but Qiu Yu asked softly, "It's so late, where are you going?"

"Meet a friend."

"Boyfriend—" She dragged out her voice, a little teasing, but it sounded harsh, "Spending the night outside tonight?"

I didn't expect her to say any words of concern, Ji Xiao changed his shoes, took his backpack, picked up his bunch of keys on the shoe cabinet, and smiled politely: "Then you don't have to worry about it."

He closed the door behind his back, went downstairs, and took a taxi.After being blown by the evening wind, it was only after waking up from a dream that he realized whether he had been rude to Qiu Yu just now, and then sneered, Ji Xiaoben didn't treat her as a family member, she had no blood relationship, what the hell.He only wanted to see Chu Lan. As for his family, he hadn't cared about his family since they told him, "Maybe I will take care of you less in the future."

In the night, he felt gusts of wind pouring in from the half-open car window. After the summer cleared, the temperature difference between day and night was a bit large, and in cool weather, it was even a bit cold when the wind blows again.

The driver was talkative, and he followed the night radio station to comment every sentence, and seemed to be in good spirits.

Ji Xiao hasn't gone out at such a late hour for a long time. He was playing with his mobile phone, and occasionally looked up to look out the window, identifying buildings with only vague shapes left, and judging where he had gone.

With few people, he felt in a trance that the city had fallen asleep.When he drove onto the highway leading to the airport, he could almost see far away, the flickering taillights of the aircraft landed in an almost black dark blue night.

At this time, Chu Lan should still be on the plane from Paris to Beijing. He will take a nap, or be alone in the sky, admiring the stars or sunset in the upper troposphere.

In the waiting hall late at night, pedestrians looked hurried, and did not slow down because of the time. It seemed that this place was always busy, and parting and reunion were staged 24 hours a day.

Ji Xiao found an empty seat and sat down, took out his mobile phone to check the flight, Chu Lan will land at around [-]:[-] in the morning, and there is still a long time before now.He looked left and right, and beside him were passengers waiting to return home or staying overnight, all looking tired, only Ji Xiao was so excited that he couldn't fit in with his surroundings.

He plugged in the earphones, typed a couple of Liankan boringly, and then simply started listening to music.

Ji Xiao’s favorite songs are not considered a minority. He likes to listen to earlier Cantonese songs, playing them one by one, and secretly counting the passage of time. It seems that by doing this, the waiting will have a regular speed and it will not be difficult. .

Ji Xiao didn't dare to sleep, he was afraid that he would make a mistake in his calculations, so Chu Lan just dozed off and left.Whenever he heard that the flight from Beijing was about to land, he got up and waited for a while at the arrival gate, watching repeatedly until he confirmed that Chu Lan had not come back, and then sat back where he was, listening to the song and staring blankly.

The night outside the airport was so deep that the ink bottle was knocked over in a trance, and it was too thick to dissolve.

He wanted to be the first acquaintance Chu Lan saw after his long journey.When returning after being alone in a foreign land, no matter who the person is, as long as he is familiar and has a little affection, it will definitely make the traveler feel happy.

He didn't feel tired, on the contrary, Ji Xiao felt almost masochistic happiness.

At [-]:[-] in the morning, the waiting flight finally landed.

Chu Lan yawned when she came out, the jet lag and the inevitable discomfort brought about by the long-distance flight were oppressing her body.

This was not a crowded moment. The arrival hall, which seemed to have a huge flow of people every second, was suddenly empty, and a huge silence spread with the mechanical broadcast on the radio.Chu Lan stroked her bangs, which were messy due to sleep, and habitually wanted to raise her eyes to see the city in the light of day.

The first ray of gray light appeared on the horizon, and then slowly rushed to the top of the head, just like the ocean in the northern winter ushered in a quiet and depressing morning.

There is a message from his father in his mobile phone, saying that it was too early to send a car to pick him up, hoping to understand.Chu Lan didn't reply, and turned through the unread messages one by one. After confirming that he didn't miss any important messages, he took a deep breath, rubbed his shoulder with his free hand, and walked habitually to the taxi stand.

Chu Lan thought that he would take the car for more than half an hour by himself, get home, and then sleep peacefully. After that, whether he continued to struggle or refreshed, it was nothing to worry about now.

He raised his head, but saw a familiar figure at the exit, his eyes widened unconsciously, and there was a "buzz" in his head, as if he had lost his language function all of a sudden, and he couldn't even walk easily.He felt uncomfortable in his throat, and as he swallowed, the dull pain spread all the way to his heart, and then his heart was pounding, and his eye sockets were a little hot.

The man smiled slightly at Chu Lan under the light of the daylight-bright lights in the arrival hall.

Ji Xiao just waved his hands, but didn't open his arms expecting a hug that wouldn't happen.

"Hi, Chu Lan, welcome back."

That person was obviously as tired as he was, but his tone of greeting was not at all similar to words similar to "sleepy". He still looked refreshed, and even after saying that sentence, his smile was even brighter. some.

Chu Lan didn't speak, but the corners of her mouth raised unconsciously.He walked over to Ji Xiao, Ji Xiao reached out to take his suitcase, and Chu Lan followed him until he called a car.

Everything is going well, and there is a tacit understanding.

After getting into the car, Chu Lan looked straight into Ji Xiao's eyes: "Thank you for coming to pick me up, thank you for your hard work."

Ji Xiao boldly raised his hand to rub Chu Lan's hair, but the other party flinched and didn't hide.He smiled and said: "It should be, you have worked hard all the way."

It seems that from then on, the embarrassment in the KTV bathroom disappeared. Although they did not turn into each other's important people as in the novel, it was also a rebellion in another sense.

Chu Lan tilted his head on the car window to catch up on sleep, patted him with one hand, and pointed to his shoulder, he leaned over, a place that was much more stable than the car window, when he leaned, the sequelae of the end of the journey hit, He hadn't slept soundly for more than ten hours, and he was swept away in the back seat of the slightly roaring car.

Ji Xiao looked at the slowly brightening sky outside the window, and his expression was reflected on the not-so-good-quality car window.He tried to turn towards Chu Lan, his eyes were calm, his lips were just a short distance away from his forehead, and finally pressed against his forehead lightly, fleetingly.

Chu Lan, who was unconscious, frowned, but moved closer to his neck.

Chen Guang finally couldn't help showing his head.