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Cheng Yiyang wanted to get back his original identity, whether it was because of his already shaken heart or because of Bai Chen, a time bomb, but when he thought of going to Xie Junting, Cheng Yiyang hesitated.

He wants to get rid of him.The child has already made up his mind to go back, and now going back to him, wouldn't it be tantamount to wasting all previous efforts?Enduring so many days of torment in vain.

Missing, self-blame, guilt, moral condemnation... It's almost over!

But it was strange, the moment he really decided to give up Cheng Yiyang's identity, he felt a kind of relief instead.

As Bai Lu, I no longer need to hide many things for fear of leaking out, I can meet Bai Li openly, I can compete with Xie Junting for some points openly, I can openly...

I have to admit that he still has nostalgia for many things that belong to Bai Lu.

But things are not that simple.After all, the incident of suspended animation has already caused a domino effect, and it doesn't mean that you can go back if you want to go back.

Just the first step, meeting Xie Juanting, took nearly a week, but I still haven't seen him.The other party seems to be very busy, leaving early and returning late is often not in Xie's house, and I don't see him coming to find me, and I don't even have a phone call.When Cheng Yiyang learned that Xie Junting had withdrawn the lawsuit, he still had to get back his original identity from Bai Chen. This matter could only be done by the Xie family. Cheng Yiyang had to ask for help and could only wait again and again.

In the past few days, I went to Xie's house to wait every afternoon, but every time I couldn't wait for Xie Junting.What's more, Diandian didn't come back.Originally, Cheng Yiyang thought that if he couldn't see the older one, it would be good to visit the child, but he was not there, not even Zhou Ling, and the housekeeper was in charge of the whole mansion.Later, he went to the school to pick up some points, but he couldn't see the child!When I asked the teacher in the past, the teacher was very surprised, and asked him back, Cheng Xin transferred to another school a month ago, and you didn't even know about it? Aren't you his other father?A month ago, wasn't it not long before I threw Diandian into Xie's house?

Don't know all about it.

Cheng Yiyang felt very uncomfortable, a little sad, but felt that it was expected, and it was in line with Xie Junting's style of handling things.But soon, he realized that he had no right to be sad.He had already made up his mind to give up the child before, so Diandian's whereabouts in the future would no longer concern him.

On the fifth night, he went to Xie's mansion again, but he still couldn't wait. The housekeeper told him that the young master was so busy that he was dizzy, and sometimes he didn't come back all night, so he asked him to come back in a few days.Cheng Yiyang asked a few things by the way, but the housekeeper had never heard of the name "Cheng Xin", and then he figured out that the child Cheng Yiyang was talking about was their young master.

The housekeeper smiled and said, our young master's name is Xie Yuzhan.

Cheng Yiyang froze on the spot.

The housekeeper also told him that Zhou Ling took the young master to Germany to handle business.

It seems that Xie Junting is determined to take the child back this time. Not only did he change the school, he also changed the name. I don't know if he will go to school in Germany and never come back.

The housekeeper asked kindly, Mr. Cheng, do you have anything important to tell the young master?I can pass it on for you.

Cheng Yiyang forced a smile, no need.

There are some things that must be said to Xie Juanting face to face.

Had to go back again.

The corridor lights were repaired, but Cheng Yiyang was more cautious than before.Ever since he saw Bai Chen's abnormality that time, he can't sleep well every day. He always feels that he hears the sound of the anti-theft door being opened, and he hides all the knives in the cabinet.Every time I get out of the elevator, I always worry and hesitate for a while, for fear of seeing Bai Chen again.He had replaced the door core and key, but he still couldn't sleep all night.

Almost a nervous breakdown.

There was a time before that Xie Juanting controlled him very strictly. Not only was he not allowed to take a step out of the door, he was even not allowed to step out of the bedroom door.The bedroom is very large with a balcony, a suite and even a small study room, which can indeed completely confine people inside.At that time, every time he heard the slight sound of the doorknob turning, or something like that, his whole nerves would be tense, like a string that was stretched too tightly, and it would break at any time.

What is the difference between my current state and that time?

A similar fate that cannot be escaped, whether it is Bai Lu or Cheng Yiyang.

He began to reflect on various experiences during this period and various solutions to the problems he faced.He discovered two very important time nodes.First, Xie Junting appeared.He may not have handled this crisis very well, but at least he has done nothing wrong. He never took the initiative to contact him and avoided it as much as possible. , hold back.

Immediately afterwards, the second important moment came—Bai Li appeared.Cheng Yiyang felt that he had handled it very badly, he was too aggressive and urgent, first he sent Diandian to Xie's house without hesitation, and then he changed his ways to create opportunities to meet, even when Bai Chen and Tan Yin were present, he was emotionally out of touch. Vent, the performance is very intense.

Why is my brother gone again? !Why didn't he come out and find himself? !

Cheng Yiyang became irritable again, looking at the cup in his hand, inexplicably wanted to smash it directly.

He kept taking deep breaths, trying to suppress that very dark emotion.

Among those complex negative feelings, he rationally analyzed one of them called resentment.

For the sake of his brother, he would willingly fall into the prison of Xie's family, even if his wings were broken, he would try his best to escape; he would take revenge on Tan Mu for his brother's suffering; he would even change his face for him, even if it was only because of Bai. Li once said unintentionally, "We look so much alike, sometimes I see you as another me, and I really can't take you as someone else." Since then, he has hated his own face, always feeling that it is an obstacle. Because of this face that is too similar, my brother can't accept his feelings, and the idea of ​​destroying this face has been there since then.

He has achieved such a situation, but why is his brother still so passive towards him?He didn't curse and hate the Bai family, and he didn't even take the initiative to come to see himself.

Cheng Yiyang felt a headache.

During that night's secret meeting, he felt his brother's fear of him, but Bai Li tried his best not to show it, but occasionally, he still couldn't escape Cheng Yiyang's eyes with a glance.

Cheng Yiyang even felt that this should be God's retribution for him!Who made him have such immoral fantasies about his own brother.

A few days later, Xie Juanting finally returned to the mansion for the night, and the housekeeper kindly called Cheng Yiyang to remind him that the young master had returned.Cheng Yiyang rushed over that night, but the process of meeting people was still not so smooth.As soon as Xie Juanting came back, he went to the side hall to make phone calls, which took several hours.

Cheng Yiyang asked the housekeeper, "Has the young master come back? I want to see you."

"No, the young master and Zhou Ling are still in Germany."

"Do you want to go to school in Germany after a little bit?"

"Yes." The housekeeper was obviously proud of this, and felt sincerely relieved, but Cheng Yiyang felt very uncomfortable, because it was very likely that he would never be able to see the child again from now on.

He lowered his eyes slowly.

After waiting for a long time, the tea was cold, and the butler asked the maid to bring a pot of hot tea again.

It was already eleven o'clock after Xie Junting finished making the phone call. When he came out, he saw Cheng Yiyang sitting there silently with his head down, which seemed quite peaceful and harmless, but anyone who knew him well knew that he was not a good person at all.

Cheng Yiyang stood up immediately when he saw him coming out, "Mr. Xie, can I talk to you?"

Xie Juanting didn't stop, and walked towards the stairs, "Come up."

The time he spent with Xie Junting before was not too short, at least a year in total, and for a long time he was thinking about Xie Junting's temperament, likes and dislikes.

At that moment, Cheng Yiyang felt very sensitively that Xie Junting was in a bad mood, and very bad.

Coming here when Young Master Xie was in such a bad mood might be cannon fodder.

Cheng Yiyang hesitated whether to say it tonight, but after thinking about it, he followed up.

Xie Juanting entered the study on the second floor, and Cheng Yiyang closed the door behind him.

Although he could already guess that the other party would be unable to restrain himself and come to him, Xie Juanting still asked as usual, "What's the matter?"

Cheng Yiyang wanted to get straight to the point, and with all his energy, the words of begging for help were almost on his lips, but he said, "Why did you let Diandian stay in Germany?"

Xie Juanting didn't say that he would come back later, but just gave him a cold look, "Don't you think it's a bit late to take care of this now?"

"You won't let him come back in the future, will you?"

Xie Junting narrowed his eyes slightly, "This is my Xie family's business, it has nothing to do with you, Dr. Cheng."

He also deliberately called the title "Doctor Cheng", which shows that Cheng Yiyang is just an outsider, which increases the sense of distance.

There is no point in continuing the conversation so far, and Xie Junting's meaning couldn't be more clear.Cheng Yiyang didn't know whether he should cry or laugh now. He really guessed what Xie Junting was thinking. Not seeing anything for eight years was indeed a sign that he was no longer interested. He didn't plan to ask him at first, but Bai Chen accidentally It was leaked, which made his heart a little resurgent, and he still hoped that the other party could get him back.

Cheng Yiyang hesitated for a moment, turned his heart, and said quickly: "I think you should already know, Bai Lu...in fact, he is not dead..."

But Xie Junting remained unmoved, "I know, but this matter has nothing to do with you."

Hearing that Xie Juanting admitted that he knew, Cheng Yiyang breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that he would be able to speak more now, but the other party's next sentence directly sealed his delusion.

None of your business.

Cheng Yiyang was speechless for a while, and could only choke slightly.Didn't Xie Junting's previous performances mean that he already knew that he was Bai Lu? What does this mean now?

Cheng Yiyang had vaccinated himself a long time ago, asking for help? Would he want others to please him? He didn't intend to lose face, and patiently explained: "Mr. Xie, this matter is related to me, because I am Bo..."

Before the words finished, I heard Xie Junting say another sentence.

"I've found him."

Cheng Yiyang was stunned.

"Find him? Who?"

"Bai Lu has been found by me, so I'm sorry, I misunderstood you before, and you can be completely free in the future, and this matter has nothing to do with you."

"How is that possible!" Cheng Yiyang almost blurted out, "He must be a fake."

But as soon as the words fell, he realized something was wrong.

The expression on Xie Junting's face also gave the answer.

The other party is just probing.

After Cheng Yiyang reacted, he stopped talking immediately, always feeling that the other party's expression was mocking and indifferent.After he made out his own words easily, he didn't ask any more questions or force him, leaving Cheng Yiyang alone in embarrassment.

For a while, there was no sound in the room, and the atmosphere was really awkward.The main reason is that Cheng Yiyang felt that this was really slapping himself in the face.He worked so hard and desperately to change his identity, but in the end he was eager to admit his original self, and was afraid that his identity had been pretended by others.But now that the words have come to this point, it is obvious which one is higher between him and Xie Juanting, and he is still the humble one as before.

Cheng Yiyang lowered his head and silently looked at the gray carpet under his feet.Want to go, but don't want to go.

Finally, Xie Juanting slowly walked in front of him and stood still.

Cheng Yiyang clenched his hands suddenly, but did not speak first.

"Want to come back?" Xie Junting said.

The voice is not very soft, and of course it is not too gloomy, just a very ordinary tone.

But the more this is the case, Cheng Yiyang is a bit difficult to deal with.He had already guessed that the other party's tone would not be very gentle, but if Xie Junting's tone was low and showed no intention of helping, then at least he could turn around and leave without continuing to accept the other party's next humiliation.But it is this lukewarm and elusive attitude.

"That's why you called me that night?" Although it was a question, there were not many doubts in his tone.

Cheng Yiyang thought about it, anyway, the matter has been resolved smoothly, so let it go like this, there is no need to repeat his fear and panic to the other party.

He nodded, and then looked at him with his dark eyes, but Xie Junting didn't show any softening after being stared at like this, he still had the same cold look.

He has never been able to compare with Xie Junting in this kind of silent contest, he just can be colder than him.

Cheng Yiyang asked softly: "I can, can I go back to my original identity? Mr. Xie, can you help me?"

In the tone, the meaning of showing softness is already obvious.

Of course Xie Juanting heard it, but he didn't seem to want to accept it. He just kept out of the matter and said, "Isn't it your own business whether you want to go back to Bailu or not? I don't care."

Cheng Yiyang gritted his teeth, and decided to say what Xie Junting wanted to hear, "Isn't it up to you if I can be Bai Lu again? I can't do anything myself."

"What are you looking at me for?"

"...I need your help to get back my original identity."

Xie Junting asked again, "How can I help?"

Cheng Yiyang endured, "...Bai Lu is from Xie's family. You were married. Isn't he yours? You can help him, as long as he is not dead and let him come back and reappear in Xie's family!"

Xie Juanting didn't express anything, his face was still calm, even indifferent.

Silence spread.

But Cheng Yiyang seemed to be the only one who felt palpitations.

After a while, Xie Juanting said coldly, "It's fine as long as he's not dead, you put it lightly..."

The problem is, Bai Lu is dead, and all information has been canceled!Even if he is not dead, is it useful?Does the judge recognize it, the police department recognize it, and others recognize it?There are too many tedious details that need to be dealt with one by one. No one knows better than Xie Junting how difficult it is to change identities.But he didn't want to explain these words to Cheng Yiyang in detail, he was not in the mood at all.He had already found a big loophole in the previous identity change, and Cheng Yiyang didn't know about this disaster until now. Xie Junting had been busy with this a while ago, and it was almost resolved, but he didn't tell him*.

He moved his eyes away from Cheng Yiyang ruthlessly, and said slowly: "Go back."

When he doesn't want to waste his words, he really cherishes words like gold, and never only gives two-word orders.

Cheng Yiyang guessed it would be like this, anyway, those words that are so humble as to be in the dust have already been uttered, isn't he always like this in front of him, now it's okay to say everything, no matter how hurtful people are, it won't hurt much.

He looked up at Xie Junting and choked hard.

But what came out of his mouth was: "If you don't want to, forget it, those words just now... pretend I didn't say it."

Seeing that Xie Juanting didn't speak, Cheng Yiyang felt that tonight's humiliation should satisfy the aloof Young Master Xie.

He turned around, ready to go out and get out of here.

Xie Junting has never tried to keep anyone, not even before their sweet appearance was exposed by Bai Lu himself.This time is of course no exception.

Cheng Yiyang didn't look back, and ran downstairs before stopping. The housekeeper came over and asked considerately, "Mr. Cheng, if you don't want to go back so late, you can stay overnight. There are vacant rooms upstairs."

If it was in the past, especially when Xie Junting needed to be favored, he would have agreed in a hurry, put all the previous cold reception behind him, and posted it again, creating all kinds of opportunities to get along.

but now……

With a calm expression, he bowed the corner of his mouth politely at the housekeeper, "Don't bother you, I'll go back by myself."

When he drove away, he still couldn't help but glanced upstairs. The curtain of the study room was drawn, and the light came through. It seemed that Xie Junting didn't even step out of the study room.

I don't know what I'm hoping for, but I don't have the qualifications and the position to look forward to it.

Cheng Yiyang shook his head and left completely.

Two hours later, he returned to the community where he lived.Ever since he was attacked by Bai Chen, he has become more and more cautious, every time he has to look at all the vehicles parked in the garage to make sure that there is no one from the Bai family.This time, he also went up from the first floor after making sure that every car was different.

As soon as he entered the room, his phone rang. He took it over to have a look, and quickly picked up the phone.