Pretending to be miserable

It was already evening when he came out of Han Xuan's house, and Yan Chu went directly to the bar to open the door. He Yushan had already arrived at the bar and was cleaning up at the bar.

"Brother Yan, I'll give you the parking garage."

"En." Yan Chu sat down in front of the bar with his heavy arms in his hands.

He had a not-so-good dream today, and he felt very uncomfortable all the time, so he didn't tell Han Xuan.

It's already frustrating for him to be like this, let's talk about a nightmare, then if he went to see Han Xuan today, it would be tantamount to making trouble for others on purpose, there is really no need for that, it's just a dream.

He Yushan saw that he was obviously thinking about something with his calm face, so he took the opportunity to tiptoe to the storage room and took out a bunch of flowers.

It has not yet officially opened, and the dazzling lights are not turned on in the store. The lights are all white, and it looks quiet and empty.

The red rose looked particularly dazzling under the white light. This was the 19th time he wanted to confess his love to Yan Chu.

It was the No.18 time yesterday, but I was interrupted by those gangsters before I could speak. It was a pity, so I thought about doing it again today.

It's strange to say that he confessed his love to the boss so many times half in joke and half truth, and every time he was interrupted by various accidents.In fact, he should understand so many "coincidences". It can be said that he can't let go of Chu every day if he doesn't have a partner, and he always feels that he still has a chance.

It's also stubborn, and it won't work if anyone persuades it.

Yan Chu was thinking about that dream.

That dream had happened not once or twice, and every time he woke up, he laughed it off, but today, after waking up, his heart still felt uncomfortable for a long time, the pain seemed to be engraved in his bones.

But that's right, after all, it's not just a dream, it's something that actually happened ten years ago.Being punished in public for revealing their sexuality by the person they like is something that no one can bear or forget.

It is estimated that this hurdle in my heart will be difficult in this life.

"Brother Yan."

He didn't notice when He Yushan stood behind him, but he heard him call out, and when he turned around, he saw him standing there with a bouquet of roses.

Yan Chu was taken aback for a moment, then smiled and said to him, "Why, the store lacks a bit of fun, why don't you pay for the vase yourself?"

How could he not know what He Yushan meant? It would be too hurtful to directly refuse. Shaner is a good boy and a good employee.

"I'm not that conscious, this is for you, Brother Yan." That's all He Yushan is good at, he can follow you whatever you say.

But this meaning is still too obvious.

Yan Chu couldn't hold back, his expression changed a bit.

Today is not the right day, he is not worried about one or two things, this child is purely hit by the muzzle of a gun.

"Shan'er, thank you for the flowers." He took the flowers and put them directly on the bar counter, stroked his eyebrows and continued, "I will send you a red envelope later, as the money I asked you to buy flowers."

The meaning of these words is also obvious.

"Brother Yan..." Although He Yushan guessed that this would be the result, he couldn't bear the pain in his heart, "After so many years, I still can't do it?"

Yan Chu frowned and didn't speak for a long time.

In fact, it's not just because he doesn't have feelings for He Yushan, but also because he can't fall in love at all.He couldn't get through that hurdle, and he couldn't talk about it in his life.

But everyone has talked about this, and if he is not clear, he will look like a scumbag.

"No." Yan Chu raised his eyes to look at him, with no emotion in his eyes, "It's not that you can't, it's that I can't. I have no plans to fall in love. Here I am..."

He poked his heart, and smiled weakly, "he has a hurdle here, he can't talk about it and doesn't want to talk about it. Don't waste time on me."

Yan Chu stood up, and wanted to pat He Yushan on the shoulder to comfort him, but suddenly a face that was extremely aesthetic to him flashed in front of him.

Chi Zheng...why did he remember him.

Yan Chu opened his mouth to say something more, but felt that what he said at the moment was superfluous, so he didn't say anything at all, turned around and went out to the convenience store next door to buy a pack of cigarettes.

It takes courage to confess to someone, and it takes courage to reject someone.

He believes that He Yushan is not a person who sticks to the horns of a dead end, and he will always figure it out if he is given a period of time.

That day, he leaned against the door of the store and stared at the screen of his mobile phone, smoking half a pack of cigarettes intermittently, feeling really annoyed.

It wasn't until the sky darkened and the neon lights of Chuanlian Street were turned on that he put his phone back in his pocket and opened the door to enter the bar.

Master Ke came here frequently these two days and became the first guest today.

"Yo, it looks like I came here early today!" Ke Chen walked into the store with unrestrained steps, looked at the poor little employees who didn't even dare to breathe because the boss was in a bad mood, and whispered Asked: "What's the matter?"

Master Ke is a well-known gangster in this area, and Boss Yan's good brother. He is also familiar with everyone in the store, so there is nothing he can't say.

Even today, no one knows what the reason is, and they have nothing to say if they want to.

"Why are you here again?" Yan Chu didn't hide in front of him, he didn't even bother to show a smile.

Master Ke originally wanted to feel wronged, but when his eyes fell on Boss Yan's arm hanging around his neck, his grievances were gone, and he hurried over to give him some condolences.

"Why are you still wearing a plaster cast? The hero made a mistake in saving the beauty?"

Yan Chu didn't bother to talk to him, and just sat down and fiddled with his phone.

Ke Chen is not so easy to dismiss.Don't look at him as a gangster, anyone who sees him will call him "Master Ke" and "Boss", but his mouth is just like the old women in the east of the village. table.

Just like now.

"You're almost [-], and you still want to be a hero who saves the beauty and acts bravely. Are you not native? The worst thing is, you have made yourself into such a virtue. I said Chuer, you can't be It was love at first sight for that handsome guy, right? Take it easy, he's still a child!" Master Ke sat down on the sofa, swinging his crossed legs a few times.

Sure enough, it was still the mouth that needed to be punched.

If you don't do something at this time, it's not Boss Yan's style.

With a cold face, Yan Chu took the largest piece of watermelon from the fruit plate on the table, and stuffed it into Ke Chen's mouth without saying a word.

"Hey - woo!" Mr. Ke must have been unhappy to be gagged like this, but after chewing twice, his face suddenly changed, and he reached out and took another piece into his mouth.

"Don't tell me, the fruit plate here is the freshest I've ever eaten." With something in his mouth, he couldn't speak clearly.

Yan Chu gave him a disgusted look, and said coldly, "Be careful of choking to death."

"Choking to death is better than being awkward like you!" Ke Chen raised his eyebrows and glanced at him, waved towards the bar, and ordered a bottle of wine.

The darker the night, the busier Chuanlian Street is.At this moment, several waves of customers have entered the store one after another, and the lights have been adjusted to an ambiguous pink-purple color, making people's hearts beat faster.

Compared with those energetic young people, Boss Yan with his arms hanging looked out of place.

"It's almost done, I think you're not done yet." Ke Chen glanced at him, poured a glass of wine and handed it over, "Have you smoked at least half a box again today? It's so delicious, isn't it addictive! "

No matter how you look at it, Mr. Ke is a pure gangster, except that he doesn't smoke.He said that smokers are cowards, and they only smoke to relieve boredom when they can't get things done.He lives comfortably without father and mother, and there is nothing that cannot be resolved by a fight. If it cannot be resolved once, then twice. Anyway, there is no need to smoke.Yan Chu didn't speak, took the wine glass and put it on the table again. He didn't want to drink today, he wanted to stay awake.

The tacit understanding between him and Ke Chen is that no matter how they run on each other verbally, it will not affect their relationship at all.The relationship of supporting each other and growing up together since childhood is indestructible and indestructible without any external force.

So when Ke Chen saw that he didn't want to drink, he didn't persuade him any more. The tacit understanding was there, and everything else was superfluous.

But over the years, the most worrying thing about Yan Chu is the relationship problem.

My brother is a 28-year-old man who has never even been in love. Master Ke is worried!

If you are really sad, then you will inevitably say something: "Chu'er, what I just said is bullshit, if you really like that kid, I will help you chase him!" Master Ke vowed.

Yan Chu frowned, raised his eyelids and looked at the person beside him, "Who?"

He was completely empty just now, and Ke Chen didn't listen to a single word he said.

Master Ke knew that he would automatically isolate himself when he was worried, but now he became patient and talked to him about it.

"Yan Chu, I've known you for almost 30 years, and I've never seen you so impulsive. Of course, you can't rule out the reason that you drank too much, but you really opened my eyes to my brother yesterday. I almost thought you were going to have sex. Don’t tell me that we lost an arm just because we acted bravely. I wouldn’t believe it even if I was killed!”

It really wasn't just a simple act of bravery, he just fell in love with Chi Zheng.

But this matter is really difficult.

Yan Chu pursed his lips and didn't speak, but raised his hand and downed the glass of wine just now.

This action of his has already put his attitude there, Ke Chen understands it, and then said: "I know you have a hurdle in your heart. But it's been almost ten years, it's time to let go. If you continue to entangle, you will torture yourself ,Why bother?"

Everyone understands the truth, but that hurdle is really stuck in Yan Chu's heart, and it makes him sick every day.

He has lived such a life for ten years, and it is impossible to stop abruptly because of someone or something, that is unscientific.

With the mobile phone at hand, Yan Chuhua opened the lock screen and found that it was still stuck in the chat interface with a friend named "Ye", and there was nothing in it.

He just stared at this interface and smoked for two hours.

Seeing that there were more and more people in the store, and the atmosphere was getting hotter and hotter, as if everyone was living happily, he couldn't help but feel irritable, so he pressed the delete button.

Since it is impossible, there is no need for people to remember it.

"I'll go out to catch my breath." Yan Chu stood up and left without looking back.

Ke Chen didn't want to stop him this time, after all, he still needs to give him some time and space to figure things out at this time, the one who can see through the world at once must be a master who sees through the world of mortals, they are all ordinary people.

Today's Chuanlian Street is equally lively, with neon lights embellishing the street with an ambiguous atmosphere.

I am tired of reading these things, and I don’t think there is anything in my heart, but I am a little curious about what Daxue Road is like at this time...

The human body will always make choices faster than the heart. He just turned around and was about to go for a quiet lap on Daxue Road, when he raised his eyes and saw a tall, thin figure.

Chi Zheng raised his chin towards him, and his tone was as cold as ever: "Why go."

Yan Chu was startled, then instinctively laughed, "You still dare to come?"

Who knew that the man ignored him at all, and directly stepped in front of him: "Why did you delete me?"