Pretending to be miserable

The wind in Yuancheng at the end of September still carried some residual heat from the summer, and the two stood face to face in the wind and looked at each other, time almost stagnating at that moment.

"Okay." Yan Chu's smile was warm, just like him, always giving people a sense of security.

Chi Zheng's heart trembled slightly, and he raised his chin to him without changing his expression, "Go."

At two o'clock in the morning, the campus of Yuancheng University was completely silent. Two people walked side by side. Move around and change slowly.

The night in early autumn is so quiet that people can't imagine it.

Yan Chu has not been back to campus for a long time.He went to university in Kyoto, and after graduation he returned to Yuancheng to open a bar. The place like Chuanlian Street, which is a mixed bag of fish and dragons, has never been so quiet. The pressure of life makes people feel tired every day. Endless exhaustion.

He has lived like this for many years, and even feels that his life should be like this, plain and boring.

The only joy is to write the sinister human heart into words and hide them in my novels, so that every story reveals the cruelty of reality.

Everyone said that he was too realistic, but he felt that these were the principles he had understood and believed in since he was a child. There was nothing wrong with being realistic, at least he would not feel wronged about such vain things as "miracles". There are fantasies and hopes.

Without hope, there will naturally be no disappointment.

This is also the reason why Yan Chu looks so free and easy, because he doesn't think about getting anything from others at all, and he doesn't care.

But the appearance of Chi Zheng disrupted all his principles.

Love at first sight is often stronger than love at first sight.

"Have you ever talked about friends?" Chi Zheng asked without end, bringing back Yan Chu's thoughts.

He was a little dazed, and he turned his head to look at the person beside him for a while before he understood.This topic was a bit exciting, and Yan Chu laughed at himself, "I'm a high-sighted person, and I've never taken a fancy to anyone."

Chi Zheng paused for a moment, stood still on the spot and looked down at him, and Yan Chu also stood still and raised his eyes to meet him.

Neither of them intended to back down, but someone had to speak first.

"Yan Chu." Chi Zheng's voice was a little hoarse when he spoke, with an inexplicable sense of sexuality.

The smile on the corners of Yan Chu's lips remained undiminished, and he agreed, "Yes." A gust of wind happened to blow over, making the leaves above his head rustle, and the fallen leaves on the ground also floated up, and a few fell on Yan Chu. feet.

He heard the man on the opposite side ask in a calm voice: "I, do you like me?"

At that moment, the sound of the wind and the rustling of leaves disappeared, and all Yan Chu could hear was his own heartbeat, which was getting faster and faster.

His eyes were fixed on that person's face, Chi Zheng really looked good no matter how he looked at it, even if half of his face was hidden in the shadow now, it still made him want to lean up and kiss him.

Yan Chu had never experienced this feeling even at that time.

The reason why human beings are superficial is inseparable from the value of appearance.The first liking was just because of his good looks. As for how strong it can be, no one will know until he tries it.

It takes courage to try.

——"You said that you like me, I will announce this liking, is it wrong?"

A laughing voice suddenly echoed in his ears, and the man's smile seemed to appear in front of his eyes again, Yan Chu's heart trembled suddenly, and his whole body couldn't stop trembling.

——"Look, this is the freshman who confessed to Chen Xin."

—— "Looks pretty good? Unfortunately, he's gay, tsk tsk tsk..."

——"Damn it, it's him? I even worked with him in the student union, how disgusting!"

……

"Yan Chu! Yan Chu?" Chi Zheng's voice fluctuated from far to near, and Yan Chu felt a headache that was about to burst.

Someone held his arm, and the hot touch made him tremble suddenly, like an electric shock, he hurriedly pushed away the person in front of him.

"Don't touch me!"

"Hiss—" Chi Zheng was pushed so unsuspectingly by him, and he took several steps back with a face full of tears, pulling the wound on his stomach, and now it hurts deeply.

But he couldn't care less now, so he went over to grab the man's arm in a hurry, "Yan Chu! Calm down, it's me, Chi Zheng!"

Hearing Chi Zheng's name, Yan Chu's body froze, and he raised his head in a daze.

The man's face gradually became clear in front of his eyes. The outline and facial features were all the appearance he liked.

It seemed that the wind was blowing again in his ear, and this time the wind was a bit cool, which made him flinch unconsciously.

"Yan Chu?" Chi Zheng squeezed his shoulder and shook it lightly twice, frowning at him.

At this moment, Yan Chu had calmed down, he clenched his fists subconsciously, and his palms were covered with cold sweat.

Still can't forget...

"Chi Zheng." He softly called the man's name, slowly raised his hand and pulled Chi Zheng's hand off his shoulder.

Yan Chu took a half step back and took a deep breath to really stabilize himself, then looked up at the nervous man.

Chi Zheng's hand was empty, and he was somewhat embarrassed at the moment, but he was more worried about Yan Chu's situation.

Since they met, although the two of them haven't been in close contact all the time, they are still friends after all. In his impression, although Yan Chu's smile is only on the surface, he still looks good, even if he really wants to reject him. If you don't put on such an appearance, something must have happened...

"How are you?" Chi Zheng asked.

Yan Chu shook his head, the corners of his lips were curved upwards.Maybe it was a guilty conscience, he didn't dare to look at Chi Zheng again, he just lowered his eyes and stared at the tiptoes of the two, "I have to leave beforehand, you should rest earlier."

What he said didn't give Chi Zheng any room to persuade him, and he turned around and left before the words fell.

The wind from the feet blows the fallen leaves on the roadside, and the withered yellow color looks particularly gray at night.

Chi Zheng didn't stop him, but stood there watching him leave, but he had already made up his mind.

He desperately wanted to know more about Yan Chu, but what he wanted was for that person to tell him personally, with the closest relationship.

After Yan Chu got home that day, he locked himself in the bathroom. When the hot water flowed over his body, Chi Zheng's words kept ringing in his ears: "I, do you like me?"

Do you like it... More than just like it, it suits him too much.

But he didn't have the guts to admit it.

A mentally ill person does not deserve to admit liking anyone or anything, their feelings are distorted and incomplete.

Yan Chu gritted his back molars fiercely, let the water flow down from the top of his head blur his vision, let his skin become red and hot from the heat, he stood there against the water flow as if unconscious, motionless.

By the time I calmed down and came out of the bathroom, it was already past three o'clock in the morning.The phone vibrated twice, and the content of the memo was displayed on it: Han Xuan's birthday.

Yan Chu was a little irritable, but he couldn't be absent from Han Xuan's birthday. It has been like this for more than ten years. No matter how busy he is, he has to have a meal with Han Xuan.But when it comes to eating...

He swiped open the WeChat interface, and opened the chat box with Chi Zheng casually.

The content of the chat still remained at the "good night" that Yan Chu returned to that person that day.

His hand that was about to land on the keyboard paused, for some reason, every time he sent a message to Chi Zheng, he hesitated.

After staring at the phone screen for a long time, he didn't think about what to say, so he just sent a red envelope of 100 yuan, and wrote two words in the note: lunch money.

Although it looked a bit scumbag, it still expressed what he wanted to express.

He was going to eat at Han Xuan's place at noon, so he definitely couldn't care about Chi Zheng. No matter whether the man's claim of being robbed of living expenses was true or not, he had to take it seriously. He had promised to include three meals a day.

After the red envelope was sent, Yan Chu stared at the phone in a daze for a long time, but did not receive the news that the person had received the red envelope.

He glanced at the time, it was ten past three, thinking that Chi Zheng must have fallen asleep, and was about to put his phone down for sleep, when he saw a message pop up on the interface.

Chi Zheng: "Good night."

Instead of accepting the red envelope, he said goodnight to Yan Chu directly.

Boss Yan was even more awkward this time. He wanted to say something to persuade the man to accept the red envelope, but he had already said good night, so it was inappropriate for him to say anything now, so he had to give up in the end.

This time, Yan Chu tossed and turned several times in the night, dreaming as soon as he closed his eyes, and the dreams were full of scenes where those people said he was disgusting, and the world was spinning.Especially those words that Chen Xin said echoed back and forth in his ears and tormented him, so that when Yan Chu got up to wash up, he was startled by his own big dark circles in the mirror.

He really hasn't had such a dream for a long time... It seems that it is necessary to talk to Han Xuan again, anyway, this matter must not be hidden from her, after all, the extremely professional Ms. Han has a pair of piercing eyes.

After tidying up, Yan Chu drove to the cake shop first.He had pre-ordered the cake two days ago, and now he took it from the shop and went straight to Han Xuan's consultation room.

Along the way, Yan Chu's mood was quite complicated. It was impossible for him not to care about what happened last night, and he had to face Chi Zheng tonight.Although he could guarantee that he would pretend that what happened last night did not exist, he could not guarantee that Chi Zheng would not mention it.

People are always reluctant to bring up embarrassing things, I hope that person can still maintain a tacit understanding with him on this matter.

Yan Chu drove directly to Han Xuan's house. According to normal circumstances, Han Xuan would not accept any work on her birthday.She will spare today to do something she really wants to do, as a reward for herself who has endured another year.

He parked the car in the garage of the community with ease, and went upstairs with the cake.

After getting out of the elevator, the phone in his pocket suddenly vibrated twice.

Chi Zheng: "Lend me one night."

Chi Zheng: "I have something to tell you."