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Lin Yuan was greeting guests in a teahouse when he received a call from Chu He. Seeing the strange call on the phone screen, he wanted to press it, but he hesitated inexplicably when his fingertips were about to swipe to the left. After saying sorry, he walked aside and picked up the phone.

"Hello there!"

"It's me, Chu He."

The voice that was born with a smile was both familiar and unfamiliar. Lin Yuan couldn't remember how long it had been since he heard Chu He's voice on the phone. Restraining the turmoil in his heart, he tried his best to keep his voice stable and alienated just now. .

"What's up?"

"It's time for us to talk, Lin Lin."

Lin Yuan began to regret why he answered this call inexplicably. Could it be that if he ignored this call like he usually handles those strange calls, he would be able to escape the possibility of being hurt again by this man. He grabbed the side of his gown , couldn't help but growled to the other end of the phone: "Don't call me Lin Lin, Chu He, I know what you want to talk about, but I don't want to talk, and there is no need."

With a sigh, Lin Yuan let go of his hand. Seeing that the clothes he was holding tightly became wrinkled, he caressed again with some distress.

"Lin Lin, it's my brother's fault. I've neglected you all these years. Now give my brother a chance to make up for it, okay?"

Lin Yuan frowned his exquisite and beautiful eyebrows, and once again grasped the hem of the clothes that had finally become less wrinkled. He tilted his head and thought about ironing his long gown when he went home, but at the same time, he felt that the person on the other end of the phone So disobedient, I still have to call myself in that special intimate way, and say some things that make people feel funny.

"Chu He, if it means that you haven't had much contact with me these years, then there's no need. We didn't have the kind of relationship that needs to be maintained. No, it should be said that you are my benefactor. What I have today Everything is thanks to you, and I should be the one to make the compensation, ah, you see, I’m just uneducated, it’s called repayment, yes, Chu He, I should repay you.”

Chu He quietly listened to the somewhat confused words, closed his eyes, and before waiting for his response on the other end of the phone, he said: "The store is busy, there is nothing else, I hung up."

Clenching the phone in his hand for an instant, Chu He said a second before he was hung up, "Lin Yuan, I'm sorry."

The sound of "beep..." sounded in the next second, and it was so fast that one could imagine how resistant the people who heard it were.

"Brother Chu, is this the way you said to deal with it?"

Seeing Yan Zhilu sitting on the opposite sofa with a mocking expression, Chu He smiled instead: "Yan Er, do you have any good solution?"

"My best way is to ask you to open Lin Yuan's heart."

Shaking his head, Chu He said helplessly: "You can see and hear, since the first day I returned to China, he has always had this attitude, and he doesn't want to approach me at all. To be honest, his way of liking people Really unique."

Yan Zhilu was a little annoyed, not only because of Lin Yuan's uncooperative attitude just now, but also because he still didn't pay much attention to Chu He at the moment.

"Brother Chu, Lin Yuan's current state is not optimistic. He really needs you...Now he has locked himself up, and only you can pull him out. Please don't ignore him anymore, just like you just now As I said on the phone, to make up for these years of indifference, even if he is mean, it is just a disguise and self-protection, I don't believe you don't understand, you are just selfish and unwilling to take responsibility!"

Yan Zhilu's harsh words made Chu He feel a little uncomfortable for a while. Since childhood, the second child of the Yan family has always been his little brother. Once treated as an adult man like himself, now, being severely reprimanded by the law of words that has always been treated as a child, Chu He is really indescribably depressed, and at the same time finds it funny.

Chu He really cared about Lin Yuan and Yan Zhilu...

But now that I think about it, when they were young, I was used to loving and protecting the two children in an unreserved manner, especially for Lin Yuan. Those things that should not be borne by him, live the life he should have.

Chu He always felt that he was much older than them, maybe it was his nature, maybe he also had vanity, he liked the feeling of being a big brother, and he also enjoyed the sense of accomplishment of saving a person who was trapped in a desperate situation and helping him change his life.

Ever since Lin Yuan became an adult, Chu He felt that his mission had been accomplished. Watching him transform from a little boy full of punk habits into a young man exuding an elegant temperament, he was extremely proud and let go of the stone in his heart. At the beginning, he felt that he no longer needed to be like an old lady, and he also faintly felt that his years of care had made Lin Yuan a little too dependent on him, and even developed strange feelings, which troubled him for a while.

When all kinds of opportunities in life came, Chu He rushed to "Poetry and the Distance" without hesitation, thinking that Lin Yuan, who had been reborn, no longer needed his company, but to learn to be independent and walk out of his own life.

But today, he suddenly realized that, as Lin Yuan mentioned in the phone call, because of himself, Lin Yuan seems to be walking on a bright road and living a comfortable and comfortable life, but in fact it may be just an illusion.

Seeing that Lin Yuan still couldn't let go of his feelings for him even after so many years, and hearing Yan Zhilu's unceremonious reprimand, Chu He had to re-examine what he thought he had achieved. Did he really help Lin Yuan change his life?Or, he just designed his life?

A chill broke into Chu He's body, he raised his head and looked at Yan Zhilv, this time, he no longer regarded this man who was taller than himself as his younger brother, and poured out his thoughts to him seriously, and said Discuss countermeasures.

"Brother Chu, you have finally turned back to the brother Chu you were back then. Although it's a bit gross, I really like you better like this."

Chu He, who has been wandering alone for many years, felt warm in his heart when he heard this. Until this moment, he really felt that he had indeed forgotten a lot in these years. Maybe he was forcing himself not to be attached at first, but as time passed, he began to enjoy that feeling. Plant an unknown life.

"Yan Er, what you said really made me feel like I was about to cry, but it's a pity that Lin Lin..."

Loneliness is addictive. When Chu He discovered this, he had completely become himself today.

Lin Yuan became a victim of his exploration of life, Chu He has been reluctant to think deeply about this possibility, but now he has to admit that this is a fact.

"Brother Chu, I know that you may not be able to give Lin Yuan the kind of affection he wants, and I also feel sorry for it, but I have a deep understanding of how helpless love is, so I am not qualified or in a position to Judging Lin Yuan, he loves you crazily, but also in a humble way. It is precisely because he knows that you only treat him as a younger brother and a relative, so he has been unable to deal with it in a positive way. He has taken many detours and hurt Hurting others, hurting yourself even more.”

Yan Zhilu has been thinking about what Qin Jie said that night over and over again during this time, so he is very glad that he made the choice to come to find Chu He in person today, instead of making a casual phone call to say a few words like before. One's own opinion, then let everything go with the flow, and finally wait until the problem is exposed before dealing with it, the result will only be a meaningless vicious circle.

Now, looking at Chu He, who is like himself, finally able to get out of his own world and pay attention to the people around him again, he knows that something has changed, even if he cannot guarantee that Lin Yuan can wake up like them, he must put all his eggs in one basket. Don't let go of any possibility. Only in this way can he stand in front of Qin Jie again and make a promise that he trusts in a manner that he can accept.

"You and your real son are because of Lin Yuan, no, there should be me, and there is an irreconcilable conflict, right?"

Although it was a little unexpected that Yan Zhilu made friends with a gay man, and even regretted in his heart that the person who was most likely to accompany Lin Yuan instead of him was not him, Chu He still felt that he had a different feeling for this lover from Yan Zhilu's few words. Carefully.

After all, Chu He himself felt the insufficiency of his current life because he encountered the mist, and it was the first time he wanted to use a person to fill this defect, so he, who had been restless for so many years, once again There was a feeling of wanting to stop and protect someone, this time, he called it love.

Perhaps it was precisely because of the experience of true love that Chu He sorted out the impulse and decision to protect Lin Yuan back then. In the end, it could only be proved to be an emotion similar to family affection, higher than friendship, but far from love.

Coincidentally, the law of words should be the same, Chu He sighed in his heart.