if you serious you lose

Qin Jie sent his brother away, and there were less chattering people around him, so there was less possibility to divert his attention. From the second he stepped out of the airport, he knew that he had to face reality.

In fact, everything that I experienced in the alley that night would reappear in my dreams almost every night. Several times, when Qin Jie woke up, he found that the corners of his eyes were moist, but he would deal with it as a nightmare, and then devoted himself to the dream. into a new day.

But last night, the nightmare did not appear, because Qin Jie completely suffered from insomnia.

For the first time in so many days, he stayed up all night thinking about himself, Yan Zhili and Lin Yuan. In the early hours of the morning, he sent a text message to Yan Zhili, asking him to be near the school at three o'clock in the afternoon What he didn't expect was that less than 10 minutes later, the other party replied with a big "yes", Qin Jie glanced at the time, it was a quarter past four...

Coming to this coffee shop again, looking at the exaggerated crystal pendant above the wooden stairs, Qin Jie stared at himself on it. The thin waiter couldn't help but came over and asked, and he came back to his senses. After thanking him with a smile, he stepped up the stairs.

The location that Yan Zhilu mentioned in the text message is in the corner of the second floor. When Qin Jie passed by the location where he was sitting last time, he saw a young couple sitting close together, taking selfies and drinking together. A matcha latte.

After walking a few steps forward, Yan Zhilu soon appeared in Qin Jie's line of sight. After all, the atmosphere was different from before. Yan Zhilu didn't make a sound but stood quietly in front of his position, looking at Qin Jie.

"Sit down, have you ordered anything?" Qin Jie chose to sit opposite Yan Zhilu, and picked up the menu as soon as he sat down.

"Not yet, I'll just have a cup of coffee."

This week, Yan Zhili had a miserable life. He relied on coffee and cigarettes during the day to refresh himself, and couldn't sleep at night.

He never thought that he would have such a passive day. After Qin Jie left that night, he and Lin Yuan didn't say anything. He couldn't even stay with Lin Yuan rationally anymore, and Lin Yuan also noticed this. At [-]:[-], I took a taxi and went home.

Brother Chu had already brought his lover home, and Yan Zhilu found Guan Jiheng, but found that the other party seemed hesitant to speak. After asking the reason, he knew the reason why Qin Jie would appear in "Exaggeration".

"You also heard what I said to Lin Yuan?"

"No, the three of you were already talking when I came out...Brother, you came last time because of these things, it seems that my place is really unlucky, no matter which store it is every time you come So depressing..."

"Don't say that, Ji Heng, I'm not afraid of your jokes. I didn't believe in Buddha or fate before, but now I really feel that some things are quite mysterious. Maybe it is true that good and evil are rewarded, and that what you do is wrong. You can't escape, God is trying to find a way to bring us together, forcing you to tell the truth and face reality."

Sitting on the side of the bar, Guan Jiheng felt as if he had returned to the situation when Qin Jie often visited here alone, and he might not have been stationed in the city for a long time, it really felt like a lifetime away.

"Then what are your plans? Don't blame me for pouring cold water on you. This matter is something that no one will forgive easily, and I think Mr. Qin's reaction may be..."

"Yeah, I've never seen him like that. I forced him to be like that... But whether he forgives or not, I won't give up on him."

Guan Jiheng believes that Yan Zhilu's sincerity towards Qin Jie, but emotional matters cannot be completed by unilateral persistence after all. After thinking about the complicated relationship between characters tonight, even the "well-informed" boss Guan He thought it would be a difficult and confusing account, at least for Lin Yuan who suddenly seemed to be a different person tonight, he rubbed his chin and couldn't help asking.

"That Lin Yuan, what are you going to do?"

Yan Zhilu narrowed his eyes, and slightly tightened his hand holding the wine glass, "No one can help him, I only know that if I treat him like before, it will only make Qin Jie farther and farther away from me. "

"But I have to remind you that Lin Yuan's appearance is not right. If his problem is not resolved, you and Qin Jie may not be able to untie the knot."

Guan Jiheng's words made Yan Zhilu drink the wine in the glass in one gulp, but the spicy liquid only made him feel a deep bitterness, filling his entire chest cavity and infecting his lungs.

"Until Qin Jie is willing to listen to me explain the past clearly, I won't go to see Lin Yuan. I think it's time for another person to handle this matter..."

For Lin Yuan, Yan Zhili sympathized with his experience, but he could not accept his actions. His aggressive attitude that night had already worn out Yan Zhili's patience. The statement "I only want you, you are mine" In his opinion, it is not an expression of love at all, but a kind of possessiveness and venting in a different tone.

The habit of more than ten years has bound him and Lin Yuan tightly together because of Chu He, but it was not until last night, Qin Jie's last phone call that Yan Zhilu realized that Chu He had never really become the relationship between him and Lin Yuan. He is like a fictional existence, providing an excuse for their game life, at least that's the way it is said.

Loneliness and emptiness, these two words had never appeared in the world of the law of words before, and he thought he had nothing to do with them.

With a superior background, a happy family, and an impeccable appearance, he is very clear that he has a lot. The appearance of Lin Yuan made him see a life completely different from his own. He came closer to observe this peer with some curiosity, What he saw in him was the bloody storm of another world, but it brought a different sense of freshness to his smooth life.

Therefore, Lin Yuan, who came to Yan's house, became the source of Yan Zhilu's life fun, because he, his eldest brother's classmate Chu He, came to Yan's house more frequently. Compared with his own brother, this brother Chu has a perfect big brother personality. They would take him and Lin Yuan to experience all kinds of interesting things. Although Chu He came mainly for Lin Yuan, Yan Zhilu also gradually liked and relied on this kind and enthusiastic Chu He.

Later, Chu He went abroad, and he followed his father's wishes to study in the same country. In a strange place, the older Chu He became his patron saint overnight, even though in fact Chu He didn't have much time. He spent time with Yanzhiri, the boarder, but the regular greetings and occasional visits undoubtedly left him with warm memories.

Before Lin Yuan became an adult, Chu He would go back to China almost every holiday, and the law of words was the same. The three of them seemed to spend the happiest time together, so when they first found out that Chu He would not be able to take him with him because he was dating his girlfriend. When playing, Yan Zhilu felt uncomfortable just like Lin Yuan, but for him, Chu He was not the only one to play with, so he soon found more peers.

But Lin Yuan was different. From the very beginning, only Chu He could be accommodated in his world. When Chu He wanted to pull away, he became restless and panicked...

Recalling what happened when he was a child, Yan Zhilu ordered another glass of whiskey, but Guan Jiheng frowned but didn't stop him.

Lin Yuan was envious or even jealous of himself at the beginning, but Yan Zhilv knew it, because Lin Yuan thought that he could stay in the same country as Brother Chu most of the time, and when he came back from each holiday, he would brazenly follow Chu Brother later went to "experience life", so when Lin Yuan came to him and confessed that he liked Chu He, Yan Zhilv was not surprised at all.

On the contrary, he felt that there was a new joy in life.

Now that I think about it, Lin Yuan used him to destroy the relationship between Chu He and his girlfriends, and poured out to him the pain of lovesickness for Chu He. He couldn't figure it out at all, playing half-truths and half-fakes became his habitual game. When Lin Yuan asked him if he also loved Chu He, Yan Zhilu replied "maybe" indifferently, but Lin Yuan But she listened to it in her heart, and since then she has not shy away from her love for Chu He in front of him.

"It's a strange relationship. Since he thinks you love Chu He, why doesn't he regard you as a rival in love, and instead become a 'comrade-in-arms' with you?"

Silently listening to Yan Zhilu's narration of that period of youth, Guan Jiheng still had doubts.

"His personality has never been calm and gentle. His early experiences left him with a lot of trauma, so that his personality became perverse and withdrawn. Except for Chu He and me, he didn't want to get close to anyone at all. He didn't even have A friend, this is what I was told by my former classmate when I returned to China. Later, every time I returned to China, I would ask someone to ask him about his situation in school, and the answer was always the same. Group awareness. It’s not that my family didn’t plan to let him study abroad with me, but he couldn’t even adapt to the familiar domestic environment, let’s talk about foreign countries, and he didn’t want to spend more money from our family, in order not to make him feel self-esteem Frustrated, everyone will no longer mention this matter."

"So, he chose to accommodate your love for Chu He in exchange for the benefit of being able to confide in your heart and relieve loneliness."

Regarding Guan Jiheng's conclusion, Yan Zhilu just smiled, but did not answer.

"Brother, true or false, go around, have you never thought that Lin Yuan actually fell in love with you unknowingly? Looking at your state and listening to your narration, it is hard for me to imagine A thought can support love, but you are not tempted by the people around you who you can see and touch?"

"Yes, I'm not a saint. I wavered. After trying a few times, I quickly gave up. Lin Yuan is like a holy warrior, devoutly believing in the kind of love in his heart, but my temptation is too much after all. Qian, I just feel that kind of obsessed feelings are deterring, so I still stand in the original comfortable position, take care of Lin Yuan and pamper him in a way that I think is considerate, until today... "

"Hey, it's really complicated. I don't even know what to comment on. Chu He, who seems to be the protagonist, has never appeared on stage. So, how do you plan to let him persuade Lin Yuan?"

"It's not that Chu He has never appeared before. On the contrary, he is so much older than us and has rich experience. It is impossible for him not to notice Lin Yuan's feelings for him. Didn't you notice that when Lin Yuan deliberately made intimate gestures to me last night? , he wasn't surprised at all."

Guan Jiheng stroked his chin, recalling Yan Zhilu's somewhat shocking words.

"He has always been the one who stands at the top, and he is also the one who I think will never be seen through. Lin Yuan's falling in love with him is really doomed."

The corners of his mouth were pulled, and his words were sarcasm: "But whether it is to Lin Yuan or to me, if he has reached this point, if he looks like he has nothing to do with himself, I'm afraid I really won't be able to regard him as a big brother. ..."