if you serious you lose

After talking with Lin Yuan that time, Yan Zhilu also resumed his habit of visiting "Shiyou" occasionally, and the relationship between the two has warmed up.

Unlike before, Yan Zhilu no longer avoids talking about Qin Jie, and Lin Yuan will also take the initiative to ask about their relationship.

When he knew that Qin Jie was a little cold-hearted, Lin Yuan smiled maliciously without hesitation, and what made Yan Zhilv even more depressed was that during the chat, he discovered again that his lover might really prefer someone like Lin Zhilu. With Yuan's appearance, after all, when the three of them met, Qin Jie took the initiative to find "Shiyou" and proposed to make friends with Lin Yuan.

On the other hand, no matter how you think about it, you are just posting it with shamelessness, and you can't help but have doubts about the law of words. Sure enough, you have never been Qin Jie's ideal type?

Lin Yuan felt very amused when he saw Yan Zhilu, the proud son of heaven, doubting his own charm, and with an inexplicable pleasure, so he even said something that he had "confessed" to Qin Jie, which made Qin Jie Jie is very shy, and when he thinks he is really cute, Yan Zhili seems generous and indifferent on the surface, but when he sees Teacher Xia standing with Qin Jie in the post, his indifference seems to turn into a bluff.

A handsome man with a cold demeanor, Mr. Xia and Boss Lin, no matter how you look at them, they have similar feelings.

In the end, it was the "August [-]" post that made Yan Zhilv completely unable to sit still. The young Lv, who never believed in Internet gossip, read a long-winded sentence word by word, and the lines were full of malicious human flesh. His heart was full of disgust for the person who wrote this article, but his possessiveness made him still feel a little disgusted with Qin Jie and that Xia Meiren's past involuntarily.

Part of the post uses a deliberate rendering technique to describe how two young men in their prime fell in love, and also created a pair of fateful mandarin ducks by emphasizing the surrounding environment's attention or opposition to the gay couple.

Just when the spectators thought that the two men who were more in love with Jin Jian would finally turn around, and when there was a bright future, the bloody "third party" appeared on the stage. After experiencing triangular entanglements, Qin Jie was finally defeated by his opponent and left the stage sadly.

Many years later, Qin Jie and Xia Yuan, the campus couple who once had a vigorous love, met again in college, and the love and passion of the year were reawakened. After years of precipitation, Xia Yuan also understood that the person he really loves is Qin Jie, and the two decided to start over.

Although the content is obviously too dramatic and the characterization is exaggerated, the love affair between Qin Jie and Xia Yuan seems to be real, because the post published a screenshot of Qin Jie’s side-to-side recognition of his relationship with Xia Yuan on social platforms, and even There are also pictures of the two of them being very intimate and beautiful together. If it weren't for Qin Jie's current boyfriend status, maybe Yan Zhilv would also think that such a pair of lovers deserves blessings.

After reading the false gossip posts, Yan Zhilu closed the laptop, left the desk, and walked to the French windows.

These days, Yan Zhilu is also slowly sorting out his feelings, towards Qin Jie.

In the company during the day, you can still use work to divert your attention, but when night falls, like now, alone in this "home" that you are already familiar with, Yan Zhilv finds that he misses Qin Jie is getting stronger.

Everywhere in this villa seems to be able to trigger his little memories of the two people since they met. It is no coincidence that the sour thoughts are always intoxicated by sweetness. However, there is an unavoidable word in the memory, a Fragments, in the end, the bitter taste covered up everything.

In the past, Xu Shi had a mentality of self-punishment. Even if it was bitter, Yan Zhilv was willing to think about Qin Jie in this way. The love is deep, and he is happy...

But tonight, the alarm bells sounded in his heart, and Yan Zhili suddenly discovered that what was hidden between the two of them was not only the crisis that had been troubling him, but also an accident that he had ignored.

This time, Yan Zhili finally realized that he was abnormal, how could he fall into such a passive situation?

If the purpose of cooperating with Qin Jie to temporarily distance the two of them is to relieve the relationship that has become tense invisibly, then facing the "rival in love" discovered tonight will directly affect Qin Jie's hard-won relationship with himself. Yan Zhili feels that this so-called "calm down" emotional therapy can no longer be indulged in.

Outside the window at this moment, the night wind was beating the wide leaves, as if wanting to prove his existence, with a stronger force than usual, looking at the chaotic tree shadows in front of him, Yan Zhili turned around, came to the bar, and made a speech for himself. After pouring a glass of whiskey, feeling the hot liquid pouring into his chest and lungs, he squinted his eyes and smiled, not only for his own innocence and stupidity, but also for his own negligence.

Fuck his "temporarily separate and calm down", the damn "distance produces beauty", tomorrow, he will see Qin Jie with his own eyes...

As a young teacher and a student who graduated from S University, Xia Yuan has always had the habit of browsing school forums, but he always went to the teacher's area and the teaching area to search for information, and saw some question posts posted by students. Within the scope, we will also enthusiastically give answers or suggestions.

On weekend nights, when he habitually opened the forum and was about to drop down directly to the teaching area, several hot-marked posts on the homepage instantly froze his mouse finger.

The link and reply that once appeared on the title "Officials are forcing people to rot, and there are countless sweets" are now impressively "independent", with a conspicuous logo hanging unabashedly to attract attention. The reappearance of "Love CP" made Xia Yuan felt cold for a while, and subconsciously turned his head to look at the door of the room. After confirming that there was no figure of his lover, he sighed and closed the door.

Back then, as a campus couple with Qin Jie, Xia Yuan knew that he had never been as invested and enjoyed as Qin Jie, which was why he felt guilty and even embarrassed when facing Qin Jie.

Now I am with the lover who lives with me, the man who occupies all my love, although the other party has never asked about the things in college after the two separated, but every time Xia Yuan asked his colleagues about Qin Jie's current situation, the other party's It is estimated that there is some displeasure hidden under the expressionless look.

Gao Ling and Qin Jie have never met each other since Qin Jie came to the country, and Gao Ling never mentioned this sensitive name in front of him. Xia Yuan is grateful, he knows this harmonious and peaceful life today, whether it is For Gao Ling or him, they are the most cherished.

Qin Jie returned to China and became a university teacher, and became a colleague with himself. Xia Yuan was surprised, but he was also a little relieved because he saw Qin Jie's current good condition with his own eyes.

So, after having dinner with Qin Jie at the western restaurant for the first time and returning home, he told Gao Ling that Qin Jie had returned and that the two had met.

Gao Ling nodded, patted the nervous Xia Yuan's head, and just said: "That's pretty good, it would be even better if you let go more."

I thought that the other party would be silent as usual, but I didn't expect to get such a response.

In an instant, the person who was usually not easy to let go fell into the arms of his lover, tightly pressed against his thick chest, and the sound of a strong heartbeat seemed to turn into the most pleasant music, making him unwilling to stay away.

"Gao Ling, thank you..."

Even Gao Ling was taken aback by throwing his always cold lover into his arms, and a soft thank you made this rough and crazed man very sad.

"You, you like to hold everything on yourself. I obviously left without saying goodbye. Why do you still look like you owe me after all these years. There are others around you, even if I feel unhappy, I have no reason to blame anyone , it’s because I don’t know how to cherish it myself.”

Gao Ling slightly tightened his arms, and hugged the person in front of him tightly. Although he found Xia Yuan again after he was discharged from the army and had a fierce argument with him, in the end, Gao Ling Relying on his position in Xia Yuan's heart, and Xia Yuan's guilt that he didn't want to deceive Qin Jie again, he was able to win him back to his side.

But the fool next to him was always worried that he would mind the past between him and Qin Jie, of course he would be jealous, seeing that he was always silently paying attention to the ex-boyfriend who had gone far away, he was obviously not a sociable person, But he never misses any opportunity to insinuate others about the other party.

Thinking of this, Gao Ling couldn't help but reveal his sincerity to Xia Yuan, and Xia Yuan's heart agitated even more when he heard Gao Ling's words. These two people have lived a life like an old married couple, ordinary but stable , Sometimes Xia Yuan felt that when he fell in love with Gao Ling when he was a student, he was desperate when he fell in love with Gao Ling, and he was at a loss when he was thrown away by his lover without warning, and when his ex-boyfriend reappeared, he collapsed and lost control, as if they were all from his previous life. matter.

As for Qin Jie, Xia Yuan even thought that the reason why he couldn't let go of him so much was not only guilt, but also the reason to remind those past events to be real. Let go of the past.

"So, will you leave suddenly?"

A muffled voice came from his chest, and the tall man's body stiffened for a few seconds, and then he hugged the person in his arms even harder. This time, it was not sour, but heartache.

"No, I swear, there will never be a second time."

Xia Yuan has always been a restrained person, and those who know him well know that his cool appearance is only superficial, but in fact he is shy and even a little cowardly. Gao Ling knows that his courage is probably spent on liking a man...

Thinking of this, Gao Ling let go of his arms, and Xia Yuan, who had been buried in Gao Ling's chest, also sat up straight, while the man who had just made the oath lifted his chin, and fixed him somewhat forcefully. Sight.

"Yuanyuan, it seems that I still haven't done well enough to make you unable to trust me, is it?"

As soon as Gao Ling called his nickname, Xia Yuan's fair face began to turn red a little bit, and he began to regret asking so straightforwardly, such a question made him feel like a little girl .

"No, I just occasionally think about the past, and I will..."

would be afraid, Xia Yuan sighed faintly, but he still couldn't say it.

"Yuanyuan, we haven't had a good talk about those things. I understand that when you were willing to be with me again, you didn't really forgive me. In fact, you wanted that person to give up completely and let him start a new life. "

Xia Yuan looked at Gao Ling in surprise. When he said this, Gao Ling had a rare smile on his face, but Xia Yuan could see the helplessness and bitterness inside. He was even more surprised. This rough man also had a delicate, Sensitive side.

It turned out that the reason why he cared about Gao Ling's past was not the fact that he had been with others, but because he might have only agreed to get back together because of Qin Jie.

After figuring out the truth, Xia Yuan stretched out his hand to caress Gao Ling's face. The red tide on his face had receded, and he returned to his cool and beautiful appearance, but his eyes were red and his voice trembled slightly: "Gao Ling, only You make me want to be with a man for the rest of my life regardless of everything. It is precisely because of this that I feel more guilty towards Qin Jie and I don’t want to delay him. Therefore, it is not because of him that I choose to get back together with you, but because I want to be with you, so I hope that Qin Jie will live a better life, because I am afraid that what I owe to Qin Jie will one day repay us... I am actually selfish, am I not?"