if you serious you lose

Walking out of the dean's office, Qin Jie was still immersed in the academic discussion just now. Professor Zhou commented on some of the topic ideas he proposed. A lot of valuable opinions made Qin Jie give more new ideas. The three people came and went, which made him feel that they not only provided a clear direction for solving some important problems of his research, but also saw the Only scholars who have accumulated for many years will have the demeanor.

Returning to his desk, Qin Jie didn't dare to delay for a moment. He recorded the inspiration that had just been inspired. He seemed to have a clear idea of ​​the topic that had been brewing for a semester. He knew that he would be able to really carry out the research topic soon. preliminary plan.

The person who was typing on the computer quickly ignored the time until someone came to the table before he raised his head and saw Wang Qi with an inscrutable expression.

"Xiao Qin, you are so awesome. You have been with the dean's office for so long. The bosses seem to really like you. Oh, stop writing. It's time, we have to go to Howard Johnson for company." .”

Qin Jie was a little embarrassed by Wang Qi's teasing, but he saved the file in a hurry, turned off the phone and left with his colleagues, and walked out of the courtyard. He followed Wang Qi to a car, only to find several cars parked around They've all gone.

"Brother Wang, can't I be the only one who is late?"

Seeing the situation around him, Qin Jie thought about it and didn't see anyone all the way down the courtyard, so he became a little nervous.

"Haha, that's not true. When we left, the dean asked where you were. Someone wanted to go to the office to call you, but Professor Zhou said that he would let you come over when we were eating, so I won't bother you. Do you think you are losing face?" ?”

Seeing Qin Jie's complicated facial expressions, Wang Qi opened the car door and frightened him. After getting into the car, he found Qin Jie's listless look, so he said with a smile.

"Okay, it scared you, so I just played it up casually, and you were scared. The atmosphere was very harmonious at that time. Did you discuss your subject with them in the office before? Professor Zhou guessed that you were doing this. I just told you to come later. They have other associate professors and professors to accompany them around the campus. Are you still missing? Show your performance at the wine table later, fine you a drink, and you’ll be fine. Anyone with a discerning eye can see that Professor Zhou appreciates it you."

"Thank you, Brother Wang, I see. I just plunged into it and completely forgot about the rest of the journey. Fortunately, you are here."

Qin Jie still cared about his negligence. Although he talked and laughed with Wang Qi along the way, he was still uneasy. When he pushed open the door of the private room and saw people talking and laughing at the dining table, he still felt a little palpitating.

"Xiao Qin is here, sit here, what's the matter, did the writing go well?"

It was none other than Professor Zhou who was the first to notice Qin Jie. As soon as he opened his mouth, more than a dozen pairs of eyes shot over him, and Qin Jie hurriedly bowed down to apologize.

"Professor Zhou, all leaders and colleagues, I'm really sorry that I'm late. I was really writing about the subject research just now. Thanks to the guidance of you and the dean, Professor Zhou, I suddenly got some inspiration and suddenly forgot the business. I'm so sorry."

"What nonsense, haha, you are the business, don't be restrained, everyone is engaged in research, understand, sit down and eat something."

Qin Jie really felt Professor Zhou's "preference" for him. While being grateful, he remembered what Wang Qi said in the car. Regardless of his drinking capacity, he said that he would punish himself for three drinks to express his apology, and took up his own glass , took the white wine from the waiter who was in charge of pouring the wine, and under the watchful eyes of the whole table, he poured it down one cup after another. After the third cup was finished, he reiterated his apology for being late, and everyone applauded , and the atmosphere in the room warmed up again.

As soon as Qin Jie sat back on the chair, Wang Qi cared close to Qin Jie's ear and asked him if he could hold on. In fact, Wang Qi had a certain understanding of Qin Jie's inability to drink too much during the previous dinners. Today, he just prodded him casually, but he didn't expect this kid to care so much that he actually relapsed. Seeing Qin Jie's movements obviously becoming vain, he began to worry whether the baijiu's stamina would be too strong.

"Brother Wang, it's okay. It's not too late. I'll just eat something and take it easy."

Wang Qi hurriedly served Qin Jie rice, a lot of vegetables, and a bowl of hot soup, and told him to drink it, and then turned to talk to other colleagues in F University.

At this time, Qin Jie actually felt a little fluttering. He should not drink so much on weekdays, but the liquor has a high alcohol content, so he didn’t dare to drink it himself. It was multiplied, but he still felt that it was not to the point where he would make a fool of himself, but he absolutely couldn't drink anymore, which was considered a critical point.

Qin Jie, who made his debut, chose to eat in a low-key manner. Fortunately, he came late, his qualifications were low, and he was seated in an inconspicuous corner. The leaders and the seniors seemed to forget his "disrespect" and were busy Competing with each other and toasting each other, leaving these small characters to communicate their feelings by themselves, this allowed him to successfully avoid the possibility of continuing to drink.

After eating this meal for a full two hours, the leaders of the F University visiting group went directly upstairs to the hotel room to rest. The friends had their own itineraries, and after saying hello to Wang Qi, Qin Jie hailed a taxi and prepared to go back to the office.

Since foreign vehicles cannot directly enter the compound area, Qin Jie had to let the driver park on the inner ring road behind the compound, got out of the car, and walked slowly facing the sun at two o'clock in the afternoon. The supposedly fierce sunshine became warmer, and the alcohol in his body became active. Qin Jie even closed his eyes and walked lazily on the deserted avenue.

"You really haven't changed at all."

The relaxed brain suddenly received the signal of the human voice, Qin Jie suddenly opened his eyes wide and turned his head quickly.

"Did it scare you, haha, long time no see, Xiaojie."

How many years?For a moment, Qin Jie couldn't remember how long he hadn't seen the man in front of him, and it took him several seconds to coincide with the impression he retrieved from his memory.

"Xiao Yun, long time no see."

Looking at Qin Jie's flushed cheeks, Xiao Yun noticed the mist in his eyes even though his tone of voice was steady and his expression was calm at the moment, which reminded him of Qin Jie who was woken up by himself after his afternoon nap in high school, with the same expression , I couldn't help but move in my heart, and took a step forward.

Xiao Yun's sudden approach made Qin Jie take a big step back reflexively, his drunken body swayed for a while, but he was supported by someone who wanted to avoid him, and the distance between the two quickly narrowed. Feeling a little moved by the touch after so many years, he couldn't help but go further, but Qin Jie frowned and broke free from the confinement, while continuing to thank him in a flat tone.

"Thanks, I drank, you better not get so close, why are you here?"

Although the two broke up soon after entering university, Qin Jie always thought that Xiao Yun would stay in F City to develop. After all, the senior sister he was thinking of was from F City.

"I also went abroad later, and I just came back this year, and I plan to come back here to live in the future. What about you, I thought you would immigrate and stay there."

Xiao Yun smiled helplessly at Qin Jie's obvious resistance, but he still felt lucky to see Qin Jie here. Xiao Yun was a little surprised when he knew Qin Jie's country at the beginning. There is also a sense of loss.

"Well, I just came back last year too, so you're coming to S University today because of work?"

Hearing Xiao Yun's answer, Qin Jie had a strange feeling, but he didn't want to explore the other party's current life too much, and just wanted to say a few polite words before leaving.

Unexpectedly, Xiao Yun seemed to cherish this reunion very much. Not only did he not directly answer the reason for appearing in S University, but he also proposed to find a place to sit down and have a good chat, as if he would not let Qin Jie leave like this.

Anyway, being a classmate, thinking that meeting Xia Yuan at school back then was a big deal for him, so Qin Jie nodded and decided to take Xiao Yun to the office to have a casual chat, thinking in his heart that he would see that he still had money on hand. Work, shouldn't stay for long.

Because of the visit of the F University Academic Group, the other teachers in the office were not there. Qin Jie asked Xiao Yun to sit on the sofa for receiving guests, poured him a glass of warm water, and moved a chair to sit opposite him.

"Xiaojie, meeting you today made me suddenly feel like I believed in fate."

Xiao Yun, who took a sip of warm water, looked at Qin Jie who regarded him as an ordinary friend and was even a bit indifferent. He couldn't help feeling sad, but when he finally met again, the things that had been buried in his heart for many years seemed to spew out all of a sudden, which made him a little uncontrollable. I want to talk and confide in the place of residence.

That strange feeling reappeared, and Qin Jie shook his head, somewhat puzzled by Xiao Yun's words and deeds. Although he hadn't contacted him for many years, he was never someone who would say such things in his memory.

"Why do I think you're the one who's drunk? You haven't said what you're here for? Why don't you tell me?"

"If I said that I just came to your alma mater to see if I might meet you, would you believe me?"

"Xiao Yun...you, are you not married?"

Unconsciously glanced at Xiao Yun's fingers, Qin Jie asked.

Regarding Qin Jie's reaction, Xiao Yun smiled wryly, took another sip of water, and locked his eyes on Qin Jie who was frowning at the moment.

"I got divorced a few years ago, and now I don't have a girlfriend, let alone a boyfriend."

"I'm sorry that you couldn't go to the end with that senior sister, after all, you are really compatible."

What Qin Jie said was the truth. Although he proposed to break up at the beginning, although it was sour and painful, he was willing. Later, he thought that he sincerely wished Xiao Yun a normal and happy future. But today, when facing this first love again, the other party's With such an intimate and ambiguous attitude, and revealing such information, Qin Jie inexplicably felt a tinge of displeasure.

Xiao Yun was a little excited, he didn't want to hear such generous and alienated blessings from Qin Jie's mouth, although it's not good to bring up old things again, but he didn't want to see such a Qin Jie who didn't care about him.

"Xiaojie, I... I was an asshole at the beginning, and I have always regretted it all these years, so I dare not disturb your life easily. Zhou Lan and I were indeed together later, but we broke up in the end. Now she I already have my own happiness, and I have nothing to do with her at all."

With an excited tone and a leaning forward body, Xiao Yun gave up playing the role of an "ordinary friend" reunited after a long absence. He began to rush to express his true thoughts, but ignored the ability of the person he confides to.

"Xiao Yun, to be honest, I don't care what happened between you and that senior sister. In fact, your current relationship status has nothing to do with me. If you just want to catch up with old classmates, that's fine, but If you want to talk about other things, I'm sorry, I think it's all in the past, so don't get entangled."

The feeling of headache became more and more obvious, Qin Jie desperately restrained his urge to press his temples, and kept sitting upright, all he wanted was to quickly dispel those thoughts that Xiao Yun might have, not to mention whether his tone of voice was strong or not.

"No, Xiaojie, you're still blaming me. It's okay. I've already thought it through. I've always loved you. It's just that I couldn't help but admit my true sexual orientation from the eyes of the society. But over the years, I've grown up, and I've always loved you." I have awakened, and now I have the ability and confidence to give you a stable promise, as long as you give me another chance."

He still said it out, Qin Jie was already shouting in his heart, this embarrassment made him only feel angry, no matter how unpleasant the reason for the separation at the beginning, Qin Jie was more willing to stay in the ethereal innocence and beauty of his first love, but Xiao Yun If so, it completely crushes all of this...