if you serious you lose

It was less than seven o'clock when Qin Jie returned home, and he declined Yan Zhilu's invitation to have dinner, even though he was hungry at this time.

When he came to the kitchen, he took out a small pot to boil hot water, and finally found a box of instant noodles after rummaging through boxes and cabinets. Qin Jie skillfully tore open the package, looked at the still cold water in the pot, and stood there in a daze.

It wasn't until the boiling water made the lid of the pot squeak that Qin Jie came back to his senses. While starting to go down, he casually glanced at his kitchen. Now the place is no longer as lonely as it used to be. And all of this is thanks to Yan Zhili's cooking as a guest last time.

Thinking of this, Qin Jie turned off the fire, opened the refrigerator and took out an egg, smashed it into the noodles, and added the matching seasonings. In the kitchen, Qin Jie stood directly in front of the stove and started eating.

Obviously spending the weekend with his lover, and his boyfriend is also a good cook, but now he would rather huddle in the kitchen and eat instant noodles alone. Qin Jie can only shake his head at such a self, and continue with the shabby dinner.

In various senses, Qin Jie felt that today was a little unsatisfactory, and the discussion about Lin Yuan in the car ended in nothing, because the aura emanating from Yan Zhilu's body told him that Lin Yuan You don't need to intervene in things.

And this directly led to the final unhappiness between the two.

However, Qin Jie didn't intend to take what he heard in the afternoon as a passing memory. Lin Yuan's experience reminded him too much of the past, things that he once thought he had forgotten.

Although there is no obsession with the object of his first love, the lessons he has learned are unforgettable, so Qin Jie only hopes to help Lin Yuan a little bit, and if possible, let him stop wasting his years on a straight man.

However, it is actually very difficult to implement unilateral wishes. After all, Qin Jie has never met the person Lin Yuan has a crush on. Based on Lin Yuan's narration alone, he cannot judge whether this person is really worth waiting for. The possibility of getting more information from Zhilu was also lost, and he felt powerless for a while.

In any case, Qin Jie's mind seems to be occupied by Lin Yuan's affairs, and he is also happy to do so. As for Yan Zhilu's still suspicious behaviors, Qin Jie has been tired of pursuing. He thinks that he should give himself and him freedom There are some things, some truths, that only time can reveal...

Qin Jie, who ate only instant noodles for dinner, finally had a more comfortable night than he had imagined. However, after sending Qin Jie home, he came to "Relief of Worry" again.

After a phone call, Lin Yuan walked out of the teahouse slowly, and instead of letting the caller go up to the second floor, he came to the off-road vehicle by himself. Seeing the tall figure with his back to him, he took the initiative to say hello.

"Good evening, Master Li."

When Yan Zhilu turned around, Lin Yuan realized that he was holding a lighted cigarette in his hand, and after exhaling a puff of smoke, he responded with a deeper and hoarse voice than usual.

"Lin Yuan, I'll give you something back."

After speaking, he took out a photo from his pocket. Lin Yuan stared at himself and Yan Zhilu in the photo, but he didn't reach out to take it immediately, and the other party continued to maintain the original action patiently.

"Yan Er, give me one too."

His long and narrow eyes narrowed, Yan Zhili put the cigarette in his mouth in his mouth, took out a new cigarette and lighter from his pocket, lit it with his own hands, and then handed it over. Lin Yuan in the circle, he pulled the corner of his mouth with a delicate expression.

"I thought you quit smoking. Didn't he say he doesn't like people who smell like cigarettes?"

Ignoring the mocking man, Lin Yuan turned around and leaned on the car to look towards the second floor of the teahouse just like Yan Zhilu.

"No one is here, so what's the use of smelling good on me?"

"Sorry……"

The sudden apology didn't surprise Lin Yuan. The two smoked side by side, surrounded by the choking smoke. Their vision became hazy, and they couldn't see the closed window clearly. Lin Yuan's mood changed instead. easy.

"Sorry for what? You don't even want to keep a picture now, so you just want to wipe the past clean? Yan Er, is it a little serious?"

The slightly sharp words made the usually gentle person around him look a bit cold, and the skillful smoking of a cigarette broke the soft and beautiful image all the time. The words are clear, and in a sense, this kind of Lin Yuan is more real.

"No, you misunderstood, I just think you need this picture more than I do. After all, I don't need it to miss someone."

"Haha, Yan Er, don't you feel that you are contradictory? Last time who advised me to give up as soon as possible, but now it seems to continue to support me. Let me guess, I guess this photo is what Qin Jie came to look for today My inducement, he suspects that the person I like is you."

Speaking of this, Lin Yuan laughed loudly. He wore an indigo blue gown and silver-rimmed glasses. Even though he was holding a cigarette, his elegant posture still attracted the attention of many passers-by, but the exaggerated appearance of bending over with laughter was unavoidable It gave people a strange impression.

Yan Zhilu extinguished the fireworks, threw the cigarette butt into the trash can, and returned to Lin Yuan again, holding the photo.

"If Qin Jie hadn't seen it by accident, I wouldn't even remember this photo. Compared with your intention to remember that person, I might cherish the good memories with you in the photo more. Lin Yuan, I will return the photo to you. You, just want to have a conclusion. Why did you leave the photo with me at the beginning? You know the reason best. Regarding his feelings, I admit that I used to be willing, but now, I hope to treat him as ordinary Big brother, big brother, and you, I also want to focus more on my friendship with you. I always have an expectation that you don’t need to look at that person, and you will show the expression in the photo.”

Lin Yuan closed his eyes, took a few deep puffs of the cigarette, then threw it into the trash can, and then reached out to take the photo.

"You have said that, what else can I do, I appreciate your kindness, I am sorry, I made you do a lot of stupid things at the beginning, I know, I said it was willing, but in fact it was just connivance to me, your heart It has always been empty, and no one has been filled in, so I have room to temporarily store someone for me. However, if it is full of Qin Jie now, then I will learn to bless, as long as you are sure you You will like him, and have nothing to do with that person, not because you have habitually liked this type of people over the years... After all, in the beginning, you would provoke Qin Jie only because he looks like Big Brother Chu."

In the conversation with Lin Yuan, the existence was always concealed. Now that he speaks out about that person without hesitation, he must have let go of a lot of obsessions with himself. It's just playing a game of finding a substitute. Although it won't really be with the other party, it is an immature pastime in the final analysis.

Ironically, at the beginning, Lin Yuan's game object was himself.

Yan Zhilu knew that Lin Yuan didn't come to him because he had any similarities with Big Brother Chu, and because of this, they soon ended that strange relationship.

"I admit that when I first saw him in the teahouse, I felt familiar, but later, I never thought of Brother Chu during the time I was with him."

"Since that's the case, I won't mention that person anymore. There is no need for him between you and Qin Jie."

After Lin Yuan finished speaking, he patted Yan Zhilu on the shoulder, and walked towards the teahouse with the photo. Yan Zhilu watched him stop under the wooden signboard, and the shaking sign began to clang again, but this time Lin Yuan just reached out and touched the signboard, and then pushed open the door, the habit of always staying in the past was no longer there.

After a while, the light came on in the window on the second floor, and Lin Yuan appeared in Yan Zhili's sight again. This time, he waved the photo in his hand, as if telling Yan Zhili to leave quickly , The two looked at each other and smiled, and it seemed that something was relieved.

Leaning against the window sill, Lin Yuan closed his eyes, and stopped following the trail of the black off-road vehicle. The scene of playing with the law of words when he was young appeared in his mind. Sometimes, he couldn't understand it. It was Yan Zhili who had been in touch, why didn't he fall in love with him, Yan Zhili indulged himself in every possible way since he was a child, and finally chose someone else.

There was still a bit of bitterness in his mouth, and Lin Yuan was a little bit unsatisfied with the residual smell of smoke after many years. He licked his lips, even sniffed the finger that had caught the cigarette, something slowly came out of his heart, and turned off the cigarette. Under the light in the tea room, Lin Yuan unfastened the exquisite button on his collar, and tore open his front. His delicate skin glowed white under the hazy moonlight, but a ferocious scar was It is a pity that life and death blocked the beautiful scene.

However, Lin Yuan just closed his eyes and gently stroked the mottled mottled things, with incomparable nostalgia and aftertaste.

The darkness, the cigarettes, and the scar on his chest, all belong to the former Lin Yuan, that person, that dazzling man pulled him out of the quagmire little by little, washed away the filth from his body, and soothed his frightened heart , then praise him with the most beautiful words, leading him into a world of elegance and refinement.

The light, the fragrance of tea, and the hidden residence in the busy city are all left to him by that person. However, Lin Yuan understands that even if he is soaked in fresh tea soup, surrounded by light fragrance, or obsessed with simple and elegant gowns , Sven glasses, the desire in the heart can only be easily awakened by a few sips of nicotine, after all, the vulgarity and vulgarity engraved in the depths of the soul cannot be erased.

Lin Yuan, who was immersed in memories, punched him hard, at the position close to his heart. This kind of cognition made him angry and made him feel at a loss. The charm is a simple and light character, however, no matter how you package it, it will only prove to be a disguise in the end.

Opening his eyes, Lin Yuan looked at the photo returned to him. The shy self with his head bowed smiled so sweetly, but it was because the person who took the photo said to him: "Xiao Yuan, you are really beautiful."