I'm a scumbag

When Ye Luo followed Ye Yunjin's stretcher, she gave Gu Pansheng a hard look at the paralyzed Gu Pansheng. The cruel look in her eyes did not match her usual innocent image.

Gu Pansheng secretly squatted at the base of the outer wall of Yunsiyuan for several hours. It was not until the sky was dim that the gate of Yunsiyuan was pushed open with a creak, and Xiaoba led the gray-haired doctor out from inside. .

Xiao Ba was taken aback when he saw Gu Pansheng squatting in the corner, and asked, "Master, have you stayed here all night?"

Gu Pansheng raised his bloodshot eyes, and when he saw clearly that it was Xiao Ba, he stood up suddenly, staggered towards Xiao Ba, and his voice was hoarse when he spoke, "Master, how is it?"

Xiao Ba supported Gu Pansheng, who was still standing still, and said, "Young master didn't hurt his muscles and bones, but he suddenly developed a fever at Zishi, and he receded at Yinshi, and now he took medicine and fell asleep."

Gu Pansheng's eyes turned red again after hearing Xiaoba's words, and he said, that's good.

If he's fine, that's fine.

Afterwards, he patted Xiao Ba on the shoulder, and walked crookedly towards Ting Feng Yuan, staggering a few steps, like a broken doll without a backbone.

Seeing this, Xiao Ba hurried up to help him, he smiled palely at Xiao Ba, and said it's okay, you can go see the old man.

Looking at Gu Pansheng's thinning figure, Xiao Ba sighed softly and said, the road ahead may become more and more difficult, the young master will not be able to hold back his wife in the end.

After Gu Pansheng returned to Tingfengyuan, he suddenly loosened his strength, his stomach churned, he coughed violently, and finally vomited a big mouthful of blood.

He really doesn't want to stay here anymore, it's really easy to die early...

Who can tell him, what should he do?

He hunched his back and walked towards the old peach tree. He staggered suddenly and fell unexpectedly. The porcelain doll given to him by the lamp shop boy rolled out, and he patted the dirt on his body. , went to pick up the doll, but the moment his hand touched it, he was dazzled by a dazzling white light.

He subconsciously closed his eyes, and when he opened them again after adapting to the strong light, what appeared in front of his eyes was no longer his dilapidated Tingfeng Garden, but a magnificent Jinluan Palace.

There were two people standing in the main hall, one was about thirty years old, his handsome appearance and tall figure gave him a majestic and imperial air.And the other one, who was only three or four years old, was exquisitely carved and very lovely.

The man led the child to the side of the golden throne, hugged him and sat on it.

When Gu Pansheng saw this, his eyes turned red instantly. This man was his father who passed away when he was five years old.And that child was my childhood self.This scene, I actually don't remember it for a long time.

He walked over and wanted to call out to his father, but found that his throat was tight. He stretched out his hand to grab his father's robe, and passed through his body with ease.

Only then did he realize that all of this was an illusion.

Father lovingly helped him find a comfortable position on the huge dragon chair, stroked his hair and asked, "Yan'er, is this chair comfortable?"

He twisted his butt awkwardly, pouted and said, "Uncomfortable! Yan'er thinks it's too hard! It's not as soft and comfortable as Yan'er's bedroom."

Father didn't annoy him, but patiently patted his head and said, "This is not an ordinary chair, it's a kind of responsibility. If you sit on it, it means that the fortunes and misfortunes of thousands of households in Northern Qi will be tied to it." No matter how uncomfortable it is, you can’t easily say it’s hard, you know?”

He seemed to understand but nodded.

Father smiled lovingly at him, "Yan'er is so good. When Father gives you this dragon chair, you have to act like a man and don't get tired easily, you know?"

He nodded heavily, "Yan'er wants to be a man like the father."

Gu Pansheng couldn't help crying loudly beside him, and nodded his head heavily.

The father went on to say, "The first thing Yan'er has to do is to learn to be patient, to be patient in everything, the essence of the so-called forbearance is like this, and the second thing is to be open-minded. , if you are a king, if you want to be able to accommodate these thousands of miles of rivers and mountains, the third thing is to learn to enjoy loneliness..."

"Lonely?" He raised his furry head curiously, and looked at his father in confusion, "What is loneliness?"

"Loneliness means that there is no one around you who tells the truth, who treats you sincerely, or even who truly loves you..."

"I don't want it!" He shook his head vigorously, "It's too scary, my son doesn't want it."

"Little Yan, when you grow up, you will understand that the prerequisite for a person to be invincible and invincible is to be ruthless and loveless. As an emperor, this is even more so. Too much affection will only lead you and your country to the abyss of hell." ..."

He nodded ignorantly, then lifted his father's neck and said, "Father, my son is hungry... I want to eat the glutinous rice balls cooked by my father."

Father shook his head helplessly, picked him up carefully, and walked out of the palace gate.

Gu Pansheng also walked out, suddenly this white light flashed past again, he blinked and found himself back in Tingfeng Garden.

He fell to his knees with a plop, choked with sobs and could hardly speak, "Father... Empress, the child really made a mistake again this time, and the mistake was outrageous...

"Son...I'm sorry for Beiqi, I'm sorry for the thousands of people in Northern Qi Dynasty, I'm sorry for my mother, and I'm even more sorry for my father's entrustment."

The sudden rain fell, and the bean-sized raindrops slammed on his body, quickly soaking his clothes.

Hurriedly past the gate of the courtyard, all the maids and servants were handymen working in the backyard. Some of them were still complaining loudly, how the weather was so good, and suddenly it began to rain. ...

But only Gu Pansheng knew that this was not an evil sect, it was his father, queen and empress persuading him to let go.

Let go of all the thoughts about what he has, what he should have and what he should not have.Break those warm and cold, happy and sad dreams.

……

In the afternoon, someone from Yingluo Garden said that the eldest lady was waiting for him in the back garden and had something important to do.

Gu Pansheng was very tired just now, so he slept for a while, but now he looked much better, he replied, I got it, I will go right away.

But my heart was pounding, the people of Ye Mansion today wished they had nothing to do with him at all, Ye Luo must also know that Madam doesn't want him to get close to her again, if he goes, I don't know what kind of uproar it will cause... …

The author has something to say:

Just now, the computer suddenly crashed, I, did not, saved, saved,

So angry!My memory is not good recently, and my hair is falling out badly. I don't even remember what Ye Luo said to him. I typed from memory...

(you are not allowed to laugh)