black offering

50.

Moving, is it useful?

The answer is no.

From when I went out to when I bought a ticket, someone has been reporting the real-time situation. They are blatantly under my nose, staring at me, taking pictures with their mobile phones, typing, as long as they see me looking at them, they will soon disappears.

I can't laugh or cry.

What I am facing is a huge surveillance group that can change and move at any time. As long as I still face this face, it is impossible for me to get out of the surveillance range.

The house has not been moved, but no one has done anything blatantly.

It could also have something to do with how little I go out.

But I clearly know that right here, in this community, there are many pairs of eyes staring at me every day.

Every time An Zechen came, the first thing he did was to close the curtains, all the curtains were closed in all places, and the light in the room was not good, so he turned on all the lights.

Su Qin would look at An Zechen quietly at this time.

An Zechen would bring a book and tell Su Qin stories, fairy tales, love, family affection, and all kinds of things in the world, but Su Qin didn't respond every time.

When Su Qin and I are alone, I still prefer to open all the curtains, feed Su Qin, reward him with kisses, and then put him on the balcony to bask in the sun. The sick people are kept indoors, really not good.

If someone is watching, I will let him watch.

I dragged a chair, and heard the noisy voices coming from all directions in my ears. Su Qin slightly tugged at the corner of my clothes, turned his ears sideways, and listened to me intently.

Most of what I said was irrelevant topics.

I don't look at the eyes in the building opposite, and I don't want to pay attention to the garbage dumped in front of my house every day.

Su Qin has not talked to himself for a long time, and of course he has not spoken. Generally speaking, he has made great progress.

Half a month passed in a trance like this.

In June, I opened the door early in the morning, and saw a face that I least expected, least wanted, and most frightened.

My heart stopped beating suddenly, my first reaction was to run away, but I didn't, I took a deep breath, held on to the doorknob stiffly, and stared at his face silently.

He still looked the same, handsome, charming, with a natural good face, he didn't move or speak, but his expression was very cold, as cold as the two years I left, he was always Chilled in the refrigerator.

That breath is simply freezing to death.

However, I, Shen Mo, don't seem to owe you anything, so I don't deserve your expression.

I took the milk as if nothing had happened, and I was going to close the door.

I thought this man would stop him, but he didn't, I was going to close the door, and it was so easy to close.

I stared at the door and was stunned.

I don't know jackdaws.

Whether it was before or now, I don't understand.

In the past, he claimed to be my lover, and later I found out the truth, but he never let me go. Until now, he suddenly came to the door, and he didn't know what it meant.

After I finished feeding Su Qin, I found a knock on the door.

I ignored it and carried Su Qin to the balcony.

When my aunt came in, she brought me a note.

"The gentleman standing outside asked me to give it to you. I asked him why he didn't come in. He said, 'The people inside don't want me to go in'. Sir... are you okay... ..." Aunt Xiao usually rarely asks about my affairs, but what happened recently has kept her on guard.

"Don't pay attention to him in the future." I instructed, and threw the note down from the balcony.

The next day I didn't even want to take milk, so I just fed Su Qin something in the morning, anyway, Su Qin didn't pick anything, I had something to worry about, so I fed slowly, and when the bread in my hand was taken away, I didn't have any reaction, When Su Qin finished eating by himself, I almost jumped up, "Su Qin?"

The person I called licked his fingers, raised his head, and shouted slightly tremblingly: "Shen Mo."

"You can eat by yourself! You just ate by yourself, right?" I was incoherent with excitement.

Su Qin spoke again, his eyes were ignorant, "Shen... Mo, Mo?"

The voice is also ignorant, that is, like a baby who has just learned to speak, and the speech speed is very slow.

I squeezed his shoulder excitedly, and replied repeatedly: "It's me, it's me, Su Qin, I'm Shen Mo."

The unspeakable feelings overwhelmed me for a moment, so I could only hug him and say, "Su Qin, Su Qin, Su Qin."

Do you know that now, my enemy has found me, he is blocking our door, he doesn't know what he is thinking in a gloomy way.

The moment I saw him yesterday, I even felt like I was dead.

I'm afraid of him, I've come to this point, but for you, I hold back.

It doesn't matter if someone spreads rumors, or someone observes me 24 hours a day, even now, I have been approached by the biggest threat, and I never thought about leaving.

But now, you are awake.

Can I just leave?

After waiting for a long time, the person in his arms did not move.

I looked down, only to see the person in my arms staring at me motionlessly, without speaking or moving, just like before, dull and clumsy, only with bright eyes.

This look...

Where does it seem to be awake?

I laughed at myself, my whole body became hot from laughing, am I going crazy?

Why, I feel that my space has been compressed so small that there is no place to breathe?

Why, am I hallucinating?

why?

why?

I smiled and touched Su Qin's face. It was smooth, but I always felt that something was missing.

"Su Qin, wake up, look at this world, look at An Zechen, look at me, wake up." I said with a smile.

The sun was projected from the balcony, and Su Qinan sat quietly on the cushioned, round seat without edges and corners, and looked at me quietly, her slender eyelashes divided into fine spots in her eyes.

Really like a doll.

But this doll is really (huh) quiet.

I suddenly thought of something, and asked unwillingly: "Su Qin, were you talking just now?"

"Su Qin? Answer me, okay?"

"It's been three months, why are you still refusing to talk to me? Are you blaming me?"

"Su Qin, don't blame me, forgive me, okay?"

......

I couldn't help lowering my head when I didn't get an answer.

disappointment......

I didn't even know why I was disappointed, but my heart was empty.

A finger suddenly touched my hair.I trembled all over, and I heard a voice, "Sad."

"What?" I looked up.

"Shen Mo..."

This time I could see clearly that this man was sitting in a chair, under the sun, his lips slightly opened and closed, and he said, "Don't, it's sad...sad."

Like a babbling child learning to speak, so the sound is contained in the lips.

But I felt something, bang, burning in my mind.

Probably because of my pause, the speaker was a little anxious, he held my cheek with his hands, and slowly pulled the corners of his mouth upwards, he said slowly: "Shen, Shen Mo, Shen Mo, don't... ..sad......"

"Do not be sad."

"laugh."

He speaks every single word, every single word, and looks like he is struggling.

I held his hand, and slowly raised the corners of my mouth, revealing a stiff smile, "Su Qin..."

Su Qin...

regained consciousness.

I'm not mistaken, Su Qin regained consciousness!

"Xiao Qin, eat this, it's good for your health." An Zechen poured water for Su Qin graciously while adding vegetables to the mountain of vegetables.

But the latter was obviously frightened, his movements were a little sluggish, and the hand holding the chopsticks did not move for a long time.

What Su Qin talked about most after waking up was hunger. We were afraid that he would not be able to eat the food at home, so we specially brought him out, and the things outside were very helpful to Su Qin.

"Zechen, don't scare him." I warned again.

An Zechen smiled embarrassedly, and helped Su Qin pick up a piece of meat with chopsticks, and put it in Su Qin's bowl.

There is a pile of food on the table. We are afraid that there will be too many people to scare Su Qin. We specially asked for a private room on a big table, which is full of food...all ordered by An Zechen.. ....It is a portion that twenty people can't finish.

Su Qin moved uncomfortably, but still picked up the chopsticks to eat.

Every time he took a bite, An Zechen's smile became bigger and brighter, as if he had eaten it into his stomach.

I am also happy, but I have no appetite recently.

So Su Qin was eating all the food on Nuo Da's table.

Su Qin's reaction is still relatively slow now, sometimes the same as before, but he will recognize people, he knows An Zechen, he knows Shen Mo, but for other people, he will... be afraid... ...to the point of trembling with fear, but he endured it, obviously frightened to the point of death, and would not run away, just like a prey that has been frightened silly in the mouth of a tiger.

After the follow-up visit, the doctor said that Su Qin still needs a long time to guide him.

Su Qin was halfway through eating, and even took a chopstick from his own bowl and gave it to me.

"Shen Mo, eat... dishes..."

I'm really flattered.

Su Qin's appetite is small, so he can't eat much.

When closing the bill, I met Jackdaw.

He was actually standing at the end of the corridor in the private room where I was. He seemed to have been waiting for a long time. He was dressed in a neat and formal manner. He looked like he was attending a dinner party and left halfway.

I couldn't leave without squinting, so when I staggered, I still glanced at him.

Jackdaw grabbed my shoulder: "It's been three years, have you had enough fun?"

I sneered, slid back, grabbed the opponent's hand instead, and broke it hard.

The sound of bones breaking could be clearly heard, but this person didn't seem to feel any pain at all, and looked at me with cold eyes.

I turn around and leave.

Jackdaw grabbed my hand.

I broke his other hand again.

Jackdaw said behind my back: "Shen Mo, don't let me force you."

...This sentence is too ambiguous.

It’s almost as if he has never forced me before, but I don’t want to point out one by one. In fact, there are some things that everyone understands clearly, but they just want a reason to support their actions. That reason is bullshit and against reality, but if you are strong enough, you can impose it on others.

But, sorry, I, Shen Mo, don't like this.

"Su Qin, Deng Xing, An Zechen, Lan Lin, Fan Fan, Xu Yunfeng, who do you want them to die first?"

The icy cold voice pierced through my body like a snake.

I stopped and asked, "What do you think?"

This can be regarded as a naked threat, but I, Shen Mo, what else is worthy of your threat?

What are you trying to take from me?

love?blood?Or... life?

I can't figure it out at all.

It seems that none of them are worth it, you Jackdaw is a rich patron, if you stretch out your hand, I don't know how many people are holding their lives to come to you, waiting for you to stab with a knife.

It doesn't matter if I'm one less.

"What I want is for you to come back to me."

......

I raised my chin coldly and let out an unruly pooh.

This is probably the coldest and most disgusting love sentence I have ever heard.

I walked away, staggered away, went down a flight of stairs, and then stopped, turned around and looked directly at the jackdaw, "Han, I'm afraid of you, but if you dare to touch any of them ,I want you to die."

Jackdaw still stood at the stairs with a cold face, not knowing what he was thinking.

I was nasty, and raised my middle finger at him.