black offering

I went downstairs and came back with the courier ingredients. The person sitting on the sofa was still motionless, half of his clothes had been taken off, and half of his shoulders were exposed. He saw me, moved slightly, and focused his eyes on me. body.

"Is it cold?" I asked.

Su Qin didn't respond, and looked at me blankly, looking thoughtful.

I put down the things in my hand, found out the fresh milk inside, opened it, and fed him. He also opened his mouth, not refusing to eat as An Zechen said.

But the food intake is very small, he just drank half a bottle of 250ml milk and he was unwilling to swallow it. I fed it to him, and he kept it in his mouth.

After feeding, help him take off his clothes completely, and take him to the bathroom to take a bath. During the whole process, this person is very obedient, he can't speak, he won't resist, and he is very obedient.

I took it out after washing, it was probably a bit cold, the person in my arms was shivering, I hurried to turn on the air conditioner, but I heard the person in my arms talking in a low voice tremblingly, I couldn’t hear the content clearly, his eyes were empty, I don’t know Recalling which episode, the whole person is a little crazy.

"Remember what?" I asked.

Su Qin paused for a moment, looked up at me, lowered his head and began to whisper again.

"You don't want to tell me?"

Still ignore me.

I stretched out my arms to wrap my arms around him, exerted a little force in my arms, and said to him: "Su Qin, you should talk to me occasionally, otherwise how pitiful I am alone."

The person in his arms suddenly started crying.

The sound of sobbing and sobbing was really blocked, and I couldn't yell at such a person. After hugging him stiffly for a while, Su Qin stopped crying. I looked down and found that he was tired from crying and fell asleep. I fell asleep, with hands like dry branches, tightly grasping my clothes, even if I fell asleep, I would not forget it.

Put the person on the bed, prepare the medicine, wake him up as gently as possible, feed him the medicine, and tell him to sleep for a while, and I will prepare lunch.

I don't know how to take care of people, but I have to be careful with such a person.

The disease he had was a comprehensive debilitating disease. Although his lower limbs were intact, it was difficult to stand up most of the time.

Lunch was barely ready, the doorbell rang, and I was about to open the door when I saw An Zechen taking off his shoes at the entrance.

There is only one comment when I see the dishes I cook, "Let's hire a nanny to cook."

I watched from the side as An Zechen called Su Qin up from the bed, hugged him to the table, picked up the bowl upright, picked up a chopstick that was still passable, tasted it himself, and then fed it to Su Qin .

But Su Qin turned his head and avoided it.

Hey again, I stopped hiding, but I didn't open my mouth either.

An Zechen smiled and said, "I still don't want to eat."

I panicked in my heart, picked up the bowls and chopsticks in a panic, picked up something casually, and fed it to Su Qin's mouth. The person who just refused to cooperate, opened his mouth so smoothly, without even chewing. In one go, he swallowed it directly.

He doesn't know anyone else, but he still remembers me deeply, and he can't forget me even after he has become like this.

An Zechen and I were silent.

"Xiao Qin, you have to chew your food, do you know ten times?" An Zechen asked with concern.

Su Qin didn't even look at him.

I repeated An Zechen's words, and fed him another mouthful, and he would chew mechanically. An Zechen smiled happily.

After feeding Su Qin in a hurry, An Zechen took him to watch TV. However, Su Qin's dull eyes were looking at me, and he looked at me wherever I was. His eyes were obviously weightless, but The heavy one gave me an urge to hide.

In the afternoon I took Su Qin to bask in the sun, An Zechen answered the phone and left.

The next day, a nanny was sent over. She spoke little and did things quickly, but Su Qin had the same attitude towards all strangers, resentment.

I don't know why it became like this. My aunt's surname is Xiao. Aunt Xiao usually comes in the morning and leaves at night. She is only responsible for cleaning and cooking.

Su Qin is still my care.

An Zechen would come here occasionally, but not very often. Su Qin's condition did not improve from the beginning to the end. A month later, we moved once and walked on the street. , his footsteps trembled slightly, but he never stopped.

I seldom go out, as long as I pass by the camera, it will be disposed of by An Zechen.

026 has basically been disbanded.

Dengxin came once and told me that Xu Yunfeng was taken back by his family, Lan Lin and Fan Fan were taken in by other establishments, and he became a small employee, working as the backstage of a foreign trade company, and Liu Di went to drive a bus Went there, An Zechen was a thug for someone, and Su Qin...

That's probably what I saw.

Wick said a lot of things. I used to be lovers with Su Qin, but we also had good breakups. I can't say good things about my lovers, but they are definitely not bad. I should be considerate and considerate, and I should be ignorant.

At the end, Dengxin asked anxiously: "Boss, do you really want to take care of Su Qin?"

"Or else?" I asked with a smile.

"Actually...Chenchen and Su Qin...But Su Qin has never seen Chenchen's feelings, but he treats Chenchen differently from other people. What we don't know, he Tell Chenchen everything."

I hummed.

"It's actually quite good for Su Qin to do this."

"Are you blaming me too? I didn't love Su Qin at that time, but I wanted to provoke him. Some people have been in the dark for a long time, and they don't know how to let go when they see the light. The palms are burnt, and the flesh is burnt. , the bones have turned into ashes, and I don't know how to let go..." I ran my hand through the hair of the man who was sitting quietly, he was really quiet, as long as he was in my hand, he was very quiet. Quiet, unnaturally quiet.

"no......"

"Then you're blaming me for giving such a person in the dark a little sunshine, then cutting it off, and giving him a little more sunshine, just for fun."

Wick could not speak anymore, and stammered, "Boss, I didn't mean that."

"No, you mean that, so does An Zechen, and everyone else means that."

Dim Wick stood up and said uncomfortably: "Well, boss, I'll go back first, come back next time..."

I picked up Su Qin and asked him, "Are you hungry?"

Su Qin ignored me and just looked at me.

I looked at the door, and Su Qin followed me to look at the door. Lamp Wick was changing shoes. However, the moment Su Qin's gaze touched Lamp Wick, it turned into resentment.

Vicious, angry, with a lot of grievances and complaints.

Su Qin can't recognize people anymore, he doesn't even know the lamp wick.

But he wouldn't look at me that way, and he wouldn't look at An Zechen that way either.

An Zechen and I are special to Su Qin.

"Hey?"

As soon as I picked up the phone and said a word, I heard the call hang up.

This is the third harassing call I received today. I didn't answer it, but kept ringing. I answered, but the other party didn't speak.

An Zechen was cutting Su Qin's hair carefully. Su Qin wrapped a sheet around his neck and sat obediently on a chair on the balcony, letting An Zechen do what he did. The weather was getting warmer and the sun made him a little lazy. I Sitting next to Su Qin, let Su Qin hold my hand, but I fell asleep.

When I was about to fall asleep, the phone rang again. I was angry, picked up the phone and cursed, "You are fucking endless, if you call me again, you will call the police!"

"It's really you." The person on the phone said.

I almost threw the phone out!I will never forget this voice for the rest of my life, he is Han Siam!

"How did you find me?" My voice was steady and calm, but my heart was already in confusion. Han Xian knew that I was here, did it mean that Jackdaw already knew?

"It's easy to find you, and you're attending such an important party, it's hard not to know each other, Hua's bodyguard."

Sure enough, Hua Feitian shouldn't be left alone...

But who would have thought that so many things could happen just once.

"Don't worry, I'm not going to tell Jackdaw your whereabouts. Besides, Jackdaw has never looked for you." Han Xian's tone was arrogant and harsh.

I was annoyed, so I pointed it out and said, "You want to talk to me, please correct your attitude and come to me again."

Then hang up the phone directly.

An Zechen stopped what he was doing and looked at me in surprise. I shook my head and said lightly, "The creditor's watchdog has come."

An Zechen immediately said, "I'll book a ticket right away..."

I held him down and put his hand on Su Qin's body again, "No, no."

If it was useful, I wouldn't contact K either.

K is not a good person, not even Han Siam, they all have means to find out your location, just like Tarsus maggots, no matter how hard you struggle, you can't get rid of them.

There is one thing in common, they are all blood race.

In fact, I also discovered that since I stepped into the territory of the blood race, I can no longer completely cut off contact with the blood race, as if I have fallen into a strange circle, and I can't get out of it.

I just don't know what Han Siam wants this time.

Simply want to stimulate me, or simply want to destroy me.

The old tricks may not work anymore, I wonder what new tricks he will come up with now?

Su Qin's hair was cut, I looked at it, and the neat little crew cut has eaten delicious food and drink in the past month, and he has grown up a bit. He looks very energetic, and I feel better. I knelt down and asked him: "Su Qin, Are you satisfied with Chenchen's craftsmanship?"

There was no light in Su Qin's eyes. I was used to it. I smiled and gently touched his freshly cut hair.

Recently, Su Qin has been rubbing against my palm intentionally or unintentionally, like a pet.

I kissed Su Qin's cheek naturally, and of course the person who was kissed didn't respond.

An Zechen was very happy, "Xiao Qin has reacted now?"

"Well, there will be some reactions recently." I also laughed.

An Zechen was much more excited than me, grabbed my shoulder and said, "Thank you, boss!"

An Zechen thanked me because I cooperated with the treatment provided by the doctor. Su Qin is crazy. He has sealed his entire consciousness in this body. His eyes can see and ears can hear, but he will I block all the information I don’t want, or turn it into the scene I want, that is, I have hallucinations. Sometimes I sleep until midnight, and this person will get up by himself, open the doors of each room, and then put the table and chairs. Change the position, make tea, and smile at the void.

That void may have been me before.

And the position of his desk is exactly where the desks and chairs were placed in our dormitory before, leaning against the wall, looking solid and reliable.

If we want him to get better, we must guide him to come out slowly.

Gentle, caring, acting like he expected me to treat him, luring him out of that shell.

but me.....

He is often mistaken for someone else.

Although that person was not at all the same as this person, I couldn't help thinking that the person I was kissing had long, straight black hair.

But this idea is terrible. I hide it very deep underground, and I cannot peep at it.

Su Qin's examinations are getting worse every time. It's physical. After a while, this person will not be able to eat at all. His organs can no longer digest those soft foods. He may only be able to drink milk and porridge. , but he will not be starved to death, because, before that, Su Qin's respiratory system will fail in advance, and Su Qin will die of suffocation.

Both An Zechen and I understand.

But we still hope that Su Qin can wake up, look at the world, look at An Zechen, look at this man who has been staring at him while he is staring at me.

I don't know what An Zechen thinks, but that's what I think.

Do I have feelings for Su Qin?

Have!

Definitely.

guilt?apology?confused?mercy?

These feelings are all possible.

I can also weave a dream for him until the day of death.

An Zechen took Su Qin to wash his hair. I stood alone on the balcony and received a text message. The text message was the strange number just now.

The above asked: "Do you hate jackdaws"

There is not even a punctuation mark, and it is an affirmative sentence.

"What the hell are you trying to say?" I texted back.

When I received the text message, I was feeding Su Qin. I picked out what could be eaten and what could not be eaten, and then fed it to the person who was sitting quietly.

When I had time to look at my phone, Su Qin had already fallen asleep, and the text message said: "I hate jackdaws"

"It has something to do with me?"

Unexpectedly, the message was quickly replied, "Come with me to take revenge on Jackdaw, Shen Mo, for your unwillingness and anger back then."

Han Siam was wrong, I was neither unwilling nor angry, I was full of sorrow at that time, but it doesn't matter now, after I figured out who my feelings are for, I was relieved.

I once recalled, in my memory, there was a person standing beside me, and I was young, that person told me, Shen Mo, you must not forget your name, that person should be "Han Bai" , the gentle feeling also comes from "Han Bai", even later, that kind of instinctive, irrepressible love is also for "Han Bai", no matter in time or space, only "Han Bai" can meet this image of man.

However, under extreme confusion, I thought that person was Jackdaw.

Then he naturally put all his emotions on Jackdaw, unable to find a sense of belonging for a long time, so he just vented.

Ridiculous enough.

But that is also between me and "Han Bai".

It has nothing to do with the Jackdaw. The Jackdaw is an outsider. Since he is an outsider, how can he talk about feelings?

Therefore, I neither hate nor love Jackdaws.

If you insist on one emotion, does fear count?

Whether it was when I just lost my memory or now, Jackdaws can give me a tense sense of fear.

I'm afraid he will find me.

It's useless to say more, Han Xian is a person who cares about gains and losses very clearly, I can't explain it clearly to him, maybe, I have to move again, at least for a while, Su Qin's life is not long, I must wait until Only then will they find me,

And Su Qin's condition simply does not allow running around,

I turned off the phone and unplugged the battery. Su Qin hugged him in his arms, closed his eyes, and waited for the warm dream to come.