My bamboo horse is scumbag

Ye Kai lay on the bed for three days.His high fever was not cured at all, and he was stimulated by the heavy rain, and his condition relapsed that night.Qu Jia hired a professional nurse to take care of her 24 hours a day.

The class group is still lively.It seems that the party will not stop, everyone is busy expressing their love wildly, wantonly indulging their instincts that have been suppressed for more than ten years.Ye Kai, who has always been silent, poked Yang Zhuoning privately for the first time and asked him to form a game.Yang Zhuoning thought he was dazzled, so he asked cautiously: Have you come back from the other side of the ocean?

Ye Kai dialed the phone directly.Yang Zhuoning is the number one activist in the class, he greeted casually, and more than a dozen people responded, Ye Kai asked them to pick a place at will, and he paid for it.The group was lively for a while, he lifted the quilt and got out of bed, his silent and pale sick face was reflected in the mirror, with sunken dark circles under his eyes.

The nurse carefully accompanied him, seeing him supporting the marble sink with one hand, slowly brushing his teeth and washing his face, and taking off his shirt, as if he was about to take a bath, he asked, "Are you going out?"

Ye Kai nodded, "You can tell Qu Jia."

The nurse did receive an extra order to prevent Ye Kai from leaving the third floor.Hearing him break it down directly, I was a little bit uncomfortable.Ye Kai lost his good patience: "You can watch me take a bath if you want."

The pajamas and trousers were taken off, and the bathroom door opened softly.People are gone.

The water from the shower was strong and hot, Ye Kai raised his head, closed his eyes and held his breath.The black hair was pulled back, forming a beautiful shape along the water flow, revealing a smooth face.Judging from the upturned profile, in just a few days, the jaw line became even thinner than before, and the shape of the lips was still beautiful, but lost their color.In the hot air, he was like a jade object that could be shattered at any time.

After taking a shower, he stood naked in front of the huge mirror, using scissors to trim his long bangs and tail hair strand by strand.The technique is rusty, but full of indifferent seriousness.People with a good foundation are not afraid of squandering, and they don't feel ugly after drying.

Qu Jia waited in the living room without any surprise.Ye Kai glanced at her stern face, just like he glanced at the vase at the corner of the table and the records on the bookshelf, calm and without fluctuation.He didn't evade, and walked into the cloakroom in front of Qu Jia.The closet door slammed, and he turned his head and asked, "Is it a shirt or a T-shirt?"

Qu Jia was stunned, and subconsciously said, "It's all good."

Ye Kai smiled: "T-shirt, it's a bit silly to wear a shirt at a class reunion."

Qu Jia asked tentatively, "What party?"

"There is a group chat on the phone, look at it." Ye Kai took off a very simple trendy white letter T from the hanger, "First eat and then go to the board game, you can let people follow you if you want."

Qu Jia's face froze, he neither reached for the phone nor responded.

Ye Kai put on camel-colored baggy cigarette pants, picked up the phone and handed it to Qu Jia: "Look, I don't want to quarrel with you."

Hundreds of messages have been swiped in the group, and more and more people joined in response. Qu Jia glanced casually, and said softly, "Don't drink, come back early."

Ye Kai packed up and asked Uncle Lu to take him to his destination.He knew that Qu Jia had sent someone to follow him, so he didn't care.The dinner party was serious, nearly 20 people came, and it was very lively, so his silence was not so conspicuous.Only Yang Zhuoning noticed that he spoke less than ever before, but he ate very seriously, unusually serious, as if he really came out to fill his stomach.Halfway through the dinner, Ye Kai paid the bill and went out through the back door of the restaurant.

There are only two things in his trouser pocket: a mobile phone and an access card.

It's not the weekend, Chen Youhan may be working overtime, or he may have already left work, he is not sure.Swipe the card to enter the elevator, and the number quickly jumps to the 28th floor.He was used to it, and he was used to it, but he felt palpitations in his heart when he stepped out.

Press the sensor with your thumb—"Sorry, fingerprint recognition failed."

Ye Kai was stunned for a moment, or rather startled by the cold female voice, panicked, and was ready for Chen Youhan to push the door out.If Brother Youhan happened to be at home, he would just say that he was here to get something... No, he was just here to see him.But the whole floor is very quiet.

He lowered his head and subconsciously glanced at his sickly white palm, then wiped it on his clothes, wiped off the sweat stains that didn't exist, and pressed it again - "unknown fingerprint."

……how come?Pursing his pale lips vigorously, he pressed the number pad and entered the password he knew by heart.

"wrong password."

Ye Kai held the doorknob in silence, the fingers hanging by his side twitched uncontrollably.Yes... it was wrong, it was wrong.His fingers trembled, he pressed the six digits again, and a heart lifted to his chest.At the moment of swallowing forcefully, the door lock failed again.It's that kind of deep "beep" sound, really... really hard to hear.Like a weight falling off a cliff and falling into a mountain stream, people can't breathe after hearing it.

The door lock is broken.

Ye Kai leaned against the wall and sat down slowly.

Chen Youhan deleted his friend instead of blocking him.This means—it means that Brother Youhan doesn't really want to end up with him.Otherwise, he will definitely be blacklisted, right?The chat records are still there, and those indifferent and perfunctory words are all crossed out.He turned it up without blinking, as proficiently as if his fingers had muscle memory.Starting from August [-]th of the previous year, any day is fine, any day is worthy of his repeated memories.There is also a phone call - I will try this hour and see if brother Han Han has released him from the blacklist.The moment he dialed out, he received a voice reminder that the other party was busy, which meant that he was still blocked.He had never been blocked by anyone, and at first he really thought that Chen Youhan was busy. It wasn't until he dialed repeatedly for an hour that he realized that it turned out that Chen Youhan was not busy, he just, just didn't want to share another Give him seconds.

The sensor lights in the corridor could not detect his presence, Ye Kai sat silently with his head bowed, and the darkness surrounded him silently.The movement of the tiny elevator tormented him erratically, and his heart went up and down again and again.

Then he probably fell asleep.

That's why he didn't open his eyes the first time Chen Youhan came back.

It wasn't until the short "ding" sound of the elevator fell, the sound of footsteps, and the lights in the corridor were in full bloom, that Ye Kai raised his face buried deep in his arms.

Chen Youhan was carrying a suit in his hand, and his body smelled of alcohol and tobacco.

The two looked at each other under the bright chandelier, and it only took one thousandth of a second for Ye Kai's eyes to go from bewildered to sober.He supported the wall and stood up slowly, his nasal cavity was sore before he spoke: "Brother Youhan."

The tense body gradually loosened, Chen Youhan looked at him, and asked in a low voice: "Why don't you go home?"

The tone was normal, but it was gentle in Ye Kai's eyes.It was as if a little light had been shot into his heart, and a crack was pushed open in the dark room. He pursed his lips, "I know it all!" He said in a hurry, "I know Ye Jin forced you, I know GC came out what's up-"

Chen Youhan froze obviously: "That's it." After a moment of silence, he said calmly, "I'm sorry."

"I don't blame you, really," Ye Kai stammered, afraid that Chen Youhan wouldn't believe him, and made awkward gestures, as if Chen Youhan could believe his sincerity a little more, "I don't blame you, if If it was me, I would choose this way, GC is more important than me, so many employees and families, as well as suspended projects, board of directors, demolition...all, all are more important than me, I know."

Chen Youhan closed his eyes: "Xiao Kai, stop talking."

"I don't blame you," Ye Kai plucked up his courage and clenched his fingers tightly into fists, "...can we make up?"

Chen Youhan took a deep look at him, threw his suit on his shoulders, and took out a cigarette case from his trouser pocket.The smell of nicotine and tar permeated, he leaned against the wall, took a puff of cigarette lightly and said, "No."

The corners of the raised lips froze: "Why?"

He didn't blame Chen Youhan, it wasn't their fault, none of them were at fault, why did they break up?Ah yes, he didn't apologize, he didn't apologize for his ignorance and childishness.

Eyes lit up again after this thought, Ye Kai looked at him steadfastly, with Chen Youhan's familiar eyes, gentle, innocent, and brightly shining: "I apologize!"

Chen Youhan paused with his hand holding the cigarette.

"I'm sorry, Brother Youhan! It's because I'm immature and ignorant. It must be very tiring to be with me, right? I will correct it. It's because I don't care about people. It's because I'm too self-centered. I haven't really cared about you. You have always been taking care of me, accommodating me and treating me well...I have thought a lot these days, and I have been reflecting on—”

"None of your business." Chen Youhan interrupted him, "Go back."

The expression he tried to maintain froze on his face like a mask, the corners of Ye Kai's mouth still maintained an upward angle, but the muscles on his face couldn't stop sinking.

Is it because he looks too ugly?Why didn't Chen Youhan even want to look at him?

Chen Youhan lowered his head and dialed out the phone; "Xiao Kai is here, come and pick it up."

Ye Kai heard it, it was Ye Jin on the other end of the phone.

He was completely panicked, pressing against the hard doorknob: "I won't go back!"

After smoking a cigarette, Chen Youhan walked towards the door step by step.Ye Kai was right in front of him, he stopped a step away, and smiled almost nonchalantly: "I'm going in."

Ye Kai woke up like a dream, stepped aside, and said with some embarrassment: "The lock is broken."

Chen Youhan stuck his fingertips.

"Really, I just couldn't open it after trying for a long time, should someone fix it—"

The door opened.

Chen Youhan pushed open the door: "It's not broken, I deleted your fingerprints."

"Did you accidentally delete it? It's convenient for me now! I can re-record—"

"We broke up, Xiaokai." Even the last bit of tenderness disappeared from his tone, "Don't come here again."

Ye Kai was tongue-tied, and Chen Youhan said, "I don't want to move again."

"Brother Youhan, Brother Youhan...Chen Youhan!" Ye Kai held his hand tightly, losing all confidence and composure in his eyes, "Why? Why do you want to do this? Why do you have to break up? What can I do wrong? Well, you can make changes if you do something wrong, why can’t you give me a chance? I don’t care about 200 billion or one of the two. I really don’t care. I don’t care about anything you promised Ye Jin. You can backtrack, right? GC is fine No one will force you anymore, can you go back on your word? Don't be so trustworthy..."

He pulled so hard, trying his best to prevent Chen Youhan from entering the door.

Chen Youhan glanced at him condescendingly. After a day of work, he also seemed very tired, and his handsome face even had a sick look: "Xiao Kai, you know me best. After more than a year, I'm already tired of it."

boom!There seemed to be something in the ear.

Nothing fell.

Someone had shot him in the heart.

Ye Kai's pupils shrank suddenly, then quickly dilated, and said instinctively, "I don't believe it."

"If I still love you, Ye Jin can't force me. You always know that I really can't keep facing one person." Chen Youhan firmly and slowly withdrew his arms, and faced Ye Kai with his usual gentlemanly but indifferent smile. :"sorry."

If only the tears could be shed dry.

There is no need to be so embarrassed in front of Chen Youhan.

Ye Kai kept shaking his head, his lips were wet with tears: "I don't believe it, you lied, you said you wanted to marry me, didn't you say..." He searched his brains, and he revisited those words so much that he could recite them: " Didn't you say that I can be smaller and you can take me with you every day? Didn't you say that you have to be together very seriously and hard? Didn't you say that you are engaged... You, you even gave me sapphires—"

"Sapphire is worthless, if you like it, I can give you another one."

Ye Kai stared at him innocently, as if if he kept working hard like this, the tears would not fall so fast and so much.

"Chen Youhan, I don't believe every word you say," he wiped his cheek fiercely, "You said you wouldn't let go, don't let go, I beg you, don't let go..."

Chen Youhan took a deep breath, dialed the phone again, and asked indifferently and impatiently, "Where are you? He's crying, I can't help it."

Ye Kai suddenly felt that he no longer knew Chen Youhan.

It's fake, it's all fake.Chen Youhan never spoke to him in this tone, never looked at him in this way, and never watched him cry without even frowning.

"Xiao Kai, don't be like this." Chen Youhan apologized again, it was an official, condescending apology, and a polite apology, "When two people are in a relationship, they pay attention to getting together and breaking up together. If you cry like this, we won't be able to get along anymore. I know you still remember the past, forget about it, a lot of things are just casual talk when the atmosphere is over, get married, stay together until 80 years old, want to see you every day, this kind of words will be said to everyone when you are in love, seriously It's meaningless."

His thin body swayed under the lamp.

"If I could choose, I'd rather not be with you back then. What's so bad about being a younger brother?" Chen Youhan curled his lips, "If you want—forget it, it's not convenient for us to meet again in this state. "

He saw Ye Kai holding onto the wall.

But he remained indifferent, pushed open the door, and walked through the door completely——

"I'm sorry, I'm really just bored. I didn't want to say it so directly at first, but if you keep pestering me—" He paused, and said hoarsely, "It's also annoying."

The door closed softly.

Click.

If it was before, they would kiss in the hallway.

Ye Kai slowly sat down against the base of the wall, his fingertips were still convulsing, it was a dying struggle from the pain in his heart to the nerve endings.

...It turned out that he was deceiving himself.

He thought everyone would really love him.

It turned out not to be so.

The world does not run according to his will.

Neither was Chen Youhan.

Separated by a door, the two worlds are very quiet.

Chen Youhan dialed the phone again.

Hang up again.

Ye Jin seemed to understand, and sent him back a very brief message: 3 minutes.

Chen Youhan took a deep breath, slowly sat down against the wall, and raised his neck.The spotlight hit his face, he was bathed in the light, swallowed, his eyes were burning hot.