What should I do if my junior brother becomes a bad old man?

Ren Zhen stood up abruptly, looked into Gu Xunzhi's eyes, wondering why he suddenly changed his mind.

He looked aggressive, Gu Xunzhi was startled, and couldn't help shrinking back.

It was only then that Ren Zhen realized that she seemed to be frightening him a little bit, and took a step back, but her eyes were still fixed on him.

He clearly said it well before, and he was willing to leave when he saw Gu Xunzhi. Why did he change his mind now that the matter was over?

Suspiciousness abounded in Ren Zhen's heart, and he immediately thought of King Jin who had just left here, and asked with a frown:

"What did King Jin tell you?"

Gu Xunzhi lowered his eyes, a little afraid to look into his senior brother's eyes, but pretended nothing happened, and shook his head:

"The prince did come to keep me, but my decision has nothing to do with him. I want to stay on my own."

His body is still a little weak, his voice is not loud, his breath is uneven, but his tone is very firm.When Ren Zhen heard what he said, she stopped caring about King Jin, sat back on the bed and held his hand again, and asked in a soft voice:

"Since it's not because of King Jin, what's going on?"

Ren Zhen knew that his younger brother was timid and was a little afraid of him, so he tried his best to appear kind and patient, but the sudden news surprised him a lot, and it could be called a shock, no matter how he tried to hide it , There was still a look of displeasure between the brows.

Gu Xunzhi plucked up his courage, raised his head to look at him, and saw the brother's face, his heart was shocked again, the words he had planned had already reached his lips, and he seemed unable to say them again.

When Jin Wang was here before, he said that he was such a smart person, of course he could think of an excuse to deal with his brother.King Jin was right, for Gu Xunzhi, the excuse for not going with his senior brother didn't even need to be made up, it was simply ready-made.But to really say this excuse, the courage needed is not what Gu Xunzhi himself possesses.

But at this moment, there is no other way.Gu Xunzhi bit his lips, closed his eyes tightly, and almost shouted:

"I, I, I just can't walk with my brother!"

Ren Zhen looked at Gu Xunzhi's expression and felt very shocked. He didn't expect that Gu Xunzhi would feel so distressed about walking with him, so he touched his face:

"Why? Are you really... so afraid of me?"

While Ren Zhen was shocked, his expression was a little sad.Gu Xunzhi didn't expect that Ren Sha would misunderstand that aspect, and felt even more guilty, and shed tears unknowingly:

"No, no, no! It's not the brother's fault! Everything...is just because of me."

Hearing what Gu Xunzhi said, Ren Xun's anxiety eased a little, but the doubts in his heart deepened.Looking at Gu Xunzhi's tearful face, he was at a loss and could only reach out his hand to wipe away the tears from Gu Xunzhi's face.

"Don't worry," he said, "tell me what's going on, slowly."

The gentleness of the senior brother made Gu Xunzhi's self-loathing almost reach the peak.The more perfect Ren Zhen looked, the more Gu Xunzhi felt that he was so small and incompetent, ugly and greedy...he was not even worthy to carry the shoes of his senior.

So... let's just... say it all.

Gu Xunzhi bit his lip, almost biting his lip.He put his mind to one side, regardless of everything:

"Didn't senior brother want to know why I didn't say goodbye back then and didn't leave Bikong Mountain? I was always embarrassed to tell you before, but since senior brother must ask today... I probably can't hide it anymore."

Ren Xun didn't expect that something that happened so long ago was involved here, and it was even more inexplicable.

Gu Xunzhi closed his eyes tightly, and recklessly said what he had never been able to say:

"I have obscene thoughts about senior brother, and I don't have the face to meet senior brother again!"

This sentence was like a thunderbolt, which caused chaos in Ren Xun's heart.He understood every word that Gu Xunzhi said, but when combined together, he couldn't understand the meaning at all.He looked at Gu Xunzhi's face, hoping to guess the correct answer from his younger brother's expression, but after Gu Xunzhi said that, he covered his face with his sleeve and curled up in a corner, as if he didn't dare to look at him anymore.

Ren Sha could only frown and ask:

"What are you talking about? What's dirty? What's on your mind?"

Now that Gu Xunzhi's words have already been spoken, he doesn't care too much, and pours out the secrets that have been hidden in his heart for many years like giving up on himself:

"How can senior brother not understand at all? Ever since I was a teenager, I have always, always..."

He sobbed heavily and swallowed again, as if looking for a suitable word:

"...Admiration for senior brother. Although I knew that senior brother would not have the same feelings for me, this feeling has never disappeared. I thought that after so many years, I would no longer have that kind of thought for senior brother. But when When I see my brother again..."

Gu Xunzhi choked up, he couldn't continue, and after a while, he put down his sleeves, revealing his eyes that were red from crying, and his voice was sad but firm:

"Brother, let's go, don't come back again, just pretend that there has never been a junior like me."

Once the words that had been held in his heart for nearly a hundred years were poured out, Gu Xunzhi felt as if he was going to be completely drained, and his whole body had no strength at all.

Finally, with a little energy remaining, Gu Xunzhi struggled to raise his head to look at his senior brother.

The senior brother stood in the middle of the room, the wind blowing in through the window, caressing his skirt.There was no panic or disgust in Gu Xunzhi's imagination in the expression of the senior brother, nor the smile and love he had imagined. The senior brother stood there with only confusion written in his eyes, frowning slightly, as if he was thinking about something. incomprehensible puzzle.

He didn't seem to understand what Gu Xunzhi was saying at all.

Gu Xunzhi never thought that his senior brother would react like this when he heard about it. In his opinion, his senior brother is well-informed and might have guessed his mind long ago, so he just didn't say anything.Gu Xunzhi wished that his senior would treat him like those wild vixen and kite spirits, grab him by the neck and throw him out, and he didn't want to see such a confused face of his senior.If the senior brother didn't know what to do, how could he know?

The vitality in Gu Xunzhi's heart was almost entirely supported by this incident. Now that he poured it out, he felt that life and death were not important to him. Every time I think about it, I feel ashamed in my heart.Right now he is ill, his body is getting thinner and thinner like dry wood, but his eyes are astonishingly bright, as if there is a fire burning inside, which makes people feel frightened, for fear that the fire will burn too fast, but immediately It is about to perish.

Ren Zhen stood in the middle of the room and watched him for a long time, the two just looked at each other, but their expressions were different.Then, he finally moved, as if he finally wanted to understand something, hesitantly asked:

"Then your illness..."

Gu Xunzhi closed his eyes, his whole face became tangled up, and his voice became hoarse:

"It's because of the senior brother."

Ren Zhen suddenly realized, and his frowning brows instantly relaxed, as if he had found the answer to an extremely difficult question:

It turned out that he was so haggard, but it was all because of me.

Ren Zhen's heart trembled violently, his chest ached for some reason, he looked at the thin and haggard junior brother sitting on the bed, he felt his eyes and nose were sore and astringent, he didn't know what was going on.Like a person who has done something wrong, he stood there in a daze, and finally gave up and said:

"Since junior brother will feel troubled by my side...I'd better...let's go first."

He banged the door open with his shoulder and strode out.The two ducks he brought were crowded at the door, but when he slammed into the door suddenly, they almost flew into the air. With their wings spread, they managed to maintain their balance and chased a few steps in the direction of the owner, but they couldn't keep up. As soon as he reached the courtyard gate, he turned back and stood in front of Gu Xunzhi's bed, squawking.

This situation is really indescribably weird, Gu Xunzhi wiped his eyes, and there was a bit of crying in his voice:

"He's leaving, why don't you let him go?"

The two ducks were silent for a while, the shelduck opened its mouth and uttered a syllable that can only be pronounced by a human, as if it was about to speak something human, but was beaten by the white duck with its wings and turned its back Dare not say anything.

Seeing that the white duck was strange, Gu Xunzhi wiped his eyes to look at it, and saw the white duck took a few steps forward to the bedside, put a wing on Gu Xunzhi's leg, and made a look that was hard to be around. Seeing the expression on the duck's face, he said to him very seriously:

"quack."

The author has something to say: This chapter is a little sad, let Yaya bring some comfort~

Jump the timeline in the next chapter, and we will meet in the next chapter, I promise □□.