I was a stand-in for those years

The apartment the two lived in was not far from the school, and it was bought by Ke Chen to facilitate Guo Zichen's class.

When Guo Zichen went out, it was past two o'clock in the middle of the night, the street lights were lit with warm colors, and vehicles were still coming and going.Guo Zichen sat down on a public bench by the street, the blisters on his hands pricked like thin needles, and even his bones ached.He stretched out his hand and let the cold night wind blow, and he lost consciousness after a while.

I was the one who said we broke up, and I was the only one who was sad because of the breakup. The relationship of these four years was just a one-man show performed by myself in a misty dream. Places, whether wandering or wandering, or meeting a lover by chance, you must always move forward, and you cannot go around in circles.

Ke Chen is a person who is extremely unfeeling but admirable.Not only did he burn up the memories of the two of them, but he also disappeared without a trace from Guo Zichen's life in the past two months, as if this person had never been in Guo Zichen's world, or did not exist in this world at all. superior.

On the night they just broke up, Guo Zichen was sad and disappointed, he deleted Ke Chen's friends in a fit of anger, and even blacklisted his phone number.It's just that after countless sleepless nights, Guo Zichen clutched his phone and waited from night to early morning, afraid that the person sent him a text message or called him and he would miss it, but he unlocked the phone screen and turned it off again. How many times, the screen is still clean.

Guo Zichen often wonders, is he being too unreasonable?Obviously it's just that they can't study abroad, so why did they break up?I accompany Ke Chen by his side, go to work together and leave work together, the two have a small family, stay at home and watch movies together on weekends, I also learn to make delicious food to surprise him, and occasionally quarrel, after the quarrel, the person Then he will come over to coax himself, and then he will make up with a kiss and a hug.

It's not that Guo Zichen doesn't want to try his best to strive for and manage this kind of simple happiness, but he subconsciously knows that it's just his fantasy. All kinds of men and women around Chen will wake up. This is just his own wishful thinking, because the initiative of the two people's feelings has never been with him. When Ke Chen gets tired of him, he will softly call out to others. Name, hugging others intimately, the self at that time would be much more embarrassing than it is now.

Of course Guo Zichen would regret breaking up with Ke Chen, and resent himself for being self-willed but hopelessly in love with him, but he is also fortunate that in this emotional game, he did not lose himself, lose his mind, and was not betrayed by others. Assimilation of warmth, no self-deprecation.

Let you be a canary and be kept in captivity, and worry all the time that the owner will fall in love with other more beautiful canaries, and live in fear all day long, or you can endure the pain and leave your beloved Master, leave the comfortable birdcage and fly to your own forest, meet other birds in the forest, take branches to build your own small house, rest in the wooden house when you are tired, and fly to the sky when you are not tired, Overlooking the beautiful flowers and mountains.

Guo Zichen closed his eyes and asked himself: Which of these two lives is his own?

When Guo Zichen heard about Ke Chen again, it was already the end of the last semester of his senior year.

Guo Zichen got off work early that day, went back to the rented room, changed his clothes, and went out again.Zhang Chengwen will go to Milan for further studies next spring, and the male students of the college organized a farewell ceremony for him to practice. Guo Zichen used to follow Ke Chen, and basically had no friends among the male students of the college. He knew that he might be the one who spoiled the atmosphere. One, but Zhang Chengwen had been his roommate for four years, and with the relationship between He Xianyin and Zhao Jing, Guo Zichen seemed deliberate not to go.

After Zhang Chengwen left this time, I don't know if there will be a chance to meet again in the future, and I don't know if he will disappear from his life without a trace like Ke Chen.

When Guo Zichen arrived at the hotel box, it was neither early nor late, and almost half of the people were sitting on the wine table. Those people were chatting and laughing, teasing the university professor for a while, and chatting about work and studies for a while, it was very lively.

Guo Zichen didn't answer the call. He came to see Zhang Chengwen today, and he didn't want to try to restore relationship with his classmates before graduation, so he sat in the most inconspicuous corner and played with fruit peeling with his head down.

Zhang Chengwen and Zhao Jing came in together.When the two came in, the whole private room erupted, yelling, whistling, whistling, Guo Zichen's ears were almost deafened.

Zhao Jing is much prettier again, but she is still the lively, shy little girl, cute and innocent, she glances at Zhang Chengwen like a little wife, smiles shyly, and has two dimples on her cheeks.Guo Zichen looked at Zhao Jing and smiled, he was really happy for Zhang Chengwen.

But when he looked up at Zhang Chengwen's face again, the smile froze. Why didn't he realize that Zhang Chengwen actually looked a bit like Ke Chen?

Ke Chen looks like his mother Zhang Jiarong, gentle, quiet, and gentle; Zhang Chengwen looks like his father Zhang Zhongliang, sharp, cold, and strong.

It may be that the soft light in the box smoothed Zhang Chengwen's cold face, and the man smiled, as if Ke Chen was smiling at himself.

It's been more than three months, why do you still want to cry when you think of Ke Chen?Guo Zichen shook his head, secretly cursing himself as worthless.

Zhao Jing and Zhang Chengwen sat down in the seats reserved for them by their classmates. A boy teased Zhang Chengwen: "Hey third brother, when will you marry the little sister next to you?"

Zhao Jing was ashamed and annoyed, and stared at Yuanyuan fiercely: "What little sister! I'm going to be an adult soon!"

Ji Wanren lowered his eyelids, secretly looking at Zhang Chengwen's face.

Guo Zichen thought it was funny, and thought that little sister Zhao Jing was so cute, and when they got married, no matter where he worked, he would come to their wedding.

But Zhang Chengwen said something that surprised everyone present: "I will not marry her, she is just my sister. Please don't misunderstand me and Xiao Jing in the future, because I have someone I like."

Not to mention the others, even Guo Zichen, who was close to Zhang Chengwen, was quite shocked, except for Zhao Jing, who did not see anyone around Zhang Chengwen?How come there is someone you like?

The private room was so quiet that there was not even the sound of bowls and chopsticks clashing, Guo Zichen blurted out, "Ah? Who is it?"

Zhang Chengwen stared at Guo Zichen's face, making Guo Zichen very uncomfortable: "I'll tell you after drinking."

Guo Zichen regretted asking this, because Zhao Jing was holding her skirt tightly with her fingers, her eyes were red, and she had a very hurt expression.

Guo Zichen hurriedly smoothed things over, and he showed Zhao Jing a hearty smile: "Xiaojing, you Chengwen brother regards you as a younger sister, I don't treat you as a younger sister, you are so beautiful, you should be my wife. I am not as handsome as you Chengwen brother , nor does he have money, but I promise to treat you well." After speaking, he raised his eyebrows at Zhang Chengwen with a provocative expression.

The others hurriedly answered: "I'm pooh, can that pretty girl Xiaojing fall in love with you?"

"Cough, Xiaojing, what do you think of me, brother?"

"Don't grab anyone, Zhao Jing is mine!"

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The atmosphere at the dinner table became active, and everyone chatted about other things.

Guo Zichen poured himself a glass of wine, only then remembered that the last time he had a drink was two years ago.

At that time, he drank with Wang Bing, accidentally got too drunk, and played drunk on the street. He hugged the telephone pole and didn't let go, just stuck to it like an octopus, yelling for another bottle, Wang Bing No matter how hard he pulled, he couldn't pull it off.When Ke Chen came, he saw Guo Zichen was hugging Wang Bing and asked Wang Bing to call him father.Wang Ping didn't push him, but blushed and let him kiss, which made Ke Chen angry.

Guo Zichen didn't remember anything about that night at all, but since then, Ke Chen kicked him every time he touched alcohol, and he stopped drinking after a long time.

"Speaking of which, does any of you know where Mr. Ke, the chairman of our student union, has gone? I haven't heard from him for a long time." The person who asked this question even took a special look at Guo Zichen, and the contemptuous look in his eyes didn't add to it at all. cover up.

Guo Zichen held his wine glass and did not speak. The more flustered he was, the more people would laugh at him.

He raised his wine glass and wanted to take a sip, but he heard Zhang Chengwen say: "He returned to the United States three months ago, and he will hold a wedding in the United States next week."

With a clatter, the wine glass in Guo Zichen's hand fell to the ground.

The crisp sound of the wine glass breaking made everyone quiet. Guo Zichen got up reflexively, looked at the fragments on the ground, said sorry in a low voice, then lowered his head and reached out to pick up the broken glass. It is covered by something and becomes blurred.

Zhang Chengwen looked at his devastated look, angry and distressed, he pulled Guo Zichen up and out of the box, then went to the front desk to ask for some Band-Aids, and wrapped his finger that was scratched by the glass.

In fact, Ke Chen and Guo Zichen got engaged to Jing Yumo within a few days of breaking up. When their Zhang family attended the engagement banquet, Zhang Chengen sneered at his third brother: "Look, what is Guo Zichen? Should we get married?"

Zhang Chengwen resented him: "So what is Brother Ivan? Shouldn't you get married and have children?"

Zhang Chengen was so angry that he almost lifted the table: "Zhang Chengwen! What the hell is wrong with you? You must be angry with me, right?!"

Zhang Chengwen should have been happy. After all, the two of them were together, so he couldn't chase Guo Zichen, but he couldn't be happy at all.

Seeing Ke Chen holding Jing Yumo's arm talking and laughing to the elders, he really wanted to go up and punch him twice, and ask him what he thought of Guo Zichen.

In the past three months, Zhang Chengwen actually had many opportunities to tell Guo Zichen, but he was afraid that Guo Zichen would collapse if he found out, so he couldn't bear to speak up.

It wasn't until his uncle called yesterday, saying that Ke Chen was getting married in the United States next week, that he knew that Ke Chen was serious, and that there was no turning point between him and Guo Zichen.

He blamed Ke Chen's ruthlessness for hurting Guo Zichen, and thanked his ruthlessness for giving Guo Zichen the chance to fall in love with him.

"Are you sad? Sorry, I shouldn't say it in front of so many people, but I can't find another chance to tell you."

Guo Zichen shook his head and smiled: "If people like you get married, people all over the world will know about it, but whether they hear it from other people's ears or see it on the news, in the final analysis, it doesn't make any difference."

"You said, how could he be so cruel? You are his cousin, you know more or less? Tell me, how did he manage to forget me so quickly? Ah? You tell me Say...what the hell...what the hell..." Guo Zichen couldn't finish the rest of the sentence, he squatted down, choked up, and the tears in his eyes fell down, because in public, there is no heart-piercing cry. , still makes Zhang Chengwen very distressed.

Zhang Chengwen squatted down, gently patted Guo Zichen's back to comfort him: "Don't cry, be stronger."

"How to be strong? You teach me..."

Guo Zichen had been quiet for a while, but suddenly he thought of something again, and rushed to Zhang Chengwen, grabbing his arm and begging him: "Brother Chengwen, you are his younger brother, you...don't let him get married, don't let him get married..."

Zhang Chengwen shook Guo Zichen's shoulders, trying to wake up the person in front of him: "Calm down, you know it's impossible!"

Guo Zichen's expectant expression turned into disappointment, he stood up, squatting on the ground for a long time made him dizzy, he staggered a few steps and walked straight to the hall: "If you don't help me, I will go by myself. If you can't get married, he How can you get married? He said, he won't get married, he only likes me, he said, he really said. "

Zhang Chengwen looked at the irrational Guo Zichen, and for a moment he really wanted to go to the United States to tie Ke Chen back and bring him to Guo Zichen's side, but it was only for a moment.He pulled Guo Zichen into his arms and hugged him tightly, then turned his head and kissed him: "Don't like him, please like me."

Because Zhao Jing was worried about Guo Zichen's hands, she ran to a nearby pharmacy to buy medicine, and hurried back to look for him, but saw Zhang Chengwen kissing Guo Zichen affectionately.

I also heard the touching love story of the man.

[The author has something to say]: Ke Chen and Zhang Chengwen, who do you like?