dreamer

Ji Ziyang is going crazy.

It's not the kind of pathological madness, but the kind of madness that can't find oneself.

After learning what kind of existence Ji Changsi was, he had to face the same figure every day, watching the guy he was familiar with switch from one to the other for a while. wandering in and out of the swinging room.

Ji Ziyang was very silent, neither impulsive nor impatient.It was just the first time for him to look at himself and Wei Jiale in front of him from a position of being completely out of the way.

That was originally the bamboo horse he grew up with, even after being separated for many years, he never changed his love for him.

But Wei Jiale has changed. The guy who never showed his feelings before, not only forgot everything about Ji Ziyang and became Wei Xi, but also made himself look like Ji Ziyang without authorization, wandering alone in this place bustling world.

How to describe that situation?

Knowing who the person in front of him is, he wants to watch him gossiping and laughing with his own behavior.

It was a very embarrassing feeling. If it were seen by others, it would almost make people suffer from embarrassment.

But when looking at such "Wei Xi", Ji Ziyang only felt endless sadness in his heart.

Yes, Ji Ziyang finally recognized that the guy who was supposed to be an enemy before was not actually his young self.

Ji Changsi seems to have stayed at that age. Although Ji Ziyang doesn't know what he looks like in Wei Xi's mind, it cannot be denied that all Ji Changsi can find is the shadow of his childhood.

However, he can't be completely regarded as his childhood self. Ji Changsi is indeed different from Ji Ziyang back then, because although he was born for a reason, his growth over the past ten years has been independent.

How to explain the difference?

Ji Ziyang watched Ji Changsi glaring at him again, and asked loudly, "When will I see Wei Xi?"

Perhaps it is a little more reliable attachment than my young self.

Ji Ziyang lowered his head and smiled wryly, if only he could be like Ji Changsi back then.

"It will be soon, don't worry."

Ji Changsi was really in a hurry, Wei Xi was his whole life.Ever since he met Wei Xi, being able to be with Wei Xi was the only reason for him to open his eyes every time. He really couldn't live without him.

And Wei Xi couldn't hold on any longer.

Wei Xi, who stopped taking medicine, was not as quiet as before, and even lost sleep.

"I...you, have you...have you seen Changsi recently?"

There was a trace of cowardice in the eyes of the handsome young man, hesitantly came to Ji Ziyang's side and asked him, making Ji Ziyang completely at a loss as to what to do.

How should I explain it to the person in front of me?

He and him, Wei Xi and Ji Changsi.

Can't you see each other?

In fact, I really want to tell you that the person you want is here.

But Wei Xi and Ji Changsi were still unable to see each other. The two lovers seemed to be surrounded by darkness, unable to find a way to lead to each other.

"Wei Xi, come here."

Ji Ziyang waved to Wei Xi, and then watched the guy sit beside him like a docile rabbit.

"Do you really have to see him?" Ji Ziyang clasped his hands together and twisted uncontrollably, "Didn't you say that I resemble him a bit? So...so let me stay by your side ,Is it not good?"

Wei Xi froze for a moment, then looked at Ji Ziyang in disbelief and shook his head, "Why is this the same, no, you are different..."

The little guy muttered softly, then looked up anxiously, "Did he say something to you? Is he mad at me?"

Seeing that Wei Xi's anxious eyes were red, Ji Ziyang bit his lips, and then quickly patted him on the back, "No, how could it be, he...he just has something to do..."

Wei Xi lowered her head, struggling to think about everything about Ji Changsi in her mind.

Seeing the world outside the window alternating between day and night day by day, but for some reason, he felt so uneasy for the first time.He had never been separated from Ji Changsi for so long before, which made him feel ominous from the bottom of his heart, and he felt that the connection between himself and Ji Changsi had been broken.

That was what Wei Xi was most afraid of. Ever since he met Ji Changsi, what he was most afraid of was that Ji Changsi would ignore him.

It was a very contradictory mood. He really believed in Ji Changsi. He said he would never leave him, so he would definitely believe him.

But the current situation is all destroying Wei Xi's only self-confidence. For a person like Wei Xi, self-confidence has never been a thing for him.And the trust in Ji Changsi is the only bit of self-confidence built up in the long-term relationship.Ji Changsi never abandoned him, and he shouldn't have been suspicious of him.

But if that was the case, why didn't he come to see him again?

That was a torment for Wei Xi.

Not only that, but Wei Xi's appetite was not as good as before. Although he didn't eat much all the time, he didn't miss every meal.

But now, Wei Xi couldn't even whet his appetite when he saw a table of delicacies cooked by Ji Ziyang.

"Eat a little, what do you want?"

Ji Ziyang picked up a chopstick and added it to Wei Xi's bowl, but Wei Xi still stuck to the chopsticks and stared at the rice bowl in front of him in a daze.

"Anything on your mind?"

"...It seems that he hasn't come to me for a long time..."

Wei Xi spoke blankly without raising her eyes.

"...I didn't say that, he has something to do."

"...he wouldn't have been like this before."

"Maybe there is something very important this time."

"Really... so you don't have time to write to me?"

Ji Ziyang was taken aback when he heard the words, and his heart was stabbed again, so he said with some difficulty, "...he...he..."

What kind of excuse should I find to prevaricate, for Ji Changsi and for my past self.

The current Ji Changsi and Wei Xi are just like him and Wei Jiale back then. They were in completely different circumstances, yet they inexplicably repeated yesterday's story.

Ji Ziyang's heart was too confused, he was too contradictory.

On the one hand, he wanted to help Wei Xi from the perspective of a doctor, but on the other hand, he couldn't help bringing his feelings into the case in front of him.

Does he have to let Wei Xi suffer the same experience of being abandoned by Ji Changsi?

But that Ji Changsi is obviously himself, what should he do to sort out this messy relationship?

However, before Ji Ziyang could find a proper solution, Wei Xi's spirit began to deteriorate.

He has been off the medicine for a long time, and without the control of the medicine, Wei Xi's brain movement is not only more active than before, but his mental state is not as stable as before.

At that time, Ji Ziyang had just come back from the outside, and as soon as he entered the door, he saw Wei Xi huddled in the corner of the wall, banging his head against the wall once and for a while, feeling groggy, like a child lost in a dream .

"Wei Xi?!"

Ji Ziyang came to Wei Xi's side in two steps in three steps, and hugged him into his arms, "Wake up, look at me!"

But Wei Xi was still trapped in the chaos of consciousness, "...why did you ignore me...why didn't you come back..."

"Wei Xi?"

Ji Ziyang asked him in a low voice, listening to the whispers in his mouth.

"...why did you leave me...what did I do wrong..."

"...Why are there no letters..."

"...Where did you go..."

The soreness in my heart was finally pierced by such words.

It was like letting Ji Ziyang hear Wei Jiale's soft call to him in the days when he lost himself.

So what else could he do?

Ji Ziyang hugged Wei Xi and sat on the ground. While feeling the shaking of the person in his arms who was so confused that he was crying, he said in a crying voice, "I'll help you see him, I'll let you see him..."

Even if you know you shouldn't do this, even if you know that such feelings shouldn't happen.

But if it's just this time, let him help Wei Xi once.

He has already taken away his "self" once in Wei Jiale's world, and he can't take away another "self" in Wei Xi's world again.

"Wei Xi, take it easy, don't be afraid, I'll let you see him..."

……

Later Wei Xi woke up and opened his eyes from the chaos.

What caught my eye was a bright sun, and everything around me looked so familiar.

The warm sunshine shone on his body, making his whole body feel warm.

Is it summer?

Wei Xi got up from the ground, lowered her head in some puzzlement, and looked blankly at the school uniform on her body.

The white school uniform shirt moved slowly with the breeze, and was especially dazzled by the sunlight.

Is this a dream?

Or was everything before that just a dream?

He didn't know when he came to the roof of the high school campus.

Wei Xi stood up in surprise, looking around, he was the only one on the huge rooftop.

He kept looking around, flustered and bewildered.

In the end what happened?

What the hell is going on here?

He rarely came here, even in high school, the rooftop was a particularly sacred place for him.

Because this is the place where he met that person for the first time, and it is also the place where he faced parting with that person for the first time.

Everything about that person can still linger in my mind.

Ah, he remembered, it seemed like he hadn't seen him for a long time, not even a serious goodbye.

The guy who brought light into his life was gone.

Wei Xi covered his head, he felt as if the inside was about to burst open.

When he thought that he might have lost that most important guy, he couldn't help but feel a bit of sourness in his eyes.

If that's the case, why should he come back here again?

Why stand alone in this place that once belonged to two people if it has already been lost?

However, at this moment, a cold hand suddenly covered Wei Xi's eyes from behind.

Just like a long time ago, also on this empty rooftop, also in such sunshine and breeze, that guy who had never met before hugged him from behind like this.

"Why are you always so stupid."

Familiar voice, pleasant voice, even if the line of sight is obstructed and people behind him cannot be seen at all, it does not prevent Wei Xi tremblingly holding the hand that covered his eyes, and then a line of hot tears flowed from his eyes.

As if feeling the moisture under his palm, Ji Changsi couldn't help but let go of his hand, holding Wei Xi's shoulder to make him turn around.

But this time, he didn't pretend to be mysterious and avoid seeing him like he did when they first met.

Ji Changsi lifted Wei Xi's chin, wanting him to take a good look at him.

But that cowardly guy was crying too hard, even if he could finally see the person he was thinking about day and night, he still couldn't stop the tears from gushing out of his eyes.

Ji Changsi frowned, and couldn't help wiping away the tears from the corners of Wei Xi's eyes with his fingers, then hugged him into his arms.

If the feelings that have been hidden in my heart can't be expressed in words, let's start with the simplest hug.

"I was wrong," Ji Changsi rubbed Wei Xi's head, and said to him affectionately, "Don't cry."

"I, am I dreaming..."

"…I don't know either…"

"Where were you before?"

"I've been looking for you."

"But I've been waiting for you, too."

"Aren't I here now?"

"I thought you didn't want me anymore..."

"How could it be?" Ji Changsi smiled, and kissed Wei Xi's head lightly, "Didn't I say that I would never want you."

Hearing this, Wei Xi couldn't help crying and buried herself in Ji Changsi's neck.

The overflowing mood, the heart that has been tortured by separation for a long time finally warmed up again.

A long time ago, Ji Changsi said to Wei Xi, sleep if you miss me, because everything is in the dream.

Although I don't know if I'm in a dream now, but think about it carefully, what's important if all this is reality or just a dream?

As long as you can meet the person you like, isn't it enough? As long as you can meet the person you like in your dreams, isn't it enough?

If you really like him, if you really want to see him, even if it's in a dream, it's not bad.Wei Xi raised his head and looked at Ji Changsi, thinking about the intimate posture of the two of them now, he felt a little embarrassed, but he didn't want Ji Changsi to let go, he wanted to continue with him like this, so he could only blush Don't dare to look people in the eye.

And Ji Changsi just kept hugging Wei Xi's waist, wiped the tears on his face with the other hand, and stroked the broken hair on his forehead.

The sun is shining and the time is good.

Ji Changsi looked at Wei Xi's pretty face seriously. In fact, he wanted to tell him a long time ago that he thought he was very good-looking.

But he would never say such a thing, just like the feelings he had for Wei Xi from the bottom of his heart, he would never tell him easily.

To ask why, who knows, is probably a little shy.

So Ji Changsi hugged Wei Xi like this, and from time to time leaned into his ear and whispered some whispers.

As for what those whispers were, the voice was so soft that it was scattered in the wind as soon as it was spoken.

But it must be very sweet words, because you see, the crying child can easily be teased into laughter.

How long has it been since Wei Xi had such a smile on his face?

It's not that Wei Xi can't laugh, but he has never shown such a smile like anyone else, because there is only one person who can make him smile so knowingly, and such a bright smile can only belong to that person forever.

So the two of them hugged each other tightly at the place where they met for the first time.

……

Ji Ziyang stood by the hospital bed, looking at the unconscious Wei Xi without blinking.

Someone pushed the door open, Ji Ziyang glanced at Xu Fei, turned his head indifferently, and continued to hold Wei Xi's hand and look at him.

"So you woke up Ji Changsi?"

Xu Fei looked at Wei Xi who was in a coma, and then said to Ji Ziyang with a little blame, "Did you tell Wei Xi the truth? Then what are you trying to do by doing this? Does this make the meeting of personalities meaningful?"

"It doesn't make sense for therapy, but it does for them."

"…what?"

Ji Ziyang said softly, "I know who that guy is, Ji Changsi."

Xu Fei turned his head sideways, looked at Ji Ziyang meaningfully for a while, and suddenly seemed to understand something.

"...Now that you know, what are you going to do next? Think about how to explain this to Wei Xi, shall we?"

"I will, but wait for now."

"Wait for what?"

"Wait... for them."

As Ji Ziyang said, he looked at Wei Xi who was in a coma.

Xu Fei looked at Ji Ziyang in surprise, and then at Wei Xi, "Is there any point in that? Wouldn't it be more convenient to tell Wei Xi directly and then you come and have a good relationship with him?"

"Yes...but wait a moment," Ji Ziyang squeezed Wei Xi's hand, "This has to be done slowly."

Xu Fei frowned and looked at Ji Ziyang with question marks all over his face, then rolled his eyes, turned and walked out.

At the end, he even said, "There is something wrong."

Maybe.

As a psychiatrist, he even encouraged a love relationship between two personalities. If it spread, he would be ridiculed.

There might be something really wrong with him.

Ji Ziyang smiled self-deprecatingly, and stroked Wei Xi's cheek lightly, and then he saw that the comatose guy murmured a few words, and then put a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.

Look, it's this kind of happy smile, no one can resist it, let alone Ji Ziyang?

Hey, Jia Le, does that "Ji Ziyang" in the dream make you happier?