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Since Ji Changsi will not let Wei Xi disappear, if there is only one way left before Ji Ziyang, he is sure that Ji Changsi will choose to make himself disappear.

And why is he so sure?

Ji Ziyang stroked the edge of the sofa with his fingertips, and asked Ji Changsi casually, "You like Wei Xi, right?"

At that time, Ji Changsi was standing in front of the window stretching his waist facing the sun. When he heard such a question from behind, he turned around slowly, with the same cynical expression on his face, "Does it have anything to do with you?"

Hearing the sound, Ji Ziyang couldn't help but lowered his head and gave a self-deprecating wry smile. Noticing this expression, Ji Changsi thought about it, and then sat down in front of Ji Ziyang, "I heard from Wei Xi that you said you like him?"

Ji Ziyang looked up at Ji Changsi, but said nothing.

"...are you gay?"

Ji Ziyang closed his eyes, and the feeling of self-pity and self-pity disappeared in an instant, "Let's talk about business, I have something to tell you."

He took a deep breath, ready to carry out his plan to the end, no matter what, he wanted this annoying guy to disappear today!

However, plans can never keep up with the rapid changes.

"Go ahead."

Ji Changsi leaned on the sofa dangling his legs, looking in a particularly good mood, and even looked at Ji Ziyang with a smile.

This expression made Ji Ziyang feel particularly disgusted when he entered the state. He just wanted to open his mouth several times, but he was blocked by Ji Changsi's smiling eyes. With slightly serious eyes, Ji Changsi still looked at him with a smile, and finally tilted his head as cute as he could.

...is simply disturbing to watch.

Ji Ziyang couldn't take it anymore, "...what's so beautiful about you? Is there anything special happy? How about you tell me so that I can be happy for you too?"

"It's nothing," Ji Changsi said, but his face was full of complacency, as if he had been waiting for Ji Ziyang to ask him, "I think you are quite pitiful."

"..."

Ji Ziyang pursed his mouth when he heard the sound, and just stared at Ji Changsi motionlessly, silently conveying his impatience.

But obviously, in the face of a guy like Ji Changsi, playing calm would not make him restrain himself.

"Oh, poor thing."

"…What's the meaning?"

"Don't you know?" Ji Changsi looked at Ji Ziyang with a little regret, but in Ji Ziyang's eyes, there was nothing else but cheap, "Wei Xi likes me."

"..."

"Poor thing, I heard that the two of you grew up together, it's a pity that this fate..."

"..."

"You said, if you hadn't left him, would he have liked you too? Then there would be nothing wrong with me. "

Ji Ziyang stared at Ji Changsi viciously, with a hint of anger in his voice, "Are you finished?"

However, this kind of anger couldn't frighten Ji Changsi at all. Not only did he not stop being proud, he even snuggled into the sofa and hummed a song in a low voice.

If it wasn't because Ji Changsi was in Wei Xi's body, Ji Ziyang would have hit him, really.

But who is Ji Ziyang? He is an excellent psychiatrist. He must not be defeated at a time like this. What's more, the person opposite him is his rival in love. He can only pretend to be calm about Ji Changsi's boring little behavior. To describe it with two words, "Childish!"

Ji Changsi just smiled, nestled into the sofa and continued to shake his legs, his eyes rolled around and he didn't know what he was thinking about.

While Ji Ziyang was angry, he couldn't help observing Ji Changsi in front of him carefully. He really couldn't imagine what kind of image this personality would show when communicating with Wei Xi.

If Ji Changsi is really the same as now, he will start to question Wei Xi's vision.He really couldn't imagine how Wei Xi would like such a person, who was as naive as an underage child, and the so-called protection and care image he had learned from Wei Xi before was nothing like the one in front of him. Humans can do it.

Ji Ziyang bit his lip, still immersed in his own thoughts.

But the "underage child" couldn't sit still, "What are you going to tell me? Can you tell me quickly?"

Ji Ziyang closed his eyes again, and muttered before entering the state, "I really don't know why Wei Xi likes you."

But Ji Changsi just heard this muttering, so he said lightly over there, "...Yeah, what do you like about me..."

The tone was still frivolous, but Ji Ziyang raised his head, inexplicably hearing a hint of meaning.

"Maybe it's because he likes me and never leaves him alone."

Something stabbed Ji Ziyang, and he looked at Ji Changsi, who was leaning on the sofa with his head propped up, looking at the sun outside the window, even though his eyes were dazzled, he still couldn't bear to look away.

He obviously looked like a childish brat before, but at this moment, Ji Ziyang saw a kind of indifference on this guy's face that was different from before.

Such Ji Changsi was completely opposite to the state just now, which made Ji Ziyang a little curious about him.

Although the contact time is not long, Ji Ziyang has seen Ji Changsi in many emotions.For example, when he was angry, when he was serious, or when he was a primary school student like just now, but he has never seen Ji Changsi who is as calm as he is now.

That expression attracted all of Ji Ziyang's attention, especially with that face, it instantly reminded him of Wei Jiale when he was a boy, he used to look at the setting sun in the sky with this expression, and then turned his head to give him a faint look Smiling, as if the next second will be like a cloud being blown away by the wind.

Then Ji Ziyang thought of Wei Xi many years later, Wei Jiale, who had faded from her childishness, changed from a boy to a grown man, completely emptied of all memories, like a blank sheet of paper Lying on the window sill and looking at the clouds in the sky, you can see the whole day just by looking at it.

And then, Ji Changsi, who is now regarded as a sub-personality, was originally a crazy guy, but he would look at the sun outside the window with this look.

Before Ji Ziyang couldn't say which word to use to describe this expression other than indifferent.

But now, he suddenly searched for a particularly suitable sentence in his mind, with an expression like a person who has given up on everything.

"What is Wei Xi to you?"

For some reason, Ji Ziyang couldn't help asking him like this.

Ji Changsi, who was in a trance, was taken aback when he heard the sound, and after thinking for a while, he asked Ji Ziyang, "What is he to you?"

"What the hell is it to me?"

"Well, can you tell me?" Ji Changsi completely lost his usual resistance to Ji Ziyang at this time, and just looked at him lightly, "I've wanted to ask this question for a long time, is it true that you like him? "

Facing such gazes, Ji Ziyang was a little confused.His heart was in turmoil, even though he knew that the guy in front of him was not someone he knew before, but facing the same face, he would inevitably have some difficulty controlling his emotions.He felt chills down his spine.

Ji Ziyang looked at the man in front of him and realized that he was actually trying to "kill" him.

He knew that for the ruler of this body at this time, it was just a sub-personality, not its original master.

He also knows that each personality is separate, each personality is a soul, and he should not confuse them.

But now he also suddenly understands that even though each "born child" is independent, these "children" are born precisely because of the experiences and traumas experienced by the protagonist, even if he cannot confuse them, his Every personality should be respected, but they are also part of the master personality, aren't they?

In a sense, Ji Changsi is also a part of Wei Jiale.

And he was trying to kill a certain part of Wei Jiale.

Ji Ziyang thought about it, and then looked at Ji Changsi.

He couldn't help but superimpose Ji Changsi's figure on Wei Xi's body, and put Wei Xi's figure on Wei Jiale's body in his memory...

"What about you, do you like him?"

The guy in front of him was a little impatient.

But for some reason, Ji Ziyang suddenly lowered his eyes, as if he had realized something.

He remembered that he had never had the opportunity to say he liked Wei Jiale.

So Ji Ziyang smiled wryly, and said frankly to the existence in front of him that should be Wei Jiale but was not Wei Jiale, "Yeah, I like him."

"Really?" Ji Changsi also smiled, "...I have never believed it."

"why?"

"Because I think you like Wei Jiale, not Wei Xi."

"What did you say?"

The tense strings in his mind were broken, and the things in his heart that could not find the answer were also poked. Ji Ziyang's eyes widened for a moment, and he looked at Ji Changsi without blinking.

"Isn't it?" Ji Changsi still smiled faintly, but there was a rare depth in his eyes, "I've always wanted to ask you, do you like Wei Jiale more in the past, or Wei Jiale now? A little more evening?"

"..."

"Do you know? He will tell me everything about you and Wei Xi. I heard that there is a big gap between Wei Xi and the Wei Jiale you remember? So what does Wei Xi look like to you now? Fascinated by you?"

This series of questions made Ji Ziyang a little confused, "Is this important? Even if he is different from before, he is still Wei Jiale?"

"But he's different, isn't he?"

"I don't care about that, and I don't care what he becomes."

"But, if you really don't care what he becomes, why do you always want him to recover his memory?"

"...That's because of you, because he likes you, I have a chance except to remind him of who I am, don't you understand?"

Ji Changsi smiled, "I understand, I guessed it too, but I still don't understand, what if Wei Xi still likes me when he recovers his memory? Besides, did he say he liked you when he was a child? You are so sure that after he recovers his memory Will definitely like you?"

Ji Changsi asked very sincerely, without any trace of provocation, "And if you really like Wei Xi, what does it matter if he recovers his memory or not?"

Ji Ziyang was stunned. Facing Ji Changsi's question, he didn't know how to answer it.

Ji Changsi paused for a while, turned his head away with a smile, and looked at the sun outside the window with that faint expression, "Do you know? In fact, you don't love Wei Xi at all, and you don't love Wei Jiale either. What you love is you Yourself. If you really loved Wei Jiale, you wouldn't have betrayed him in the first place."

Ji Ziyang clenched his fists, thinking of himself.He still remembered how when he received the letter from afar, he just threw it in the drawer in a hurry. He thought he would reply if he had time, but his time always seemed to be insufficient, and he used it for fun. There is so much time, but there is only one minute left for Wei Jiale who is far away.

"I think you are quite selfish. You have been selfish from the beginning to the end. What is Wei Xi to you? A toy? You want it if you want it, throw it away if you want it? Then finally someone cherishes this quilt more than you do." The toy you discarded, and you hope you can get it back if you want to go back?"

"Aren't you selfish?" Ji Ziyang was still ashamed at first, but he couldn't help but refute when he was accused like this, "Your tricks to Wei Xi are no better than mine, right? You can only watch you…"

"Yes, I'm selfish, but if I can afford it, can you afford it?"

Ji Ziyang frowned again.

Ji Changsi turned his head and looked at him with great arrogance, "Do you know why I have been ignoring him even though I made him not cooperate with you in recovering his memory? Wei Xi always said that he was incomplete when he lost his memory. Although I didn't care, he wanted to , then I’ll let him go. Even if he remembers or doesn’t remember, I don’t care whether he is Wei Jiale or Wei Xi, because no matter who he is, to me, he It's all just Wei Xi."

"But, can you do it?"

Ji Ziyang's eyes flickered for a while, and finally dimmed under Ji Changsi's gaze.

"Are you sure you want to restore his memory so much that you really want to snatch him away from me? Don't you always think you're good? Why don't you simply chase him, why do you have to let him restore his memory? Woolen cloth?"

why?

Ji Ziyang has asked himself this question many times, Xu Fei has asked him many times before, and now even his love rival Ji Changsi has asked him this question, but facing the face in front of him that is no different from Wei Jiale, He still couldn't answer the question.

Does he like this Wei Jiale who is already called Wei Xi?

It's not that he can't accept this kind of Wei Jiale, but he always feels that this kind of Wei Jiale is too strange, it doesn't seem like Wei Jiale belongs to him.

Ji Changsi asked Ji Ziyang why he was so obsessed with restoring Wei Xi's memory. In the past, Ji Ziyang only thought it was because of Ji Changsi's existence, and restoring memory was the only way to get Wei Xi back to him.

But now he finally found out, maybe this kind of reason is still too flimsy, it can only be enough to let him escape for a while, but it can't fool him for the rest of his life.

Why must Wei Xi recover his memory?

Shame to say.

Even though he could find some shadows of Wei Jiale on Wei Xi's body, he really couldn't bear Wei Xi's strange eyes.

Because he felt that Wei Xi, who had no memory, was not the Wei Jiale he wanted at all.

The author has something to say:

I can't help but simply reflect on myself, and I don't need to watch it.

The idea of ​​this article is the first idea I came up with when I wanted to write an original a long time ago. Although I wrote another article later, I have thought about what this article wants to express for a long time.

I think this article is probably the most boring one I have ever written. It is cumbersome, procrastinated, dull and uninteresting. I also thought about overhauling it, how to make it more interesting to read, and delete some useless nonsense, but after much deliberation I still can't start, because it's all thinking, and it's like this when I write it out.

I love it, it's my favorite.

But it is also very tangled. I think the idea of ​​this article should be very interesting, but my ability is limited, and I messed up the result. I feel sorry for my brain hole, and I feel very sorry from the beginning to the present, especially from lof Several gn who have been reading the article.

Ah, zqsg for a moment, don't laugh at me.

In short, I'm sorry that such a boring thing made you stick to it until now, thank you for not giving up.

Then "World Feud" started. I wanted to finish this article and start it again, but I am afraid that the friends who followed this article will be too hard. Although it is also not interesting, but it is relaxed. It is the brother chapter of "Secretary Friends" before. As for the matter of the prince, if it is agreed to do it, let's do it.

If you don't dislike it, have some entertainment before going to bed and want to change your mood, so let's use it to adjust.

that's all!