dreamer

Wei Xi always believed that Ji Changsi was real, even though he really couldn't see him anymore.

Ji Ziyang was not surprised by this result. Many schizophrenic patients will have the same situation, which is very common.

In fact, from a psychological point of view, how to judge whether a person is normal is really elegant.

According to the psychological health model, Wei Xi is indeed abnormal.But now Wei Xi has not experienced hallucinations again, nor has she lost the ability to survive as a normal person.He simply believes in his own heart that there is a person he likes in this world, and he will not have any impact on the people around him or even the society, so it cannot be said that his situation must be harmful.

Of course, if he keeps seeing hallucinations, that's another story, and that could be harmful.

So what can be done right now is to continue to provide psychological counseling for Wei Xi, and the restrictions on Wei Xi are much looser than before.

Before going to bed, Ji Ziyang asked Wei Xi, "Have you taken your medicine?"

Wei Xi glanced at him, "I've eaten."

Ji Ziyang patted his head, "Go to rest early."

Wei Xi didn't resist Ji Ziyang's increasingly intimate behavior, but went back to the bedroom silently and closed the door, and let out a long sigh of relief.

Ji Ziyang no longer stares at him to take medicine every day.

This kind of life lasted for more than a week, during which Ji Ziyang slept on the sofa of Wei Xi's house, half because of need, and half because of Ji Ziyang's intention.

Bitter is bitter, but he is happy.

With Ji Ziyang's care, Wei Xi looked better than before.In the past, there were always green dark circles under his eyes. Although he has become a little more dull now, he has been staying in the hospital before, eating and sleeping on time every day, living such a regular life, and the whole person is more sane than before.

Speaking of it, this is also a key point that makes Ji Ziyang very suspicious. Why does Wei Xi, who is so sleepy, always show such a tired state before?

And besides that, even though Ji Ziyang could see that Wei Xi's complexion had improved, he couldn't ignore that Wei Xi's mental state was not as good as before.

It's not that Wei Xi's condition is getting worse, but he can feel that Wei Xi's heart is missing a piece.

That's about the... emotional side of things.

It's not that Ji Ziyang has never seen it before. When he got up in the middle of the night and wanted to see if Wei Xi had kicked the quilt, he vaguely saw Wei Xi who was staring out the window in a daze through the crack of the door.It's not like he hasn't seen it before. On Ji Ziyang's birthday, Wei Xi handed over a pair of drawing paper with him on it, and then frowned slightly, and couldn't help but look away.

At that time, Ji Ziyang pretended not to notice what was wrong with Wei Xi, complimented Wei Xi in a sensible manner, and then walked out of the studio, leaving Wei Xi a space to be alone for a while.

He's very male, Ji Ziyang is very generous, he doesn't seem to be too jealous when Wei Xi thinks of Ji Changsi when he touches the scene, and he doesn't rush to instill in Wei Xi the idea that "Ji Changsi doesn't exist" every day.

After all, the non-existent rival in love has disappeared. As for Wei Xi's heart, he will settle it sooner or later.Even if he can't handle it, he believes that the power of time will also exhaust Wei Xi's feelings similar to broken love.

It's just that when he went to wake Wei Xi up one morning, the first thing Wei Xi said when she opened her eyes was to call out that name to him.

Ji Ziyang froze for a moment, to be honest, it was impossible not to feel sad.

Then when Wei Xi saw clearly who the person in front of him was, he finally couldn't help being stunned for a while, covering his eyes.

That day, Ji Ziyang sat on the bed and hugged Wei Xi, let him lean into his arms, and cried for a long time for the disappearing sweetheart.

To be honest, this was the first time that Ji Ziyang saw Wei Xi cry since he had known Wei Xi for so long.And he was crying so sadly that he even wanted to cry along with him.

Ji Ziyang wanted to ask Wei Xi a question, can I not do it?

I can give you what that non-existent guy gave you, and I can give you what he can’t give you, can’t I?

But Ji Ziyang couldn't ask.

He wanted to say something, but he didn't know how to say it, and he didn't even have the ability or qualification to say it.

Because he felt no less than Wei Xi what it was like to like someone.

If a guy stood in front of Ji Ziyang and said to him, you like me, let me replace Wei Jiale, he would definitely beat him to death.

Because Wei Jiale cannot be replaced, just like for Wei Xi, Ji Changsi cannot be replaced by anyone.

Ji Ziyang understands all this.

And what's worse, facing the person you like every day and thinking about another person every day, what is this feeling?

I remember seeing a sentence summed up by netizens on the Internet before, "There is no fate between you and me, and it all depends on me."

This is probably the most appropriate word to describe Ji Ziyang after meeting Wei Xi again.

Ji Ziyang thought it would not be so difficult, at first he wanted to start over with Wei Xi, it didn't matter if he changed someone else; then he found that the current Wei Xi already has someone he likes, so he wanted Wei Xi to change back to Wei Jiale , as long as he regains his memory, he will still have a chance; then he finds out that the person Wei Xi likes does not exist. He thought it was the best thing, but he gradually realized that it seems that even Ji Changsi will never appear again, and Wei Xi will always be Wei Xi, neither will he be able to change back to the old Wei Jiale, nor will he fall in love with anyone again.

It seemed that there was no hope for him at all.

He knew that Wei Xi must still be thinking about Ji Changsi who never existed, that guy Wei Xi had loved deeply. When he knew that the person he liked was an illusory existence, the feeling must be no worse than being broken in love.

So everything went back to that point. Unless Wei Xi could recover his memory, Ji Ziyang might still have a little hope.

Xu Fei also discussed this issue with Ji Ziyang.

At that time, Ji Ziyang was a little relieved to let Wei Xi spend the night alone at home, so after watching Wei Xi fall asleep peacefully, he found a chance to invite Xu Fei out for a few drinks. The place is not far away, just near Wei Xi's house, anyway He should express his gratitude for taking advantage of others.

Ji Ziyang knew that Xu Fei had guessed a little about his relationship with Wei Xi, so when Xu Fei mentioned it, he also calmly told Xu Fei about his relationship with Wei Jiale.

Of course, there is also that guy named Ji Changsi.

After Xu Fei learned of Wei Xi's feelings for Ji Changsi, he didn't show much surprise, nor did he show much sympathy.There is no way, it's not that he is cold-blooded, nor is it that he can't put himself in other people's shoes and understand their feelings.

It's just that he has seen too many weird guys, and his heart has long since lost that softness, so his speech is not as tactful as others.

"Xiao Ji, I think you are seriously ill."

Accompanied by the slightly sad music in the bar, Xu Fei came to this conclusion.

"How to say?"

"How long have you been separated from Wei Jiale? It's been... 12 years, and you were both children when you separated, isn't your relationship considered paranoid?" Xu Fei lit a cigarette and continued, "This Have you ever had a normal relationship in the past 12 years? Did you not want to or could not? Anyway, compared to ordinary people, you are too abnormal?"

Ji Ziyang lowered his eyes, only drinking the wine in the glass without saying a word.

"Doctors don't heal themselves." Xu Fei also shook the wine in his glass, shaking his head helplessly, "Why don't you come to our hospital for a check-up when you have time, it may not be as sick as Wei Xi's."

"Xu Fei, you will be punished for talking like this sooner or later."

Xu Fei smiled and continued to tease, "And have you ever thought that Wei Xi is no longer the Wei Jiale in your memory, what if Wei Xi can't recover her memory? You can still accept this you without reservation." Did you say that Wei Jiale doesn't look like Wei Jiale at all?"

This is the truth.

Ji Ziyang was stunned for a moment, then put the cup in his hand on the table again, and lit a cigarette, "I have thought about what you said, but I think we should cure Wei Xi first, as long as his illness Well, he will definitely remember."

"What if he can't?"

"Why not? He must!"

Ji Ziyang frowned slightly, staring at Xu Fei stubbornly.

Xu Fei shrugged, lit a cigarette, and looked at Ji Ziyang playfully.

The two confronted each other silently for a while, but Ji Ziyang was still defeated.

He held his forehead for a while, and when he spoke again, his tone was so tired, "To be honest, I don't know what I should do if Wei Xi can't change back to Wei Jiale."

Perhaps because of the catalysis of alcohol, Ji Ziyang, who has always refused to admit defeat, finally uttered a word from his heart.

"I've been waiting for Wei Jiale for so long... I feel like I've lived so long, the only thing I've done seriously is to wait for when I can see him again. But when I met him again, he wasn't him at all , he doesn’t even remember me, what do you think I can do?”

"I just want to simply meet Wei Jiale again and be with him as before. Why is it so difficult?"

Xu Fei sighed, and scanned the surrounding guests while listening to the slightly sad music in the bar.

Look, there are so many pictures of men and women intertwined, happy, quarreling, flirting, and in love with each other. Compared with the man next to him, they don't know how much happier they are.

Xu Fei bit his lip and thought for a while, then patted Ji Ziyang on the shoulder, "Actually, have you ever thought about it, after so many years, even if Wei Jiale didn't lose his memory, he would no longer be the Wei Jiale in your memory gone."

Ji Ziyang looked at Xu Fei and motioned him to continue.

"I think you should also understand that a large part of the reason why people's memories of first love are so deep and beautiful is because when you recall it over and over again, it has already been deformed."

Ji Ziyang pursed his lips and nodded silently.

He understood what Xu Fei meant. There are errors in human memory. Part of the error in memory is due to the degradation of memory, and part of it is due to people's unconscious beautification of it.

"Even if many people reunite with their first love, they may not be able to relive their old dreams. More people will find that the person in their memory has actually changed with the passage of time, and they are not the same as before. It’s just that sentence, we can’t go back.”

Xu Fei took the last sip of his drink, and then patted Ji Ziyang on the shoulder, "Actually, what to do depends on what you want. If you can accept a completely different Wei Jiale, then you stick to it. If you The only one I love is the Wei Jiale from the past, so I will always love the him in my memory in my dreams."

After Ji Ziyang bid farewell to Xu Fei, he walked alone on the road to Wei Xi's house against the cold wind.

Xu Fei's words kept lingering in his ears, which made his head hurt and his heart hurt.

If what you love is only the Wei Jiale from the past, then always love the him in your memory in your dreams.

Is this his only option?

Ji Ziyang looked at the dark distance, he can help his patients, he can help the people he likes, why is no one can help him.

After wandering around and finally returning to Wei Xi's house, Ji Ziyang reached out and turned on the light, and then lay down on the sofa.

Dizzy, he really drank too much.

What can't be forgotten is Wei Jiale's bright and lovely smile when he was young, and he is still calling him over and over again with his grandma's juvenile voice.

Yang Yang...

He can even see the two people who often slept together when they were teenagers...

Wei Jiale woke up in the morning light, blinked his beautiful eyes and looked at him sleepily, then hid under the quilt...

How did Ji Ziyang do it at that time?

He got under the quilt in a daze and stretched out his hand to pinch Wei Jiale's waist, muttering, what are you hiding from?

Then the two of them had a quarrel under the quilt, they still didn't wake up, they were wearing only a pair of underwear, and then you pushed me and I squeezed you with your eyes closed, the final result was that Wei Jiale looked like a human Like a pillow, Ji Ziyang was wrapped into his arms from behind, and he was so pressed that he couldn't move.

sleep a little longer...

Ji Ziyang muttered softly, and then the "pillow" in his arms became quiet.

It's just that the "pillow" became quiet later, but Ji Ziyang, who was half awake, couldn't be quiet anymore.

In fact, this kind of situation is not uncommon. He had learned in school that boys of their age would have this kind of physiological phenomenon.

It's just that Ji Ziyang didn't expect to react at this time, so it's fucking embarrassing.

what can we do about it?

Ji Ziyang thought of this, one of his arms was still around Wei Jiale's waist, and his hand slipped down accidentally, and he felt Wei Jiale turn sideways, and the whole body lay on the bed, as if he was trying to cover up with what...

With Wei Jiale's movement, a gap finally appeared between the two of them.Originally, he should have taken this opportunity to turn over and pretend to fall asleep, but Ji Ziyang followed in a mysterious way, and continued to cover Wei Jiale's body like a creeper climbing on the wall, clinging to him tightly, even if he felt Wei Jiale Le Na made a slight break free, but also indifferently bound him even tighter.

Then the stiffness and heat below also reached Wei Jiale's ass.

Ji Ziyang didn't know if Wei Jiale was awake, and he didn't know if Wei Jiale knew that he was actually awake.

And neither of them knew whether the other had noticed the changes in themselves.

But the two of them still chose to continue pretending to be asleep, and then one borrowed the bed, the other borrowed the other's butt, where they rubbed intentionally or unintentionally...

Later, the behavior that could not be explained by the IQ of the two people at that time ended when Ji Ziyang's mother knocked on the door and woke them up for breakfast. Clothes, washing, no one mentioned the "dream" that happened while half asleep.

……

But the early morning of that day was the lingering dream that lingered in Ji Ziyang's heart for so many years.

Ji Ziyang felt his mouth dry for a while, and couldn't help rubbing his |hip|lower|things with his hands.

At this time, he suddenly heard a slight sound from a distance.

ah!He remembered that there was a guy exactly like Wei Jiale sleeping in the bedroom over there, that was an upgraded version of Wei Jiale, and that person was Wei Xi.

Ji Ziyang struggled to sit up from the sofa, dizzy.

Although he knew that the guy in the bedroom was no longer the Wei Jiale of the past, and he also knew that he still couldn't balance his feelings for a while, but at least that upgraded version of Wei Jiale still had the same face?

Ji Ziyang's eyes became a little absent-minded, and a little not pure.

He really wanted to see him, the guy he had liked since childhood.

He knew that he shouldn't disturb other people's rest, Ji Ziyang pondered in a daze, but he couldn't help but want to go to that guy's side.

He wants to touch him, he wants him.

If it was Wei Jiale, he would definitely not reject him.

The final result of the battle between heaven and man was that Ji Ziyang finally stood up unsteadily, obviously thinking to speak softly in his heart, but in action, he pushed the door and entered Wei Xi's room recklessly.

However, when he reached the edge of the bed, he didn't touch the person who should be lying there.

Ji Ziyang was taken aback, and was half sober in an instant.

But before he had time to turn around, something hit his head hard.Then, accompanied by a burst of severe pain, Ji Ziyang's eyes went dark, and he fell onto the bed.

The author has something to say:

... as witty as God (me), stopped a "tragedy" from happening, goodjob.

Double change!