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"You mean... you want Wei Xi to go home?"

Xu Fei looked at Ji Ziyang with a very incomprehensible look.

"This is not asking you."

"Why? He is not satisfied with what level of treatment he has here?"

"It's not dissatisfaction," Ji Ziyang pulled out the chair and sat down, playing with the pen on Xu Fei's desk, "Isn't this a hospital from beginning to end, besides, his current situation is not under control, I think it has stabilized .”

"Comrade Xiao Ji... If you are always so soft-hearted, sooner or later something big will happen." Xu Fei sighed helplessly, then leaned back on the desk and looked at Ji Ziyang with a puzzled face, "Why did I never know Are you such a soft-hearted person?"

"What kind of soft heart..."

"Isn't it? Wei Xi is begging you again?"

Ji Ziyang glanced at Xu Fei, threw the pen on the table, leaned on the chair and turned around with the back of his head.

"He's been here for so long, what do you do to him? I've got eyes." Xu Fei said this, and then looked up Wei Xi's case, and floated out from behind the case folder, "" Which patient in your hands have you ever been so kind to, just because it was Fa Xiaoer?...I said, do you like him..."

"...I hit you?"

"Yeah, really?" Xu Fei put down the medical case, looked at Ji Ziyang with wide eyes, "Then you are really pitiful..."

"What's pitiful?"

Xu Fei suppressed a smile, "The poor man doesn't like you..."

"...I'm going to go through the discharge procedures."

Ji Ziyang stood up and was about to leave, but Xu Fei behind him quickly stood up and stopped him across the table.

"Wait a moment, you wait a moment, you are so ignorant."

As Xu Fei said, he pushed his glasses on the bridge of his nose and regained a serious expression, "It's impossible to get out of the hospital, don't even think about it, go back and tell Wei Xi not to think about it, this is where you are, the shortest is to observe two To three months, and Wei Xi's situation is special, I personally suggest to observe for a longer period of time."

"How long will that take?"

"Well... half a year!"

"Pull you down!"

Xu Fei smiled and threw the folder in his hand in front of Ji Ziyang.

Ji Ziyang glared at him, picked up the file and looked at it. This is Wei Xi's treatment records for the past month, and it recorded every attack and treatment process in detail.

"Look, as you said before, there are still many illnesses in Wei Xi's body that we haven't figured out, such as short-term amnesia, and the magical drowsiness process." Xu Fei turned the pen in his hand and said to Ji Ziyang, "And We've never seen these symptoms before."

"En... indeed," Ji Ziyang nodded after hearing such words, and then an unpredictable expression appeared on his face, "And I always feel that some of Wei Xi's symptoms can be explained with schizophrenia. "

Xu Fei obviously didn't expect Ji Ziyang to come to such a conclusion, "...huh?"

Ji Ziyang looked through the treatment records carefully, "I always feel a little strange."

"What's weird?"

"Look at this time, and this time, the symptoms of the onset are obviously different from others. The symptoms look like... amnesia."

"Isn't it normal? Wei Xi said before that he had temporary amnesia and forgot what he had done."

"It's not the same. You see, Wei Xi has forgotten what he did, but I have seen him when he was sick. At that time, he couldn't tell where he was at all, and he couldn't recognize the people around him. Not only did he Emotional and violent…”

As Ji Ziyang said, he remembered the time when he saw Wei Xi's illness on the spot.He will never forget that Wei Xi, who woke up from sleep, looked at everything around him with complicated eyes, even when he saw himself, those eyes were full of strangeness that could not be erased.

Later, when Wei Xi wanted to escape, but was pushed to the ground by the nurses, Xu Fei, who heard the news, rushed over and asked Ji Ziyang at the door, "Ji Ziyang? Are you okay?"

Then Ji Ziyang saw it, and Wei Xi's eyes instantly seemed to be bloodshot, looking at him with a particularly hostile gaze...

Xu Fei followed Ji Ziyang's thinking and analyzed, "There is nothing wrong with chaotic thinking and perceptual confusion."

Ji Ziyang touched his lips and was also thinking, "...can you explain it this way?"

"You have to know that a schizophrenic patient has a lot of strange behaviors when he gets sick." Xu Fei leaned back on the chair and played with the pen in his hand. No other symptoms recurred, which shows that our treatment direction is correct, and the medication is also suitable for the symptoms.”

When it came to medicine, Ji Ziyang hesitated again, "This medicine...has a lot of side effects, right?"

"They are all new drugs, and there must be side effects, but they are much better than the old drugs."

Ji Ziyang nodded, but there was still a trace of hesitation on his face.

"what happened?"

"...I always feel that Wei Xi's illness is not just schizophrenia."

"Pfft, isn't schizophrenia easy?" Xu Fei tidied up the case and smiled, "I know you care about him, but don't be too sensitive, not to mention, our general direction is right, and we need to continue observe."

Ji Ziyang couldn't deny it, and returned the case to Xu Fei.

Before leaving Xu Fei's office, Ji Ziyang tried again, "How about...can you take him out for a walk?"

"Go out for a walk?"

"If it works, can you let him go home at night and send him to the hospital during the day?"

Xu Fei looked at Ji Ziyang, he knew that Ji Ziyang who could say such a thing was already begging him, since he was acquaintance, it was not that he couldn't help him.

But Xu Fei still hesitated, "What if something unexpected happens?"

Ji Ziyang saw that Xu Fei looked like he was having fun, so he quickly stepped up his efforts, "I watched him, and let's talk about sleeping overnight, and he will come back soon after taking the medicine and closing his eyes."

"Oh, you also know about sleeping all night, so you can't keep him here?"

Ji Ziyang smiled kindly.

After a few more days, Wei Xi finally got Xu Fei's permission to let Ji Ziyang take him home to have a look.

Before leaving, Xu Fei came to the ward again and asked Wei Xi about everything, and even told him what to do if he had hallucinations again.

Wei Xi lowered her eyes and replied in a low voice, "I want to tell myself that it's fake, he's not real, I need to take medicine, if it doesn't work, call for help..."

The tone was well-behaved and docile, without any resistance at all.

Look, Wei Xi really looks much better than before.

Xu Fei patted Wei Xi on the shoulder, then nodded to Ji Ziyang.

Ji Ziyang sent Wei Xi back home.

When she first entered the front hall of the apartment, Wei Xi couldn't help running to the mailbox, but when she looked through her pockets, she found that there was no key.

Ji Ziyang was stunned for a moment, then hurriedly followed, took out Wei Xi's key from his pocket and handed it to him.

Wei Xi looked through each letter carefully, and then an unconcealable loss appeared on her face.

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Xi, "What's wrong?"

Wei Xi hurriedly tossed the junk mail into the trash bin beside her with a blank expression, "It's nothing."

Just saying so, my heart is still empty.Among so many envelopes, none of them were left by Ji Changsi.

When I got home, the air that hit my face was not as turbid as imagined, and even when I opened the door, I felt a gust of cool wind blowing in from the window.

"I'm sorry, you put all your things in my place before, so I took your key and came here occasionally to ventilate." Ji Ziyang put Wei Xi's things aside, and quickly explained, "Don't worry, I will I only came and stayed for half an hour before leaving, nothing moved, you can check and check if you don’t worry."

Wei Xi turned her head and glanced at Ji Ziyang lightly, "Thank you."

When he came to the dining table, he wiped the table lightly with his fingers, and there was a thin layer of dust on his fingertips. Sure enough, Ji Ziyang really only opened the window for ventilation.

Wei Xi took off her coat, rolled up her sleeves and cleaned the room.

During this period, Ji Ziyang helped him do this and that, and threw the changed clothes into the washing machine to wash them clean.

Ji Ziyang helped him do these things before, except for the underwear that Wei Xi insisted on washing by himself, all the clothes were brought back by Ji Ziyang to deal with every day.

While drying the clothes, Wei Xi couldn't help feeling soft-hearted. In fact, Ji Ziyang had indeed done a lot for him.

It's just that no matter how grateful I am, I still can't keep up with the sense of loss in my heart.

After dinner, Wei Xi sat in the bathtub with her knees hugged, her mind full of where Ji Changsi had gone.

He originally thought that Ji Changsi would be the first person he saw after he came out, but it had been so long, and that person had never appeared, as if he had disappeared, not even leaving him a letter.

Where will Ji Changsi go?

He's never been away for so long, is he mad?Because of his "leaving without saying goodbye"?Or is he mistaken again?Do you think your eyes are no longer looking at him?

Thinking of this, Wei Xi felt that she had fallen into deep fear.

Ji Changsi said that if he stopped looking at him, he would leave him.

If Ji Changsi ignores him anymore, how can he face all this alone and continue to live?

Wei Xi couldn't help but want to cry, there was no way, he was such a cowardly guy, and he also hated himself for being like this, he seemed to know nothing but crying.

But before he could cry, there was a knock on the bathroom door.

Ji Ziyang asked him through the door, "Wei Xi? Are you okay?"

"No, it's fine."

Look, what else could he do?

After all, even if he returned to his three-acre land, he was still a guy under surveillance.

Ji Ziyang watched Wei Xi take the medicine, and that night, he insisted on sleeping on the sofa at Wei Xi's house.

Wei Xi didn't stop Ji Ziyang from staying this time, because he knew that this was the only chance to ensure that he could go home every day, so he had to behave himself.

It's just that there was no chance to spit out those disgusting drugs, and with Ji Ziyang's surveillance every night, he had no chance to shut his throat.

This kind of days of staying in the hospital during the day and returning home for the night lasted for a while.

During the regular inspection, Xu Fei looked at Wei Xi who was silent for a while, and then waved to Ji Ziyang.

Xu Fei decided to ask Ji Ziyang to help Wei Xi, because the patient's tricks were too clumsy.Xu Fei knew that Wei Xi hadn't told the truth about some issues related to psychological assessment. His responsibility to Wei Xi was to physically eliminate those illusions that didn't exist. As for Wei Xi's psychological counseling work, he decided to hand it over to Ji Ziyang.

Because he thinks that Ji Ziyang is more suitable for this job than him.

Ji Ziyang asked Wei Xi, "What is Ji Changsi to you?"

At that time, Wei Xi was sitting on the sofa at home, and replied honestly to Ji Ziyang, "The person I like."

"Even if he is someone who doesn't exist?"

"..."

Ji Ziyang waited for a while, then continued to say to Wei Xi, "No matter what you think, tell me the truth. If you don't want Xu Fei to know, I won't tell him either."

Wei Xi was silent for a while, then whispered, "He's not fake."

"What's the evidence?"

"We've known each other for so long, that's the proof."

"But no one but you has seen him, have you?"

"But that doesn't mean he's fake, right?" Wei Xi raised her eyes with a rare determination, "What evidence do you have to prove that he doesn't exist?"

Ji Ziyang thought for a while, "I have been to your school, and the school told me that there has never been such a student, and there is no information about Ji Changsi."

"Maybe it was lost, or the file was taken away."

"Well, it's possible what you said," Ji Ziyang chuckled, "Then tell me, how long has it been since you saw him?"

Wei Xi froze for a moment.

"Since you started treatment and took your medicine on time, have you seen Ji Changsi again?"

Ji Ziyang watched Wei Xi closely, and Wei Xi also stared at him.

The two confronted each other silently for a while, but Wei Xi was the first to lose.

"That's the best evidence, isn't it? Otherwise why doesn't he come to you anymore?"

After listening to Ji Ziyang's words, Wei Xi lowered her head and bit her lips.

"He...he must be angry..."

"what?"

Ji Ziyang didn't hear clearly, so he asked again, "What did you say?"

Wei Xi pondered for a while, then suddenly raised her head and looked at Ji Ziyang with a very clever look, "He's just angry with me... Maybe he's in some trouble, but he'll definitely come back to me."

Like countless times, when he needed him most, he reached out to him with a halo.

Ji Ziyang swallowed, and looked at Wei Xi without blinking.

"Because we agreed, as long as I only look at him, he will always be with me."

"I believe in him, he will definitely come back to me."

Wei Xi's gaze was so firm and bright, piercing straight into Ji Ziyang's heart, making him uncontrollably merge the Wei Xi in front of him with the Wei Jiale in his memory for a moment.

Ji Ziyang suddenly remembered that many years ago, he also told Wei Jiale that no matter what happened, he would not want him.He also promised Wei Jiale that he wanted Wei Jiale to wait for him there, and he would definitely come back to find him.

Ji Ziyang's heart skipped a beat. Although he knew that the situation in front of him and his past were two different things, he couldn't help but confuse that feeling. It was like a space and time, people and things. Confused.

Obviously, he should feel heartbroken and pitiful for Wei Xi, who has such recognition and expectations, but Ji Ziyang still couldn't help asking Wei Xi, "...What if he won't come back?"

It's like asking Wei Jiale back then, what if Ji Ziyang won't come back?

Wei Xi in front of him said so calmly, "...then I'll go find him."

Many years ago, Wei Jiale looked at the sunset in the sky and silently made up his mind that he was waiting for him.

"What if you can't find him?"

What if Ji Ziyang lied to you?

"Then I'll wait for him."

Wei Jiale was wearing a thick winter coat, looking at the river flowing into the distance in front of him, even though his heart was frozen, he still stood firm there.

What can I do if I cheat him, he will still wait for him.

Who made him choose to believe him in the first place?

Ji Ziyang blinked, and looked away from Wei Xi.His hands are also a little out of control, as if they feel unnatural wherever they are placed.He felt his chest was congested, and he was almost out of breath.

Although he couldn't understand what kind of mood Wei Jiale was waiting for him back then, he felt the desolate situation and mood from Wei Xi.

Ji Ziyang tried his best to stabilize his emotions, wanted to be more professional, and quickly got back to the topic.

So he tried to continue asking Wei Xi, "So, so you still think... Ji Changsi exists?"

Hearing this, Wei Xi smiled lightly.

"...No matter what you say, I believe he exists."

The originally cowardly guy, now he speaks so majesticly and calmly. That way he looks very much like Wei Jiale when he was a child, strong and determined.

"No matter where Ji Changsi has gone, I will look for him. If I can't find him, then I will always be here waiting for him."

"Sooner or later, he will definitely come back to me."

"Then the truth will come out."

Wei Xi said, got up and walked to the window, looking at the clouds in the sky.

It's not that he's stubborn, nor is he persistent.

It's just because Ji Changsi is the only one who can make his soul free.

How could such an existence be false?

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