dreamer

Wei Xi watched through the window as the autumn wind swept away the last leaf on the tree.

A nurse opened the door and walked in, handing Wei Xi a tray with a small cardboard box and a glass of water on it.

Wei Xi looked at the nurse, then at the few pills in the small paper box, and remained silent.

"Aren't you listening again?"

The little nurse looked at Wei Xi with a gentle yet stern tone.

Want to resist?

Once again, face the consequences of disobedience.

He had already faced too many things like sedatives, and in the end, he had to lie on the bed with his hands tied and sweating, and fell into a deep sleep.

When he woke up, these pills were still in front of him.

Wei Xi pursed her lips, picked up the small paper box expressionlessly, poured the pills into her mouth, and gulped down a whole glass of water.

He's tired of being in a coma all day long.

"Good boy!" The nurse put the water cup on the tray and started recording for a new day.

"how do you feel today?"

"very good."

Wei Xi answered quietly.

"What dream did you have?"

I dreamed of Ji Changsi.

"...not dreaming."

But Wei Xi replied with lowered eyes.

He didn't dare to mention that guy anymore.

I remember that he didn't know this place well at that time, and he answered the doctor's question like this.

"I'm not sick."

Wearing a hospital gown, Wei Xi raised her eyes firmly to look at Xu Fei, and then swept all the medicine in front of her to the ground.

"I want to go back!"

Xu Fei was splashed with water, but there was no trace of anger on his face, he just sighed, turned around and walked out with the doctor.

Then two assistants came over, one held Wei Xi who was struggling constantly, and the other stuck another needle in his arm.

Then Wei Xi roared, the veins on his forehead stretched out, but very quickly, he could only open his eyes as the things around him became more and more ethereal, and he felt that time seemed to be getting slower and slower, and then the whole The soul of a person seems to be tightly grasped from behind by an invisible hand, pulling it backwards one after another, and every time it is pulled, Wei Xi's eyes will darken and there will be a click in his brain.

Then with this kind of tugging and pulling, Wei Xi lost consciousness.

When he woke up again, Xu Fei still looked at him tenderly, "Those are all fake."

Wei Xi lay on the bed, blinked weakly, and couldn't help crying.

It's just that he couldn't even cry out any sound, he could only let the tears flow down the corners of his eyes to his temples, and then fell down on the pillow.He has collapsed, he has no strength at all.

Later, Wei Xi remembered Ji Ziyang's words.

"...I am the most healthy and perfect person no matter what test I do...because I know what to choose..."

In his memory, Ji Ziyang blinked at him with some deep meaning.

So Wei Xi learned to compromise.

After the nurse took his temperature and recorded it, he went out. As soon as the door closed, Wei Xi climbed out of bed and walked into the bathroom, sobbing.

He doesn't like the medicine, he feels dizzy and nauseous every time he takes it, and he always wants to sleep.

Those drugs made him feel that his perception and senses were becoming more and more dull, and even his brain was about to stop functioning.

Xu Fei told him that this is a normal phenomenon after taking the medicine, as long as his condition improves, he can stop taking the medicine.

But when the situation will improve, Wei Xi has no idea.

He has been living here for a month.

Wei Xi came out of the bathroom, just as Ji Ziyang opened the door and came in.

The two met, Ji Ziyang quickly smiled at him, Wei Xi glanced at him, turned around and crawled back onto the hospital bed, covering her head with the quilt.

I was able to see Ji Ziyang again because of his good performance. Xu Fei once told him that no one would want to see him until he calmed down.

In fact, since the unpleasant "admission ceremony" before, Wei Xi didn't expect to see Ji Ziyang at all.

After all, it was all thanks to Ji Ziyang that he could end up like this and be treated like a mental patient.

Especially when he learned to take medicine obediently and cooperate with the treatment, when he saw Ji Ziyang again and begged him with red eyes to explain to the doctors that he was not sick, Ji Ziyang just looked at him sadly and didn't say anything.

From then on, he didn't have any expectations of Ji Ziyang.

Wei Xi was completely desperate.

That day he fell ill again, staring at his red eyes, not only couldn't recognize anyone, he couldn't even recognize where he was, he just struggled crazily, trying to escape from the ward.

Ji Ziyang, who was pushed to the ground, looked at such a strange Wei Xi in shock, and couldn't even pronounce his name. In the end, the doctor in charge gave Wei Xi another dose of sedative.

Then when Wei Xi woke up again, the first thing he saw was Ji Changsi who would appear when he was most in danger.

Ji Ziyang held Wei Xi's hand and sat on the edge of the bed, seeing him wake up, immediately stretched out his hand with concern to caress his face.But Wei Xi just struggled to turn her head to the other side, then closed her eyes, with a drop of tear dripping from her eyes.

Later, Ji Ziyang came back here every day to take care of Wei Xi, but Wei Xi still had a strange feeling for Ji Ziyang in his heart.

He will never forget how that guy turned his back on Ji Ziyang when he was in the most pain, the only time he reached out to Ji Ziyang for help.

So even though Ji Ziyang was busy running around for him, he still didn't know how to face him.Even more, he hoped that Ji Ziyang might as well just leave him here and leave him alone.

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Xi with an embarrassing look on his face.

But he didn't care too much about Wei Xi's indifference. He knew what happened before, and he also knew that Wei Xi might not be able to accept it now. He didn't blame him, he only blamed himself for not being able to choose a better way Help Wei Xi.

Ji Ziyang explained himself like this, pulled the short table in front of the bed, took out the food in the bag, and then ignored Wei Xi who was still lying with his head covered, and directly pressed the button to lift the bed.

"..."

Wei Xi lifted the quilt and glared at Ji Ziyang.

Ji Ziyang didn't say anything, otherwise what would he do? If he didn't do this, Wei Xi could lie with his face covered and not look at him for a whole day, what else could he do.

"Shall we eat first?"

The tone was obviously flattering and cowardly.

Wei Xi originally didn't want to talk to Ji Ziyang, but seeing the food in front of her, she couldn't bear to have a fit.

From the time he was hospitalized until now, his three meals a day were arranged by Ji Ziyang. Even if Ji Ziyang couldn't come because of something, a nurse would buy them for him and deliver them, and he never missed a meal.

"Even if the conditions here are good, sick people's meals are always sick people's meals, and they definitely don't taste good."

That's what Ji Ziyang said at the beginning, and he begged Xu Fei for a long time before agreeing that Wei Xi would not eat the food arranged by the hospital.

Wei Xi was not ignorant, no matter how upset she was, she couldn't help but appreciate Ji Ziyang's affection.

What's more, in fact, he also knew in his heart that he only came to this point because they thought he was sick and wanted to help him. They were not trying to harm him.Otherwise, it would be great to just throw him in a mental hospital, why bother.

He knows all this.

Wei Xi took the chopsticks handed over by Ji Ziyang, took two bites, and couldn't help asking Ji Ziyang, "Have you eaten?"

"Nope."

Wei Xi looked at the double portion of food, then glanced at Ji Ziyang, then moved aside helplessly, making room for Ji Ziyang.

So Ji Ziyang smiled, generously squeezed to Wei Xi's side, broke off the other chopstick and ate with him.

Wei Xi sighed silently. He didn't blame Ji Ziyang, but he didn't know how to let them understand that he was really not sick.

This must be a huge misunderstanding.

They told him he had schizophrenia, which is simply a hallucinatory disorder.And Ji Changsi is a product of his fantasy, a person who does not exist.He needs to face his illness and then actively cooperate with treatment.

"We think Ji Changsi appeared because of the situation you suffered at that time. You imagined a character to rescue you from the predicament. You need someone to help you, so Ji Changsi appeared, but he does not exist. "

At that time, Wei Xi listened to Ji Ziyang's careful explanation to him, and did not reveal the collapse and helplessness he imagined.

Because he didn't believe it at all.

Well, if they just told him he was schizophrenic, maybe he would believe it, after all, he did encounter a lot of things that he couldn't explain.But asking him to believe that Ji Changsi is a fake is simply a fantasy.How could a friend who had known him for so many years be fake?He knew that he might be stupid, but he didn't think there was any problem with his IQ, and he couldn't even tell the truth from the fake.

If Ji Changsi is fake, then what is he who has been with Ji Changsi for so long?

"Drink some soup, I made it myself."

Ji Ziyang ate faster than Wei Xi. As soon as he finished his work, he quickly opened the thermos, poured out a bowl of hot soup from it, and then took out a fruit knife and put it on the escort's stool and started pointing at the garbage Bucket peels apples for Wei Xi.

"You don't have to be so troublesome..."

"It's not troublesome. I don't have much work recently. I'm idle at home."

Wei Xi glanced at Ji Ziyang, who was wearing a small casual suit, and was peeling apples for him with his shirt sleeves rolled up, she couldn't help lowering her eyes.

This man lied again. How long has he known Ji Ziyang? If he didn't have a job, how could he be dressed like this.He must have come here directly after finishing work, maybe there are still a lot of things waiting for him in the afternoon.

Ji Ziyang peeled the fruit in the wastebasket, and then asked casually, "How is today?"

"It's still the same."

"Have you taken medicine?"

"…have eaten."

Wei Xi put down the spoon and asked Ji Ziyang with downcast eyes, "When can I go home?"

Ji Ziyang's hand paused, "I need to see a doctor..."

Wei Xi lowered her head and said nothing.

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Xi and quickly comforted him, "What's wrong? Did the nurse bully you?"

"No…"

"What's the matter?"

"I don't want to stay here. I just take medicine every day. Can't I take medicine on time when I go home?"

"I will let you go home after the situation is stable, this is not under observation..."

"When should we observe?"

Wei Xi raised her chin and looked at Ji Ziyang, frowning slightly, like a child throwing a temper tantrum.

Although he also felt very scared when he saw Ji Ziyang at first, just like seeing Xu Fei, he felt that they were on the same side.But later he discovered that Ji Ziyang was still a little different from Xu Fei. No matter how guilty he was, after showing an angry attitude towards Ji Ziyang, Ji Ziyang did not go to complain to Xu Fei, nor did he call a doctor. He just squatted on the ground with a sad face to clean up. He shuffled things up, then sat silently by his side.Even if Wei Xi scolded him to let him go, Ji Ziyang would still appear at the door of the ward with his mouth pursed the next day.

Like a dog that can't be driven away.

So he felt that Ji Ziyang was still different.He remembered that Ji Ziyang said before that he liked Wei Jiale.Although Wei Xi feels that he is no longer the Wei Jiale he was back then, but in Ji Ziyang's eyes, he is still Wei Jiale, isn't he?

Therefore, Wei Xi only dared to express the little anger and truth in his heart to Ji Ziyang, and even if there was any estrangement towards Ji Ziyang in his heart, he tried not to go too far.

kinda bad huh?But he had no other choice.

"I always say I'm sick, but I don't see what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm not sick at all."

Ji Ziyang smiled when he heard the words, "Look, you always have this attitude. If you let them hear it later, you will only stay longer."

Seeing Wei Xi pouted in dissatisfaction, Ji Ziyang deliberately frightened him, "Maybe if you say that you have mania or something, I will give you a few more hats, give you a bunch of extra pills every day, and give you two more injections." Sedative, see what you do when the time comes."

Wei Xi lowered her eyes and glanced to one side, the circles of her eyes seemed to be red.

"Okay, okay, I'm teasing you," Ji Ziyang quickly waved his hand, cut the apple in his hand and handed it to Wei Xi, "Well, I'll ask Xu Fei later."

Wei Xi licked her lips, took the tooth apple and said nothing.

He knew that he had to try his best to suppress his temper, and he had to be good to Ji Ziyang.

Because Ji Ziyang is the only one who can take him out of here.

"But don't expect too much, I guess it's useless."

Wei Xi lowered her head even lower.

Ji Ziyang hurriedly comforted, "But maybe I can take you out for a walk, go home and have a look or something."

Wei Xi's complexion improved a little.

After a while, Ji Ziyang asked Wei Xi cautiously, "Have you...have you seen anything you shouldn't have seen in the past two days?"

Wei Xi bit an apple and shook her head, "No."

Ji Ziyang carefully observed Wei Xi's expression, and then continued to ask, "Have you heard anything?"

"No."

"Oh."

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Xi, stayed with him for a while, and then walked out.

Looking at Ji Ziyang's back, Wei Xi sighed indistinctly again.

He knew that Ji Ziyang wanted to ask him if he had met Ji Changsi, the non-existent guy they were talking about.

It's a pity that he has never met Ji Changsi. If he did, he might really doubt whether Ji Changsi is fake, because he is here now, and Ji Changsi didn't know that he was hospitalized before, so how could he find him? Woolen cloth?

Ji Changsi must be looking for him all over the world now. It would be great if he could find him here, so that he can prove that he is not an illusion.