Remember a girl I love GL

It's really sad, and I can't figure out why two people who are so good will separate as soon as they say they are separated. Is this the case with feelings?I can't struggle, I can't ask, why she doesn't love me anymore.It's just because I'm a woman, I imprisoned myself, it's not wrong for two women to fall in love.But I insisted that only a man can give Xiaonian a better future, so I just quit without making a fool of myself or entanglement.

Xiaonian will probably be a little sad, I said I love her but I didn't do anything.Or maybe I was thinking too much, Xiaonian was glad that I didn't make things difficult for her.

When get out of class was over this evening, I met her and her partner again. I didn't want to meet but I kept meeting her.Xiaonian's expression was a little stiff, probably, she was also afraid that I would always surround her and not let go.

I've just packed up my stuff and can move in tomorrow morning.Xiaonian hasn't come back yet.I thought she wouldn't come back at night, but since we broke up, she hasn't.I don't know what to think.Maybe they haven't, haven't done that yet, I dare not think.There is no capital to worry about.

Xiaonian started to wear makeup. She used to have no makeup, but now she wakes up early and puts on makeup for a long time.If I don't call her, she can get up by herself, and she will probably eat breakfast obediently.So, I'm actually not that important to her.When I was in a daze, I would feel the movement of her getting up, gently, I don’t know if it was because I was afraid of waking me up, oh, I was daydreaming.

I was playing a list of breakup love songs, the lyrics were very vulgar, but I didn't know what happened, tears came down.In the past few days, the number of times I have cried, I don't even know myself.I have always refused to believe that Ruanruan, who has been with me for nearly four years, will leave me like this and choose a man who I have not been in contact with recently.

Or, Xiaonian is that kind of person, I don't know.I told the people on the basketball team about our breakup, because they were afraid that they would be embarrassed when they saw Xiao Nian. They all comforted me, saying that the old one would not go to the new one, and they even introduced men to me.Man... It's a pity that no one is a young person, and there will be no such thing as a young person.

The girl I used to like doesn't like me anymore, even... even, and in the future, Xiaonian probably won't be Xiaonian anymore, and I probably won't be me anymore.

Recently, I have been hypocritical, and sometimes I can't even stand myself.I am still normal in front of my classmates, except for crying occasionally.I still live a normal life, but there is something missing in my heart, empty.I don't want to go anywhere on October [-]st, I have no home, and there is no Xiaonian.I originally planned to take Xiao Nian on a trip, but I have been saving money recently, but unfortunately, the plan could not keep up with the changes.

Life is probably like this, the feeling of being forced by life is neither good nor bad, probably because I have become numb.

In the evening, Xiao Nian came back, his hair was a bit messy, and he seemed to have been drinking.I forbid her to drink alcohol when I take her out, she will get drunk if she drinks a little.I took care of her for a long time, and she can't remember things clearly, and she doesn't know what the beast did.Fortunately, she can't remember clearly, so I can take care of her blatantly.

"xxx, why do you dislike me..."

"I just have a good time with women. When you chase...you chase me...you...want to let go..."

"...xxx, you bastard..."

Xiaonian talked a lot of nonsense, it seemed that the man was not nice to her at all.Probably rich and good-looking people will be like this.I can't do anything, that scumbag treats her like this and makes her so sad, but Xiaonian still wants to be with him, I'm so good to Xiaonian, she still doesn't want me anymore.I'm a little jealous of that man, and I hate Xiaonian a little bit.

But I still took good care of her, and when she fell asleep, I started to be in a daze again and wanted to smoke.He took a cigarette, stuffed it lightly into the toilet, lit one, didn't smoke, and watched the cigarette finish slowly.

It's like watching my rekindled extravagant hope being extinguished by myself little by little.

The author has something to say:

Distressed Liu Nian

Liu Nian probably won't be able to sleep well tonight.

The author is going to bed early,

Singles are not afraid of anything