you are so tender

After Tian Xiaohui and Xu Man watched the movie, they went to the supermarket below to do some shopping. Xu Man said that she would take care of the dinner, so she had the final say on what to buy.After buying the vegetables, the two returned home quickly. Tian Xiaohui wanted to take a lunch break and asked Xu Man if he wanted to be together. Xu Man said that he wanted to pack his luggage and wash their clothes. Besides, Xiaohui was tired from the operation, so let her alone. People get a good night's sleep.Tian Xiaohui said that's fine, wake me up in an hour and listen to you.

Xu Man didn't wake up Tian Xiaohui on time, but when Tian Xiaohui woke up beautifully, she could already smell the tempting smell wafting from the kitchen.Tian Xiaohui walked out of the bedroom, stretched exaggeratedly, and saw Xu Man coming out of the kitchen with a white porcelain pot of soup, so she yelled at her: "Xu Man, what time is it? You didn't wake me up on purpose."

"I want you to sleep for a while, so that you can refresh yourself." Xu Man replied while putting the soup bowl on the dining table. Tian Xiaohui walked over and wrapped her arms around Xu Man's waist from behind, and put her face on her back. On the back, "Why do you keep your energy up?"

"Do the surgery well!" Xu Man turned her head and said to Tian Xiaohui behind her.

When Xu Man said the word "surgery", it did refer to the work performed by doctors, but what she heard, including herself, was a different meaning, and it was a meaning that both of them understood.Because of the tacit understanding and ambiguity of the offensive and defensive alliance in the "surgery", Tian Xiaohui hugged Xu Man even more tightly. Xu Man grabbed Tian Xiaohui's clasped hands and leaned back as much as possible. That shyness and sweetness.

"Okay, Xiaohui, let's eat. I'm afraid the soup will be cold in a while. Today I will let you try my stewed pork ribs and lotus root soup. Wuhan people like it the most. I hope you like it too." Xu Man patted Tian Xiaohui's hand, said.

Only then did Tian Xiaohui let go of Xu Man, and turned her attention to the pot of soup. "It looks good, Xu Man." Tian Xiaohui sat down at the dining table, and immediately filled a bowl of soup for herself, but she was careful when drinking it. She scooped it out with a spoon and slowly brought it to her mouth. Check the temperature, then open your mouth and flatten your tongue, put a spoonful of soup into your mouth, swallow and smack your lips again to feel the taste.This set of actions makes the taster's evaluation unquestionably authoritative. Tian Xiaohui's evaluation is: "It's really delicious!"

"Cantonese people are too particular about making soup. I haven't learned it yet, so I can only use the housekeeping skills of Wuhan people to please you. If you think it's good, the concubine will be satisfied." Xu Man said.

"Cantonese people are just used to drinking Cantonese soup. Its shortcoming is that it is too particular. The focus is not on taste, but on health preservation. It uses too many medicinal materials, making it like a panacea. From the perspective of food, it is also How about your name?" Tian Xiaohui asked.

"Simmered pork ribs and lotus root soup." Xu Manli replied.

"Well, stewed pork ribs and lotus root soup." Tian Xiaohui repeated, in order to remember the name of the product, "I think this soup is full of color, fragrance, and I like it. By the way, can we eat now? Xu Man."

"Okay, look, the two dishes and one soup on the table are enough for two people. I brought the soup last, and then I will call you. I didn't expect you to wake up by yourself." Xu Man said, He also made himself a bowl of soup.

During the meal, Tian Xiaohui commented on the two dishes made by Xu Man, both of which were praises.He also said: "In the past, the old people said that it is better to have a woman in the family. Now we have two women, isn't it better than the best."

Xu Man interjected: "This is very true. Xiaohui, I am very comforted that you are so understanding."

"Just now you were a 'concubine', but now you are a 'Ben Gong'! It seems that you are going to be equal to Ben Gong?" Tian Xiaohui put on a straight face on purpose.

"Otherwise?" Xu Man replied, imitating Xiao Hui's tone.

"Okay. After the meal, oh, no, it should be said, after you finish the meal, you will have a rest, and the concubine will clean up the dishes." Tian Xiaohui replied.

After the meal, Tian Xiaohui started to tidy up, Xu Man did not help at all, and did not leave the dining room and kitchen area, and followed Tian Xiaohui every step of the way.Tian Xiaohui wore rubber gloves on both hands, stood in front of the sink, was rinsing the tableware with warm water, looked back at Xu Man, and then asked: "Are you missing me, or did I touch you like this?"

"Both." Xu Man said, "I want to put the clothes in my suitcase into the bedroom after you pack them up here. There are also two cardboard boxes of clothes and so on. I sent By express delivery, it is estimated that it will arrive in Zhongshan in two or three days."

"Why do you have to wait for me to clean up? The bedroom is ready for you, you just find a place to put it yourself."

"Because, Xiao Hui, I can't take my eyes off of you."

"You are so nasty, Xu Man. But I like it. Then you mean, later you go to the bedroom to choose something (in Cantonese vernacular, "choose something" means to pack things), and I have to follow you , can't leave your sight?"

"This palace has exactly this intention."

After that, Tian Xiaohui entered the bedroom with Xu Man, and Xu Man opened the suitcase and spread it on the floor. "By the way, Xu Man," Tian Xiaohui saw that Xu Man picked up small objects and was about to put them into the vacant bedside table, "I used the one by the window, which side of the bed do you usually like to sleep on? The left side Or the right side? You slept on the right side last night. How about we change the bedside table?" Tian Xiaohui asked.

"No, no need." Xu Man said hastily, "No matter what habits you have in the past, from today, no, from yesterday, I will establish a new habit with you, a habit that belongs only to the two of us." Saying these words At that time, Xu Man remembered Wu Xiaolan's habits for nearly a year. When they lived together, Xiaolan always slept on her right side, that is, on the left side of the bed. Before going to sleep, Xiaolan liked to put her head on her arm.Thinking of Wu Xiaolan again, Xu Man immediately put down the things in his hands, and said to Tian Xiaohui seriously, "Xiaohui, I must tell you something now, and mention a person."

"What is it? Who is it? Tell me." Tian Xiaohui replied.

Xu Man said slowly, "When I came back to Wuhan for nearly two years, I met a girl who was not much younger than us, but she had never been married. In the process of dating her, I realized that there was only a relationship between lesbians. Only then did I directly explain my sexual orientation to her, and she poured out the pain in her heart, telling her loneliness and loneliness in a different world. So we came together , and became sisters who love each other." Having said this, Xu Man stopped and looked at Tian Xiaohui who was a little surprised frankly.

"I'm fine, Xu Man, I just didn't think about it, so I was a little surprised. But in fact, I shouldn't be surprised. I was still in a normal marriage at that time..." Tian Xiaohui suddenly realized that she used A very inappropriate attributive, "I'm sorry, Xu Man, I was wrong! You see, I am in a lesbian relationship, and my subconscious still regards homosexuality as an abnormal order. We just experienced a period of routine Besides, the marriage between me and Ding Jianjun, how can it be called normal? It's just a nightmare!"

"You don't know, Xiao Hui, in fact, half of the pain of homosexuals comes from their own disapproval. They can't explain how they become like this. I personally don't have this pain. I have the courage to admit my sexual orientation. , and have the courage to pursue my own happiness as a homosexual. However, maybe I have not realized it, or I have realized it but dare not remind myself, that is, my pain is that I have no chance to live with the person I really love, and This person is you, my Xiaohui, so my pain in Wuhan is the despair hidden deep in my heart."

Tian Xiaohui was deeply moved by Xu Man's words, she pulled her into her arms, hugged her and kissed her with tears in her eyes, making her realize that she was already with the person she really loved.It's not that there is no despair in love, but the love between her and her has survived the ruins of those so-called normal marriages.

"Xiaohui, dear Xiaohui..." Xu Man murmured in Tian Xiaohui's arms, "I'm so happy to be with you. Do you know? What you said this morning was really good Yes. A woman, whether to find a man or a woman, love is her own basis. Gender only guides the direction and distinguishes the form of love. I hope all the lesbians can hear what you said words, like a guiding light to light their way."

"I'm so ashamed of you praising me like this. In the final analysis, those understandings are just that the failed marriage taught me too many lessons. Maybe I should have realized earlier that I didn't find the wrong old man or marry the wrong man, but You shouldn't be with men at all, they don't have a good thing." Tian Xiaohui continued, "And you, Xu Man, are the ones who really start from your own existence and pursue true love with your own body."

"However, Xiaohui," Xu Man looked up at Tian Xiaohui, Tian Xiaohui thought that Xu Man was going to point out the extremes in her angry words just now, but who knew that Xu Man had no interest in correcting unjust, false and wrong cases for men, "Your words, It also made me very entangled in my heart, and I tried to answer the question I asked myself all day long: If love is the only reason, then what is the relationship between me and Wu Xiaolan?"

"Xu Man, when you mentioned Wu Xiaolan just now, you obviously had good intentions. It is this that makes me have unlimited trust in you. You said that when you are with her, you have become sisters who love each other. Is that the best answer? I believe that Wu Xiaolan must be a good girl. If you leave her and come back to me, it will only make me realize your deep affection for me. Xu Man, I am grateful for this, and I will definitely live up to it. Your friendship. I love you." Tian Xiaohui said sincerely.

"Yes, Xiaohui, Xiaolan is really a rare good sister. I failed her. Hearing what you said, I think I can say it. It is impossible for me to forget Wu Xiaolan. In our lives, please allow me Keep a memory of her. If I can tell you such a thing, I won’t be entangled anymore. I will love you wholeheartedly, Xiaohui, and only love you.” After hearing this confession, Tian Xiaohui Hugged Xu Man again, and the two kissed passionately again.

"However, Xiaohui," Xu Man spit out such a sentence in the middle of the break.

"What is it? Xu Man." Tian Xiaohui pretended to be dissatisfied.

"However, after receiving your teachings in the morning, I have made great progress. I suddenly have a new understanding. I don't know if it is right. Would you like to stop and listen to me?" Xu Man asked.

"Who says you don't want to? Don't make me look like a pervert!" It seems that Tian Xiaohui's hearty fox tail can't be hidden all the time.

"Okay, you're not sex, I'm sex, okay. What I'm talking about is still about sex. I think sex itself is abstract, but love is concrete. As you said, loving someone is first of all Love a specific person." Xu Man said.

"It's kind of interesting, don't care about who is attractive, just keep talking." Tian Xiaohui encouraged.

"Because sex is a biological instinct, both men and women will naturally have physical needs. I think this kind of need is abstract in nature. Why do I say that? Because it can be satisfied in any way. Although it needs a specific person or An imaginary person, such as fantasizing about a certain idol or star, and it may not be the one you admire, but it may also be the one that cuts your teeth the most. Besides people, don’t ignore it. It can also be a pure tool. In short, filter out love, Sexual needs can also be satisfied. But love can’t be done without a specific person. I’ve always been wary of the word ‘big love’, and that’s probably why, because of my doubts, I’m so uneasy.”

"As expected of a barrister, the words are concise and logical. I think it is clearer than what I said. Xu Man, since abstract love does not exist, then you don't have to tell me about Wu Xiaolan in detail. I ask you to accept it now." Let's find out the specific Tian Xiaohui." Tian Xiaohui's eyes narrowed slightly, her lips curled up slightly, Xu Man instantly restarted the temptation that arose when she saw Tian Xiaohui in the hospital.