Peeping at the ex-boyfriend next door who suddenly returned to China every day

care about me.Zhong Yi's mood is contradictory, seven points sad, three points proud, half difficult, half intolerable.

The day ended with a farce, Luo Xinwei failed to go to the operating table to abort the child, Liu Meng knelt in the street and refused to let anyone go, he made all the vows and promises, and later found out the truth, he hugged Zhong Yi's thigh and apologized, In the end, it was the unreliable couple who hugged each other and cried.

"Let's give birth to the child, okay? Weiwei, I will not let you regret or disappoint you. I will treat you well for the rest of my life."

"Well, Da Meng, I know I was wrong, and I won't break up with you again."

The passers-by applauded. Zhong Yi stood aside with arms folded and looked at the couple who changed faces faster than turning the pages of a book. He couldn't help feeling that it's good to be young. Only young people will be desperate for love, and young people will easily believe in life. For a lifetime, only the young will look forward to love forever.

After settling his younger sister and future brother-in-law, he had time to take out his phone and dial someone's number.

"What's the matter?" The bell rang for a long time before Ling Xiaogong answered the phone, and when he opened his mouth, he deserved a beating more than anyone else.

Zhong Yi ignored his indifference, and said seriously: "I surrendered myself. Alumni, you did have some misunderstandings about what happened just now. You can learn from the blue sky and the sun and the moon. Don't hang up the phone in a hurry. Listen to me now. ..."

"Oh, please tell me."

He was also very empty in his heart, he didn't know why he took the initiative to explain to Ling Xuan, he only knew that if he didn't explain at this time, he would regret it even more in the future.He was also afraid of Ling Xuan's reaction, just like a ball that had been pumped up with difficulty. He was afraid that Ling Xiaogong's reaction would make him even more discouraged, so he didn't give the other party time to interject, and put things in a hurry like an allegro. The ins and outs of the story are all explained.

Until "So, she is not actually my girlfriend, she is my cousin, you met me when you came to my house for the summer vacation, don't you remember?", Zhong Yi carefully called the name of the silent person on the other end of the phone , "Ling Xuan?"

"En." Ling Xuan responded, and there was not much emotion in his voice, only that he was probably still sulking, and with the word "um", he could imagine the other party biting his cheek angrily.

"I don't remember, I was young and ignorant and just looked at you."

It's so good, real, right at your fingertips, you can hear it, you can touch it, it's him.

Hearing this tone, there is still room for relaxation.He plucked up his courage and said to the other end of the phone: "Hey, I'm done talking, is this your reaction?"

"Actually, I bumped into you walking with her before, and I guess that's not your girlfriend." After a moment of silence, Ling Xuan chuckled.

"why?"

"Because," Ling Xuan prolonged the tone on purpose, "Because I haven't found a girlfriend yet, brother Yi is kind by nature, as you who are single at the same time as me, I believe brother Yi will not have the heart to leave me as a single dog of."

What are you talking about.Zhong Yi smiled helplessly, and said, "Just blow it up, ghosts will believe you."

The teasing element in Ling Xuan's voice subsided, and he said in a deep voice, "Where are you? Are you still in the hospital? I'll come pick you up."

"Ah?" Zhong Yi was caught off guard for a moment.

"I want to see you, I want to see you now."

"Why... so suddenly, alumnus, this is not your style..."

Zhong Yi sensitively noticed that the thing they had been avoiding all this time had unknowingly come to the core, so he instinctively wanted to hide again, trying to confuse the past with a joke.

Perhaps in his subconscious, he enjoys the ambiguity with Ling Xuan, but he doesn't want to confirm the relationship because of it—he can't let go of this relationship, but he doesn't want to lose it again, so he avoids starting over .

The person on the other end of the phone smiled lightly, and slowly said word by word: "My biggest weakness is that I will give up all principles, bottom line and self-control when it comes to all issues related to you."

He paused for a second or two, then added: "But I like who I am."

This guy...is really seductive.Zhong Yi's chest felt hot, and the hand holding the phone trembled a little. He took a deep breath, pulled his reason back to the safe line, and said, "Ling Xuan, or another day, there are problems, I want to be alone. Think clearly."

He rejects him.

This is also to be expected.His Zhong Yi was like this, from the beginning to the end - he always stretched out his hand tremblingly after retreating.Always at the last second when he was about to leave, he would pull him back and hold him in his arms.This seems to have become a tacit understanding between them.

But at the same time, Zhong Yi also longed for himself, and he could see clearly from his trembling and anxious voice, from the tentative eyes he looked over again and again.

He understood Zhong Yi's conflicted and refusal mood, and he felt every bit of pain and suffering with him.Want to love but afraid of being hurt again, want to let go but can't leave the person you loved at all, the other person will jump for joy with a smile, and shrink back immediately after a little change, constantly denying yourself and speculating about the other person.

All in all, a large part of these delicate feelings that cannot be expressed by outsiders is caused by the shadow of the failure of first love.As the bearer of the result, both he and he are eating the bitter fruit brought about by his immaturity back then.

"You, even if you are confident, you are not afraid that I won't wait any time." After hanging up the phone, Ling Xuan leaned back in the chair gently, closed his eyes, and said to himself.

20 /

Arriving at the company early in the morning, Zhong Yi discovered that the homepage of the website had changed its layout, and Ling Xuan, as an outstanding representative of self-media in 2016, was on the headline of Zhong Yi's website.

Looking at the photos, it really looks like that. He is handsome, tall and straight, with a slanted mouth and a bit of cynical taste. He is indeed the ideal dream lover in the hearts of most boys and girls. The appearance of begging for water is completely different.

Zhong Yi stared at the photo for a long time, couldn't help stretching out his fingers to draw the outline of the other person across the screen.Straight eyebrows, deep eye contours, thin lips with stubborn lines... This world is so wonderful, but there are people who make every inch of their appearance according to their own likes and dislikes.

He said to himself, you don't want this person, maybe he will be snatched away by others tomorrow, and at the same time he vetoed that if you can snatch it away, it's not worth wanting.Such heart-to-heart repetitions are like worrying about gains and losses when we first got together.

Thinking about the reason why Ling Xuan broke him back then, he still couldn't help laughing, and then shook his head with a smile.

Ling Xuan was one year younger than them, and in his sophomore year, he traded for Zhong Yi's dormitory halfway, so that Zhong Yi became acquainted with the school's Fengyun juniors.

At first Zhong Yi was curious about Ling Xuan because of some rumors about his sexuality, but Zhong Yi still had a slight prejudice against homosexuality.

But this kid has always been polite and kept a distance from everyone, never brought any boyfriend to the dormitory, and never seen too close to anyone in the school, so Zhong Yi gradually played down Zhong Yi's grudge against him.The two maintained a friendly roommate relationship that was not far or near, and spent most of the semester in peace.

When this relationship changed from weak to strong, it was like a thunder on the ground, which woke him up in shock and caught him off guard.

I remember that it was a winter rainy night, near the end of the term, the roommates either sneaked back home, or went out to pick up girls.The two of them went out for a meal together, and when they came back, they found that the window was closed, and Ling Xuan was sleeping on the lower bunk by the window, the quilt and bed sheets were already drenched by the wind and rain.

Seeing the miserable state of Ling Xuan's bedding, Zhong Yi became anxious, threw the umbrella aside, and rushed to rescue him, but the sufferer himself stood aside with his arms folded, and said, "Don't make trouble, anyway. Can't do it either."

Zhong Yi wanted to get the hair dryer, but when he saw Ling Xuan's nonchalant expression, he was inexplicably annoyed, and said, "It's easy for you to say, so where are you going to sleep tonight?"

"Anyway, they won't come back. I'll call Xiao Zihang later and sleep in his bed for the night. Zhong Yi, please leave it alone. The balcony is full of water, and there's no way to dry the quilt."

That's right, but I was too anxious.Zhong Yi also felt that he had lost his composure, so he put the hair dryer back to its original place, and climbed up to the upper bunk with his notebook in his arms to watch a movie.

The movie he watched today was "See the Devil", a bloody Korean suspense movie. Not long after the movie started, the actor's fiancée was dismembered. Ling Xuan looked back frequently.

"Sorry." Zhong Yi smiled at him, leaned over to find the earphones.

"Brother Yi, what are you looking at?" Ling Xuan asked with his hand on his chin.

"Cui Minzhi's film focuses on violence."

"That's all I want. You don't invite me to watch it together. It's so uninteresting." Ling Xuan frowned slightly, but smiled.

When the young man frowned, it always gave people the illusion that "everything he said was serious", since the other party's words had reached this point, Zhong Yi had no choice but to make an inviting gesture and said: "Please. "

Said to watch a movie, Ling Xuan really climbed up, the icy winter rain was falling outside the window, the two of them sat together, it was much warmer.

At the beginning, Zhong Yi's back was very straight, but as the plot of the movie gradually relaxed, he got a little closer to Ling Xuan unknowingly.

At this time, the movie was playing a scene where a cannon fodder and wretched man was masturbating while watching a small island movie. He felt a little embarrassed and quickly turned his eyes away.

Obviously men understand it, but he is not consciously nervous when he is with Ling Xuan.

"Do you know why I fought with my roommate in the first place?" Ling Xuan suddenly said, although his eyes were fixed on the screen, as if he had understood his nervousness.

"Huh?" Zhong Yi was a little confused, so his eyes moved from the screen to