Two little nonsense guesses

【66】

Desires are like poppies, and they become more and more crazy when they are born. That night, on Du Ke's sofa, it seemed that they worked tirelessly for a long time. When Zhao Mianmian was a little awake, she told herself that it was just a dream. , Let this dream be a little longer, but, the dream will always wake up, the sky will always be bright, two people nestled on the sofa, two women entwined, hugging each other to sleep, when the sun rises, it means that there will be many things need to be dealt with.

Zhao Mianmian woke up first, but was tired and had a headache. After waking up for a few minutes, she didn't even come back to her senses. She still hugged the person in front of her tightly, her hands were still on his chest, and her whole body was still a little tighter, with her head on Du Ke. She still wants to sleep for a while, but the sofa is not a place to sleep comfortably. After Zhao Mianmian wakes up, it is difficult to fall asleep. She gradually wakes up, but her brain seems to be shut down. She let go of the woman in front of her a little bit, what will happen when Du Ke wakes up?Will you let her go?Or will it make her forget her again?She didn't know, would Du Ke blame her?Will you hate her?Will you say that last night was just the fault of wine, as if it never happened?Is it really the wine's fault?No, Zhao Mianmian looked at the unfamiliar ceiling and thought a lot. No matter what the ending is when Du Ke wakes up, she will accept it. Surprisingly, she didn't panic at all, only the loss and sense of loss after waking up from a dream , she picked up the clothes from the ground, covered herself, and then went to the bathroom to take a bath, she must wait for Du Ke to wake up.

After Du Ke woke up, his whole body was sore and limp, and his body was covered with a blanket. Under the blanket was his own body. Zhao Mianmian was gone, but he could hear the sound of water in the bathroom. It must be in the bathroom. Du Ke pulled the quilt, When she got up, her waist was a little sore. Looking at her room, for a moment, she felt familiar yet unfamiliar. She is not a teenage girl. Of course she knew what happened last night. She was neither frightened nor regretful. , although I drank alcohol last night, but no one drank to the point of insomnia. The insensitivity you want is artificial. Du Ke is in his thirties. She took a deep breath, and something was disillusioned , something broke, but she knew that last night she was voluntary, and she didn't even push Zhao Mianmian away, even a little bit. In the bedroom, I put on pajamas, took clean clothes, and knocked on the bathroom door. After Zhao Mianmian finished washing, Du Ke washed again. The atmosphere was awkward. When Du Ke brought her clean clothes, he didn't even say anything. In a word, she didn't know what Du Ke's attitude was, she kept guarding the bathroom door, very anxious, "Can we talk?" That was the first sentence Zhao Mianmian said to her in the morning, Du Ke wrapped her hair in a towel, Dazed for a moment, "Come on, after I finish blowing my hair, you boil the milk and eggs." Zhao Mianmian obediently followed suit, although it was against the law, she cooked breakfast at Du Ke's house, and Du Ke dried her hair , with curly hair scattered, the fragrance of shampoo can still be heard clearly, it is another kind of beauty, Zhao Mianmian couldn't help but look a little crazy, Du Ke turned her head away shyly, and said angrily, "You The eyes have been like this since I was studying, and they are not forgiving at all." After finishing speaking, he felt something was wrong, and after eating breakfast quietly, Zhao Mianmian took over the topic, "That's because, after so many years, I I've never changed, I..."

Du Ke took a sip of hot milk, and there was a trace of white on her lips, which made Zhao Mianmian paused. Zhao Mianmian pulled the tissue and wiped it for her. She couldn't stop talking when she opened her mouth, which would make her very flustered and frightened. Du Ke ate breakfast unhurriedly, Zhao Mianmian sat nervously on the seat like a child waiting to be sentenced, as if Du Ke As soon as Ke's lips parted, she could be sentenced to death.Du Ke sat up straight, pursed her lips, and touched her neck nervously. Zhao Mianmian was jealous, and felt that she was a beast. Just like this, waiting for the critical moment of being sentenced, she was still waiting. Wanting to pounce, she restrained herself, she couldn't do this.

"Mumbling."

When Du Ke yelled, Zhao Mianmian's whole body softened, it was really Lingchi, Lingchi, Du Ke was licking her lips all the time, Zhao Mianmian looked at her in the eyes, and was very angry, especially when she was warmed up last night, but she was so lingering. Du Ke kept licking her lips, and Zhao Mianmian's heart sank. Seeing her embarrassed look, she had no choice but to say, "You, don't have such a heavy burden. If you Think, just pretend it never happened, I can."

"Can you?" Du Ke looked up at her.

Zhao Mianmian became depressed at once, "I can't, I will spend the rest of my life guarding this night, I'm sorry." Zhao Mianmian lowered her head, "I broke my promise, I can't forget you, Du Ke, I, I I didn’t hold back last night, or I don’t want to hold back anymore, I love you, I want you. It’s just, just, I don’t know, I’m afraid of you, I’m afraid you have burdens, if you want to act like nothing happened , Well, that's just my memory, it will become a secret, a secret that only you and I know, it's just..." It's just why you didn't refuse my question last night, but Zhao Mianmian I no longer dare to ask.

"Zhao Mianmian." Du Ke moved back and touched his neck again, "I'm an adult, I know what happened last night. It turns out that women and women are really good, but they don't seem to be that similar. It's like a disaster." Du Ke said it was difficult, she thought it was unreasonable and earth-shattering for a woman to be together with a woman, but even going to bed, isn't it just a natural behavior of two intimate people? , but she didn't know why she felt comfortable like Zhao Mianmian. This feeling couldn't be explained to Zhao Mianmian. Du Ke had a lot of emotions in her heart. Zhao Mianmian, who was holding onto the edge of the table tightly, felt all her emotions melt away in an instant. Does she like Zhao Mianmian?Does she love Zhao Mianmian?She had never thought about such a question, because she didn't dare to think about it at all, didn't dare to think about it at a deeper level, the kiss when she was young, the drunkard she picked up that night, the kiss with her hand on her chest in the morning Girl, how dare she think that she will like her?

【67】

The sky is bright outside the window, the city is beginning to wake up, the sanitation workers can finally sit down and rest, everyone is starting their own life, one life is really only this life, whether there will be a next life, the next life will not matter It's not you anymore, besides living for yourself, who else should you live for?Du Ke pondered, half of her life has passed, she is obedient, obedient, and sensible, and her ex-husband pursued her. She thinks that although his ex-husband is not very handsome or rich, he is also handsome and decent. Parents are also good, and their evaluation of him is also good. Everyone is on the road, meets a good man, likes him, gets married and has children, works hard in their respective jobs, and works hard for her small family. She has no experience Having lived through a stormy love, she also thought that the previous expectations for the little days were the happiness she longed for in her eyes, and what she wanted in her heart. She didn't dare to think that she would fall in love with a girl, but last night, unexpectedly Indulging herself in bed with a girl, and the whole process was so pleasant and comfortable, Zhao Mianmian has always been very considerate to take care of her feelings, thinking of this, she blushed again.

Zhao Mianmian didn't know what she was thinking, but it was too difficult to endure such torture. She got up, came to Du Ke's side, squatted down, held Du Ke's hand, and didn't know what else to say, whether to retreat or not. Come in, the thread is all in Du Ke's hands, Du Ke tightens it tightly, she can lean over, and Du Ke looses it, she has to retreat to a safe position, this is not like her character, what does she want in the past? They are the kind of people who can argue with reason, but all of this has been turned upside down by Du Ke, what else can she do?She put her head on Du Ke's lap, pillowed on Du Ke's hand, if it could only be the tenderness of this moment, she would be very grateful, it was enough, at some point, Du Ke touched her head , rubbed her hair, and said softly, "Aren't your legs sore?"

"Let it be sour." She didn't want to get up, so she could wait for a while.

"It can't be as if nothing happened." Du Ke said suddenly.

"what?"

"I said no to pretend nothing happened."

"That?"

"Zhao Mianmian, I can't be like those of your one-night stands."

"...Of course you are different. I, I mean, I am afraid that you will be burdened. I wanted you to be my girlfriend when I was 18 years old. I was serious at that time. Now, now, I want you too." Zhao Mianmian raised her head and stared at Du Ke, "You don't know how much I long to be with you all my life, I want to stay by your side every day, but I dare not disturb you anymore, I'm afraid of such love It is a burden and trouble for you, you are definitely different from them, so how can you compare? How can you be the same?"

She said a lot more in a daze, and Du Ke gently pulled her up, "Stop squatting." Sure enough, her face was twisted into a ball, her feet were really numb, and she put her hands on Du Ke's arms , Unable to stand still, threw himself into Du Ke's arms, Du Ke smiled, only thought that this person was stupid, squatted down and gave her a light leg, "Why are you still like a child?"

Zhao Mianmian's heart moved, she pulled Du Ke up, stomped her feet, and grabbed Du Ke's hand, "Then are you willing to take care of me? Or let me take care of you?"

"Is it possible?" Du Ke asked back, not sure if he was asking Zhao Mianmian or himself.

"You? Can you?" Zhao Mianmian asked sincerely.

"How should girls fall in love? I, I don't know..." Du Ke suddenly stuttered.

Zhao Mianmian chuckled, grabbed her hand, and kissed her, even her voice trembling, "You can talk about whatever you want."

"One day I saw two girls kissing in our school. During class time, they hid behind the pillars, thinking that no one saw them, but I bumped into them.

"and then?"

"Then they actually told me that they couldn't hold back."

Zhao Mianmian suddenly came up and pecked her gently on the lips, "It's really hard to bear, I've worked too hard to bear it."

Du Ke was speechless, but slightly pushed her head shyly.

Zhao Mianmian stared at her affectionately, as if she wanted to engrave Du Ke at this moment in her mind, is it a dream?is it real?She can?Can you be with Duke?For so many years, she has been desperate and gave up countless times, but usually she can only give up for a few days, indulge herself in countless sensuality, unwilling to believe that she is so affectionate, unwilling to believe that such obsession can only give up. For the person she met when she was young, the woman who stood on the podium countless times and made her stare affectionately, she has been torturing herself and tearing herself up like this, but now that this woman is in front of her eyes, she finally won't let her go , and finally did not tell her to forget her.

"I don't care if you pity me, sympathize with me, or pity me, I'm still very happy, I'm a bastard, and a fool..."

"No, it's not like that." Du Ke stretched out his hand and gently covered her lips, "I just, never dared to think about liking girls. This thing itself will make people scared, scared, These fears and fears will directly cover up the matter of liking, I want to tear these fears and fears apart now, I want to try, throwing away the gender itself, I feel, I feel that I am to you..." She The words were blocked by Zhao Mianmian's pressed lips, Zhao Mianmian didn't want to embarrass her, all of this was enough, everything was enough.

For a long time after that, Zhao Mianmian was like in a dream, drifting every day, only felt that the sky was not the sky, the earth was not the earth, and she didn't know if the sky had pulled the wrong thread, but she still lived. In her own home, of course she wants to stay with Du Ke every day, but she is afraid of scaring Du Ke, she has to restrain herself, ah, but she doesn't want to restrain herself, she is going crazy, how can Du Ke be so good Torturing her and making her tired of being with Du Ke, Zhao Mianmian called Su Ran. Su Ran asked for annual leave to play outside. It was snowing in Kyoto, "Why are you playing outside again? How are you doing? So comfortable?" Zhao Mianmian really felt it was unfair.

"Don't bother me, let's talk when we get back."

Su Ran once made a wish in her heart. Every year, she would spare some time to go out with Mu Keming, walk the road she used to walk alone, and take pictures again under the scenery of those PS. Photo by PS.