Two little nonsense guesses

【54】

After that, the force of marriage urging in Mu Keming's family weakened a little, and Li Lihua put off her blind date career, but Mu Keming felt that it would not be a problem if it continued like this. However, if she kept going, if the fear caused by ignorance made her and Su Ran make wild guesses at each other, and even didn't understand herself well enough, then the lonely ten years after that would be her exploring herself piece by piece. After learning about her process, she still found a chance to tell her parents.

Neither Li Lihua nor Mu Guoliang wanted to believe it. Like most parents in the 50,60s and [-]s, their faces were gloomy as if the whole sky would collapse in midsummer. There was no way to accept, question, worry, worry, Mu Keming My heart was very peaceful, and it was about the same as I expected, but what I didn't expect was that her parents guessed Su Ran at once. She didn't say anything, because she didn't want to drag Su Ran into it. She just said that after so many years, she found that she was not I like men, but Li Lihua blurted out, is it Su Ran?

Li Lihua broke down, but didn't cry, Mu Guoliang was smoking all the time, no one hit her, girls are better after all, but Mu Guoliang smashed something, was it anger, resentment?Is it helpless?

Li Lihua was a little chattering, just talking, she has been close since she was a child, but it's not impossible to get close, good friend?no?What's going on?

No one wants to really understand you, and those common sense can't even get in the door of most families.

It was a difficult time, but fortunately, her parents didn't do anything drastic, didn't beat her, and didn't care about her. Li Lihua just kept telling her that it couldn't be done like this. That night, she wanted to stay. At home, I was with her parents, but Li Lihua asked her to go back to her home, but Mu Guoliang didn't say a word. When Mu Keming turned her back, she heard Li Lihua's choking and Mu Guoliang's sighing. She pulled the door over and didn't take two steps. , turned into the alley before, she walked very slowly, hobbled, her feet were filled with lead, she couldn't walk, she stopped and leaned against the wall for a rest, opposite was the small western-style building, Su Ran's former home , the house has long since changed hands, and the bougainvilleas that grew from the top of the wall in those years have long since disappeared. She took a deep breath, feeling a little pain in her heart and lungs, and she couldn't hold on. The shadow covered her face, lifted her up, and was hugged tightly. She didn't see who was coming, but she knew it was Su Ran when she smelled the fragrance on her body. She was a little sad and a little surprised, "How did you come?"

"I'm afraid there's something wrong with you." Su Ran held an umbrella in one hand and hugged her in the other. It was raining that day. It was December, and winter had just entered. The rain was light, but it was enough to make the person in front of him feel waterlogged Yes, for a moment, when Su Ran hugged Mu Keming, seeing her in such a uncomfortable state, Su Ran regretted it for a moment, if this hurdle cannot be overcome, she and Mu Keming will just If it belongs to the relationship you once had, then you should have had it once. She felt sorry for Mu Keming like this. She hugged her, and Mu Keming supported her body and said, "Where are you waiting again? If you don’t plan to return, you will be empty.”

"I didn't wait much, so I just stayed in the car and waited a little longer. If you don't come out, I'll go back." Su Ran brushed her hair, and the two got into Su Ran's car. There was mist, and Su Ran drove home. Mu Keming was in a down mood. When she came out of the shower, Su Ran hugged her and gave her a hair-dry. She didn't know what to ask, but she obviously knew the answer. With the heat on her neck and her fingertips running through her hair, Mu Keming was a little tired. These things really took a toll on her mind. She nestled in Su Ran's arms and closed her eyes sleepily.

For a few days after that, there was no movement from her parents. Mu Keming was very nervous, but she was also busy with work. These reactions were all expected, but no one expected that Li Lihua would take the initiative to find Su Ran. It was Li Lihua who gave it to her personally Su Ran called and made an appointment at a cafe. Su Ran was very nervous. She didn't want Mu Keming's family to be at war again, so she didn't tell Mu Keming.

Li Lihua was dressed quite formally that day. It seemed that she might have attached great importance to this conversation and lost the usual gentleness and pampering towards Su Ran. Fortunately, she didn't regard her as a heinous sinner and shouted, " Of course." Su Ran felt a little sad, feeling sad that she had done something wrong.

Li Lihua yelled, but fell silent again. Su Ran didn't know what to do. On weekends, there were quite a lot of people in the cafe, so Su Ran licked her lips.

"We all know about you and Xiaoming." Li Lihua pushed up her glasses.

Conversation is very difficult, for Su Ran, especially for Li Lihua, Li Lihua has always liked Su Ran, the kind of love that is different from Mu Keming, Su Ran is also liked by the elders, she is smart, well-behaved, sensible, polite, and has a good personality , When I was studying, although I often came to her house to grab a meal, but during the holidays, her birthday, and Old Man Mu's birthday, the little girl would carefully hide the gifts in the sofa and put them on the coffee table until she went to college. Those two years have been, how can such a girl have the heart to say that such a change happened in her family?But what about her and Mu Keming?

Su Ran has always been eloquent, but at this moment, she can't say anything.

"How can you?" Li Lihua couldn't hold back, but she hesitated to speak. She knew her daughter well, and it was inappropriate to mess around once.

Li Lihua didn't say anything serious, and she didn't want to part with her acquaintance for so many years, but she still said earnestly, saying that Su Ran is smart, understands people's ways of life, and Mu Keming is stubborn. Please forgive the two elders. I can walk the path of ordinary people, get married and have a family and have children. This is how life is. I just want to be ordinary and not to make waves. Su Ran is also quite bitter, and with Su Ran's conditions, she can find a good person to take care of her. , Home, have to look like home.

Su Ran remained silent all the time, unable to refute, powerless to justify, and finally came to the point, "Of course, you and Mu Keming should separate, there is no feeling that you can't forget, you both have to follow the right path."

Li Lihua was waiting for an answer from Su Ran, but Su Ran couldn't give it, Li Lihua hesitated to speak, Su Ran knew that it was difficult for her, Su Ran kept biting her lip.

"Auntie, please." It was because Li Lihua mistakenly thought that Su Ran was the last straw.

"I'll move out first." Su Ran couldn't stand Li Lihua's eyes that were getting redder and redder, and she bit her lips as soon as she said a word.

【55】

It's December, the weather is getting colder, and the wind is blowing so that the whole city is chilling. Su Ran is very depressed. It's not that she is sad, but she feels like she is especially blessed by God. Su Ran doesn't even have the strength to support her chin. She was stuck on the sofa in the cafe, and sometimes she even wondered if God could not see her and not do so many things for her, she was so tired from tossing.

She has been sitting in the cafe for a long time, but she has no strength. What should she do?No matter how hard she bites her bloodless lips, she can't find a way out. Is she really going to leave Mu Keming again?Why is it so difficult?Su Ran was so cold that she panicked. She picked up the coffee and took a sip. Even the coffee was cold, and it stuck in her throat.

It was mid-afternoon on Saturday, the weather was not very good, it was gloomy, and the wind was blowing, making everyone on the street look so panicked. She told Mu Keming that she would go shopping with her colleagues in the mall in the afternoon, and Mu Keming Ming didn't look for her either, Su Ran sat until the noisy crowd in the cafe gradually dispersed, the sky gradually darkened, the street lights in the whole city were on, and she sat stiffly, she moved her legs, and Mu Keming called Call and ask her if she is having dinner with her colleagues or what?

Su Ran was a little stunned, she was on the phone with one hand, and was picking at the cafe table with the other.

"Su Ran? Hello?"

"Huh? What?"

"Where are you? What are you doing? I ask you, do you want to have dinner with your colleagues at night?"

Su Ran raised her head, hesitated for a while, "No, do you want to come? I'm at the cafe here in the central square."

Not long after, Mu Keming came, wearing a gray coat, and found Su Ran who was by the window. Su Ran had no time to change her expression. Looking into Mu Keming's eyes, "What's the matter? You look so bad?" She stepped forward and touched Su Ran's face, it was very cold, she looked at the cafe, the heating was turned on enough, Su Ran's heart was heavy , but still forced a smile, "It's okay, I've been a little bored all afternoon."

The two found a place to have dinner, and that was the most tasteless time Su Ran ate. She didn't want Mu Keming to notice her strangeness, but she really worked hard, and she didn't even dare to look directly at her Mu Keming's eyes, she has been staring at the cup and plate in front of her, picking up the food in the bowl seriously, thinking of Mu's mother's expression and posture, she has never been so indifferent and alienated, Su Ran is very hesitant , although Li Lihua forced her to agree that she would at least move out verbally, but did she really want to move?She didn't know what to do, she was alone and helpless, so helpless, struggling, entangled, and it was even more inconvenient to tell Mu Keming.

Even though Su Ran insisted, Mu Keming still found that there was something wrong with Su Ran tonight, "I went shopping with my colleagues this afternoon, did something happen?"

Su Ran looked blank, raised her red eyes, and shook her head a little sourly.

Perhaps it was during this period of time that Mu Keming knew what his family was facing, and guessed wildly like a tacit understanding, "Could it be that my family is looking for you?"

Su Ran was startled, but dumb, she bit her lips tightly, not knowing what to say, why Mu Keming guessed right, seeing that Su Ran didn't speak, Mu Keming was a little anxious, "Really? They Looking for you? What did you say?"

Su Ran braced herself, and shook her head, "No, you think too much, maybe it's a little cold and uncomfortable." Su Ran turned her head away.

Mu Keming didn't quite believe it. He took his mobile phone and was about to call her mother. When Su Ran heard the movement, she turned around and held Mu Keming's hand, "Don't call."

Mu Keming looked at Su Ran, then cut off the phone again. She was sitting facing each other. Mu Keming held her hand behind her back, and said with rare earnestness, "Is it true that my mother is looking for you? Why don't you say no?" Does it sound good?"

Su Ran stared at her, and heaved a long sigh, "I'm back, is it wrong to come back?"

"What are you talking about?" Mu Keming grabbed her hand, sighed too, and then spread her palm, gesticulating with her fingers meaninglessly.

"If I hadn't come back to look for you, we would have been the same as ten years ago. We were drifting farther and farther away without books, and you might have married and had children as your parents wished, and walked on the so-called right path."

Mu Keming was quite sad at first, but when this topic was brought up, who could be excited, but seeing Su Ran's inexplicably wronged and helpless appearance, he felt very cute, Mu Keming felt that he was really sad, "Do you feel that you are the culprit?"

Su Ran had tears in her eyes, it was very difficult.

Mu Keming got up, went around to Su Ran's side, held Su Ran's face in his hands, and smiled, "Aren't you stupid? Are you really putting a hat on your head? Before you came back, didn't I find that Chen Jun?" ?"

"Then you go and talk to that Chen Jun." Su Ran pushed her, it's this time, why do you still care so much about Chen Jun?Mu Keming hugged her again, "Okay, no matter whether I don't like men or I can like other women, this kind of test has no other meaning. The person I love is you, and I want you." It's you too."

Su Ran bit her lip tightly, and Mu Keming patted her.

"Su Ran, we have been guessing wildly for ten years. You thought I was afraid, and I was indeed afraid. I thought you deliberately alienated me. Anyway, we have delayed each other for ten years. I don't want to go through it again, too It’s hard, and it’s too hard.”

"But……"

"I don't know what my mother said to you, but think about it, it's similar to what she said about me, Su Ran, I didn't want to involve you, but they guessed it right away. You shouldn't have to bear it, but I didn't handle it well."

Su Ran lay in her arms, with a bright future, as if there was no way out, "Then what should we do?"

Mu Keming actually didn't know, but just changed the subject and said, "Did my mother make things difficult for you today?"

Su Ran hurriedly shook her head, Li Lihua is a good mother, she even treated Su Ran kindly all the time, even after knowing about this relationship, which they thought was unreasonable and abnormal, she didn't speak ill of her.

Mu Keming hugged Su Ran weakly, "No matter what, don't leave me again, and don't leave me again. If you leave again, we will really be over, nothing will get better."

【56】

The later days became very difficult. Although Su Ran promised Li Lihua to move out, she actually couldn't. What Mu Keming said that day stuck in her heart one by one. Let her be selfish, she She broke her promise to Li Lihua, she was a villain who broke her promise, but her relationship with Mu Keming had to go underground.

At first, Su Ran didn't move away, and during that time, Li Lihua naturally didn't come either, she always wanted to give the two children some time, after the spring of that year, Li Lihua bought a lot of vegetables and came to Mu Keming's house, The atmosphere was very embarrassing. After Li Lihua finished cooking, she left without taking a bite. Maybe she sent Su Ran a very long message as soon as she left the door. The words were sincere and sincere. Su Ran had no choice but to find After a few days, she moved out, which was naturally the result of discussing with Mu Keming. Su Ran rented a house near the company, but the cost of living increased. Fortunately, although Su Ran worked hard, her salary was not bad.

Mu Keming's family found out that Su Ran had moved away. It seemed that in terms of form, they were still following their so-called correct path. Instead of talking about it, as if avoiding it, you can pretend that this matter does not exist. Occasionally, you will introduce someone to Mu Keming. Sometimes Mu Keming is silent, sometimes perfunctory, and sometimes in a bad mood. It is irresponsible to others not to like them. Parents are sometimes silent, and sometimes they quarrel when they are in a bad mood.

Coming out of the closet became a thorn in each other's throats, scratched the throat, couldn't swallow, couldn't pinch it, and the quarrel became so severe that Mu Keming wouldn't go back, and Li Lihua wouldn't come, parents and children would be together again , There was also the cold war and estrangement, but fortunately the longest period of the cold war was only one month, and Mu Keming could always hear from his uncle or aunt that Li Lihua was sick somewhere, and the relationship had eased.

It’s a long process of sawing and sawing again and again. It doesn’t mean that there is a lot of noise and life and death, and this hurdle cannot be overcome. How can it be so easy?

It was still at a family gathering, Mu Keming had to attend, and the meal was fine, and everyone carried it. It was a distant relative, a nephew, a bear child, who had been provoking Mu Keming. Mu Keming endured it and wanted to A child who was only 7,8 or [-] years old couldn't bear it anymore and stopped it twice, but the bear child retorted, saying that she was an old girl who couldn't get married and had a problem with her life style. Ming gave the child a slap, the child was crying, the parents of the child came forward to argue, the scene was very ugly, Mu Keming was isolated and helpless, looking at the parents who were indifferent, Mu Keming got up and left, and there was a big blow outside. Rain, she didn't have an umbrella, so she rushed out, not because she wanted to get caught in the rain, but because she didn't want to stay there anymore, she didn't know that Li Lihua was chasing her out, she walked too fast, and even tripped, the rain was pouring Yes, she didn't get up all of a sudden, she could only squat there, the rain was hitting her face, and she was sad, she clearly did nothing wrong, but she had to suffer all of this, at some point, Li Lihua stood beside her, holding her hand Carrying the umbrella, Mu Keming helped her up with one hand, and Mu Keming broke free, but because she fell down and was in a mess, with mud on her hands, Li Lihua grabbed her, put the umbrella in her hand, and took a tissue to hold her. Little by little, she wiped off the mud on her hands, as well as on her knees. Li Lihua knelt down to wipe it off, and Mu Keming's tears fell all at once.

What Mu Keming didn't know that day was that after she left the banquet, Mu Guoliang quarreled with the group of people. There was nothing to argue about, just to vent their anger.

After that, Mu Keming didn't go home for a long time, and didn't even make a phone call. Li Lihua sent a few messages, and she just perfunctory a few times, basically saying to bring her The food came, but there was no one at home. At that time, Mu Keming basically lived in the apartment rented by Su Ran. After burning all kinds of pots and pots at home, some simple dishes can finally be eaten.She forced Mu Keming to eat, seeing that winter was coming again, Mu Keming looked at the desolate street outside the window, the water temperature was already a little cold, she added some hot water to wash the dishes, how time flies, It's been almost a year since she came out.

A pair of hands came up behind her, soft and warm, gently wrapped around her waist, making her feel so real.

"It's getting cold." The man said slowly behind him, "Let's put away our clothes in the afternoon, we have to take out our winter clothes."

On the weekend of late autumn, the sky was cloudy, and the two of them didn't plan to go out. In the afternoon, they tidied up their clothes and put on a thick quilt cover. After finishing their work, Su Ran sat at the desk to rest for a while, and Mu Keming sat on the sofa by the window Flipping through the book casually, for a moment, it seems that there is still an illusion that the years are quiet.

Of course, there will be quarrels. People are very complicated creatures. No matter how many years they have known each other, they may not have a comprehensive understanding of the closest person. If it weren't for this year of cohabitation, Su Ran would not have found out in the past ten years , Mu Keming's possessiveness is so strong.

We had a quarrel just two days ago. After we finished our meal, we couldn’t go out for a walk because it was cold. We stayed at home to watch TV, which was quite boring. The domestic TV dramas are so eye-catching and only serve as the background sound. Undeadly acting out the plot of the ex, Mu Keming had a sudden inspiration and asked, "Speaking of which, I haven't asked you all this time, have you been in love in the past ten years? Have you had a boyfriend or not?" Girlfriend? How many times?"

She asked her questions one after another, put the peeled orange in Su Ran's mouth, and then withdrew her hand, Su Ran rubbed over, and took the orange in her mouth first, sweet, so she thought seriously, Seeing her serious appearance, Mu Keming became a little anxious, "You are too many to count?"

Su Ran bit her lip, "What? No."

"Nothing?" Mu Keming frowned.

"Don't you ask how many times? No one."

"No, you've been thinking about it for so long?" Mu Keming rolled his eyes.

"Isn't that me defining what you mean by the territoriality of love?"

"What do you mean?"

"It's just like Chen Jun. There have been one or two, so can Chen Jun be in love with you? It doesn't count, and I naturally don't."

Mu Keming thought about it, and seemed to think that what Su Ran said was right, but she felt that what Su Ran said was not complete, so she moved a small stool and sat in front of Su Ran, "Tell me about it."