Broken and swollen by myself

——What is more cruel than seeing someone you love die with your own eyes again and again?

Yes... being isolated in two parallel worlds, maybe there is no way to see him again.

"Ziqing, Ziqing? Are you awake? Ziqing?"

His head was swollen and painful, and he opened his eyes with difficulty breathing. Three people came into view in a daze. Lu Ziqing recognized them one by one after a little slowness. Manager Hu La, friend Hai Feng, and another young and handsome man The man is Song Ran, who plays Shen Changge.

Haifeng leaned over to confirm that he had indeed opened his eyes, and almost cried with joy, "Wake up, wake up, my god, thank God, I really woke up!"

Lu Ziqing was stunned for a long time with his head blank, and subconsciously felt that the situation in front of him was not right. He felt hot and cold all over. He turned his head slightly and looked at the electronic clock on the bedside table. The date displayed on it made Lu Ziqing's eyes widen in disbelief. , A heart fell into an ice cellar in an instant, and the whole body trembled uncontrollably.

"Ziqing, what's wrong with you? What's wrong?"

"My ancestor, why are you shaking all over? Is it cold? I'll go and get you an extra quilt!"

"Dude, buddy, look at me. What's wrong with you, my God, why are your hands so cold..."

"Ziqing, I'm Song Ran, Ziqing?"

"What's wrong with him?"

"Doctor, doctor come soon!"

In the chaos, Lu Ziqing felt dizzy and fainted, his face was pale, he closed his eyes again, and passed out.

On April 26, [-], Lu Ziqing woke up in the hospital.

Originally abandoned by time and locked before April 22, because he was hit on the head by a falling equipment on the commercial set, he woke up after being in a coma for three days.

Then he found that the four reunions of No.20 that he had been waiting for were gone.

His Zhou Yitong is gone.

It's all gone.

Lu Ziqing didn't know what happened, and he forgot what happened when he was hit on the head. Hu La said that his head was injured, and temporary amnesia is normal.

In short, time continues to take him forward, no matter how much he looks forward to and prays every night, he still wakes up the next day in this busy modern world.

What is more cruel than seeing someone you love die time after time with your own eyes?

It's... isolated in two parallel worlds, maybe there's no way to see him again.

It was another quiet night, and there was a gentle breeze on the terrace outside the ward.

Lu Ziqing, with a white gauze tied on his head, was lying on the recliner, his black and clear pupils looked at the dark blue night sky, and the ends of his soft hair were shaking uncontrollably.

He rested one arm behind his head, and slowly raised the other hand, as if he wanted to touch the twinkling stars in the sky.

When Song Ran came in with the carefully prepared meal and the big red apple, what he saw was such a beautiful picture that made people feel so quiet that it was almost still. He stopped and stared at it steadily.

Meeting this person was actually a very accidental opportunity four years ago.

He had debuted for a while at that time, but because of his good conditions, he was young, arrogant, very egotistical, he didn't pay attention to anything, which made his manager quite a headache, but also hindered his career. Because of his family background, I dare not say a word about him.

That time he tried to win the role of a big director but failed. When he was impetuous, he was dragged by his friends to visit the class of his junior sister, which happened to be Lu Ziqing's crew.

When Song Ran went, Lu Ziqing, who is the heroine of the show, was playing against the heroine. Song Ran watched a few scenes with a casual attitude, and then saw with his own eyes what is the horrible acting skills of the heroine of this play , The lines are poor, the expression is stiff, and I keep forgetting the words ng. After the ng, I still show an impatient look. I don’t recite the lines during the break.

Song Ran frowned. If he was matched with such a heroine, he would definitely lose his face.

The little junior sister who played the role of the second female lead couldn't help making complaints about the female lead in a low voice, and then looked at Lu Ziqing, who was listening to the director's play with a devoted face, her eyes immediately became adoring.

"Let me tell you, the biggest hero of this drama is our male lead, oh my god, it's so simple, he can still enter the drama in the face of such a hot guy who walks through the back door, his acting skills are superb, if you say affectionate, you will be affectionate, if you cry, you will cry , the aura is also very strong, no matter how many times he is ng, he is unambiguous! And the real person is also very gentle and has a good character, this is the motivation for me to stay on the set every day, hehehe!"

Song Ran didn't seem to care, but secretly noticed it.After that, he stayed in the crew for a long time, and unconsciously glanced at Lu Ziqing.

This drama is a small production, with simple sets, simple props, and poor costumes, but from what Song Ran saw from Lu Ziqing, it is not perfunctory, and every scene seems to be interpreted seriously like a blockbuster.

Several times Song Ran felt that he was in a very good mood, and the heroine made a mistake again. The director couldn't stand it anymore, and said a harsh word to the heroine, then turned his head and patted him on the shoulder to comfort him, while he Always with crooked eyes, smiling and saying that it's all right, with a humble look that seems to have no temper.

What a hypocrisy, Song Ran saw it and muttered in his heart.How could there be such a mild-tempered person?It must have come from a performance, and it was performed without showing any traces.

But I don't know why, from that day on, Song Ran has kept the name Lu Ziqing in his heart, and will pay attention to some of his news intentionally or unintentionally.

Whenever he was restless, thinking of his gentle smile in his mind, he would inexplicably calm himself down, and Song Ran didn't know what kind of mysterious magic it was.

His career quickly became successful, and then when everyone was guessing about his next film work, he fell through everyone's glasses and went back to acting in TV dramas.

Song Ran admitted that the reason why he appeared in this drama was because he knew that Lu Ziqing would play the second male otaku: Martial Arts Sky.

However, originally watching him pay attention to him through the clouds, after joining the group and spending time together day and night, Song Ran felt that he had already fallen to the ground before half of the progress of the play...

"You came to see me again."

Lu Ziqing's voice brought Song Ran back to his senses. He looked up and found that Lu Ziqing had sat up and was looking back at him. His black pupils were as calm as a lake without any waves.

Song Ran smiled slightly, and raised something in his hand to Lu Ziqing, "I heard from your manager that you always refuse to eat, so I'll supervise you."

Lu Ziqing was hospitalized for half a month because of his injury, and Song Ran would come here almost whenever he had time. No one knew better than Lu Ziqing why this busy person was always caring and getting close to him gently.

Song Ran sat beside him and helped Lu Ziqing peel apples. He had three-dimensional facial features, handsome features, and an outstanding demeanor. He stretched his long legs and drooped his eyes. Sitting by the side and peeling an apple was as perfect as if he was shooting a pictorial.

Lu Ziqing held the lunch box he brought and looked at him motionless.

After a long time, Lu Ziqing slowly put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand, and said softly: "Song Ran, I have someone I like in my heart, and that person is not you, so you... don't come here."

The knife in Song Ran's hand trembled violently, almost hurting himself. He pursed his lips and remained silent for a long time before he raised his head with a wry smile, "Ziqing, when we first met, I thought you were the gentlest person in the world. , You scare me when you become ruthless."

Lu Ziqing felt at a loss for a while, and turned his head away.

Song Ran looked at his side face, thought for a while, and smiled softly, "Okay, I know... But unless you let me see the person you mentioned, I will never give up."

After Lu Ziqing was discharged from the hospital and returned home, his good buddy Haifeng came to sleep with him every day.

Haifeng and Lu Ziqing have known each other for more than ten years. They share weal and woe and have a good friendship. At that time, they even went to the "Long Song" crew to play a guest role with a similar name to him.

Haifeng knew Lu Ziqing's temperament very well, so this time he clearly felt that Lu Ziqing's whole state was extremely wrong after he woke up from the coma.

Although he didn't cry or make a fuss, his whole body exuded a kind of depression, all hope was lost, and he couldn't see the light at all, which was almost suffocating despair.

This is definitely not the Lu Ziqing he knew, something must have happened.

But no matter how he asked, the man refused to speak.

Therefore, no matter how anxious Haifeng was, he didn't dare to press him. He just took a safe route and talked with him heart-to-heart, so as to find traces.

"Back then we lived in the basement together, and the hard days of eating three meals with a bag of bread have passed. Now I have a movie to shoot, and you are also popular now. Everything is developing for the better. Believe me, there will be more in the future. Great, you are so good, you are so good... Hey, yes, you don't know, your little fans are crazy, they have found all the photos I posted with you on Weibo before, digging for treasure It seems excited and exciting, the comments are thousands of thousands, look, their replies are very interesting."

Lu Ziqing sat by the bed and took medicine with a glass of water. Hearing him babbling to himself, he couldn't help pursing his lips and smiling.

Haifeng looked at him and smiled. Although the smile was only fleeting, he was still as happy as picking up gold. He took out his mobile phone and explained to Lu Ziqing the swordsman who traveled through the world of martial arts.

After a few glances, Lu Ziqing lay down with a tired face, his eyes half-opened and half-closed, and his mind was tired.

Haifeng's heart sank again, and he approached Lu Ziqing's face with a smile as if nothing had happened: "Are you tired of watching it? Then I'll read you some jokes, and let me tell you, they used to tell me a lot of jokes before, and they were all super funny." , I'm here to look for...Huh? What is this, it seems...your fan circle is mine, what, let me take a look first. "

He clicked in while talking, and after looking at the general idea, he chuckled happily, "Ziqing, your fans are really amazing. I've seen people who write fan fiction, but I haven't seen one like this. It's really strange." , Look, it’s actually about you and Zhou Yitong, what is this? Isn’t Zhou Yitong played by you, you are in love with yourself... But you really like the role of Zhou Yitong very much, Haha it's interesting..."

Haifeng was stunned when he said this, because Lu Ziqing, who was lying quietly on the bed, widened his eyes suddenly, sat up suddenly as if winded up, snatched his mobile phone away, and stared at him without blinking. Flipping through the screen of his mobile phone, the more he looked at it, the heavier his breathing became, and the more he looked at it, the more surprised and uncertain his expression became.

After a while, Hai Feng, who was a little startled by Lu Ziqing's actions, stared at the teardrops falling down his face, feeling infinitely astonished.

"Dude, you, why are you crying? Is this novel so touching?"

Haifeng struggled to sleep that night, so he accompanied Lu Ziqing to read novels on the bed with fear, observing his expression from time to time.

The tears on Lu Ziqing's face had dried up. He held the phone, focused on the words on the screen, mechanically tapped the screen after reading a page, and blinked lightly after a long time, as if he was afraid of missing something.

Haifeng was anxious and puzzled, but he didn't dare to disturb him, who was already too immersed, and could only accompany him quietly by the side.

At dawn, Haifeng couldn't stand it anymore and fell asleep on the bed, snoring loudly.

And Lu Ziqing, who spent the whole night reading the novel word by word, seemed to be rolling back and forth in a pan of oil, covered in cold sweat, he suddenly let go, the phone fell on the bed, curled up, He leaned against the bed frame with his head tilted, as if his bones had been frozen by ice, he was stiff and motionless.

As Haifeng said, this is indeed a fanfic about him and Zhou Yitong, and the main plot is all too familiar.

System, encounter, misunderstanding, love, parting, reunion, death, punishment, 23 cycles.

Bit by bit, everything was experienced by Lu Ziqing himself.

It's just that when it was written 23 times, the author seemed to have something to turn around, but she stopped updating.

At this moment, Lu Ziqing's head was buzzing, and his nerves were entangled with countless threads, tormenting him with a splitting headache. After a long time, he forced himself to calm down gradually, and began to analyze and think bit by bit.

So, he didn't go to the world of "Long Song" before, but entered this novel and experienced all that? !

So, after No.20's three reincarnations, he returned to the real world because he had no follow-up! ! ?

Therefore, when Sui Li asked that sentence at the end, he said: "Because, this is my rule!"

And the rules of Sui Li come from the author who created it.

The author's description is a system, and each character is endowed with attributes, and the author's thinking is that the frame that limits this world must be the wrong way for me to open Weibo [Three Kingdoms]!

Therefore, the characters in it must follow the main line and follow the main plot.

You have to misunderstand, you have to say goodbye, you have to suffer various punishments, you have to practice judgment, and you have to experience reincarnation...

Even if there may be some big deviations due to the addition of him as an outsider, the plot will be automatically corrected under the constraints of the framework.

Zhou Yitong's ending was actually decided from the very beginning, and it was beyond Suili's control at all.

Because all of this is the will of the creator, and no one can defy and shake it.

Lu Ziqing suddenly thought of something, slowly straightened up, his eyes showed a slight brilliance, and there was a faint hope in the heart that had sunk into the abyss.

If it is really what he thinks, then let the author continue to write a good ending... Will he still have a chance to meet Zhou Yitong?

The author of this microblog named "Kiss Boy Qing" is his fan from the id, and some of the information written about him, whether it is hobbies, experiences, or certain ideas, are very, very different from his reality. fit.For example, being addicted to the character of Zhou Yitong and unable to extricate himself, for example, being soft-hearted and unable to kill Qi Fenghuang, for example, when Zhou Yitong died in the end, he was heartbroken and then committed suicide...

Perhaps it was because of the high degree of fit that he entered the world of this novel.

And from the description of Yuan Jin's fever under the influence of the actor that night, and the description of Shen Changge's liking for Zhou Yitong because of Song Ran's influence, Lu Ziqing is almost certain that she knew this so well, it should be an employee of the "Long Song" crew at that time.

If it is really someone I know, let her continue to write an ending...

Thinking of these possibilities, Lu Ziqing's expression brightened a lot. He quickly picked up the tablet on the bedside table and opened the Weibo that he hadn't visited for a long time. The tuba quit, and then concentrated on registering the trumpet.

When Haifeng woke up, he saw Lu Ziqing stepping on the ground with bare feet, walking back and forth like a ghost, holding a tablet computer in his hand, Haifeng was holding the phone to check the time, but accidentally pressed the unlock button, Then I found that the page was stopped on the Weibo of the author who wrote the novel.

Haifeng squinted his eyes and brushed his hair that was sleeping like a chicken coop. He flipped through it randomly while getting up, and accidentally liked the Weibo that posted the link to the novel.

"Oh my god, my hand slipped." Hai Feng hurriedly wanted to cancel, but Lu Ziqing suddenly threw himself on the bedside, looking at him quietly with those bright black eyes, and asked him imploringly: "Hai Feng , Is the private message on Weibo stable? Will it not be sent out, will it be missed? If I send it a few times, will she be able to see it back to me?"

Haifeng was stared fixedly by his big eyes full of thirst for knowledge, a bit puzzled, but explained to him patiently.

Lu Ziqing let out an oh, feeling a little relieved, and started to turn around on the ground holding the tablet again.

Since Haifeng still had scenes to shoot during the day, he left in a hurry after having breakfast with Lu Ziqing.

Sleeping in the car halfway, he suddenly sat up in shock. When Ziqing interrupted just now, he forgot to cancel the like!

Although it's harmless for fans to write such corrupt novels, but if they are liked by the Lord's friends, they will definitely say some nasty things with a subtle voice.

Haifeng didn't want to have a bad influence on Lu Ziqing, so he took out his phone in a panic, and found that it was too late to reborn Jiji's ambition.

"Kiss Kid Ziqing" has become popular, and the Weibo comment with the link to the novel is full of things, such as rich and noble, and it also said that Ziqing's best friend liked it, which shows that Ziqing must have read it too.Congratulations, congratulations, being flopped or something.There are more than 2000 comments!

Haifeng was very annoyed. After canceling the likes, she found that the blogger was also unexpectedly calm. She didn't take advantage of the popularity to post on Weibo, nor was she excited. Instead, she started replying to netizens in the comments problem arises.

Haifeng held his mobile phone in a daze for a moment, and suddenly recalled Lu Ziqing's strange behavior when he was reading a novel last night, maybe... It is not certain that he can get Ziqing's knots from these.

He lowered his eyes and began to keep refreshing the blogger's latest answers, looking at them one by one.

——Tongtong's red clothes: Da Da, your system is different from the ones I've seen!

Kiss Xiao Qingqing: Of course we need to get some hot elements, add a label to gain popularity, otherwise no one will read my writing style as a primary school student.

——Recently obsessed with Ziqing's mango: I'm so happy to see you come back to fill the hole, but... you actually gave me be!Go downstairs and collect the blades!

Kiss Xiao Qingqing: Hehehe, I just wrote this ending and posted it in the morning. After all, it may have been seen by my boss. He has never been keen on these things, so I wrote it to let him return to reality and continue to perform his career. , and to prevent this matter from being fermented, the gossip would affect Zi Qing's recuperation after his injury.

——Qingyu Qingyuan: Everything is good, but the misunderstanding with Tongtong in the middle is too bloody!Simply put, Ziqing is not such a unclear-minded person if he doesn't say clearly, he is very suffocated!

Kiss Xiao Qingqing: How can you get the smell of love without a lot of dog blood~ Misunderstanding, dog blood is a must, a must.

——Song Jia Xiaoxuan: Sui Li is taken from Lin Suihe Mo Li?

Kiss Xiao Qingqing: Yes, these are two of my favorite roles played by Ziqing before.

——Qingqing's Kiss: My God, ever since you said that Song Ran likes Ziqing, the more I look at it, the more... Damn, it's really poisonous!Do you say you know something!

Kiss Xiao Qingqing: Smile jgp, it's just a novel setting, don't take it too seriously.

——Cuibei Beibei: Touching the big knife in his hand, he asked you with a smile, so, did you write my phoenix to death?

Kiss Xiao Qingqing: After Shen Qiao dies, at least he can live for ten years, haha.

——g: Hello, Da Da, if... Ziqing really enters your novel, can you change the ending for him?

Kiss Xiao Qingqing: Darling, you have sent me a lot of private messages, I have seen them all!Hehe, but I’m sorry, I’ve edited the ending label, locked it and can’t change it, the ending is Ziqing’s return to reality, and her career is booming~ Well, I know I’m a sucker, but I didn’t expect Xiao Lengwen to suddenly Being circled to Haifeng by some people, not to mention being flopped, and making trouble in the outer circle, I really feel that my mother has a glass heart, and I don’t want to recruit him because of this kind of thing when his career is rising, and let him be called Laugh, dear you understand!mwah!

Haifeng's fingers rested on the ID of g, and he looked at the content of his question. He couldn't help but limp and leaned against the back of the chair, the hair on his forehead was soaked with sweat.

When Haifeng was explaining the private letter to Lu Ziqing in the morning, he accidentally caught a glimpse of his trumpet, which was this string of letters.

And thinking about what he said in the morning, Haifeng is almost sure that Ziqing asked this question, but why did he ask "If... Ziqing really entered your novel"...

Could it be that something wrong with him during this time is because...

Haifeng was stunned for a long time with dry lips, and finally wiped his face with his hands, and smiled awkwardly, "What are you thinking, how is it possible? You don't call Haifeng, you call Haicrazy, how is it possible, hahaha Haha I can't help it."

After laughing a few times, I couldn't go down anymore, my face became more and more serious, and my eyes became more and more disturbed.

After an extremely tormented day on the set, Haifeng almost rushed back all the way. After searching the house for a long time, he found Lu Ziqing sitting on the swing on the balcony, his black and clear eyes did not move, staring straight at him. looking somewhere.

If it was said that he was filled with suffocating despair before, then at this moment, he was in a dead silence of emptiness, devoid of any vitality.

If it wasn't for his eyes still open, Haifeng almost thought he was out of breath.

"You said... is the world we live in really the world we thought it was?" Lu Ziqing blinked lightly and murmured in a low voice, "Perhaps, we were just given life and a framework by other creators. , the ending has been decided, and now we are just moving forward step by step. They may not know that those simple descriptions and definitions are the most real and unforgettable feelings for us. How do they... How can it be so bad, so cruel?"

Haifeng looked at his pale face, his thin and frail body like a paper man, who seemed to be about to fall in the next moment, and finally couldn't help the panic and collapse in his heart and cried out.

"Ziqing." Haifeng squatted on one knee in front of Lu Ziqing, tears welling up, holding his hand tightly, raised his face and begged with sobs: "We, let's see a psychiatrist tomorrow, okay, you really scared me Come on, don't be like this, we have survived no matter how hard it is, everything will be fine, everything will be fine."

Lu Zi was quiet for a while, then held his hand softly, his eyelids moved slowly, tilted his head slightly and smiled at him, "Don't worry, I won't commit suicide, and I don't need to see a psychiatrist, I will It's just...it's just that I suddenly don't understand."

After that day, Lu Ziqing seemed to be back to normal. As usual, he was filming and catching up on announcements. As usual, he showed a warm smile in front of the camera. In the past few years, the popularity has soared, the reputation is quite high, and the career has created one peak after another.

Probably only Haifeng knew that in his broken and silent heart, he buried a heavy past deeply.

Ten years passed by in a smooth manner like this, but quietly...brought some irreversible changes to Lu Ziqing's originally healthy body.

After falling into a drowsy sleep, Lu Ziqing opened his eyes from the hospital bed, and saw Song Ran sitting beside the bed peeling apples as expected.

Knowing that he can't eat so much, but always cut it for him, as if... this is a particularly meaningful thing.

Lu Ziqing looked a little helpless, and slowly propped himself up to sit up. Hearing the movement from his side, Song Ran quickly put down the things in his hand, came to help him, and then used a pillow to cushion him behind his back.

Lu Ziqing dug out a gift box from under the pillow and handed it to Song Ran, "Happy 37th birthday."

Song Ran was overjoyed, this was the first time Lu Ziqing gave him a birthday gift, he quickly took it, holding it in his arms like a baby, pursing his lips and smiling, there were gentle fine lines at the corners of his eyes.

"After you reminded me like this, I realized that I am old." Saying so, there was a bit of joyful childish love in his expression.

Lu Ziqing looked at him, smiled suddenly, and after a while he said quietly: "Song Ran, my illness will never recover, you really... don't be stubborn anymore."

The originally joyful person suddenly froze in place like a stone.

On this day, during the Mid-Autumn Festival, Liu Xinyu, Haifeng, and Hu La all came to the hospital to accompany Lu Ziqing at night, intending to watch the moon on the terrace.

Lu Ziqing was lying on the recliner, covered with a blanket, watching the three of them chattering and busily arranging snacks, drinks and moon cakes, this lively scene made Lu Ziqing couldn't help showing a hint of a smile.

After a while, Song Ran hurried over and greeted Haifeng and the others very familiarly.

Lu Ziqing sighed silently, and after seeing him say hello, he came straight over and sat down beside her, without saying anything to him.

Because they were concerned about Lu Ziqing's body, they packed up their things after playing for a while, and then helped Lu Ziqing go back to rest.

Originally Haifeng wanted to stay and take care of Lu Ziqing, but Lu Ziqing refused to let the other three go, leaving them laughing and chatting a few more words before agreeing to sleep.

Perhaps, the passage of life can be noticed, Lu Ziqing always felt that if he fell asleep this day, he might never wake up again...

Feeling ups and downs, Lu Ziqing heard a joyous voice, which seemed to be right above his head.

"Young master, congratulations! You are a young master, white and fat!"

"Good, good! How is my wife?"

"Ma'am, everything is fine, don't worry, young master."

"Okay, reward! Come, come, give me a hug for my son... Eh? Why isn't he crying?"

"I cried and cried, but the little boy is good, and his voice is relatively quiet."

"Oh, Ziqing, kid, I'm Daddy, and from today on, you'll be the baby of my Zhou family. Your name is Ziqing, Zhou Ziqing, look, this kid really looks like me... "

Ziqing, Zhou Ziqing...

"Why don't you call me brother?"

"What's your name?"

"My name is...Zhou Ziqing! My parents are both surnamed Zhou, call me brother, I'll buy you something to eat!"

Lu Ziqing recalled those words that he lied to Xiao Zhou Yitong because of his identity when he went back to do the mission 15 years ago. Could it be that he was destined somewhere?

The Zhou family he is in now is really... the Zhou family he thought of?

Could it be that God really couldn't bear it anymore and finally left him a way out?

He...is there really someone he wants to see again?

Zhou Yitong, Zhou Yitong...

Master Zhou lowered his head and saw his newborn son with closed eyes and flat pink mouth silently shedding tears, his chubby face was covered with traces of wetness, he couldn't help laughing, gently Pinching his upturned little nose, he sighed again: "Looks like a restrained and thoughtful child. It seems that from now on, I need to add a few more lively siblings to you."