Broken and swollen by myself

The next day, just like in the original drama, Xia Wanning came back on her own initiative to save her son. After dealing with the three villains in Longjiabao, with the help of a servant, Xia Wanning escaped with Qi Fenghuang.

Standing aside, Lu Ziqing saw Qi Fenghuang laying on Xia Wanning's shoulder, staring at him with wet black eyes, as if he wanted him to go with him.

Lu Ziqing didn't move because he knew that Qi Fenghuang couldn't escape.

As the night fell by the window, Lu Ziqing sat leaning against the window, slowly wiping the dagger with his sleeve, the cold light reflected on his face, coating it with a faint white light.

After a long time, he raised his face and looked at the night sky, his eyes sighed sadly.

Zhou Yitong, I'm sorry, I'm so useless.

Really sorry……

As in the original drama, Qi Fenghuang was arrested that night, Xia Wanning fled with Fengdi injured, and was tired of the rumors about Longjiapu. No one believed them and helped them.The owner of the Long Family Castle deliberately dumped the body of the child chopped into rotten flesh in the house where they used to live, and then the husband and wife disappeared.

"You are a little bitch that no one wants, bah, your mother has run away, and she doesn't care about you at all, it's all her fault, giving birth to you such a dirty trash! If you kill you, even if you kill that bitch The woman will not come back, nor will she pity you!"

"The nickname is Fenghuang, right? Hehe, what is the nirvana of the phoenix, what is the hope of regaining a new life, you are not allowed to be called Phoenix in the future, you will be called a pheasant, a mouse, a bastard, and shit!"

"Eat! Aren't you a dog? Let me eat on the ground! Hurry up!"

"Are you still staring? You are just like your mother, you are a fart/ass*! Ruin your face to see how you show off!"

For more than a month, Qi Fenghuang was tortured by the Longjiabao father and son in turn like this, as if he was not a child who was only over three years old, but a symbol of their shame and humiliation. Squeeze to death.

But I was afraid that I would not find an outlet to vent after crushing him, so I beat him up every day, insulted him, forced him to eat meat, or put him in a dog cage and tied him with a chain, and only gave him a few days in a row. Drinking rotten water, dragging him out and forcing him to eat a large table of greasy meat when he was hungry and dizzy, he continued to eat when he vomited, and couldn't stop.

Seeing that he was choked to the point of tears but still continued to feed it into his mouth, the culprit was beside him laughing happily and relieved.

Lu Ziqing was in the entertainment circle before, it's not that he didn't experience the darkness, and it's not that he didn't experience the cruelty of human nature, but it was far less shocking than what he had seen and heard in the past month or so.

He also didn't dare to imagine how a child who was less than four years old could carry this down.

He was like this... The longer he dragged on, the more he couldn't do anything.

Because Lu Ziqing saw the disgusting behavior of the Longjiabao father and son, it was like...seeing himself who was about to do something to this child...

After Lu Ziqing came here, he didn't need to eat or sleep, and he tried to kill for more than 40 days and nights, but he hesitated every time he did it, so he never succeeded.

Qi Fenghuang didn't seem to know what he was thinking at all, and always regarded him as a guardian, or a kind of spiritual support. Every time he was lonely and afraid, he would talk to Lu Ziqing.

Lu Ziqing ignored him, and he kept talking to himself, and he didn't stop until Lu Ziqing was willing to respond with a few words.

Lu Ziqing, who was struggling in painful contradictions, had been staying here for almost half a year without knowing it.

Lu Ziqing already extremely disgusted and hated his soft heart, but he still couldn't persuade himself to do it.

One day, Qi Fenghuang asked Lu Ziqing such a question with his head tilted.

"Why don't you always smile?"

Qi Fenghuang looked at the thinner, the big black eyes embedded in that thin face, it was very unbearable to look at, and after being fed, the original Yuxue white face There was an unsightly layer of blood blisters, and some of them had pus and sores, and it was extremely painful to look at.

But compared to half a year ago, Qi Fenghuang seldom cried in the face of the beating, scolding and humiliation of the owner of Longjiabao, and he was even numb.So the wounds on his face and the scars on his body seemed to be nothing to him.

Seeing that Lu Ziqing didn't answer, he continued to ask, "Why don't you laugh?"

He was always so stubborn at such a young age, he had to ask Lu Ziqing to respond.

"Because... I want to kill someone, but I can't do it." Lu Ziqing sat at the foot of the bed with his back on his back, talking hoarsely, regardless of whether he could understand or not.

Qi Fenghuang crawled over suddenly, hugged his neck weakly with his two thin arms, choked with sobs and whispered, "Is it me?"

Lu Ziqing shook his body, turned his head and bumped into his clear pupils like black jewels, stunned.

He was still noticed.

Lu Ziqing has always wondered if this child is really only four years old. He seems to be much smarter than the previous children, so smart that he feels scared.

Knowing that he couldn't touch him, Qi Fenghuang still rubbed his face against him, as if feeling the warmth that should have been on his body.

He flattened his mouth, tears pierced through Lu Ziqing's slightly transparent body, fell to the ground, and said aggrievedly: "I don't want to die, I want to live."

Lu Ziqing gasped heavily in his chest, and slowly turned his head back, closing his eyes and pursing his lips in a dead silence.

Qi Fenghuang cried again and continued: "But, if you kill me so that you can laugh, then kill me. Huang'er is not afraid of pain, not at all."

After half a year of painful struggle, but also half a year of silent company, Lu Ziqing suddenly felt sore when he heard this, and put the back of his hand on his hot eyes.

He felt that this time...he really fell, on this unexpected child.

In the middle of the night, Lu Ziqing stood in front of the half-open window and looked at the moon in the sky. His eyes were flushed, and the corners of his mouth were slightly curved. He raised his hand and wanted to touch the bright moon with his fingertips.

I wonder if Zhou Yitong is looking at the same night sky many years later?

Lu Ziqing wanted the twinkling stars in the sky to bring his thoughts to Zhou Yitong, and wanted to tell that person how much he misses him crazily.

It's just that all his thoughts are illusory, just like his outstretched hand seems to have touched the moon, but the moon is so far away that he can never really touch it.

Lu Ziqing silently sighed and withdrew his hand, paused, and then wiped off the wetness that had slipped on his face.

Calculated by time, Zhou Yitong is more than six years old now, he should be able to eat and wear warm living in the Zhou Mansion now, and he has not suffered much, right?

It's just a pity that not only can he not return to 15 years later, but he is imprisoned in the area of ​​Longjiabao, and he can't go anywhere, let alone go to the Zhou Mansion to find Xiao Zhou Yitong.

If the task is not completed, he will probably be trapped here forever.

Refusing to go to bed to sleep, leaning against Lu Ziqing's feet, Qi Fenghuang slightly raised his face and looked at his cold figure. Seeing him crying, Qi Fenghuang stared blankly, and stretched out his little hand to catch the drip from his chin. falling tears.

Qi Fenghuang blinked lightly, and murmured: "Tears, hot..."

Hearing his voice, Lu Ziqing looked down at him and said, "Go back to bed and sleep."

Qi Fenghuang ignored him, stood up, and looked at him eagerly: "Why are you crying? Are you missing others?" Qi Fenghuang clenched his little hands tightly, feeling sore and uncomfortable.

Lu Ziqing withdrew his eyes and didn't answer his words. He looked outside with empty eyes, and said after a long time: "From now on, you can do it yourself."

Qi Fenghuang woke up the next day and found that the person who was used to being within sight all the time had disappeared and could not be found anywhere.

Qi Fenghuang realized something, and the inexplicable peace of mind disappeared in an instant. He ran to the door with bare feet, beat the closed door with his hands, and screamed heart-piercingly: "Don't Don't go! Don't go! Don't leave Huang'er, don't go! Please! Don't go!"

No one responded.

His fist was bleeding out from the blow, and suddenly he was shocked, as if thinking of something, he quickly ran back to the table, picked up the dagger he dropped, cried weakly, and looked around in panic, hoping to get back to the table next time. For a moment, I saw that familiar figure.

"Don't go, okay, okay? Don't be unhappy, I killed myself, don't be unhappy!"

As he spoke, he pulled out the dagger without the slightest hesitation as if he lost his soul, and stabbed himself fiercely. Accompanied by the gurgling blood that stained his snow-white shirt red, Qi Fenghuang's hot tears dripped down, and his thin and thin body He shook, closed his eyes and fell to the ground.

And that person never reappeared after all.

In the room full of alcohol, Qi Fenghuang, who was leaning on the soft couch, suddenly woke up from the heart-wrenching dream. He sat up, his face frozen in shock for a moment, and suddenly began to pull down crazily. own clothes.

Ren Ping, who was kneeling by the side, was startled, stood up and shouted: "Master!"

After shouting, he was stunned, because he saw that Qi Fenghuang's originally flawless chest had an extra scar at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Ren Ping was tongue-tied and couldn't believe it, "This, what's going on, leader, you..."

Qi Fenghuang suddenly laughed wildly, it was not a dream!It turned out to be true!That person suddenly appeared in the previous memory!

With a flick of the sleeve, all the things on the table next to him were swept to the ground, Qi Fenghuang had a furious smile on his face, and there was water in his black pupils, which was terribly depressed and gloomy.

"Shen Qiao, you are so cruel! So cruel! I begged so hard, just leave me alone like this! Since you only have him in your heart! Then you stay there forever and don't come back!! Don't come back! !! I can't get happiness, you have to suffer forever!!!"

Ren Ping was frightened by his hysterical appearance, "Master!" He stood up, approached and stretched out his hand towards him, Qi Fenghuang raised his eyelids, waved his sleeves with tears and shouted: "Get out!"

He picked up the jug on the side of the couch, raised his head, and poured it vigorously. He didn't care if he coughed and choked, blinked his wet eyelashes, picked up the jug and continued to drink, as if he wanted to relieve the endless sadness and pain in his heart. To rinse clean in general.

In the end, he passed out reeking of alcohol, the tears on his cheeks were wet, and he gasped in pain.

Ren Ping stood by the bed, saw him like this, and sighed bitterly, "Why are you doing this?"

……

Lu Ziqing has already confirmed that if he stays any longer, the task will still not be completed, and it is better to leave than to stay by Qi Fenghuang's side to torture himself mentally.

Of course, his range of activities cannot go beyond Longjiabao.

So he randomly found a secluded place to stay, he didn't need to eat or sleep, just like this little by little time passed by...

Lu Ziqing hugged his knees, looking at the faint lights not far away, feeling disheartened.

Just when he thought his punishment was to be stuck in the past endlessly, Sui Li sighed and announced that his mission had failed, and then slowly told him the content of the punishment after a while.

"Remember what I said before? The advanced system may also backfire and become your punishment. This time the punishment will use the soul-moving phantom system and the reciprocating system, that is to say..." Sui Li paused here, "also That is to say, your soul will enter Qi Fenghuang's body, and experience all the days and nights in Longjiabao with him. Because of the first failure, these experiences will be repeated three times, and after the third time, you will be given the second time If you have the opportunity to complete the task, if you fail again... you know, the number of punishments will be doubled."

Lu Ziqing entered the ice cellar, his face pale, and his fingers began to tremble uncontrollably.

Qi Fenghuang was imprisoned in Longjiabao for almost three years, which means that he will experience what happened to Qi Fenghuang this time for nine years!

He was so naive that he simply thought that he just couldn't go back.

No wonder, Sui Li reminded him again and again that this mission was unusual.

Lu Ziqing's heart felt like it was soaked in ice, and every part of his body was frozen.

Lu Ziqing realized that this task was aimed at him.Originally, he had the heart to do it from the beginning, but after experiencing all the things that happened to Qi Fenghuang, he would empathize with him even more, pity him and sympathize with him.Feeling sad for him who is young and innocent, why would he have any cruel thoughts?

If he couldn't bear it any more, the second mission would definitely fail, and he would reincarnate what happened to Qi Fenghuang nine times.

If he still fails the third time... then he will have to go through 81 times. If there is no lower limit for the number of missions, then he will be completely trapped in this endless loop in his life.

He really, will never see Zhou Yitong again.

Suili gave him a little buffer time, and the punishment began.

Lu Ziqing's soul entered Qi Fenghuang's body, but unlike usual, this body cannot be controlled by him, Qi Fenghuang is still Qi Fenghuang.

He is like a perception hidden in the corner of Qi Fenghuang's brain, feeling his fear, his pain, his panic, his helplessness, and his strong hatred.Feel all his emotions.

The pain you hear may be forgotten after hearing it, and the pain you see may shock your heart, but... when you truly integrate into and feel this bone-biting pain, then this will be a kind of soul-torn pain. Great torture!

However, everything has only just begun.

Lu Ziqing was quite shocked when he saw his translucent body appearing in front of the bed through Qi Fenghuang's moist eyes.

It turned out that my previous joining also integrated into Qi Fenghuang's original experience?

Lu Ziqing obviously felt a ray of hope and anticipation in Qi Fenghuang's heart when he saw that "him", who was originally helpless.

Especially when "he" jumped onto the bed to protect him, Lu Ziqing strongly felt Qi Fenghuang's sour, swollen and touched emotions.

Lu Ziqing had witnessed all kinds of abuse and torture that followed, but after experiencing it himself, as an adult with an adult soul, he felt that he was about to collapse. He didn't know that Qi Fenghuang was a child. How to persist.

During this period, that "he" was always by his side, often holding a dagger in a daze, with sad eyes and silent.Qi Fenghuang liked to talk non-stop, and only when the "he" he insisted on responding did he calm down a little.

Lu Ziqing's soul was born in Qi Fenghuang's body, and he felt the child's stubbornness towards "him" and his growing dependence on him more realistically.

No matter how much he suffers and is tortured, Qi Fenghuang seems to hold that soft light in his heart carefully.

Lu Ziqing didn't know it before, it turned out that he personally extinguished this light.

Half a year later, "he" who had been silently accompanying him suddenly left without a trace.

The four-year-old child was crying like crazy and begging him to come back, Lu Ziqing's soul was also affected and he cried, he couldn't even bear the deep pain of the child's mental breakdown.

Lu Ziqing recalled that after he left, he found a corner to stay there, planning to grow old like this.

It never occurred to him that this four-year-old child would kill himself with a knife in order to keep him.

Under the influence of Qi Fenghuang, Lu Ziqing was so ruthless that "he" left unfeelingly at that time.

But this "he" is himself.

Lu Ziqing smiled wryly, he was like this, he hated himself.

Qi Fenghuang was rescued later, because they did not allow the child to die so easily.It's just that after they rescued him, they found that the child had become indifferent and boring. He stared at you with dark eyes, showing a hopeless coldness, and he didn't make a sound no matter how much you tossed about.

Perhaps the Lord of the Long Family Castle was bored, and locked Qi Fenghuang in another courtyard. When he thought about it, he beat and scolded him severely, or dragged a few women to toss and wheeze in front of him one after another, with his mouth full. Swearing, even pressing his head to the place where men and women are connected, laughing and forcing him to open his eyes, and then grabbed a bottle of meth to force him to eat.

In this way, Lu Ziqing spent the long and tormented three years with him in his body.

Without any chance of relief, the second cycle begins again...

Then loop a third time.

The first round of punishment is the real end this time.

Sui Li said: "It's a second chance, go and kill him."

Lu Ziqing sat down slowly while leaning against the wall, his eyes were cold and cold, he smiled and said: "Let me feel this personally, isn't it just that I can't do it? Since you know you have succeeded, why bother. This task, I can't finish it."

Sui Li sighed heavily, directly sending him into the second round of punishment.A total of nine cycles...

This is a cruel journey where the spirit is gradually destroyed. Adding the previous ones, Lu Ziqing has been punished for 36 years.Lu Ziqing didn't know how he survived.

"It's the third time, if you don't succeed this time..."

"Suili." Lu Ziqing asked him with a pale face: "Zhou Yitong...how is he? Am I just like this, living forever and never seeing him again?"

"If you complete the task..."

Lu Ziqing pursed his lips, and burst into tears with a snort of laughter, which trickled down his chin.

He is not afraid of punishment now, but only afraid of the hopeless waiting.

"Forget it, it's nothing more than this sentence." He said slowly while pulling out the dagger in his hand, and tried to scratch his finger. There was a stinging pain, and blood flowed out. Lu Ziqing was exposed when he saw it. With a relieved smile, "After all, the ending can't be changed, he will die, and I can't complete the task this time, and I have received two rounds of punishment. Instead of continuing to be trapped in this endless hardship, it's better to have a break, okay Reunite with him. Sui Li... You should be kind enough to fulfill me."

Without waiting for Sui Li to react, he quickly and decisively raised the dagger in his hand and stabbed it hard in his heart, his body limp on the ground, and he slowly closed his eyes, the last thought in his mind The impression is Sui Li's helpless emotion.

"Sure enough, no matter how many times, you are always this choice."

……

Lu Ziqing never thought that he would still wake up, he slowly sat up straight, feeling a chill in his heart.

Could it be that Sui Li still refuses to let him go, and wants him to continue to complete the next punishment?

But here...it doesn't seem to be Longjiabao.

Looking around, I found myself lying in a simply furnished room with a small baggage beside me.

He was stiff for a long while before getting out of bed, and walked a few steps barefoot, his mind was clouded with mist, and he didn't know what day it was.

He stood in front of the table with his head bowed, staring at his steps, his eyes staring blankly at the face reflected in the teacup.

It was still his face, but the right cheek was almost occupied by a large scarlet scar, which was very terrifying. He took a deep breath, and then found that his throat was dry and burning, which made him very uncomfortable.

Lu Ziqing was in the middle of the six gods, when the voice of Sui Li appeared in his mind, "This time I made an exception and sent you back."

Lu Ziqing's eyes, which had been silent for a long time, shone slightly.

"But your mission was not successful, so the abnormalities on your body are the price you should pay, and...you should be punished and can't meet Zhou Yitong, so even if you come back, you can't meet Zhou Yitong Recognize, you can't change the ending, otherwise, you will be punished more severely than before!" Sui Li sternly warned.

Lu Zi was quiet, and the voice in his heart asked him: "Is it me who is being punished, not someone else?"

"Correct."

"How many years have passed here since I left?"

"More than three years."

"...Okay, I get it." After Lu Ziqing finished speaking, he began to pack his bags, put on his shoes and prepare to leave.

For more than three years, according to the development of the original drama, his Zhou Yitong was almost besieged.

Seeing that he acted decisively, Sui Li couldn't help asking: "Will you..."

Lu Ziqing said: "I'm going to find Zhou Yitong. He's about to die, and I'm about to be punished. How can I not cherish the time when we can finally meet?"

"You have to know that you violated my words, the punishment this time will be..."

Lu Ziqing put on his hood and bag, and smiled with a sense of ease, "You can do whatever you want, after all, my heart is going to die, and I don't feel it anymore if you punish me."

Sui Li has been silent for a long time.

"Anyway, thank you for sending me back."

Sui Li said in an unclear tone: "You really give me a headache as always."

Lu Ziqing grinned a little puzzled by his words, and after getting ready, he set off alone.

The communication with Li just now was done with the voice of his heart, because now his appearance is ruined, and his voice is also ruined. He tried to speak, but when he uttered a word, it hurt like cutting his throat with a fire knife.

He found someone to ask the way with great difficulty, and only then did he know that he was in Liyang, which was where Hejiazhuang was located.

Lu Ziqing could only go to the crowded inn and restaurant as much as possible, while looking for news about Zhou Yitong's appearance from the conversations.

Unsurprisingly, Zhou Yitong turned out to be the same as in the original drama, becoming the big devil that everyone talked about. In the past few years, he was bloodthirsty and cruel, killing many people, and his reputation has spread far and wide.

Lu Ziqing was holding a teacup in a daze, when there was a loud sound of joy outside the door, the people around the table all ran to join in the fun, pointing to the procession of wedding sedan chairs passing by the street to discuss and chat.

"Today is the number one beauty in Liyang, Miss He, who is getting married, tsk tsk, this battle is really unprecedented! I don't know who is so lucky!"

"Hehe, you don't know that this Miss He is married to the son of the richest man in the world. Can this battle be a little big?"

"Really? The son of the richest man, my God, then Miss He is also a blessed person."

"is not that right?"

"It is said that the groom is also a good-looking talent. It is a match made in heaven with Ms. He, which is admirable!"

The son of the richest man... He Xiangxiang followed Yu Yan?Lu Ziqing was so shocked that he almost couldn't hold the teacup in his hand, he couldn't believe it, is Yu Yan crazy?Why did he marry He Xiangxiang?What about Yuan Jin? !Lu Ziqing heard the cheers outside, "The bridegroom is here!", he put down his teacup and stood up abruptly, squeezed out of the crowd, slightly lifted the veil in front of him and looked up.

On a tall horse, a young man in a red suit, with sword eyebrows and starry eyes, is full of vigor, but it is not Yu Yan's face.

Could it be... is this Yu Yan's big brother?When Lu Ziqing was thinking secretly, the groom's officer gave a signal with his eyes, and the entourage started throwing a lot of money towards the crowd. The originally orderly crowd immediately became excited after a burst of uproar, crowded together and began to go crazy Grabbing the silver that fell like raindrops, Lu Ziqing was so crowded that he was dizzy and couldn't even stand still. He tried hard to turn around and go back to the inn, but he was pushed hard behind him and almost fell down. Fortunately, he had a pair of hands to support him. He saved him from the danger of being trampled.

Lu Ziqing was extremely grateful in his heart, but his hoarse thank you was quickly drowned out by the noisy and excited screams of the crowd.

The hands continued to support him without letting go, and the gentle voice said in his ears: "Are you okay? Come, follow me, I will take you out for a while."

Lu Ziqing was taken aback for a moment, and his heart was filled with surprise. This very familiar voice was Murong Cheng.