defenseless

No matter how much entanglement, confusion, and escapes he has experienced before, Chen Nan is happy at this moment, as if a candy jar has been stuffed in his heart, and just picking out a candy can make him so sweet that he steps on the clouds.

He remembered a dream he had not long ago, a soft and sweet dream wrapped in cotton candy.It seems that as long as the little squid is by his side, he can always make himself full and light.

It was the first time he felt this kind of feeling, this kind of feeling that made him feel real and dreamy, itchy but unstoppable.

He looked at his phone, and within a minute after sending the last WeChat message, he had eagerly looked at the screen several times.

It's amazing.

Think about this person all the time, want to keep in touch with him all the time.I want to tell him everything, but I don't seem to know what to say, even if I ask you what are you doing meaninglessly, my heart can still be pounding.

Lu Xiangzhi and Jiang Hongyu were cooking in the kitchen, the aroma of the food wafted out, it was a warm and down-to-earth smell, while he was sitting on the small balcony thinking about his little boyfriend, he felt that he had never been as happy as he is now.

There are family, friends, and now a lover.

Lu Xiao brewed a cup of fruit tea and brought it to him, and sat on the chair next to him.

Lu Xiao: "It feels good, doesn't it?"

"Yes," Chen Nan picked up the hot cup and held it in his hands. "Actually, I have always been looking forward to the most ordinary life, but I have an inexplicable panic about this ordinary life. I always feel that it does not belong to me. When I was young Some of my friends who do wrong things will be reprimanded by their parents, and some will be comforted and educated by their family members. I am very envious, no matter which way I am. But our family only has endless indifference. Not even indifference because they wouldn't give me a little bit more emotion, good or bad. Suddenly, I was a normal high school student too. Got a new home, made new friends, had Someone you like, a secret puppy love, and a rebellious liking for a little boy. Really, it feels very good. When good things happen to you, you are happy, and now there is no time to think about anything.”

"Well," Lu Xiao smiled, "It can be seen that you have changed a lot in this period of time."

"Really?" Chen Nan took a sip of hot tea, "What has changed?"

"I can't tell you exactly." Lu Xiao turned his head and thought for a while, "It's good anyway."

"Before, when I didn't meet you, I was always desperately trying to catch the little light in my life," Chen Nan smiled, "Recently, I feel like I'm standing in the light, and the whole person is in front of the back, inside and out. It's bright."

"It's a good description," Lu Xiao smiled, "It can be used when writing a summary during the Chinese New Year."

Chen Nan: "What summary?"

"Yes, you don't know yet." Lu Xiao's expression became bright, "When my mother first left, Lao Lu and I didn't talk much at home. On the [-]th of that year, the two looked at each other with big eyes. When I was young, I didn’t know what to say, so Lao Lu asked me to write a year’s summary for him, and he also wrote one for me, and this habit has continued until now. Ha, you have to write this year too.”

"There's still this matter." Chen Nan was happy, "Then I will write a big article this year."

"I used to think that the first days were very difficult," Lu Xiao smiled. "Now that I think about it, some things are actually quite interesting. People are alive, and they always find ways to make life vivid."

"Yes." Chen Nan turned her head and looked towards the kitchen: "My sister-in-law won't be staying in City C this year, please buy me a plane ticket. Let's spend this year together."

"Well", Lu Xiao stood up, "Let's go, you have been curious for a few days, I will take you to see the gift that the little squid gave me."

Chen Nan straightened up instantly: "Hurry up."

When walking from the living room to the bedroom, they would pass the kitchen. The sound of cooking in full swing, and the faint conversation between Lu Xiangzhi and Jiang Hongyu could be heard, making Chen Nan's heart feel hot.

Lu Xiao also smiled at the corner of his mouth, and stopped for two seconds before walking into the room.

When she opened the door, Chen Nan saw the watercolor painting above the bed.

Two teenagers in black walked side by side in the snow, with faint smiles on their faces.

"It's the scene after playing in the snow that day," Lu Xiao said next to him, "It turns out he already knew about it."

"The painting is really good", Chen Nan laughed, "What should I do, our children are not only talented, but also so caring, I am really fascinated."

"Did you go to see Jiang Hongyu's picture yesterday?" Lu Xiao leaned against the wall, "Don't tell me it's different, Jiang Hongyu is playing tricks, so don't tell me."

"He's trying to trick you to go and see for yourself." Chen Nan cheerfully leaned next to Lu Xiao, "I was so busy yesterday, I really didn't see it."

"Chen Nan," Lu Xiao said softly, "I've decided to go to C University, and so does Jiang Hongyu."

"Well, the little squid said that he will skip a grade next semester." Chen Nan looked at him, "Once some things start, they will definitely go on."

Lu Xiao smiled: "That's good."

When Lu Xiangzhi and Jiang Hongyu got together, there was never a time when they didn't drink.I don't know if he has been dizzy since yesterday. Chen Nan was a little overwhelmed after drinking two small cups of plum wine today, so he went back to his room to rest.

Lying on the bed in a daze, he sent a message to Little Squid: What are you doing.

The little squid quickly replied: I just finished taking a bath, and I was lying on the bed reading a book.

Chen Nan: Where's Su Ming?

Little Squid: I am busy working in the next room.

Chen Nan made a phone call directly: "I also just finished eating."

"Yeah", the sticky voice of the little squid came from the receiver, and Chen Nan felt warm all over, "I'll come over tomorrow morning."

"Don't be too early." The smile in Chen Nan's voice could not be suppressed at all, "Come back when you are full of sleep."

The little squid was silent for two seconds: "But I want to see you sooner."

"How early can it be?" Chen Nan rubbed his face against the receiver, causing a burst of electricity on the phone, "Anyway, we meet every day."

"Earlier is still early." Little Squid laughed on the other side, "I can have breakfast with you before going to the club."

"The first date will be at the fight club. Our boyfriend is really different." Chen Nan narrowed his eyes so much that he could only see a glimmer of light.

Little Squid: "Don't you always go there on weekends? Then where do you want to go?"

Chen Nan slipped his tongue for a while: "Go to your heart."

After speaking, I laughed twice happily, but I was really drunk and cowardly.It's so shameless.

As a result, the little squid replied solemnly: "It's already there."

"Why are you so cute?" Chen Nan sank her whole face into the pillow, "By the way, I saw your drawing for Lu Xiao today."

The little squid was still ashamed by the words just now, and answered vaguely.

Chen Nan felt aggrieved: "Draw me anytime."

"Actually, I drew it," said the little squid.

"Huh?" Chen Nan became interested, "Then why don't you send me off?"

"It's not interesting for you to look at yourself every day." Little Squid whispered, but glanced at the wall opposite the end of the bed.

There is also a watercolor painting on the wall. The boy he loves is smiling and standing in the snow, and there is an unattractive snowman beside him.He unconsciously laughed along with the person in the painting.

Chen Nan was amused: "Then it's not interesting for you to look at me every day."

"Not at all," the little squid laughed, "It's interesting."

Chen Nan took a deep breath: "Oh my God. Hang up first."

Before hearing the answer from the little squid, Chen Nan pinched the phone, and then quickly ran to the toilet to wash his face with cold water.After finally suppressing some impulses that had just raised their heads, another impulse in my heart began to clamor again.

It's only the first day, what should I do next.

Who cares, Chen Nan looked at himself flushed in the mirror, buried his head and patted his face with cold water, and then went to the room to pick up his coat.

In the living room, Lu Xiangzhi and Jiang Hongyu were still drinking. Chen Nan passed by the dining table without stopping, and went directly to the entrance to change his shoes.

Lu Xiangzhi asked: "Chen Nan, what are you doing?"

"Go out for some air," Chen Nan said without raising her head, "I'll be back in a while."

After speaking, he went out.

Lu Xiang looked blankly at the other two people on the table: "It's below zero outside, why does he go out to breathe?"

Chen Nan closed the door and rushed towards the elevator. I don't know if it was because of the weekend, but the three elevators couldn't go up or down perfectly.Chen Nan didn't think too much, and ran downstairs from the safe passage next to her.

After running all the way to the gate of the community, I took a breather, and the taxi came without taking two breaths.

Today is really the most beautiful day ever, Chen Nan smiled and said to the master: "Go to Jinxi Garden."

After getting in the car, he looked at the neon lights whizzing by outside, and his mood was also colorful.

It's only been more than three hours since we separated, I just really want to see the little squid.

I want to talk to him face to face, and look at his pretty face and amber-like eyes.

Ah, is it because young people have no self-control to prevent puppy love?

Chen Nan lowered his eyes and laughed.

The master glanced at him from the rearview mirror: "Young man is in a good mood today."

"Well," Chen Nan put his hand in his coat pocket, "Master also wishes you a lot of laughter."

The master happily said, "Thank you."

Yes, he has really changed.How can I say these things to strangers before.

The master was very talkative, seeing that Chen Nan was easy to get along with, all the way from current affairs hot spots to family trivial matters, Chen Nan listened quietly with a smile on his face, and echoed a few words from time to time, the little person in his heart was spinning and jumping non-stop.

I was in a hurry when I just came out, and I forgot to take my mobile phone, and I don't know if the little squid has sent me a message.

It should be fine, anyway, I'll see you later.

Chen Nan shuttled from one end of the city to the other. Every scene on the road looked very pleasing to the eye, until he paid the money, got out of the car, and ran to the villa area.

He knew the code for the iron fence outside Little Squid's house, so he went in with ease, and when he looked up, he saw the light coming from the small window on the second floor.

Ten thousand lights, there is always one that belongs to him.

He looked down at the ground, picked up a small stone, and lightly threw it to the upstairs window.

There was no movement for two seconds, and he was looking down for stones again, when the sticky voice on the other end of the phone rang above his head: "If you break it, you will pay for it."

"Okay." Chen Nan frowned, "I will pay you back."

"Wait," the little squid smiled, "I'll be down right away."

"Don't," Chen Nan rubbed her hands, "It's cold down here, stay inside, it's warm."

The little squid hunched over the window: "Why are you here?"

"I want to see you and you are here." Chen Nan's eyes turned into the arc that the little squid loves most, "Okay, I saw it, I'm leaving. I didn't take the phone, and I won't go back for a long time. Uncle Lu should be anxious gone."

As soon as the words fell, the head on the window disappeared.

After a while, the little squid ran out.

Chen Nan hugged the rushing person: "Two people who talk endlessly get together, how will we live in the future?"

"Live?" The little squid stood up straight and looked at him.

"Yes." Chen Nan lowered her head against his forehead, "Study high school, go to college, live a life."

The little squid met his fiery gaze, which was close at hand, and lowered his eyes: "Do you want to kiss me again?"

Chen Nan raised her eyebrows: "No?"

"In less than 24 hours, I have kissed three times." Little Squid said sadly, "What should I do if I get tired of kissing too much. I will live in the future."

"Hahaha", Chen Nan looked away happily, "Okay, then I'll save myself."

Chen Nan is especially pretty when she smiles, with intertwined and trembling long eyelashes at the end of her eyes, stretched brows, and raised lips that look good and kissable.

The little squid was stunned for two seconds, and while standing on tiptoe, he hooked Chen Nan's neck with one hand.

Forget it, get tired of it.

Let's kiss first.