defenseless

When Lu Xiao and Lu Xiangzhi called on the phone at night, they slipped up, but Lu Xiangzhi hurried back the next day.

After catching the two of them for a general training, they directly asked for two days off.

Chen Nan protested: "Uncle, you can see that I was full of energy when I was being scolded, it's really good, I can go to school now."

"What a fart," Lu Xiangzhi said with a straight face, "I didn't understand it well last time, and even drank while I wasn't around. Be good and stay at home."

"Hey, don't take personal revenge, Uncle." Chen Nan said with a bitter face, "I planned to ask you out for a drink that day. You just happened to be on a business trip in a hurry."

"I'm not in a hurry now," Lu Xiangzhi glanced at him, "It's just that you watch me drink and drink the medicine yourself."

Chen Nan: "..."

Chen Nan originally planned to go to class on Friday afternoon, but stayed at home for two days.

When Lu Xiao came back in the afternoon, he brought two thermos buckets.

Lu Xiao: "A Jiang Hongyu made soup for you, and a little squid brought from home."

"Didn't I tell you not to tell him that I was sick?" Chen Nan took the thermos, "When will I have to drink, there is still a pot boiling in the kitchen."

"Drink slowly." Lu Xiao patted him on the shoulder with a smile, "By the way, tomorrow is Sunday. Are you going to play in No. [-] Middle School?"

"Fuck, I almost forgot." Chen Nan slapped his head, "Wait, I'll ask Ma Weihao when we are going."

After speaking, go to the side to make a phone call.

"Don't be fooled," Lu Xiangzhi came out of the kitchen, "I'll drive you off tomorrow, Xiaoer, the kitchen is hot with crucian carp soup, go and drink a bowl too."

Lu Xiao: "I'm not going. You can send Chen Nan off. He seems to have an appointment with Little Squid. I'll sleep in tomorrow morning and plan to go out for a stroll."

Lu Xiangzhi nodded and didn't ask who he was hanging out with.

For the basketball game at [-] o'clock tomorrow afternoon, Ma Weihao said that he will have a break-in in the morning and make an appointment to meet at the entrance of the middle school at [-]:[-] tomorrow.

After talking on the phone, Lu Xiao stretched out his head from the kitchen and asked, "Craucian carp soup, pork rib soup, and pig's trotter soup, choose one."

After finishing speaking, he added another sentence: "The pig's trotter soup brought to you by the little squid."

Chen Nan was busy replying to WeChat without looking up: "Pig trotter, pig trotter."

"Who are you talking to? You're so engrossed." Lu Xiangzhi came over and patted his head, "Come here and take your temperature."

"My little aunt," Chen Nan walked over and took the thermometer and put it into his clothes, "Uncle, my body temperature returned to normal last night."

"Don't make trouble," Lu Xiangzhi took out the chessboard, "Come on, play a game of chess."

Chen Nan immediately avoided: "No, I haven't recovered yet, so it's not suitable for mental activities."

"Sigh," Lu Xiangzhi sighed, "I've been taking care of you for two days, and I don't even want to play chess with me."

"Don't pretend to be pitiful," Chen Nan stood firm. "If you lose a game, you'll laugh at me for a week. If you win a game, you'll be black for a day. I'm too young to bear this kind of pressure."

"As far as your mental quality is concerned," Lu Xiangzhi clicked his tongue twice, and then said, "Call Jiang Hongyu over for dinner another day."

Chen Nan didn't know how to answer it for a moment: "Huh?"

"Ah shit," Lu Xiangzhi patted his head, "Give me a bowl of all three kinds of soup later."

After taking their body temperature, the three of them sat on the table and drank soup.

Lu Xiao: "What time do you leave tomorrow?"

Chen Nan: "I made an appointment with Ma Weihao to meet at the entrance of the middle school at 09:30, and the departure is about [-]:[-]."

Lu Xiangzhi nodded: "I'll drive you off."

Chen Nan nodded.

"Didn't you invite Little Squid to go with you?" Lu Xiao reminded him, "Don't forget to tell him the time."

Chen Nan was taken aback, but Lu Xiao didn't mention it, he really forgot about it.

"Burning it a few more times, I'm sure my head will be stupid." Lu Xiangzhi saw him bewildered and couldn't help but say.

Chen Nan drank the soup in a dull mood. In the past few days, he ate and slept, ate and slept, and didn't think much about anything.

But now thinking about meeting the little squid tomorrow, he felt uneasy again, a little at a loss, and also had an indescribable urge to run away.

They haven't chatted much in the past two days, but the little squid will send him the audio of piano music before going to bed, and then say good night to each other.

He didn't want to break the calm.

But he also knew that under the calm surface, the undercurrent in his heart had begun to emerge.

After eating, he went to the balcony to call the little squid.

Little Squid: "Huh?"

"Hey," Chen Nan scratched her hair, "The soup is delicious."

Little Squid: "Well, Auntie will be very happy to hear that."

There was an eerie silence after speaking.

Chen Nan: "Hey, do you still remember the time I told you to play golf with me on weekends?"

Little Squid: "Yes."

"Come to Lu Xiao's house to find me tomorrow morning, Uncle Lu will take us there." Chen Nan rubbed her nose, feeling panicked, "Leave at 09:30."

"Well," the little squid was silent for a while, "Have you listened to the piano music from the previous two days?"

Chen Nan: "Well, it's very suitable to listen to before going to bed. It's very good."

Little Squid: "I played it."

Chen Nan was startled.

Little Squid felt that the call had achieved its purpose, and his tone became lighter: "Hang up, remember to take medicine."

Chen Nan was stunned when he heard the beeping sound coming from his ear, and then smiled.

After standing on the balcony for a while, I entered the house.

Before going to bed at night, the audio of the little squid is also sent on time.

Still a gentle and soothing tone.

Chen Nan suddenly felt an indescribable discomfort.

He can't handle those sudden and seemingly natural emotions.

He felt that his life was terrible, and nothing could be done under his control.

He knew what he was missing, but he couldn't tell what he wanted right now.

He has been used to the slowness of life to him, but he has no ability to gather the sand into a pile to condense those tiny glimmers of life into hope for the future.

He sometimes thinks he's being hypocritical.

In every corner of the world, there are people who are struggling and working hard.

He has good material conditions and can survive without effort, but his broken family since he was a child prevents him from having the slightest hope in life.

He has no dreams, no longing, he lives step by step, and he doesn't know how to understand it. He hopes that someone can have this fantasy of his future life.

After all, he was too used to being alone.

Lu Xiao knocked on the door: "I can come in."

"Come in," Chen Nan turned off the music, "The door is unlocked."

"I'm listening to piano music again." Lu Xiao took a glass of water, "Old Lu asked me to play it, saying that after taking the medicine, I was afraid you would wake up thirsty in the middle of the night."

Chen Nan smiled: "Did you tell Lao Lu what I asked you to tell?"

"Say it yourself, he must be angry." Lu Xiao sat by the bed, "Chen Nan, can you stop fussing with us?"

"You know I'm not fussy," Chen Nan sighed, "I just don't feel at ease."

"Pay some living expenses and you will be at ease." Lu Xiao shook his head, "I know there is nothing good for no reason in this world. Even family affection has never given you a sense of security, so it is difficult for you to live here calmly."

"You buy two bottles of wine for Lao Lu." Lu Xiao smiled, "Anyway, he likes this, so you can make it too clear for him, and put it on the table and say that it hurts his heart, you know?"

Chen Nan: "Lu Xiao..."

Lu Xiao: "Although you haven't lived at home for long, Lao Lu is actually a lot happier. You haven't lived with him before, so you may not feel much about it. I have the right to speak. After my mother left, he always used various This kind of trivial matter fills the gaps in every minute. But our father and son are too modest and harmonious. I didn’t know until you came that I actually deprived him of too much sense of accomplishment as a father. You said he regarded you as another Whether it is a kind of sustenance or sympathy for your family. He really loves you. So, can you try to treat this place as your home. "

Lu Xiangzhi, who was about to deliver a hot water bottle to Chen Nan, stood outside the door. He didn't listen to what Chen Nan said later, and went back to the room softly.

When Lu Xiangzhi woke up at 07:30 the next day to prepare breakfast, Su Youyu knocked on the door.

"Come in quickly," Lu Xiangzhi said in a low voice, "Why are you here so early, and you didn't sleep for a while."

"Can't sleep," Su Youyu changed shoes at the door, "I bought breakfast."

Lu Xiangzhi took the bag from his hand: "They are all still asleep."

Su Youyu stepped on the cotton mop: "I'll go and see Chen Nan."

"Go." Lu Xiangzhi smiled.

Chen Nan was used to living alone in a big house before, and she didn't have the habit of locking the door.

Su Youyu turned the doorknob and walked in lightly.

The curtains were not drawn in the room, and the genius outside began to light up. In the hazy light, Chen Nan could be seen lying down and sleeping in a regular frontal position, breathing long and peacefully.

Su Youyu stood by the bed and looked at him for a long while, not knowing what to think, suddenly the corners of his mouth turned up, he took out two hands from his pockets, bent down and sent them to Chen Nan's neck.

When Chen Nan was asleep, he suddenly felt a chill coming from his neck. His conditioned reflex board grabbed the thing that came to make trouble, and the familiar touch made him feel relieved.

He muttered: "Why are your hands still so cold, let them warm up for a while."

After speaking, he put a little strength on his hands, and gently rubbed his slippery skin with his palms.

Su Youyu kept bending over, not daring to move.

It wasn't until his hands gradually warmed up that the eyebrows of the person on the bed gradually relaxed.

Chen Nan's eyes were tightly closed, and after a few words of nonsense, her breathing became calm again. Su Youyu was tired from standing, so she slowed down and sat down on the side of the bed gently, while Chen Nan still held her hand against his neck.In a daze, he slowly fell asleep leaning against Chen Nan in a sitting position.

Before Chen Nan woke up, he had a very short dream. He dreamed that the four of them were still in B University. After the exam, he held the hand of the little squid and walked in the snow. Every step he took made a creaking sound. Their deep and shallow footprints were covered by a vast expanse of snow in front of them, and the end could not be seen clearly.

The wind and snow are long, but the heart is warm.

He held the little squid's hand, didn't feel cold at all, and walked forward aimlessly.

When he woke up, the little squid was sitting on the edge of the bed, sleeping with his upper body leaning against him, and holding his two hands in his palms.