defenseless

I have walked the road to the cemetery so many times.Every time Su Youyu saw the tombstones lined up and spread out to the mountainside, Su Youyu would think of Su Ming's words back then.

"He is just sleeping here, and one day, we will meet again."

The snow has not yet melted, and large areas cover the entire mountain. From a distance, it seems that the roofs of small houses are covered with snow.

Dressed in black, the two walked silently for half an hour before seeing Su Lin's tomb.

There was already a figure standing in front of the tomb, it was Lin Yun.

In the past, she would avoid this day, or advance it, or delay it.

This year's relationship with Su Ming finally broke the ice, and she came up alone early on.

Looking at Su Lin's warm smile on the tombstone, she suddenly felt like a dream.

Hearing footsteps behind her, she glanced back and stood sideways.

Su Ming put the flowers in front of the tombstone, took off his gloves, carefully wiped off the water mist on the photo, put his lips on the cold stone tablet and kissed lightly.

"I came to see you, happy birthday."

Lin Yun took out a box from her bag and handed it to Su Youyu: "This is what Su Lin used before."

Su Youyu tore off the gloves, opened it, and saw that it was a black ten-hole harmonica.

Su Ming stood up, took the harmonica, and slowly brushed his fingers over every part of the body of the harmonica, as if he wanted to grasp a trace of the past from above.

The three stood quietly in front of the tomb, and no one spoke.

After a while, Su Ming raised the harmonica in his hand to his lips.His fingers were already red from the cold, and his lips were dark purple.

The harmonica has not been used for a long time, and the sound just came out has a dull and obscure feeling.

Su Youyu closed her eyes, and could feel the cold wind blowing across her face, driving the hair on her forehead and the cells in her whole body.

This song by Su Ming was translated into Chinese as "Deep Time".

An afternoon ditty, melodious, pleasant, and timeless, I don't know if it's because of the sound quality of the harmonica, but also a thick and thick yearning that can't be separated.

Su Youyu seemed to be able to see the afternoon sun passing through the layers of green leaves, casting mottled light and shadows on her face.

He seemed to see the youthful appearance of the two teenagers through time.

When going down the mountain, Lin Yun said, "Your father wants to see Xiao Yu."

Su Ming didn't answer, but just looked at Su Youyu and asked him to express his opinion.

Su Youyu nodded.

He hasn’t seen Su Shen for a long time.Only Lin Yun appeared from time to time in these years.

Compared with the appearance in memory, Su Shen was much older, with grizzled hair, and even his thick and rough eyebrows were stained with frost, with a sullen face and still didn't like to smile.

He leaned against the bed, didn't look at Su Ming directly, just patted the edge of the bed, and said to Su Youyu, "Sit here and let me have a look."

Su Youyu walked over and sat down, meeting his cloudy eyes.

He stretched out his arm from under the quilt and pinched Su Youyu's hand propped on the side of the bed.

His hands were rough, dry, and warm.

"It's very similar to your father, but not as tall as him." After he finished speaking, he turned his head and coughed twice, and Lin Yun quickly patted him on the back.

"When are you leaving?" He asked again, slowing down.

"Plane in the afternoon", Su Youyu couldn't help but squeezed his hand back. Su Youyu liked his hand very much, it was wide and thick, "Are you still sick?"

"It's much better." He smiled slightly, bringing up the nasolabial folds on his face, "Come back here during the Chinese New Year, and I'll give you lucky money."

Su Youyu nodded.

He couldn't help but took out another hand to touch Su Youyu's temples: "You go out with your grandma, and I'll talk to Su Ming for a while."

When Su Shen said the word grandma, Su Youyu still didn't realize it.This word is too unfamiliar to him.

He rarely felt the tenderness and care brought to him by the elders since he was a child.Including the former Aunt Fang, even though he treated him so badly, he endured it. On the one hand, he wanted to be close to all people and things related to his father, on the other hand, he felt that such an older person could bring A certain aspect of his peace of mind.

He and Lin Yun sat on chairs in the corridor.

"Thank you for forgiving me." Lin Yun said.

"My father likes you very much." Su Youyu lowered his head and fiddled with his gloves. "He will definitely not blame you. Neither will I."

Lin Yun couldn't help wiping away the tears from the corners of her eyes.

"I will come back to see you when I have a chance. Your cooking is delicious." He said softly again.

It was only five o'clock in the afternoon when we arrived in City C. Su Ming said, "Why don't you go to school and rest at home today."

Su Youyu shook his head: "I'm going to self-study tonight."

Finally he said, "You can accompany me to cut your hair."

He was not used to it when he went out after cutting his hair. It was the first time he cut his hair so short, and he always felt that the wind was blowing into his head.

Can't help but pull up the hat on the back of the clothes and cover it.

"What are you doing blocking it?" Su Ming smiled, "It's so beautiful."

He said in a muffled voice, "I'm not used to it."

Su Ming sighed: "Why did you cut your hair, I have the feeling that you have grown up."

"Because I really grew up." Su Youyu said softly.

In the evening, the physical training team was training on the playground. Chen Nan felt boring after shooting baskets in the basketball court for a while. When he went back to the locker room to change clothes, he saw the text message "Little squid is very depressed".

I'm back and I'm at school too.

He lowered his head to the screen and raised the corners of his mouth, and sat on the rest stool to reply to the message.

I just finished playing golf, so I took a day off, and we went to the commissary for hot coffee.I'll wait for you downstairs.

There was a reply in a short while.

it is good.

Chen Nan changed his clothes three times, five times and two times, and ran to the teaching building.

From a long distance, he saw a slender figure in front of the teaching building, but he was not sure.

In my impression, the little squid doesn't seem to be so tall, and the hairstyle doesn't match.

When he came to him, he stood a meter away in a daze for a long time.

Little Squid didn't wear a school uniform today, but was wrapped in a long black wool coat. He was not short, and his body proportions were good. Today, he looks a lot taller, tall and slender.The hair is cut very short, only a little bit longer than the round inch.With a full forehead and beautiful eyebrows exposed, those pure and charming eyes look even more stunning, and even the neck has a beautiful curvature, which makes the facial features of the whole face more delicate and three-dimensional.

What's more important is that the milkiness that hadn't grown up before disappeared all at once, and he was full of youthful air.

Chen Nan came back to her senses, and a smile spread from the corner of her mouth: "Hair cut? Very energetic."

Su Youyu's eyes were bent, with a smile in the corner of his eyes, he walked over and walked towards the commissary side by side with him.

"I'm afraid you don't like it." As long as you like it.

"It's beautiful." Chen Nan couldn't help but raised his hand and wanted to rub his hair, and then put it back in his pocket in the middle of the air.

He smiled secretly, always feeling that once the little squid's hair was cut, he would no longer be a child.

"Is Su Ming back too?" Chen Nan asked.

"Well," he added, "but he won't pick me up, we'll still be together after school."

Chen Nan nodded: "How have you been for the past two days, you haven't replied to my WeChat today."

"I was on the mountain in the morning, but there was no signal. I went down to the hospital and then flew back." The little squid explained everything in detail.

Chen Nan: "Hospital?"

"It's my grandfather." He was afraid that Chen Nan wouldn't understand, "It's Su Ming's father, let's go and see him."

"How is your body recovering?" Chen Nan asked.

"Very good," Little Squid said with a smile on the corner of his mouth, "Let me go back during the Chinese New Year, and he also said that he would give me New Year's money."

Hearing this childish sentence, Chen Nan felt a lot more at ease, so she couldn't help but patted his head: "It's not as easy as before, it hurts."

The so-called hot coffee that can be bought in schools is a simple version of instant coffee poured into disposable cups and brewed with hot water.

There are a few rows of small tables and chairs with parasols outside the canteen, which is neither sheltered from wind nor cold in winter.After sitting there for a while, people feel refreshed and full of energy, and dead brain cells can be frozen and activated.

Chen Nan took two small paper cups and sat opposite Su Youyu, who was already stomping from the cold.

"It's still a little hot." Chen Nan handed him a cup, "Blow it and drink it."

Su Youyu picked up the cup and blew on it, the heat dissipated, and he took a sip from the rim of the cup.

In less than a second, his entire face was wrinkled, and his facial features were distorted to the center of his face.

He hastily clicked his mouth twice, trying to swallow the bitterness, with an expression of death rather than life.

Chen Nan couldn't help laughing, and her words trembled: "Ah~, open your mouth."

As soon as he opened his mouth obediently instinctively, his lower teeth touched a hard and cool object, and his lips touched Chen Nan's warm fingers. Before he could think about it, he rolled his tongue and put the object in his mouth, by the way He licked it from the tip of Chen Nan's finger.

Su Youyu's lips were wet, his slippery and warm tongue brushed over Chen Nan's fingers, itching and numb, Chen Nan's heart tightened, and he withdrew his hand somewhat awkwardly.

The taste of rose sugar melted in Su Youyu's mouth, suppressing the bitter taste that was originally spreading throughout the mouth.

With sugar in his mouth, his facial features finally returned to their normal positions, and he mumbled: "It's so sweet."

Chen Nan laughed: "I know you must be afraid of hardship, so drink it with sugar." After laughing, he took a sip of coffee.

"It's so bitter, don't you eat candy?" Su Youyu asked.

"I'm not afraid of suffering." Chen Nan shook her head, curled her lips, and there was a bit of evil in her naughty smile, "And I'm very sweet in my heart now."

Su Youyu's mind flickered, and he quickly took another sip of coffee while holding the cup.

After sitting for a while, Chen Nan took out her mobile phone to check the time, and then asked, "Have you finished your homework?"

Su Youyu nodded while holding the cup.

"It's just right," Chen Nan raised her eyebrows, "I'll take you to steal for a while."

The two turned their heads and went to the abandoned small building behind the canteen.The gate was chained, and Chen Nan led him to a small window in a classroom at the back of the building. With a light push, the window opened.He put his hands on the balcony, lifted his legs back and forth slightly, and flipped in with agility.

"Wait," Chen Nan said after entering, "I'll pass you a chair to step on."

Su Youyu pushed his mouth imperceptibly, and put his hands on the balcony. Although it took some effort, he finally climbed in.

Chen Nan looked at his unhappy expression after being underestimated, smiled, closed the window and said, "The electricity is cut off here, follow me, don't stumble."

The classroom door was locked from the outside, and the two climbed out through the window. In the corridor, there was only light from the playground in the distance.It's not dark, but it's also a bit cold.

"This used to be a teaching building for extra-curricular activities," Chen Nan explained to him while taking out her mobile phone to light up. "Later, a new building was built, and it was abandoned. No one took care of it. Students often came to smoke, and the school couldn't catch them. That's why the door was locked."

After speaking, he turned his head to a staircase.

"Follow me", Chen Nan led the way with ease, "Grab my arm if you can't see it."

Su Youyu thought for a while, but instead of grabbing his arm, she grabbed a corner of his school uniform jacket from behind.

After going upstairs and walking to a classroom at the end of the corridor, Chen Nan stopped.He opened the window at the end of the corridor and took a piece of wire from the outside ledge.

"It's called the policy, and the countermeasure." Chen Nan put away the phone while laughing, pointed the wire at the lock hole by the light outside the window, pushed it slowly, clicked, and the lock opened.

"Come in." Chen Nan turned her head and winked at him.

This is a lecture theater, you can smell the heavy dust when you open the door, and there is a piano in front of the classroom.Chen Nan went straight to the front row, and took out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from the pocket of the table.He pulled out another bag of potato chips and threw it back without looking back.

"I'll smoke a cigarette, you have some snacks." Chen Nan took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, and Su Youyu could clearly see his tall nose and mouth with a cigarette in it the moment he lit it.

"It's not expired, I just bought it last week and put it here." Chen Nan turned to look at the little squid holding the potato chips and said without moving.

Su Youyu: "Do you come here often?"

"It's not too often." Chen Nan took a puff of cigarette, "I will come here when I want to smoke, it's very quiet."

After smoking, Chen Nan went to sit in front of the piano, and when the piano cover was lifted, it creaked.

"I learned piano for a while when I was young," Chen Nan said with a smile, "I'll show you a piece."

There are quite a lot of windows in the lecture theater, and the light that comes in can barely see the room clearly. Su Youyu walked over and saw that he was slightly arching the back of his hand on the keys, and his posture was quite good.

This piano has been left unused for a long time, and it hasn't been tuned, and some keys can no longer produce sound.Chen Nan stumbled and played a short piece dedicated to Alice, the voice was floating and slippery, and it was lonely and lonely. In this empty classroom, it sounded strangely harmonious.

"How long have you been studying?" Su Youyu asked while looking around the classroom.

"One year? Two years?" Chen Nan tilted his head and thought for a while, "I played this piece in a school performance, but no one at home came to listen to it, so I didn't learn it."

In fact, the day of the performance was Ling Fei's birthday. At that time, he wanted to play this piece for Ling Fei. When Ling Fei didn't come, he smashed the piano when he went back.

He smiled, feeling that he was also like Chen Shaozhi in some respects, he loved to smash things when he didn't like it.

Su Youyu gave up searching, walked over and stood beside him, bent over, arched his back, put his hands on the keys, and his fingers started to dance.

For the same piece of music, the tones slipped out of his hands, from cheerful and soft to deep and deep, with clear layers and natural transitions. The defects of the piano itself, the leakage of sound, are all covered up by his infectious playing.

When Chen Nan raised his head slightly, he could see his serious side face. The light coming in from the window swept over his eyelashes and hands, casting a layer of lustrous cold light.

Every tone of this familiar piece hit Chen Nan's heart softly and accurately.

When the last tone came to an end, he breathed a sigh of relief, turned his face to face Chen Nan and raised his chin.Chen Nan couldn't see his expression clearly, and knew that he was asking for compliments.

Seeing that Chen Nan hadn't spoken for a long time, Su Youyu just wanted to open his mouth when Chen Nan pulled him down and sat on his lap, leaning heavily into his thick and warm arms.

Before Su Youyu was shocked and spoke, Chen Nan covered his mouth with his wide palm from behind, breath and voice blew from the side of his neck: "Shhh."

Su Youyu's heart was about to jump out, her eyes were slightly opened, and she didn't understand until she saw the faint light passing by outside the door.

Chen Nan had already reacted at this time, surrounded him and quickly hid in the hollow under the piano.

The piano is placed facing the door, so as long as people don't come in, they can't see the two of them.

Chen Nan could hear the footsteps from far to near, and then the door of the lecture theater was pushed open, and the light of the flashlight swept inside, and the person at the door murmured, "Huh? Did I hear it wrong?"

At this time, the whole upper body of the little squid was held in front of Chen Nan's chest, and Chen Nan's hands were placed on his head to prevent him from being hit by the bottom of the piano.

It's not like they haven't been this close before.I don't know if it's because of the semi-closed space, or the dark atmosphere, or because of the uneasiness of being discovered and the series of movements that the brain and heart have not had time to react to just now. Su Youyu's breathing and heartbeat seem to have stopped, until she heard the gradual With the sound of distant footsteps, his heart jumped up in a panic and without rhythm, as if he wanted to make up for the missed beat at once.Chen Nan's breath brushed against his ear, hot and fast.

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Thank you two little angels for your message~~~ I thought no one in Jinjiang would read it~~ Bihat