Wing On Tune

It was already dusk when Changan woke up, and he missed today's homework as expected. He was in a daze for a while before he regained consciousness and realized that he was lying on the bed. Struggling to sit up, a biting numbness came from behind the right shoulder movement, dense scratches, but not as painful as imagined.

I tried my best to support my left hand and tried to sit up, but my body was limp. It was probably because of the severe pain last night, and I had no food for another day. This time, I was shaking violently. Before I could sit up, my left hand lost strength, and the whole person fell back on the bed. , A bang sound startled the people outside the door, Chang An rubbed his forehead with his left hand, feeling a little dizzy, he was both bumped and hungry.

Liu Xu came in with a food box, "Get up and eat something when you wake up."

Chang An listened to the movements with a stiff body, not wanting to answer, but now hearing Liu Xu's voice, the thorn on his back changed its taste and began to hurt again.

The woman also seemed to be startled by the loss of control last night. She sighed and sat on the table not far from the bed to eat, tears streaming down her face quietly. In the past few years, she has learned how to quietly Weeping, so that no one would notice her fragility, the room was silent for a long time, so long that Changan thought Liu Xu had gone out, but he knew it was not, he patiently wanted to wait for the door to close before getting up to eat, the smell of food was wafting in the room, He is indeed hungry.

"An'er, have you ever thought about leaving?" The voice sounded again, which is not unusual at all.

Once in the past, Liu Xu woke up and remembered what she had done. She hugged Chang An and cried bitterly. She patted her hand gently as if she was coaxing him to sleep when she was a child, trying to relieve his pain, whether it was physical or mental. Yes, even at that time she didn't ask this question.

Chang'an knew that Liu Xu was crying, even though his voice was as soft as possible, but he just knew it, as if he could sense it, as long as Liu Xu was crying, Chang'an could feel it, and he also knew that she wanted to ask him if he thought about leaving her, but Liu Xu didn't dare Finish asking, because that sounds like asking Chang An if he ever thought about giving up on her, or abandoned her.

Her Chang'an was still so young, but she had to follow a crazy mother, just for that ridiculous unwillingness and promise, and what's more, she had to fearfully endure the fists and kicks that would fall on her at any time. What.

Have you ever thought about leaving? The answer is yes, Changan wanted to escape more than once.

Witnessing the days and nights when Liu Xu went from being gentle and considerate to describing madness was shocking for a child. It didn’t take long from the initial heartache and sympathy to the later fear and numbness. During the year, Chang'an couldn't eat and couldn't sleep well, which led to the fact that the current ten-year-old looks like he is only six or seven years old.

Little Chang'an never left during the most difficult time, and Liu Xu's condition even showed signs of improvement. They wandered around in different places, except Liu Xu's wishful thinking, and Chang'an's hope. Every time they went to a place, they would take their mother to see The doctor has become a habit, but before the joy of improvement has officially begun, Liu Xu lost control.

It was a winter night, because her spirit was much better, Liu Xu took advantage of Changan's absence to go to school and went out. She used to be in a daze at the alley or in the house, but she seemed to be in a good mood that day, so she packed up her description and said She put on some makeup on purpose, and it was dusk when she went out, but it didn't affect her mood at all, Liu Xu even deliberately slowed down, carefully identifying the places she passed, and was going to pick her An'er up from school.

It is conceivable how many people's attention a woman with such a face has attracted on the street. She was born beautiful, and when she was in a happy mood with a smile on her face, that beauty became extraordinarily thrilling and tantalizing.

Some polite literati would go up to her and ask her where she was going, but they would give her a ride. The more daring dandies would block people's way when they came up, and asked the girl's name with a folding fan on her chin. She didn't answer, she didn't wake up much, and she didn't react to the situation now, she just nodded, but the dude was relentless, and continued to tease, "Why don't you abandon your husband and live a good life with your master! It's a sick beauty who loves you~"

Liu Xu seemed to be in a trance, and then like a madman, she broke free from the fan supporting her and shouted, "He won't abandon me, no, you go away!"

On the way back to his residence after school, Chang An was thinking about buying some vegetables and meat for cooking, but he heard a familiar voice on the way.

He rushed out in that direction almost instantly, and saw the woman with disheveled hair, screaming, many people around watching, the dude was scratched by nails on his face, he pushed the woman brutally, Chang An struggled to squeeze into the crowd, tightly He hugged the woman's waist and comforted her, "Mother, I'm An'er, and I'm here."

The passers-by had already started chattering, the dandy, seeing the crowd, scolded the crazy woman angrily and walked away, the woman calmed down after a while, Chang'an didn't care what the passers-by said, and helped the woman walk back, the ear His voice was rustling, what a pity that good-looking, that child...

So far, Liu Xu has lost control twice that made Chang'an palpitate. For a moment, he even felt that he might die in Liu Xu's hands. After losing control for the first time, Liu Xu hugged Chang'an and cried all night. At that time, he was very weak, but he had already started planning to leave in his heart.

He was silent all the time, waiting for the woman to cry tired, but the willow catkins were like water. After crying, he couldn't even open his eyes. When he fell asleep on the bed, the tears still didn't stop. Changan dragged the quilt to cover it carefully, and he endured it In pain, she carried her own little burden, took out a few copper coins, and put the rest next to Liu Xu. After she fell ill, she hadn't managed money for a long time, and she handed over all her little savings to Chang'an.

When he turned around and stepped out of the room, Chang'an's heart was beating like a broken heart. He really wanted to sleep peacefully, without fear and oppression. He really wanted to leave.

At the moment when the door was about to close, Chang An couldn't tell what his mood was, he only knew that his heart was beating like a drum, but his movements were surprisingly calm, he was almost one step away from leaving, and he didn't even think about what his life would be like afterwards , he almost wanted to fly away.

"Chang'an", when turning around to leave, a woman's faint voice sounded in the peaceful room, she seemed to be trapped in a nightmare, struggling in pain, whispering incoherently

"An'er... let's go."

"Mother... I'm sorry!"

"Don't...don't...leave me behind."

The tone of voice was as warm as when he was a child coaxing Chang An to sleep.

Chang An thought desperately, what the hell is this!

He stood there for a long time until his body was completely cold.

He still didn't leave after all.