old time

Wei Song's birthday is coming.

Xiao Yang didn't know what birthday present to give him, so after thinking about it, he decided to cook him a meal.

This is not a gift?This is already great, I think Xiao Yang basically didn't cook when he was abroad, and the number of times he did not cook more than 5 times, including cooking activities organized by foreign students and classmates.

Anyway, he planned to cook a meal for Wei Song. He bought red wine and candles and hid them in the cabinet long ago. He planned to have a candlelight dinner. Of course, whether the atmosphere is good or not depends on whether the food is good or not.

Xiao Yang planned to fry the steak, this should be the easiest.

Wei Song's birthday is on Thursday, and as soon as Xiao Yang got home, he went straight to the supermarket to buy steak and side dishes, not letting Wei Song follow him.

Wei Song was amused, he had already found out what was in the cabinet, Xiao Yang was so interested in celebrating his birthday, how could he be unhappy, he hadn't celebrated his birthday for several years.

Not long after Wei Song arrived home, Xiao Yang came back with the bag and hurried into the kitchen, and specifically asked Wei Song not to come over.

Wei Song raised three fingers and vowed never to go in.

However, after a while, Xiao Yang's screams were heard, and he didn't know what was going on. He suspected that he bought a fake steak, and oil started to splash as soon as it was cooked.

As soon as Wei Song heard the sound, he went over immediately. Seeing Xiao Yang holding the pot lid in one hand and the shovel in the other, it was so funny, Wei Song suppressed his laughter, and planned to grab Xiao Yang's shovel and handle it for him.

Unexpectedly, Boss Xiao Yang was not happy, and shouted angrily, "Get out."

Wei Song couldn't hold him back, so he stood a little farther away to appreciate his heroic cooking.Open your teeth and dance your claws, flamboyant and phoenix dancing, but that's all.

Xiao Yang waited until the oil was no longer splashed, turned it over, and didn't know when it was done. When he was still struggling with whether it was cooked or not, the steak had long been like beef jerky, black and dry.

After it was out of the pot, Xiao Yang cut a small piece and tasted it. My god, he couldn't bite it, and he didn't add seasoning, so the taste was quite weird.

He regained his strength, fried the second piece, held the lid of the pot to hold back the oil splashing in front, and was still turning over. Then he suddenly remembered why he didn't search the method online, Xiao Yang slapped his forehead and took out I just realized that I had turned it too often, and it took 2-5 minutes to turn it over, so I waited silently for 5 minutes, turned it over and saw that it was mushy.

Xiao Yang felt that the kitchen was full of malice towards him.

The second piece of steak that came out of the pan was still not satisfactory, Xiao Yang reprocessed it carefully, cut off the mushy part, and put it down, so there would be no mistakes.He also deliberately cut the steak into a heart shape, after all, to be more romantic.

Then continue to blanch the broccoli and kale used for the plate, and the result is boiled yellow...

Xiao Yang had given up struggling, and fried the bought sauce in a pan to heat it up and poured it on the steak.

It's finally done.

Looking back, Wei Song was looking at him with a smile.

Xiao Yang said angrily, "Look at me, pour wine."

Wei Song said yes, and took it out from Xiao Yang's storage place with ease.

Xiao Yang: ...I'll just say that he knows everything.

When Wei Song finished lighting the candles, Xiao Yang threw the plate on the table, "Let's make do with it."

Wei Song picked the second piece and ate it decently, and praised, "Not bad."

Xiao Yang rolled his eyes at him, didn't you try to bully me?

Wei Song raised his glass and said to Xiao Yang, "Actually, your return is the greatest gift to me. During the days when you were away, I didn't have any interest in celebrating my birthday."

Xiao Yang remained silent, still sulking with himself, clinked glasses with him silently and took a sip of wine.

Wei Song put down his glass and continued, "I remember my last birthday was in my senior year, and I happened to meet Wang Yi, so he treated me to a bowl of noodles as my birthday."

Wei Song didn't feel that there was anything wrong with what he said, but Xiao Yang suddenly opened his eyes wide.How did Wang Yi know about your birthday?Do you still eat noodles?Alluding to who won't let you eat noodles?

Xiao Yang's sullenness towards himself suddenly turned into anger towards Wei Song, and he remained silent.

"So how good it is now, I am really very happy to have someone who loves me work so hard to cook such a good meal for me." Then he said "delicious" very artificially.

The original candlelight dinner was finished in such a cold environment, Wei Song went to wash the dishes, looked at the devastated kitchen, sighed softly, and thought about how to coax his wife later.

"Let me ask you, don't be playful, you like me just by looking at me? Am I so handsome?" Xiao Yang adopted a devious tactic.

Wei Song didn't quite understand why the topic changed from steak to handsome or not during the time he washed the dishes, but he still replied, "You must be handsome, I fell in love with you at first sight."

"Then you haven't seen someone who grew up like me again, love at first sight again?" Xiao Yang continued to press.

"Then how can it be? After I like you, I don't have the mind to do other things. Am I just a person who ran all the way to the dark? Besides, I have been observing you since then, and found that you are very good and good, so I like you even more. .” Wei Song hugged Xiao Yang’s shoulder affectionately.

Xiao Yang still asked, "Then if you grow up like me, you will be even better. For example, um, Wang Yi."

Although Xiao Yang had already turned down the volume when it came to Wang Yi, Wei Song still heard it clearly and figured out the reason why Xiao Yang was so pressing. He found it funny that his family Xiao Yang was jealous of him again.

Wei Song pinched Xiao Yang's nose and said, "Wang Yi is a straight man, what do you think?"

Xiao Yang misunderstood him, and became even angrier. He pushed Wei Song away and stood up, "If he's bent, you'll chase him? I'm bent, so you'll chase me, right?"

Wei Song didn't expect this reaction, so he got up and pulled him, "It's not baby, I never had any thoughts on him, it doesn't matter to me whether he is a straight man, I mean you can't get a straight man even if you are jealous." On the man's head."

Xiao Yang calmed down a little after hearing this, and sat back on the sofa.

Wei Song seemed to have thought of something, and continued, "Xiao Yang, I only liked you. Maybe everyone thinks my feelings are inexplicable, but I just like you, there is no way. Also, you said I was I know you're a crook before chasing you, yes baby, you know mine, if I don't know your sexual orientation or know that you already have a boyfriend, I won't bother you."

Xiao Yang's thoughts were brought back a few years ago by these words. It turned out that this was the reason why Wei Song didn't appear for a long time. Such a confession came so many years late.

Seeing his expression moved, Wei Song continued, "Look baby, today is my birthday, let's stop arguing, okay?"

Xiao Yang froze for a moment, then said, "I'm sorry."

Sorry for losing my temper with you, sorry for delaying you for so many years, sorry for doubting you, and many more.

Wei Song hugged Xiao Yang and left a kiss on his forehead, "Then you have to make it up to me."

Xiao Yang said in a muffled voice, "I won't wear a condom for a while."

Wei Song smiled, and asked back, "Who is it to compensate?"

Xiao Yang pushed him up and rolled his eyes, "Then can you wear two? I'll give you ten in a box!"

Wei Song overwhelmed Xiao Yang, and said with a smirk, "Ten lines, but they are not worn together."

Xiao Yang also followed with a smirk, "Then I'll do the math. If you're like this, you can use up five at a time. How about I help you wear two more?"

Wei Song's smile froze on his face for an instant, he pulled Xiao Yang's clothes with his hands, and said viciously, "See if I can use it up." After speaking, he began to nibble on Xiao Yang.

Xiao Yang giggled, and did not forget to tease him while being gnawed, "Wei Song, if you are useless today, you are not a real man! I don't believe that I can't squeeze you!"

Wei Song paused, and suddenly felt pain in his kidneys.

Xiao Yang suppressed his laughter, and whispered into Wei Song's ear, "Fuck me, what a man."

Wei Song couldn't stand being hooked anymore, why bother so much, do it first as a respect!

So Wei Song hugged Xiao Yang by the waist, Xiao Yang had the sequelae of being hugged by the princess, and wrapped his arms around Wei Song's neck tightly, making it even more difficult for Wei Song to move.

The specific use of ten, only the two of them and the trash can know.

But they both said that night: I am very satisfied.

------ Extra Story End------

Beware of tragedy

01

In City R, the cold wind was howling in the early morning, and there was only a tall and thin figure in the cemetery, dressed in black.

The man stroked the photo on the tombstone and whispered, like whispering to a lover.

"I haven't seen you for a year, do you miss me?" He chuckled after finishing speaking.

"Am I losing weight again? Can you see it?"

"I may not be able to see you next year, but..."

"Take care of yourself."

When the sun climbed to the highest point, the man murmured goodbye, turned and left.

On the tombstone is a photo of a young boy with a serious and dull expression, which is actually kind of cute.

02

In the coffee shop, the man who had just been in the cemetery sat quietly, as if waiting for someone.

After a while, another man came in through the door.

"You just went to see him." Declarative tone.

The man in black nodded.

The man who came in continued, "Are you worth it?"

The man in black didn't answer, but looked at the ring on the opposite person's hand, "Married?"

The man chuckled, "It's New Year's Day this year."

The man in black froze for a moment, then raised his head and asked him, "Zhou Yuzhi, did you just forget him?"

Zhou Yuzhi also froze for a moment, "He doesn't want me to have a bad life. If he knows about your existence, he also doesn't want you to have a bad life. Wei Song, can't you be more sober? He has been gone for three It's been [-] years, you don't come every year on his memorial day, but only on his birthday, I know he hasn't left for you, but he just left, can't you face this matter squarely? Is it that difficult?"

Facing Zhou Yuzhi's question, Wei Song didn't answer a single one, but repeated, "If he knows your existence."

Yes, he didn't know, and I didn't even give him a chance to know my existence, so he left.

Knowing that he couldn't persuade him, Zhou Yuzhi sighed, and said, "He has a bad temper, and he likes to sulk at himself. You have to be good at observing and take the initiative to coax him, otherwise he might just ignore you all the time." you."

"But he is also quite stupid. He clearly guessed why he was angry and said no. When I said he was stupid, I remembered that when he did the questions, he always calculated 3 times 9 into 18, which made the teacher angry. , Once, because of a wrong calculation in this step, I lost to the school next door."

"But he didn't get the provincial champion after all."

Zhou Yuzhi sighed as he said that, three years ago, when he received news of Xiao Yang's death in his hometown, he went to the United States with Xiao's parents and Xiao's mother to collect the ashes, and returned to China for a memorial service, and finally buried him.

A month later, Wei Song came to him. At first, he thought this person was crazy, but after listening to him talk about how he secretly fell in love with Xiao Yang, he gradually got to know him.

During that month, Zhou Yuzhi stayed with him all the time, mostly in the cemetery. Zhou Yuzhi himself was sad, but seeing Wei Song's sadder appearance, he could only comfort him first.Ordinary consolation is always useless, only talking about some interesting things about Xiao Yang's life will have an impact on him, and Wei Song's eyes will be bright at that time.

Later, after Wei Song returned to Shanghai, he would visit Xiao Yang every year on his birthday, and then chat with Zhou Yuzhi about him.

The state of the previous year has improved, but this year I don't know why he is so decadent, and more importantly, his physical condition is getting worse.

Hearing the continuous coughing on the other side, Zhou Yuzhi asked, "Are you okay? Don't drag yourself down."

Wei Song got up when he heard the words, "It's okay, thank you for your concern, thank you. I should go."

Hearing such a solemn thank you, Zhou Yuzhi felt even more depressed.

03

After returning to Shanghai, Wei Song still worked day and night, relying on smoking to refresh himself.

Suddenly one day, Wei Song coughed up a mouthful of blood while facing the screen, then his eyes blurred and he passed out.

He didn't come to work the next day and Liu Chengchen found out that he passed out at home.

In the hospital, Liu Chengchen, Zhou Wanyang, Wei's father and Wei's mother were all there.

Wei Song woke up, struggled to get up, and the first thing he said was, "Mom and Dad, I'm sorry."

Mother Wei couldn't hold back, and howled, "We know you love him, and we have no objection to your loving him, but since you love him, you can't make us hate him!"

Wei Song's eyes were also red, and he only murmured, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Seeing him like this, Liu Chengchen was no worse than six years ago, and really wanted to pick up his collar and beat him up, telling him not to hurt himself like this again.

But there is no reason to cheer him up anymore, and there is no need for this anymore.

Lung cancer, gastric perforation, it won't last long.

04

After Wei's mother calmed down, several people took turns to take care of him, so that he could live with dignity as much as possible when he was dying.

Everyone can see that Wei Song's state is getting worse day by day, and he has already started to prepare for the funeral.

On Saturday, the weather was particularly good, and Wei Song suddenly felt refreshed. Liu Chengchen and Zhou Wanyang took care of him that day. They knew that this was a flashback, so they called Wei's father and Wei's mother.

Zhou Wanyang took out a stack of papers from her bag, and handed it to Wei Song, "Songzi, come and read my novel, and then give it a name."

Wei Song didn't answer, just glanced down and looked at him seriously. Others were also looking at him with bated breath.

After three hours, Wei Song insisted on finishing the novel while coughing.

Wei Song asked with a smile, "Wang Zhi and the manager met because of us?"

"That's right, it's because of you two." Zhou Wanyang began to cry as soon as she opened her mouth.

Wei Song didn't seem to care, and continued to smile and said, "You have given your husband so many roles."

Zhou Wanyang had already started to sob silently, and Liu Chengchen hugged him beside him.

"By the way, am I thinner than my second child now? He used to always laugh at me."

There is no one to talk to.

"Let's call it 'Old Times', okay?"

The story between me and you only exists in a fleeting glimpse of the old days, leaving nothing else, I understand it all.

"Okay, okay, I'll add it when I get back." Zhou Wanyang's tears couldn't stop falling down.

"Don't cry, I'm going to see him, and I'll tell him that you miss him so much."

"But don't think about me, I'm afraid your husband will be jealous." Wei Song still persisted with a smile.

Wei Song was still chanting something, and his voice became weaker and weaker.

The ECG monitor beeped long and sharply, and a life was lost.

The only sound left in the ward was louder and louder crying.

05

Wei Song's ashes are buried in Shanghai, and they have nothing to do with Xiao Yang.

Their stories, true and false, are only left in the old time.

06

That day in the cemetery, what Wei Song wanted to say to Xiao Yang was: I may not be able to visit you next year, but I will go down to find you soon.

I will meet you first, I will tell you that I like you as soon as we meet, I will stalk you, I will cook for you every day, Xiao Yang, give me a chance.

The author has something to say:

Tragedy has beauty. This story tells us that we must cherish the present moment, and those who want to chase after it quickly, and those who want to get on with it quickly:)

what the hell am i talking about...

【postscript】

From September 16 to February 9, in 17 months, I wrote more than 2 words, which is a very small number for similar novels, and it is indeed a big mark for me.

In the beginning, this story didn't have any prototype, it was just out of nostalgia for the "ex-boyfriend", so it slowly developed into such a simple story. For Xiao Yang, he was lucky to meet his Wei Song, It is also a kindness and expectation that I can give to life.

The name of the article was inspired by the first sentence of Chen Li's "Self-crossing", "The old time lives in the old soul, and the allergies to desire begin to change from itchy to painful." At that time, I was thinking about what name to use for this story. The three words coincide, Xiao Yang crosses himself, Wei Song crosses him.

I also said at the beginning that although the writing is not good, there is still something I want to express, about love and courage.Xiao Yang dared to come out with his family regardless of everything, but he didn't dare to reveal his thoughts to Zhou Yuzhi; Zhou Yuzhi dared to go to Xiao Yang in an unknown situation, but he didn't dare to face the rumors that would appear in his own imagination; Wei Song Dare to wait for five years in an endless situation, but dare not go further when you don't know the nature of your sweetheart.So each of them is a warrior, and each of them is a coward. No one is perfect and invincible in love, and there must be compromise and tolerance.

I gave the greatest kindness to Xiao Yang and Wei Song, but they know each other well. Of course, except for the sad and thought-provoking episode at the end, it may be because I subconsciously feel that sadness is beautiful, so I came up with such an idea.Regarding Zhou Yuzhi's arrangement, including his possible slight blackening in the end, it is not to discredit this person, but it is more natural for him to do so.If it is really an unforgettable love, after the end, it will not only be blessings, but also guilt and hatred, it is just a matter of proportion. Xiao Yang hates first and then feels guilty, Zhou Yuzhi feels guilty first and then hates, all the same.

Regarding friendship, there may be various problems in the love between Liu Chengchen and Zhou Wanyang, but their enthusiasm for friends is what I have always pursued and yearned for. We all need friendship, and I have always believed that friendship can tolerate differences, so Liu Chengchen Just as such a friend, make a move that is willing to do your best to help you even if you disagree with it.

Regarding the family, both parties came out smoothly and fearlessly, and the parents even treated their son's partner as their own son.It may be that I was born in such a free, democratic and respectful family, so I consciously brought it into my own family, and took it for granted that coming out is not that difficult.Of course, coming out of the closet itself will inevitably have a certain impact on parents, but I still insist that love can tolerate different viewpoints.

In the end, regarding the relationship between Wei Song and Xiao Yang, a simple character named Wang Yi who may destroy the relationship between the two was simply inserted.So some people may think that this is no different from a romance novel, but I think it should be so. What I want to write is such a simple love story, and the appearance of love itself does not distinguish between romance or sensual beauty, and does not distinguish between genders and the opposite sex.

One of my favorite details is that the day after the move, Xiao Yang sat on Wei Song's lap, Wei Song rested his head on Xiao Yang's chest, and when Xiao Yang smiled, his chest vibrated along with Wei Song's head.Every time this detail comes to my mind, I feel warmth in my heart, relying on each other, acting like a baby, and loving each other. This is what I think love should be like.

Above, all kinds of things, what I want to say and express are all here, there are so many imperfections, structure, character design, character relationship, writing style, etc., but I still think this article is successful. First of all, it was I did not give up, and secondly, I tried my best to express what I wanted to express.

sufficient.

If you are lucky enough to come across this article, thank you.

classmate aliang

2017.02.26

[The above full text was first published in Jinjiang Literature City.Author Jinjiang id: classmate A Liang, Weibo @R Liang classmate. 】