you were a boy

Song Yu has recently become obsessed with playing Weibo. Although he often checks popular Weibo, it is to watch the news.However, recently, not only did he read entertainment news when he was free, but he also paid special attention to an account of entertainment gossip on Tianya.This account opened a post on Tianya, picking up Sun Yuanjun's previous gossip girlfriends and boyfriends, from his first partner on the screen to the latest popular character Lu Shaoling, the psychological analysis is really clear and clear, Song Yu thought It was hilarious, but at the same time, it seemed to make sense.

Then take these messy things to @Sun Yuanjun's trumpet.Why does he, who has never used a trumpet, open a trumpet?There was only one reason, and that was for Song Yu.This trumpet has a very, very childish name - Jihad Knight's Attack!This person is obviously still complaining about his secondary school, but what happened!Attack of the holy war knights!Fortunately, he can think of it!

Then Song Yu discovered the big thing, Sun Yuanjun is usually extremely cool, and his clothes are basically black, white and gray famous brands, and he is extremely tall.As a result, this trumpet completely exposed his attributes, and he simply let himself go.First of all, his background is pink, or that kind of girly pink!The attention is either some emotional experts, or some food bloggers, isn't this just like a young girl who is eager to fall in love?Is this enough to be worthy of my attack?But at this moment, Song Yu thought about the scene where he was on the bed, why did he have such a strong sense of disobedience?I feel like I've been stunned, well, even if I reluctantly admit that Sun Yuanjun is an attack, it's at most a girl attack!

Song Yu's work is not too busy today, and he is relatively free. During the lunch break, Song Yu sent a fan video made by Lu Shaoling and Sun Yuanjun's CP fans to Sun Yuanjun to watch.The video edited all the interactions between the two together, and the eyes of the two people looking at each other were specially edited into slow motion, and it was accompanied by a very lyrical music "Love Letter" by Liang Jingru. Song Yu also felt very happy after watching it. move. Five minutes later, he asked Sun Yuanjun how he felt.

"Hehe", Sun Yuanjun sneered, "How do you think I should feel?"

"Do you think you should stand on Lingjun or Junling? You definitely want to stand on Junling, but what should I do? I think you are more like Shou!"

Sun Yuanjun: "..."

Song Yu was still thinking about saying something to tease him, when Xiao Li at the desk next to him suddenly yelled at the computer: "What the hell is this! Song Yu, come and see!"

Song Yu heard the words and ran over, and an interface was displayed on Xiao Li's computer, which was a public email from their company's employees.This is a letter addressed to everyone. The letter said that Song Yu was a perverted homosexual. Not only was his private life extremely chaotic, but he also used his work to harass male clients, causing extremely bad influence.The person who sent the letter said that he had no choice but to make such a decision because he was greatly disturbed and seriously affected his own life.

Song Yu couldn't believe it, and looked back at his computer. The email was just sent. There were almost [-] people in their department, and everyone received the same email.Song Yu's mind exploded, how could there be such a shameless person, who did he offend?And who knows his sexual orientation.Song Yu thought that she was not usually a mother, but after thinking about it, she felt that Ling Shan was the only one.

It must be that Ding Zhi finally found out the truth later and was unwilling to marry Ling Shan. Ling Shan felt that his dream of being successful was shattered, and he vaguely guessed something, or did Ding Zhi tell him?It's really shameless!Song Yu was so angry that his teeth itched.

Throughout the afternoon, Song Yu felt like he was sitting on pins and needles. He could clearly feel the pointing and discussion of his colleagues around him.

It's fucking tiring to live. Song Yu never thought that he would be reported because his sexual orientation was different from normal people. What's more ironic is that he was reported by someone of his own kind.A person who doesn't even recognize his own identity is a real pervert.

When Song Yu was about to get off work in the afternoon, Manager Huang, Song Yu's superior, called him to the manager's office. At the beginning, he asked straightforwardly: "Is that email true?" Song Yu replied straightforwardly: "No."

The manager looked him in the eyes and nodded slightly. "That's who you must have offended?"

Song Yu replied, "Maybe."

Manager Huang continued: "Song Yu, you have been working for more than two years, and your performance has always been good, and the interpersonal relationship with your colleagues is also very good. As for your sexual orientation, it belongs to your personal privacy. You have no right to interfere. But this matter is so big, it should be difficult for you to gain a foothold here, and everyone will look at you more or less differently."

Is this going to sweep the floor to see off the guests?Song Yu said sadly: "Manager, I don't think I did anything wrong, and I shouldn't be treated like this."

There was no expression on Manager Huang's face, and he continued: "Song Yu, I think gold can shine everywhere. You have a high degree of education, and you are a talented person. It may be a shame to be a subordinate here. This month's salary I will settle it for you in advance."

Song Yu shouted: "Manager..."

Manager Huang made an expression that he was very busy and didn't want to see any customers.

Song Yu sighed and said, "Well, I know what to do."

Song Yu returned to his seat silently, wrote his resignation letter in a while, and handed it in.After a while, holding a cardboard box, he began to pack his things.Song Yu didn't do any serious work after graduating from university. This job came because he met Shen Jie, a psychiatrist. He said he had an acquaintance here and introduced him.When Song Yu first came here, she felt that the job of making frequent phone calls and communicating with customers was tiresome and tiring, so she didn't like it much.But as time went by, I made some friends and my relationship changed again.He has been sitting in this seat for nearly three years, and there is a pot of green radishes and prickly pears sent by Xiao Li on his desk.The green radish Song Yu waters a little every day, and it grows well.The prickly prickly pear blossomed only two days ago.Song Yu's personality is quite likable, and he has a good relationship with his colleagues around him.

Song Yu felt that he had just left like this, and always felt a little bleak.

Song Yu deliberately left a little earlier than the off-duty time, staggering the peak hours when there are many people, so as not to accept a little strange look.

Song Yu hugged the box and was about to close the elevator door when he suddenly heard "Song Yu wait!", and then a hand was stretched out of the elevator door that was about to close, and Song Yu hurriedly pressed the door open button.

Xiao Li walked in with a warm smile: "Song Yu, do you remember? I still owe you a meal."

Song Yu bumped him with a box, and he knew that Xiao Li had come to see him off on purpose.

Speaking of which, Xiao Li has been his next table for almost three years. When Song Yu first came, there were many things he didn't understand, and Xiao Li was the one who taught him more patiently.He is the kind of good old man who exists in every office. He usually does things quietly without any sense of presence. Everyone only thinks of him when there is something to do.

Xiao Li has a famous and powerful wife, who is usually very frugal, and the cigarettes are cheaper, but this time he brought Song Yu to a relatively high-end buffet. , is enough to show that Xiao Li is really a good person.

Song Yu has always been the master of turning grief and anger into food, this time he took a pile of steaks, lamb chops, and crabs, and a whole stack of empty plates piled up next to him in a short while.

Xiao Li was thinking of some words to comfort Song Yu, but was amused by his eating: "You said you can eat so much, why are you still so thin! I really envy you."

Song Yu took a sip of beer and asked, "Xiao Li, tell me the truth, do you also think I'm a pervert?"

"I don't think so, I think you're pretty good."

Song Yu paused for a moment, then asked tentatively with the help of alcohol, "What if I say I'm really gay?"

Xiao Li looked into Song Yu's eyes, suddenly smiled, and said, "Actually, I guessed it a long time ago."

Looking at Song Yu's ignorant expression, Xiao Li explained: "One time you went to play at my house, and my wife saw it."

Song Yu: "?"

Xiao Li: "My wife said that you have been staring at a male singer singing on TV, your eyes are straight, and the female singer next to you is wearing a see-through costume, you didn't even turn your eyes away. Then I told her that you didn't About the girlfriend. She just said that such a handsome man doesn't have a girlfriend yet, and nine out of ten have a boyfriend."

Song Yu: "Is your wife the reincarnation of Agatha Christie?"

Xiao Li: "I also think my wife's IQ is quite high! She often says that the most stupid thing in her life is to marry me!"

Song Yu shook his head resolutely: "Actually, you are the one who is suitable for marriage!"

Xiao Li drank too much wine, and his conversation became more frequent: "Song Yu, don't think I'm usually stupid, but I'm not really stupid. There are not many good things in the whole office! That person surnamed Huang has a wife of his own. He's still hanging out with that Li Hong who just graduated, so don't you think Li Hong will get a salary increase this year? And that old Qin, who always goes to the top to make small reports on others, thinking who doesn't know..."

Song Yu thought, in the end of many girls who have lost their way in this world, most of them persuaded her to find an honest man. Who did the honest man offend?Is it true that honest people can be bullied casually?Fortunately, although Xiao Li is an honest man who is unhappy at work and has a wife who loves him, at least he can enjoy the warmth of his family.

Xiao Li continued: "I don't think it's that simple for you to lose your job!"

Song Yu: "?"

"Think about it, only our internal employees know the public mail, even if the outside customer knows it, how can he know the password?"

Song Yu's mind was still turning, Xiao Li continued: "I happened to go into the office of that surname Huang today after you went out to find something for him, and I heard him on the phone."

"He said, everything has been done as you said, don't worry."

Song Yu "..."

That night, Song Yu tossed and turned in bed thinking for a long time, but couldn't fall asleep.

He vaguely felt that he was not wrong, but he didn't know why he became like this.

After thinking about it, I feel that the happiest time is still spent in school.Especially in junior high school, the students at that time were so innocent. They bought you a bottle of water and fought for you, and a deep revolutionary friendship was established.Song Yu thought of those days when he followed Sun Yuanjun as a small follower, and went to his class with a box of small biscuits to find him every day, and those days when he formed a band with Li Si and the three of them practiced singing like chicken blood. Like a dream yesterday, every expression and every sentence is still vivid in my memory, but ten years have passed before I know it.

It's terrible, Song Yu thought, if people can never grow up all their lives, it would be great, like Peter Pan.

Song Yu suddenly remembered that when he graduated from senior year, the reason why many students went to the postgraduate entrance examination did not seem to be for a high-sounding reason such as better realizing their life ideals, but simply because they did not want to work.

In fact, Song Yu also had a good time at that time, but he felt that he had been busy with love for four years in college, and many of his grades were mediocre.If you want to take the exam, you may not pass the exam.

When it was almost ten o'clock, Sun Yuanjun made a phone call.Song Yu told him that he wanted to resign.

Sun Yuanjun was a little surprised. Before he was asked to resign without hesitation, but this time he offered it himself.

Sun Yuanjun: "Then you will be a housewife after resigning?"

Song Yu said: "Fuck you! I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination and go back to school to continue my studies."

Sun Yuanjun said: "Okay, I will support you."

"I don't need you to support me. I calculated that I still have about 3 yuan in savings. Three years of postgraduate studies are enough."

"Oh, so Yuyu has so much money."

Song Yu seemed to be laughing at Sun Yuanjun's expression across the phone line, and was so angry that he didn't want to speak.

Sun Yuanjun then asked, "Where do you want to go to university?"

"I want to take a major in T."

"Big T"

"I want to go back to T City, I miss my Langzi, and want to be with him."

Song Yu went to bid farewell to Shen Jie the next day.He also told him his future plans, and Shen Jie also provided him with some experience in postgraduate entrance examinations. Although medical students and liberal arts students are very different, many things are still the same.For example, in English and politics, Shen Jie told him that he must attend the remedial classes of public courses, and told him to study the real questions of this school over the years.Sometimes if you can't find it online, you can go to the school forum to find it, and if you can't find it, you can buy it online.

Shen Jie took the postgraduate entrance examination almost ten years ago, times are changing, and many experiences may not be useful, but this spiritual support is enough to make Song Yu feel quite warm.

Even if he knows his sexual orientation, there are still people who treat him very well, such as Shen Jie, Xiao Li, and his good friend Yuan Fei from many years ago. They are the little light shining out of this dark world.

After packing up the luggage, throw away what should be thrown away, and give away what should be given away. The last things are only some clothes and some books. Song Yu finds a courier to come to collect them. The delivery address says Sun Yuanjun's house in T City address.When I left, I didn't have much luggage, only a backpack.

When boarding the plane, Song Yu told himself, I am not yet 30 years old, everything is okay, I can start all over again.

What doesn't defeat you, only makes you stronger.