you were a boy

The day after sending Sun Yuanjun away was Sunday, Song Yu invited Ding Zhi out, and the little girl told him with a bright face that the date of the wedding banquet had also been fixed, and a hundred tables would be set up at the most prosperous Sheraton Hotel in Shenzhen. For the banquet, Song Yu was asked to be the best man, and then he said that Song Yu could not be the best man, because the best man could not be more handsome than the groom.

Song Yu couldn't get in the conversation, and was about to speak when the little girl stretched out the red nails she had just made in front of him, and asked him if he looked good?He answered nicely.Ding Zhi went on to say that she was trying to lose weight recently, because the custom-made wedding dress was too fat, and then asked Song Yu if she lost weight?Song Yu replied that she lost weight.

Then Ding Zhi laughed, and then remembered that Song Yu had something to say when he asked him out for dinner.Just ask what he wants to say?

Song Yu swallowed, as if he really couldn't speak.What I wanted to pour out at first, but with such a smiling face, I couldn't say it at all.

At this time, Sun Yuanjun's words sounded in his ear again: "Sometimes, knowing all the truth may not be happier than living a life of lies."

He suddenly thought: If he hadn't confessed to his mother so bluntly that her only son was gay, maybe she would have lived longer.To some extent, he also forced his mother to death.

"Ding Zhi, you look very happy."

"Yes."

"Do you think your boyfriend loves you?"

"He loves me very much. What's the matter?"

"Does he love you in any way?"

Ding Zhi felt that it was strange for Song Yu to ask this question, but she still replied: "Call whenever I have time, date, gift, and marriage proposal." When it came to the word "marriage proposal", Ding Zhi Chi's eyes gleamed.

Song Yu really wanted to remind her that she should check her boyfriend's cell phone or computer.If he is gay, he will more or less leave behind some unknown secrets, for example, his browsing history will always betray his sexual orientation accidentally.

"Has your boyfriend made any weird moves?"

"Song Yu, you are very strange today!" Ding Zhi looked embarrassed.

"Excuse me, can I ask you something private?"

"Ok?"

"Are you still a virgin?" Song Yu asked with a serious face.

Ding Zhi didn't expect Song Yu to ask this question at all, her cheeks turned red, and after a while, she seemed to be desperate, and said: "Actually, when I went on a trip last time, I really wanted to live with him, but he said he was People who are more traditional can only do this kind of thing after they get married."

"Hehe", Song Yu sneered twice.What age is this? Only a gay cheating on a marriage would find such a high-sounding reason to refuse his fiancée's sexual request, right?

"Song Yu, what exactly do you want to say?"

"I think your boyfriend may be gay." Song Yu looked her in the eyes and said word by word.

"Gay? Aren't homosexuals all sissies? He's not a sissy at all. Did he offend you? Why do you say that?"

"There is no definite evidence, I rely on intuition."

"You just rely on your intuition to falsely accuse him of being gay"

Song Yu put down the coffee cup in his hand, and looked through the floor-to-ceiling windows at the ever-flowing crowd outside the east gate. "There are many gays in this city. They hide in any corner of the city. They don't have the three words "gay" engraved on their faces. Because there are many people like you, after knowing their true identities, they will Look at them with strange eyes, so many of them will wear masks all their lives, pretending to like women, and even get married."

Ding Zhi listened to his words, the smile on her face disappeared bit by bit, suddenly she seemed to understand something, and asked: "How do you know so clearly? Could it be that you—"

Song Yu smiled: "Yes, I am."

In Ding Zhi's face full of horror and astonishment, Song Yu continued: "I don't know if what I did is right or wrong, I always feel that I should do this, and I can choose not to say it, Miss Ding. But I I think you are so pure and kind that you shouldn't be deceived."

Ding Zhi sighed, calmed down a bit, and said in a more tactful tone: "Don't worry, no matter what happens between me and him, I won't blame you."

"I really hope I'm mistaken, and I hope you blame me, really."

Sun Yuanjun's filming location this time is in a cave in Shaanxi. I don't know if the mobile phone has no signal at all, or he is really too busy filming.During the daytime, Song Yu would hardly be contacted, but every night after returning to the hotel, no matter how late, he would always make a phone call.Sometimes Song Yu encounters interesting things during the day, and actually wants to share them with him. After all, Sun Yuanjun, who has always been very cold, can buy it and smile very happily every time he hears what Song Yu says.Even if he was thousands of miles away, Song Yu would miss his curved mouth very much.

Song Yu inexplicably felt a little scary, he was falling in love with the same person for the second time.I used to believe in love, but the final ending was a very sad parting.He is really a person who is too nostalgic, because he is afraid of the final unacceptable parting, he would rather choose to never start.

It would be great if feelings had an on/off switch like a water faucet.

However, even in the southern country, winter is coming.Let me covet the temperature of your body a little more.Song Yu thought.

During working hours, Song Yu opened the mailbox on the computer, looked at the emails sent by customers, and saw an unread email from Shen Jie.

"Song Yu, you haven't come for a follow-up visit for a long time. For your health, it's best to have a follow-up visit at least once every six months. I don't have an appointment for this Thursday afternoon."

Shen Jie is Song Yu's psychiatrist. In his early thirties, he was able to enter a large hospital as a chief physician for psychological counseling, which is already very good.He is also one of Song Yu's best friends in Shenzhen.

Even when he came to work in Shenzhen, it was Shen Jie who suggested him to come, saying that a change of environment would help his recovery.In fact, Song Yu found out later that he just hoped to have a few familiar friends here.Song Yu always felt that Shen Jie was very courageous. After all, it was not a very wise choice to be friends with his patients.But Shen Jie said that he is a person who separates work and life very clearly, otherwise he would have been depressed if he faced the psychological dark side of so many mentally ill patients every day.

On Thursday afternoon, Song Yu asked for leave and arrived as scheduled.

As soon as Shen Jie met, he exchanged pleasantries: "You look good and your skin is also good. Have you fallen in love recently?"

"Maybe it's because I've eaten more recently. After all, it's winter and I need to store up some fat."

"You still want to hide something from me, don't you forget what I do?" Shen Jie gave him another look with deep meaning.

Song Yu thought in his heart: To be a psychiatrist is such a gossip, and if you are not allowed to be an entertainment reporter, your talent will be buried.

"Have you slept well recently?"

"It's pretty good, I occasionally suffer from insomnia, about one or two days a month."

"Will you have nightmares?"

"a bit less."

"Can you still hear his voice?"

"No, not recently."

"Will you see him then?"

"nor."

"That's great, as long as you maintain a healthy diet and sleep, you don't need to take medicine at all now."

"Is there a high chance of my disease recurring?"

"As long as you don't encounter a huge change in your life, which will have a huge impact on your nerves, it's not a big problem."

Song Yu thought about it, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "As a friend, can I ask you a question?"

"of course can."

"My man came back and came back to my life again. I was very happy and miserable. I was so afraid of losing him again that I didn't dare to love him anymore. I don't like myself now. "

"So, you don't know what to do, do you?"

"Correct."

"I'm not an expert on relationships, but I can share a personal experience about myself."

"Emotional?" Song Yu asked.

"No." Shen Jie rolled his eyes and continued: "But you can also listen to it. Three years ago, an opportunity to change jobs was presented to me, and I have been struggling with it for a long time. My father saw me in such pain. , so he persuaded me to change jobs. I asked him what to do if I failed. My efforts over the years would be wasted. The pain of failure and nothing after trying, I still regret that I have done nothing all my life, and doing nothing is even more painful.”

Song Yu asked: "Then you came to Shenzhen, didn't you? Have you ever regretted it?"

Shen Jie shook his head: "Although I occasionally complain that this level of intensity is simply not for human beings, but in a big city, my vision and contacts are different. Recently, I am preparing for my personal psychological clinic."

Song Yu grabbed his arm excitedly: "You are amazing! I am so happy for you!"

"Thank you, gossip, your boyfriend must be very good, right?"

"Yeah, tall, handsome, and very talented."

"Oh, no wonder so many leftover women in Shenzhen have psychological problems because they can't get married. Come to me for consultation. Because you guys with such good conditions have all digested it internally!"

"Haha, this is the only way to give a straight man like you a chance, isn't it?"

When he finally left, Song Yu only took a small amount of sleeping medicine.On the way, he kept recalling Shen Jie's words, and Song Yu thought maybe he should be braver.

Maybe life should not only be based on the result, but the process is still more important. After all, in the long run, no matter who ends up, they will just be buried in the loess.

Thinking of this, Song Yu sent a message to Sun Yuanjun, "I miss you very much."

When he got home, he received a reply: "Where do you think?"

Song Yu smiled, and could speak yellow accents just like that, and replied, "I want to be anywhere."

"Come over to visit the class if you fly on weekends."

Song Yu quickly went to the website to check the flight ticket on the mobile phone. There was no economy class, but the business class was so expensive.

As a result, 15 minutes later, a screenshot of the purchased first-class ticket was sent over there.

Song Yu was a little happy and a little depressed, and began to slander that if he continued to work like this, his wages would not be enough to buy a plane ticket, so what work did he have to do, why not just be Sun Yuanjun's personal assistant.But this doesn't work, once the freshness wears off, it will definitely be annoying no matter how you look at it.He is busy again, so he has become a little daughter-in-law who guards her husband all day long, looking forward to his return home?Thinking of the words "little daughter-in-law", Song Yu smiled again unconsciously.

Song Yu is such a person, once he has figured it out, he will no longer be coy.When I got home, I cooked some instant noodles by myself. Because I was in a good mood, I also fried two eggs and a piece of ham, but it still tasted very ordinary, tasteless.Sure enough, Sun Yuanjun made a fool of him a few days ago.Humans are such strange creatures. Even though they had eaten instant noodles for several years before, or they just took them out, they felt that they were fine and no problem.Sure enough, people's living standards can only go up.

Not only the sense of taste, but also his own body. People who have not had sex for so many years after breaking up have come here with their left and right hands.But now, as long as I think of Sun Yuanjun's sweaty smell of male hormones, his well-trained six-pack abs, and his deep voice when he does that, I feel inexplicably hot and hot, and there is something shameful there. reacted.

Song Yu finished his meal and took a shower. He looked at his watch and it was past nine o'clock, but the phone still didn't ring.Song Yu was a little disappointed, and then, out of a mischievous mentality, he took off his shirt and wore only a pair of white underwear, took out his mobile phone, lay on the bed and posed for a long time, scratching his head and making poses to try his best to provoke, and then sent a picture Photos go by.

Then thinking of Sun Yuanjun's reaction when he saw the photo, he burst out laughing, unable to help himself.It's the kind of joy of rolling around on the bed twice.