you were a boy

thirteen

Yuan Fei's wedding was during the National Day. Song Yu didn't need to ask for leave at first, but it was too difficult to buy air tickets and high-speed rail tickets during the National Day. It just so happened that there were still a few days of annual leave left, so Song Yu simply took a long vacation for herself. A few days before the National Day, I returned to T City ahead of schedule.

T City has changed a lot in the past few years. Many old houses and old streets in memory cannot change the fate of accepting demolition like other cities in China, but No. [-] Middle School is still there.Song Yu somehow came to the gate of the No. [-] Middle School by accident, looked at the familiar school gate, hesitated for a long time, and finally did not go in.

Song Yu didn't go home, or he said that in his memory, T City no longer had a home.

Here is a past that Song Yu doesn't want to recall. The failure of his parents' relationship made him no longer believe in feelings.

With simple luggage, Song Yu found a small hotel to stay and dialed Chen Yan's number.

These years, he still kept in touch with Chen Yan. Chen Yan's grades were not as good as his, and he was not admitted to a key university.I was admitted to a secondary school, and later my family found some connections and worked as a skilled worker in a state-owned enterprise.Later, the state-owned enterprises did not perform well, so the family simply paid some money to open a small restaurant, and the business was very good.

Song Yu had long felt that Chen Yan was suitable for business, otherwise wouldn't such a good relationship and high EQ be wasted?

The meeting place was the small restaurant of Chen Yan's family. Chen Yan was fatter than before, but he was still energetic. When he came out, he was accompanied by a girl with clean eyebrows. Song Yu thought she might be the proprietress.

When I was studying, I always thought that I was very different from those adults, but within a few years after graduating from university, everyone was busy getting married and having children. After all, I was only 25 or [-] years old. My life was spent on buying a house, raising children, and busying with making ends meet. How is it different from the previous generation?Most people in this world are busy with the same things.

But Song Yu saw that Chen Yan was so busy that his face was sweating when he was serving the dishes. The proprietress carefully stood on tiptoe and wiped his sweat with a towel. At that moment, Song Yu was sure that Chen Yan was happy.

"When will you get married? The girl is very nice." Song Yu said during the meal.

"Ah, next year."

"Why next year?"

"The house price is too high now, and I haven't saved enough money for the down payment, so I dare not propose marriage." Chen Yan said truthfully.

"How far is it?"

"About one hundred thousand."

"Brother, I don't have much money, but I still have tens of thousands of dollars."

"Don't, don't, it's not easy for you to earn some money in a foreign land, don't you consider buying a house by yourself?"

"The housing prices in Shenzhen are so high that you don't even think about it." Song Yu laughed at himself.

At this time, the sound of entertainment news came from the TV inappropriately, and it reported the gossip news about Sun Yuanjun and a certain new Xiaohua.

Chen Yan quickly turned off the TV in a sensible manner.

Song Yu suddenly felt that the food was a bit salty, so he took a sip of water.

Chen Yan asked: "Have you not found a girlfriend in these years?"

Song Yu shook his head.

"Where's your boyfriend?"

Song Yu glanced at Chen Yan. There was no gossip on Chen Yan's face, but he was really concerned.

Song Yu really doesn't know how to answer Chen Yan's question. Over the years, there are many men and women who have shown him more than normal friendship and concern. He has also really dated a few men seriously. After all, life still has to go on. of.Forget about women, although he still likes children, but he really can't do such a nasty thing as a fraudulent marriage.

But communication always has to go to the last step, and the desire/desire for communication between men and men is more direct and naked.Song Yu can eat and play with them, but he just can't reach the level of intimacy.The thought of tongue kissing them, or going to bed and being crushed under another body, made him nauseous—a feeling of purely physical discomfort.

He couldn't explain his overreaction, he was obviously not a clean freak.Not to mention that all of his relationships ended in breakups, and he even went to see a psychiatrist about it.

But it couldn't be cured, and Song Yu gradually stopped thinking about finding another partner.When a person is alone for a long time, the more he gets used to being alone, he gradually deceives himself and thinks it's fine.

It's just that in the dead of night when it's hard to sleep, I wonder if Sun Yuanjun has bewitched me like this.

He has been poisoned by a sex/love partner who can't do without Sun Yuanjun, even if he feels that he doesn't love him anymore.

Yuan Fei has become more and more beautiful in the past few years since she saw her. When she saw Song Yu, she came over and gave him a generous and natural hug.When she let go, she leaned close to his ear and said mysteriously: "Yu Yu, I'll give you a big gift later." Song Yu was about to ask what the big gift was, but Yuan Fei was already busy recruiting other guests.

Yuan Fei married a very rich man in her thirties, probably the rich second generation of a well-known company, and she was quite tall and handsome. The wedding was also held in the most luxurious hotel in T City, and even the TV station Many reporters came to report.Except for old classmates like Song Yu, the visitors are probably either rich or noble. Most rich people put a label of "I am rich" on their faces, and they have a kind of "I am very noble" when they talk to ordinary people. Aura comes.Song Yu also needs to contact many rich people in his work, so he still has the ability to judge people's faces.

Song Yu looked at Yuan Fei who was at ease when entertaining guests, and felt more and more that she was looking forward to her beauty, and suddenly remembered that when she was a little girl, she once swore that anyone who wanted to marry in the future should meet two conditions.Song Yu asked her which two?She answered that either she was someone who loved her very, very much, and spoiled her to the point of lawlessness; or she was with him, no matter how life was in every aspect, she could really rise to a higher level.Now it seems that the young Yuan Fei has already lived a transparent life and knows what she wants. Most people in this world don't understand that even if she is a real beauty, it is impossible to occupy all the good things in this world. Both material and spiritual can be occupied.

Most of the people Song Yu knew were classmates in middle school. Yuan Fei was originally a year older than him, so he didn't have many mutual acquaintances.The only one who was a little more familiar was Li Si. However, after exchanging a few pleasantries, they didn't dare to say more because they were afraid of each other, probably because they were afraid of embarrassment, so they simply ate some buffet and drank some red wine in the corner by themselves.

But when that person appeared on stage, he had a superstar aura. No matter what he was doing at the time, everyone in the hall was involuntarily attracted by his aura and looked at him.Before Song Yu could react, there were already little girls screaming "Sun Yuanjun, Sun Yuanjun" and gathered around asking for autographs regardless of reserve.

Song Yu saw that there was a woman next to him to help him block these approaching people. She moved quickly, but she was polite, she looked like a bodyguard or a manager.Song Yu took a few glances from a distance, but only caught a glimpse of the side profile and a figure from the back, but felt that he looked a little lonely for no reason.Song Yu thought, as for?He has finally lived the life he dreamed of. The life of a big star is crowded with people everywhere. When he gets off the plane, there are thousands of fans running towards him like zombies. Yes, He Lai said alone, Song Yu felt that he still thought too much.

The man seemed to glance this way, Song Yu unconsciously took a few steps back, turned a corner, and went to the bathroom.

In front of the washbasin of a luxury star hotel, Song Yu washed his face and suddenly felt a little more sober. When he looked up, there was another face in the mirror. He was still so handsome that it was unreal, not like a person in reality. .Song Yu still felt that he was hallucinating, but when he saw the man in the mirror looking at him with complicated eyes, he instantly realized that his body was like a lightning strike, and he just wanted to run away like a turtle.

When he met him, he would not calm down, and his mind would not think at all. When his mind was no longer blank, Song Yu realized that he had gotten into his car inexplicably.Why did you come here to attend Yuan Fei's wedding, but ran away like this?

At this time, the mobile phone rang, and the woman actually called in between socializing with the guests: "Do you like this gift from me?" Song Yu coughed, "Where is this and where is it?"

Yuan Fei joked: "I'll create opportunities for you and the popular little fresh meat in the entertainment industry."

It was Yuan Fei's style to be so straightforward, but Song Yu didn't know how to proceed.

Yuan Fei suddenly said seriously: "Song Yu is very grateful to you for coming to my wedding. I have always felt that you and Sun Yuan are not together anymore, and I don't believe in love anymore. You have broken up. Who else in this world is with whom? Won't we break up?"

Yuan Fei's words made Song Yu cry.

The car was driven by the woman who was with him before, and she looked at herself through the mirror on the car from time to time.

"Where is this going?" Song Yu asked.

"Let's go have a meal, or go for a walk, it's fine." Sun Yuanjun spoke slowly, asking in a tone almost discussing.

At this time, Su Ke, who was driving in front, interjected: "There is a good Cantonese restaurant nearby. The dishes are light and not spicy, and the most important thing is that the security conditions are very good."

Anyone could tell that her focus was on the last sentence, and Song Yu answered, "Then go there."

Still as considerate as ever, Sun Yuanjun thought.

The environment is indeed very good, and such a high-end price makes ordinary people discouraged, but Song Yu is rarely able to taste it.It's not that he can't eat Sun Yuanjun in front of him, but that this dish really doesn't suit his taste.The white-cut chicken was still bloodshot, so Song Yu naturally refused to eat it.The roast goose is cucumber-flavored. I don’t know how the eggplant is made, but I can’t taste the eggplant flavor anyway.A king crab came up, which looked good. It was yellow and tasted like curry.The whole table turned around, and Song Yu ate the most vegetables.

Sun Yuanjun could tell that he wasn't full. Song Yu didn't like to eat vegetables the last time. If he hadn't been nagging him all the time, he wouldn't have eaten a single one.

After eating halfway, the winking Su Ke left first, and before leaving, he told Sun Yuanjun the announcement time for tomorrow, which was two o'clock in the afternoon.

Song Yu wanted to go back to the hotel by himself, but Sun Yuanjun wanted to see him off.After driving for 10 minutes, Song Yu belatedly realized that it was not the way to the hotel at all. Song Yu secretly scolded himself why his IQ dropped when he met this person.

Song Yu angrily told him to stop, Sun Yuanjun tilted his head to look at him for a while, and then slowly stopped the car.

But he didn't open the door, Song Yu was so angry that he wanted to smash the door, but he heard Sun Yuanjun's faint voice: "Song Yu, can you go back to my house?"

Song Yu shook his head, and replied simply: "Not good."

"Then you can stay with me for a while longer and do nothing, I promise." Song Yu glanced at Sun Yuanjun, and Sun Yuanjun's eyes drooped. In his memory, he had never spoken in such a humble manner.

In the past, Song Yu had always been chasing him. He was too used to the high-ranking Sun Yuanjun. This person was spoiled since he was a child. Everyone has a certain self-confidence and indifference that cannot be questioned, so Song Yu feels that he is not like him in front of him, even a little pitiful.

"Sun Yuanjun, we have already broken up." Song Yu said indifferently.

Yes, we have long since broken up, seven years ago.Song Yu reminded herself like this.

But there is not a day when you don't think about him, and another voice in your heart says so.

Sun Yuanjun lit a cigarette and took two puffs, as if to cover up the embarrassment of the small space in the car.Hearing Song Yu's cough, he rolled down the car window, and then extinguished the cigarette.

"I'm sorry, I have learned to smoke and drink in the past few years. I can't help it. I need to socialize."

"You don't need to explain to me, it has nothing to do with me." Song Yu pretended to be indifferent.

But when Sun Yuanjun approached his face unexpectedly, Song Yu closed his eyes almost subconsciously, and he seemed to have changed back to that fourteen or fifteen-year-old boy back then, who forgot to breathe when he kissed.

Sun Yuanjun helped him fasten his seat belt, turned sideways and continued to drive.

But there was a trace of smile that couldn't be concealed in his eyes, and he asked, "I just fasten your seat belt for you, why are you closing your eyes?"

Song Yu was too embarrassed to speak, although Sun Yuanjun's body smelled of smoke, but he could smell the familiar sweaty body odor of Sun Yuanjun's body, one of the most familiar smells in his life, since it stimulated all his senses when emotional /Looking for hormones, and joy/After love, it is a magical existence that can make him sleep peacefully until dawn than sleeping pills.

Could he say that he was just stimulated by hormones?

Half an hour later, Sun Yuanjun parked his car in an underground garage in a high-end community in T City, and he asked in almost the most charming voice of his life: "Song Yu, are you really unwilling to visit my house? ?”

"Don't go."

"Go up and have a cup of tea, trust me, you won't regret it." Sun Yuanjun almost brought out his lines in the movie. He believes that even if his eyes don't need to be acted out, they are still full of affection.

However, it seemed that Song Yu was not moved by it.

"Go up", Sun Yuanjun's voice sounded almost pleading, "Langzi misses you very much, I—" When he finished saying "Langzi", he found Song Yu's eyebrows twitched suddenly, He knew he didn't have to finish talking.

However, he finished the words silently in his heart, "Langzi misses you very much, and I miss you even more."