You must be reborn

Putting those crumpled papers on the table again, Shi Zilin felt that the scene in the painting was very familiar: a girl with a ponytail and a boy in sportswear, their backs were facing each other, and they were strangers. In the painting that appeared after that, the girl disappeared, only the boy, leaning on the desk in a daze, running on the track, dunking on the basketball court...

Shi Zilin told himself that this might just be related to Fu Sheng's job content, but he couldn't admit it in his heart. When he first saw the painting, he vaguely felt that the boy in the painting was him, and the more this feeling became, the more he felt. It's getting stronger and stronger, and the girl in the painting...

The painting was a little rough, with a few hasty strokes. At that time, Fu Sheng seemed very anxious, as if he was afraid of something.Shi Zilin stroked the marks left by the pencil on the paper with his fingers, and stopped at the lower right corner of the last picture, where there seemed to be words.

There is a "Jiang" and a "Lin", and the word "Lin" is obviously half of the unfinished characters.

The handwriting is very shallow, and a few messy lines added later covered it and blended it with the painting, but even so, it was enough for Shi Zilin to see clearly.

Jiang Chuning? ! ! !

The name that had been buried in his mind for a long time suddenly popped up again, causing a dull pain in his left chest, and Shi Zilin's thoughts were like a mess.Picking up the pen, it was like solving a problem, and wrote down the doubts in his heart one by one on the paper. He didn't know that this might be the most difficult problem he encountered in his life.

Fu Sheng liked Chu Ning.

They met after Chu Ning passed away.

Although he never admitted it, he did have special feelings for Jiang Chuning.From the very beginning, he hated Fu Sheng, and subconsciously regarded him as a rival in love, but inadvertently, he was attracted by the feeling he brought to him—that very strange sense of familiarity.

Chu Ning is gone, and he and Fu Sheng are in love, but he drew a picture of himself in high school and left Jiang Chuning's name behind. Why did he do this?And what about his high school days, why did he know that it was Chu Ning who told him?

And that handwriting, he read it for more than a year in high school, it was Jiang Chuning's handwriting!He will never admit his mistake! ! !

And the boy who died in the hospital, why never heard Fu Sheng mention it, and why did Fu Sheng happen to be in the hospital where Fu Sheng fainted? He kept apologizing at the door?What happened between them?

There were more and more doubts in his heart, and thoughts flashed through his mind one by one. When a guess that was almost impossible to happen flashed by, Shi Zilin was taken aback by himself.

"How is it possible, am I crazy!"

Shi Zilin pressed his forehead irritably, forcing himself to calm down.

City S on the way to the airport.

Zhou Chu was whistling triumphantly in his sports car and winking at his lover from time to time, when Fu Bo glared at him, "Drive your car well, I want to have a good New Year!"

"Little Bobo, don't be so fierce, my heart is thumping with fright, listen to me." Zhou Chu came to hold Fu Bo's hand as he spoke.

"It's disgusting, go away, if you don't want it to jump, I can help you right now!"

"Oh, don't..."

Before he finished speaking, Zhou Chu's cell phone rang happily. After a second of embarrassment, he planned to yell at the other party, but saw that it was Shi Zilin's call. Although he still didn't want to see him, he was Fu Bo after all. Brother's boyfriend, if he hadn't been with Fu Sheng, he wouldn't have been able to abduct this little fellow Fu Bo.Thinking of this, Zhou Chu happily picked up the phone, and was about to show off his affection, when Shi Zilin's dull and hoarse voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Is Fu Bo here?"

"I'm Zhou Chu, what are you looking for?" Zhou Chu raised his chin arrogantly.

"Give him the phone."

"Did you ask me for something? You have to have a begging attitude when you ask for help. I said, alas..."

Fu Bo snatched the phone and gave him a supercilious look.

"Hi, I'm Fu Bo."

"Your brother, ahem, where is the orphanage you lived in when you were young?"

"Why are you asking this?"

"..."

Shi Zilin's sudden silence made Fu Bo a little worried, "Did something happen to my brother? He fainted again?"

"No, he resigned... We want to go back to the orphanage, but Fu Sheng doesn't remember the address clearly." Shi Zilin didn't tell the truth, he didn't want outsiders to intervene in the matter between him and Fu Sheng.

"Oh." Fu Bo hesitated for a moment, but still reported an address.

Not long after hanging up the phone, Fu Bo's cell phone rang, and it was an unfamiliar number.

"Hey?"

"Fu Bo, I am my brother."

"Brother!" Fu Bo patted Zhou Chu's thigh excitedly, "I also said, why is that guy calling, I didn't expect you to call again so soon. When are you going to go?"

that guy?I mean Shi Zilin, but what does "when will I go" mean?

"where to?"

"The orphanage when we were young, don't you want to go back and have a look?"

"...Oh...oh, yes, we'll be going right away." Jiang Chuning was a little thankful that she left earlier and got on the train, luckily she didn't meet him.

"Are you with Zhou Chu?"

"Yes, yes, we were going to the airport. Zhou Chu came out to his family and was kicked out. We are going to go abroad for the New Year."

"Then you have fun, I want to pack my luggage with Shi Zilin, so I hang up first."

"Ok bro, goodbye, mua~"

Jiang Chuning hung up the phone and looked out the window blankly.

I almost forgot that Fu Bo had Zhou Chu, where else could I go now?This year, I'm afraid I have to live alone.

I don't know how my parents and brother are doing now...

Here, Shi Zilin rushed to the orphanage in a hurry, and found that Fu Sheng hadn't come back.

Although the dean didn't know who the young man in front of him who was inquiring about Fu Sheng was, but when he saw Fu Sheng's absence and his eyes darkened instantly, he felt that he might not be the bad guy in the TV series who was chasing debts.

Remembering what he insisted just now that Fu Sheng hadn't come back for a long time, the dean hesitated and asked, "Are you Xiao Sheng's friend?"

"I'm his, boyfriend."

The dean froze in surprise when he heard it, "Male...boyfriend?"

Shi Zilin guessed her reaction, and was not too surprised, just bowed slightly: "Excuse me, since Fu Sheng is not here, then I will leave first."

When Shi Zilin turned around and raised his legs, he almost fell down, but when he looked down, a child was looking up at him with big round eyes.If he walks faster, he will be kicked.

"Hey, kid, get out of the way." No one was found, which made Shi Zilin feel bad, and he didn't have the patience to talk to the kid properly.

The child didn't move, just looked at him like this.Shi Zilin glanced at him again, and noticed that the woolen hat he was wearing on his head seemed a bit too big for that small head. It was not a child's at first glance, but looked like the one that Fu Sheng had worn several times.

"Is this yours?" Shi Zilin knelt down and pointed to the child's hat.

The child shook his head.

It seemed that he must have been back.

Shi Zilin was a little annoyed, but he couldn't blame anyone, so he nodded to the embarrassed dean and left the orphanage.

"Where else can I go?" Shi Zilin sat in the car and looked at the front without focus. He reached out for a cigarette unconsciously. Throw it out.

Taking out the few pieces of paper in his pocket, he had read them dozens of times. Shi Zilin felt that he might really be about to collapse, because as soon as that thought came up, it started to take root, which was obviously the most unlikely thing to happen. , why do I think so, moreover, I seem to hope that it is true...

A call from home interrupted Shi Zilin's thoughts in time and pulled him out of the pain.

"mom."

"Why don't you come back? It's the Chinese New Year, so you don't have to work overtime?"

"Mom, I have something to do here, can you..."

"No!" Mother Shi hung up the phone angrily, and after a few seconds, she called again.

"No matter what happened to you, you must come back to me, just today!"

Seeing Shi's mother's angry look, Father Shi slowly filled the tea, took it up and sighed, and comforted him: "Oh, don't be angry, their affairs will always be resolved, I don't believe he can still be happy during the Chinese New Year." came back."

"I'm not... Sigh." Shi's mother's eyes were red, "Why did you say such a mess? How can the two men be together? Xiaofu is sensible, but he let him People feel distressed, our family does not live up to expectations, but it will make people angry, I really..."

"You said, isn't it good for us to do this?"

Father Shi put down the teacup brought to his mouth, and frowned: "It's already like this, what can I say?"

After more than twenty New Year's Eves, this was the bleakest one for Jiang Chuning.

Sitting on the bed in the hotel, Jiang Chuning held a steaming bowl of instant noodles, turned on the TV to the loudest, sucked on the noodles amidst the background sound of the Spring Festival Gala, and occasionally stopped to wipe the corners of her mouth and wet eyes with a paper towel .

Outside the window was the sound of fireworks exploding in the air, and the loud bangs hit his heart, making Jiang Chuning lose his appetite in shock.

"Forget it, let's go for a walk."

There were very few people on the street, and every house was lit with bright red lanterns, and the lights of thousands of houses, to Jiang Chuning at this moment, she couldn't feel any warmth.

Wandering aimlessly in the street, Jiang Chuning sniffed and stopped in front of several houses, watching several adults and children arrange huge fireworks one by one, and then each took a lighted cigarette to the wick, Hearing the "hissing" sound, Jiang Chuning also became nervous.

"Bam—"

Explosions continued to sound, leaving beautiful patterns in the air, although they were fleeting.

The children yelled happily, and the surrounding noise was almost inaudible.Jiang Chuning simply covered her ears and yelled loudly.

"what--"

"Shi—Zi—Lin—"

"happy New Year!"

"I miss you so much." Jiang Chuning said this sentence silently in her heart, only she could hear it.

Compared to Jiang Chuning's loneliness, Shi Zilin's side is very lively. The whole family gathered around to eat New Year's Eve dinner, joking, bragging, and grabbing red envelopes. After distributing the red envelopes to several children, he left the dining table and returned to his bedroom.

"Where are you?"

"It's Chinese New Year, don't you even want to give New Year's blessings?"

"Fu Sheng, I miss you, do you know that?"

"I ate a lot for New Year's Eve dinner today, but I still only like what you cook."

"I'm not angry anymore. No matter what you hide from me, I'm not angry anymore. Come back, okay?"

Shi Zilin sent text messages one by one. Although he knew that Fu Sheng might not reply at all, he still had a glimmer of hope. Maybe he couldn't get through the phone, but he would take a look at the text messages...

He has no home, is not in the orphanage, and is not with Fu Bo. He left alone. How is he doing now?Do you have enough clothes to wear? If you only bring a little, will you catch a cold?Is the money enough to spend? What should he do if something happens to him, such as... being hospitalized or fainting again?Will someone help him?

More and more terrifying thoughts emerged one after another, tormenting Shi Zilin more and more haggard, and he didn't sleep well for several days and nights, until the fifth day of the fifth day when he wanted to use work as an excuse to escape from home, but was stopped by his parents.

"Dad, Mom, don't stop me. I have something important to do when I go back."

"Important matter? What is your urgent matter? No matter what it is, you must go to my blind date these days. "

"Mom! Why did you arrange it for me again? I've said it before. I don't need it. Fu Sheng is enough for me!"

With a "slap", a slap landed on Shi Zilin's face.

"Fu Sheng, Fu Sheng, is he the only one in your heart?" Mother Shi roared out.

Shi's father came over with a sullen face, helped Shi's mother's shoulders to let her sit down, and said to Shi Zilin, "Come with me."

"dad."

"You sit down."

Shi Zilin looked at his father in front of him, wondering what he wanted to do.

Father Shi picked up the teacup, took a few breaths, and said, "Do you think you and Xiao Fu can go on forever?"

"I……"

Before he could answer, Father Shi continued to ask, "In a situation like today, he left, do you know why? He kept saying that as long as he doesn't love you anymore, you plan to wait for him alone Do you wait until you are old and you die?"

Shi Zilin's eyes lit up: "How do you know he left?"

"I...don't interrupt." Father Shi took a sip of his tea in a concealed manner, and wanted to continue his "education". Unexpectedly, Shi Zilin turned into a cheetah with piercing eyes.

"You guys, what did you tell him?"

The author has something to say:

I haven't written the work summary for tomorrow's meeting, but I'm still typing. It's terrible... But I'm really conflicted, and I don't want the two of them to be separated forever. I want to finish writing these chapters quickly/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~