"determine."

Alex picked up the kettle and refilled the three people's cups: "You have never had a child, and you want to have a child, isn't it just right?"

The male host said: "Where is it so simple to adopt a child?"

"I think you guys like him a lot." Alex said, "So, you don't actually like him?"

"We definitely like it." The hostess said, "He is so cute, who wouldn't like him?"

"I asked, he likes you too." Alex said, "If that's the case, isn't it suitable?"

"Oh, I don't think that's the problem..." The host paused, sighed, and said, "I think you like him, so you just sent him here? And this kid seems to be very attached to you, Would he like to stay?"

"He has been with me for a while, so of course he will be more dependent on me." Alex replied, "After he lives with you for a period of time, he will also get close to you. Children are like this, so don't worry."

The hostess asked, "What about you?"

"Me?" Alex said, "Of course I will continue to walk around."

"I'm talking about your thoughts on Zhuo Lan." The hostess said, "You like him too, don't you?"

"I……"

"You just like him." The host interrupted Alex and said, "I have to say one thing, although you always seem to be gentle, there always seems to be a relationship between you and other people-including us- A divide that makes you stand out...and out of place."

Alex raised his eyebrows: "You still have such a delicate side, it seems that I still don't know you well enough."

"I have eyes, so I can see." The host said, "But this time, when you are with Zhuo Lan, there doesn't seem to be that kind of barrier between you. I don't know if you have noticed this, But do you really want him?"

"I don't want to part with him, like him or not, it has nothing to do with whether he stays here or not." Alex said, "He needs a safe and stable environment to grow up. He deserves the best. I believe you can give him the best." He is happy."

"Did he know he was going to stay?"

"Not yet. If we have a deal tonight, I'll tell him tomorrow."

"So, you are ready to decide this matter alone?" the male host said, "If he is not willing, what are you going to do?"

"I will still leave the day after tomorrow." Alex said, "I said, he will get used to it after a while."

"Your words sound so cruel, but I know that you just keep your sense forever." The hostess sighed, "Actually, you can stay for a few more days. In this way, you can accompany Zhuo Lan to adapt here, and It can also buffer him for a while, so that he won't be thrown here by you right away."

Alex said: "But if I stay...it is likely that I will only become more and more reluctant."

"You say him?" the hostess said, "Indeed, he might beg you hard not to leave him here alone. He is so cute and pitiful. When he makes any wish, you It's hard not to say yes to him. Are you afraid, then, that you might change your mind?"

Alex was silent for a few seconds.

"……maybe."

"It's so rare that you actually admit your fear." The host said, "As I said, he is special to you."

"He is," Alex said. "I've never been with another person for so long. The other person is still a child who needs to be cared for. He is like a short-lived gift. It is my responsibility and my pleasure to take care of him." .When he's around, I can't stop thinking about whether he's eating well, dressed warmly, happy, whether he's enduring some discomfort."

The host raised his eyebrows and said, "It sounds like you're quite happy, and you're not impatient. You know, not all children can keep adults patient and calm all the time."

"I know, but he's different." Alex said, "you'll know when you live with him, he's like a honey pot, you want to give him everything, but in fact he doesn't want anything. He's very cute , which makes you involuntarily think that he should be a little more unreasonable."

"...Just listening to your words, I can feel how much you like him." The hostess said, "Aren't you really going to stay for a while?"

"No." Alex showed a rare wry smile, a little helpless, "What I said just now is getting more and more reluctant...it's about me."

The master and his wife were both taken aback: "...Huh?"

"If I continue to get along with him, I might not be willing to give him to someone else." Alex sighed softly, "I used to think that it was okay for me to be alone all the time, but I am used to the journey with Zhuo Lan. This kind of thinking has changed a bit..."

"then you……"

"But I can't be selfish," Alex continued. "I know what's best for him, and it's unwise to take him to another option. He's a kid and sometimes he can't make a decision." It is a better choice for him, adults should help him at this time."

The little Zhuo Lan back then didn't know these words.

But now, Zhuo Lan, the blood clan who was inexplicably trapped in the past image, finally heard it.

Zhuo Lan didn't know about this. He always thought that Alex wanted to throw him away because he felt that taking a child was too hindering to travel; Only when you change your outlook can you truly accept yourself.

Zhuo Lan never knew that Alex had already regarded it as his responsibility to protect him.Only now did Zhuo Lan realize that the moment Alex liked him was not much later than the moment he liked the other party.

Even though this "like" has not progressed to what Zhuo Lan wanted later, this belated discovery has already made him happy enough.

It seemed that a huge negative that had a great influence on him suddenly disappeared.

Zhuo Lan, who watched all this, walked up to Alex.

Although he couldn't touch Alex who was so long ago, Zhuo Lan couldn't help but leaned down and pressed his forehead gently against Alex's.

"I never knew..." the Blood Race murmured, "So you didn't mean to throw me away."

Zhuo Lan didn't know why he saw this scene, but he could actually go and see himself back then.But Alex is here, how could he leave?

He realized that Alex hadn't said much to him, and it left some lumps in his heart.Although these pimples did not affect his feelings for Alex, when these pimples were untied.Zhuo Lan was still unavoidably happy.

He sat next to Alex like this, as if he had traveled through time and space to participate in this conversation.

"Oh." The hostess said, "Well, it seems that you will not change your mind. Will you...will you come back to see him later?"

"Yes." Alex said, "at least after he gets used to you and doesn't think of me so often, I will come."

"How come I don't think of you so often?"

Zhuo Lan sat beside her and smiled lowly: "I miss you all the time."

***

The next morning, little Zhuo Lan got up, washed herself, ate breakfast, and then was called by Alex.

Zhuo Lan of the Blood Race looked at this scene and knew that it was time to tell the terrible news.

Although the grown-up Zhuo Lan knew everything that happened afterwards, when he wanted to see what happened again, Zhuo Lan couldn't help but feel palpitations.

Then he witnessed Alex tell little Zhuo Lan the news that he would stay in this family in a calm tone.

"No, no, no...I don't want it!" Little Zhuolan was stunned, and then immediately objected loudly, "I don't want to stay here, I want to go with you!"

"But I can't take you with me." Alex spoke very coldly in order to make him give up. "You can no longer go on the road with me. Staying is your only choice."

"No, no, don't leave me!" Zhuo Lan burst into tears, tears burst out one after another, grabbed Alex's sleeve and cried, "I won't eat a lot, I will I will take care of myself and try not to get sick! I am very easy to raise, don't leave me!"

Alex closed his eyes.

"It's not these problems, my dear." Alex touched the top of his head and said slowly, "You are fine, it's my problem, I can't take you with me anymore."

Zhuo Lan cried and asked, "Why?"

"I didn't ask anything." Alex said, "When you grow up, you will understand."

"But I haven't grown up yet, why did I leave you?!" Zhuo Lan said, "Do you hate me? I must have done something wrong, can you tell me, I will definitely change!"

Alex sighed: "No, I said, you are fine..."

Little Zhuo Lan cried for a long time.

He even sobbed during lunch, which he probably wouldn't have eaten if Alex hadn't put food in his bowl.

However, even though Alex gave him cloth, Zhuo Lan only ate half of last night's amount this time.

Alex noticed this, remembered Zhuo Lan's words of "eat less", and persuaded: "Don't do this. You should eat more, you are growing your body."

Zhuo Lan shook her head and said nothing.

The adults didn't force him.

At this time, everyone thought about the same thing, they felt that Zhuo Lan was just getting emotional.After Alex left and Zhuo Lan got used to it for a while, he would be able to regain his happiness and appetite.

But no matter what the future holds, the first day will be tough.

From morning to night, until going to bed, Zhuo Lan followed Alex, becoming his follower, as if he was afraid that he would disappear suddenly.Alex was a little dumbfounded, but the way he looked at little Zhuo Lan was mostly gentle and sad.

However, Zhuo Lan, who is still young, can't understand it, only the blood clan Zhuo Lan can understand it.

The adult Zhuo Lan sighed again.

He felt that he really didn't understand Alex's emotions when he was a child. He regarded Alex as omnipotent and ignored some of his emotional expressions.Later, when Zhuo Lan grew up a bit, Alex was no longer so emotionally exposed, and became the real and omnipotent Alex.

Fortunately, as an adult, Zhuo Lan suddenly had this opportunity—although the opportunity came inexplicably—to pay attention to some details that he had never noticed before.

That night, the little Zhuo Lan and Alex still slept together, and Zhuo Lan still held Alex's skirt tightly.Zhuo Lan still remembered the reason for doing this, because he was afraid that Alex would run away.

But Alex left anyway, alone, quietly.

He should have realized that according to the situation the day before, Zhuo Lan would never say goodbye to him properly, and then stay at home obediently.So Alex used some methods to make Zhuo Lan fall into a deep sleep, and some small movements would not wake him up.

At dawn, Alex got out of bed, kissed Zhuo Lan on the forehead, stared at him for another 2 minutes, turned and left.

Alex didn't even say "goodbye".He was like those mornings when he got up earlier than Zhuo Lan, went to do something, and would come back soon.

Only this time, he made up his mind not to come back.

The adult Zhuo Lan couldn't stay too far away from her young self, so she could only follow Alex to the outside of the yard, and then watched his back disappear.

Then he went back to little Zhuo Lan's room and waited quietly.

Waiting for the young self to wake up, and then howling.

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