Candle [Rebirth]

□□|Confusion.

Amid the fluttering red veil, he finally understood what he longed for back then. Soft lips, affectionate eyes, hoarse murmur, and the jade bone-like hand that was tightly gripping the veil twitched and fell in his embrace. tears...

Eat marrow to know the taste.

But he found a few tooth marks of different shades on Gu Ling's shoulders. Xiao Ning remembered how disheveled he was in the master's room, and remembered that night when he couldn't find him everywhere, he was actually found in the master's room. .

He remembered that just now when he was deeply in love, Gu Ling trembled all over with fear, and murmured those three irrelevant words between his trembling lips, but now he recalled it clearly, he was actually calling Master's name.

No wonder he wanted to be the first disciple of that scenery.

No wonder she would rather kneel down and ask him.

He looked at Gu Ling who was still sleeping, and suddenly burst out laughing. Gu Ling was awakened by him, and he didn't know why he was going crazy. After realizing what happened, his face suddenly turned pale.

Xiao Ning looked down at him, looking at him with fear and pain, finally raised his head to look at him with unclear emotions, his eyes were covered with water, he stretched out his hand to hook the other's chin, and jokingly said: "Chao Sheng If I had been seduced and made a concubine for me like today, maybe I would have killed all those idiots on Mount Sui without mercy back then."

The tears he hadn't seen for a long time finally hung on his face again.

Gu Ling closed his eyes in humiliation, as if trying to ignore what he said like countless times before, but for some reason, he didn't hold back this time.So Xiao Ning carefully watched him crying until he was choked up in his hands, his thin red eyelids trembling slightly, as if he was extremely sad.

It's ridiculous... how can a person like him be sad.

He imprisoned him in his arms, close to his ears, and said some unbearable nonsense words that were extremely intimate and vicious, and the thin body in his arms struggled a few times, but finally remained motionless.

He heard Gu Ling say the first words after waking up, his voice was so broken that it was hoarse, almost out of tune.

"Xiao Ning, I really hate you."

Xiao Ning pulled him back, pressed him into his arms and kissed viciously, and said confusedly: "Hate me? Do you think I don't hate you?"

After having this extra fun, he almost forgot all the previous methods of humiliation, and even hated himself for not discovering it earlier.There is no better way to grind down the arrogant, invincible, and despised people who were arrogant, arrogant, and despised him, and only imprison him under himself, let him go crazy, cry, and lose his soul just because of himself. More exciting things.

He knew that Gu Ling had always been a life-saving person, and he had never tried to escape or commit suicide when he was with him. While he was disdainful for such cowardice, he felt secretly grateful—since he would not try to escape, since he did not want to Lose my life, then no matter what excessive things I do, you will have nothing to do with me.

Nothing to fear.

Then he suddenly felt bored and wanted to do something new.It just so happened that someone brought him a elixir that could make people temporarily lose their memory, and with a joking heart, he fed him the elixir.

After waking up again, Gu Ling really lost all his memories.

Xiao Ning was happy to act, and told him that he was an ordinary person in the human world. He was rescued by him when he was killed on the mountain. He liked him and wanted him to stay by his side.Gu Ling, who has lost his memory, is indeed much more interesting than before. He will blushing to accept all his tenderness, and even give him some funny responses. Wrote "Birth is less than a hundred years old".

I forgot which day it was, Xiao Ning just pushed open the door after finishing those messy affairs, and felt the beauty with long hair hugging him in the room, with a strong nasal voice and a bit of grievance: "You Haven't seen me for a few days..."

"So what if I didn't come to see you, what, expecting me to come?" Xiao Ning lazily wrapped his arms around his slender waist, carried him back to the bed, and asked casually, "You won't like me, will you? "

"Huh?" Seeing Gu Ling blushing, he said carefully, "I...I really like you! From the first time I saw you, I thought I would like you, I...I want to stay here forever Stay with you, if I say this, will you come to see me every day?"

"What did you say?"

Xiao Ning suddenly froze.

It's ridiculous, it's just ridiculous.

How can someone who hates him so much fall in love with him so easily?

He felt ridiculous and angry at the same time. This anger was inexplicable, and even he himself didn't know why.Seeing Gu Ling like this, he should have felt happy, but the emotion in his heart was inexplicable, which made him unable to resist making some even weirder actions.

"I said...I like...ah!"

Xiao Ning pushed him away almost angrily, and Gu Ling fell heavily on the bed. Before he could react, Xiao Ning pushed him up, looking at him deeply with red eyes, as if he wanted to wake up something.

Gu Ling stared blankly into his eyes, and after a while, suddenly began to struggle desperately.

"Get out... get out..."

"Hahahahaha, brother, is it fun?" Xiao Ning didn't resist, and fell to the ground laughing, laughing, he seemed to be about to burst into tears, "Senior brother is so stupid, it's so funny, haha Ha ha ha ha……"

As soon as he finished speaking, he saw that the person on the bed that he should have hated suddenly hugged his thin body tightly, and slowly curled up to the corner of the bed, with a pair of knuckle hands tightly clutching the skirt of his clothes, with such force that his veins swelled. It's about to explode.He was trembling all over, as if he was suppressing something, even the cinnabar mole between his lips was trembling, it was the same as before, it was so beautiful that it made his mind burn.

Xiao Ning leaned over, pinched his chin viciously, and forced him to look at him: "You are talking!"

"It's fun..." Gu Ling answered with a choked voice, tears dripping down the corners of his eyes onto Xiao Ning's wrist, it was extremely cold, but even so, a smile appeared on the corner of his lips, "It's fun, seeing me look so ridiculous look...are you happy?"

That night, he committed suicide.

It was the first time, really the first time, but just this time, he almost lost this fun "plaything" in his mind.Gu Ling knew that he had nine lives, and it was useless for him to cut off his meridians or hang himself.

So he set a fire in Beichen Palace.

According to reports from the guards, after nightfall, he began to burn the letters he had written a few days ago one by one, and the letter paper and the flames floated all over the room, like a beautiful sacrifice.Xiao Ning stumbled to the gate of the burning Beichen Palace, and picked up a piece of paper that was dangling in the air and had been burnt to the point where only half of it remained.

He carried him out in the midst of the fire, and he was imprisoned in the room by the black iron chain. It was impossible for him to escape, let alone he didn't want to escape at all.Gu Ling's face was covered with dust, and half of the corner of his clothes was burned by the fire, and it smelled like flames.

The smoke was so thick that he was choked to death long ago, but fortunately his body did not suffer any irreversible damage. If the body was destroyed, even if Xiao Ning could find the Da Luo Jinxian, he might not be able to save his life.

It doesn't matter, after that night, Xiao Ning knelt beside his bed, and said to himself over and over again, anyway, he won't die, at worst, let him drink a bowl of memory-losing soup.That way, when he wakes up tomorrow morning, he will be able to see a brand new Gu Ling again, who has no memory, is clean, neither hates him nor loves him, believes every word he says, and can do whatever he wants.

But something was wrong in his heart, when Gu Ling woke up again, his lips trembled twice, but he didn't say anything.

He remembered that no matter how much Gu Ling was tortured by him in the past, he would still cry, quarrel, and get angry. When he woke up, all the things he enjoyed were gone.

Gu Ling began to become extremely indifferent. No matter what he did, humiliating, mocking, forcing, he would just turn his head aside coldly and close his eyes gently, as if everything around him had nothing to do with him.

In the dark night, he had vented his desire on him, and he could always be seen squinting his eyes and looking at the air in a daze, his lips opened and closed, as if he was calling for something.

It seemed to be "Xiao", but he didn't know if it was "Xiao Liu" or some other senior brother, and he was not interested in knowing.Seeing Gu Ling become like this, Xiao Ning only felt empty, and he was tired of planning to let him be clean for two days, but he didn't expect him to try to commit suicide again.

Then there was the scene he saw when he fell into the ancient mirror for the first time.

What else could he do if he wasn't given a bowl of memory-losing medicine?In so many days, even if he regretted it, the two of them had already blocked all the paths of each other, and it was impossible to find an antidote.

Gu Ling was forced to drink the bowl of medicine, and before he lost his memory, he had a hysterical showdown with him. He said, "Have you ever thought that although I have nine lives, I will still be in pain..."

"Pain?" Xiao Ning grabbed his hand, stared at him tightly, a cruel smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "Do you know what pain is? Who are you pretending to be hypocritical for now? When you abandoned me Who is the one who rejected me and betrayed me, wishing to beat me to death on the mountain of death? Who is the one who trampled on my sincerity, and stomped a few times when I was crushed? You look like I owe you I owe you nothing, but what do I owe you?"

"Isn't it enough to pay you back with my life..." Gu Ling said lightly, his voice was like fallen leaves blown away in a strong wind, "I told you I have difficulties, but do you believe me? Have you passed me?"

"Not enough enough not enough!" Xiao Ning grabbed his shoulder and shouted out of composure, "Difficulties? Then you tell me what your difficulties are, you can't say anything, how can I trust you?"

Gu Ling's lips trembled twice, but he still didn't say anything.

Many sweet-scented osmanthus were planted outside Beichen.

Xiao Ning fell in love with osmanthus fragrans, or maybe he was just greedy for his smell, so he ordered people to plant them outside his palace, and urged his spiritual power to make them grow quickly, only hoping to see a piece of osmanthus flowers full of fragrance.But he can't change the four seasons, and no matter how hard he tries, he can't have four seasons like there are no four seasons on Zhongsui Mountain.

When the season is over, the flowers should fall, and all beautiful things are unlucky.

When the medicine failed, a period of time passed in between. Xiao Ning remembered that it seemed that since a certain failed suicide attempt, Gu Ling suddenly became resentful of his life, and sometimes even begged him for mercy.

What a pleasure, it should have been like this long ago.

But the more he tried his best to protect what he wanted to protect, the more he wanted to take it away. I don't know if it was because of the evil spirit that other people put on him, but during those days when Gu Ling cherished his life, he actually got worse.

Normally, it would be fine to do it, and it would be fine to humiliate him on the bed, but he saw himself with scarlet pupils and told Gu Ling that he wanted to marry the little girl who saved his life.

Gu Ling should be happy, shouldn't he?But he didn't, he was crazy, and even wanted to kill his savior.Xiao Ning remembered the last moment, when he was tied up on a high shelf and sang "Don't say anything", the moment he grabbed his neck, he seemed to want to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything, or died at his hands.

Every night after that, when he recalled the scene, he always felt that what he wanted to say was "goodbye".

He sat with his body in his arms for a whole night, and then called Fang Shi back, begging him to take another look in a low voice, trembling, and incoherently.But Fang Shi didn't even look at it, so he said impatiently: "I know my lord regards him as an enemy, and I don't want him to die too easily, even without torture, but my lord wants him to live longer , you should be more restrained... The spiritual blood of the Nine Lives Cat Clan is indeed very nourishing to the cultivation base, but if it sucks blood too much, it will hurt the root, no matter how many times you regenerate, do you think these things can make up for it?"

"Blood-sucking... what blood-sucking?"

Xiao Ning stood up as if getting an electric shock, and yelled at him.Fang Shi was taken aback. After observing his expression carefully, he took a deep breath and said bravely, "This... When Your Majesty brought him to the Demon Palace, I told you This... but thinking that he is your enemy, I don't want to speak much."

"You mean, those tooth marks on his body at that time..." Xiao Ning felt extremely cold, as if his heart had been frozen into ice, "The teeth marks on his neck, legs, and wrists... were all made by someone. To suck his blood, to stay?"

Fang Shi thought about it for a while, then slapped his thigh as if suddenly realizing it, and said with some annoyance: "I thought it was left by you at the time... It was my ineffectiveness, please punish me."

Where is it that others are ineffective in doing things, it is obvious that he asked for all of this.

Xiao Ning gave a low laugh, waved his hand tiredly to signal him to go down, hugged the already cold corpse, laughed louder and louder.

It really is... retribution.

Xiao Ning suddenly felt a sip of water, he suddenly opened his eyes, and saw the silver dangling shadow on the lake above his head.

There is also a youthful voice that is not covered by the nine tones: "Dangxi, trance, don't remonstrate with those who go, but chase after those who come! It's over, it's over—"

He's all... remembered.

Recalling that in the previous life, I also came to the island of spiritual wishes to make a wish, and poured blood on the artifact, so as to obtain a little bit of clarity in the world.

Those who are mean, blamed, and reprimanded.

Those who avoid, disgust, and resent.

It's fake, it's all fake.

He also saw Gu Ling, who had just arrived at Beichen Palace, carefully writing on the letter paper.

"I have a lot of difficulties about the past years. I can't tell them all, but I can always tell one or two. If you want to share your love, please come to the palace to see me in the middle of the night. If you don't believe me, I will keep silent from now on and never say anything about it again." . Mausoleum pen."

After writing, he still felt that it was not enough, so he picked an osmanthus flower from the window. At that time, the osmanthus flower was blooming well, and he also sincerely thought that he would definitely come. It's really not my intention. Even if I can't speak, I can always think of other ways to let you know.

It rained heavily that night.

Xiao Ning saw him wearing the old white clothes, sitting upright on the stone bench under the sweet-scented osmanthus tree behind the palace, with his back straight, letting the rain pour down and make him icy cold.Maybe it was because he had been sitting for too long, he felt a little cold, he stretched out his hands to hug himself, the cool liquid on his cheeks flowed into his neck coldly, he didn't know if it was rain or tears.

Jie Lan's worried face flashed past: "Your Majesty just threw the letter away after reading it. I don't know what Your Majesty thinks."

His own face also appeared in the memory: "You have humiliated me so many times, hated me and harmed me, wished for me to die, and still expect me to trust you?"

Xiao Ning saw the carved wooden door of Master Danxin Pavilion, and saw a pair of hands on the door frame, desperately calling his name.

"Xiao Jiu! Xiao Jiu leave me alone! Run, run! Get out of this ghostly place, run!"

He saw Gu Ling tightly closed his eyes in front of him, and a desolate smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "Live? Not live...just die."

Sitting under his coffin, Xiao Ning remembered in a daze.In order to capture Gu Ling, he specially built Beichen Palace.

What was he thinking... There are osmanthus trees outside Beichen Palace, he should like them.

Later, Beichen Palace also burned down, and he only had time to tidy up hastily, thinking that if he could stay by his side as if he hadn't recovered his memory, he would live there with him forever, and never do anything to make him sad again up.

This huge palace room was empty, it was too cold.But how could he expect him to come back? He stole even those happy days when he lost his memory.

"How much fun, the length of the song, the depth of the wine. Now it is not as good as it used to be, and it will not be the same in the future."

"It is necessary to have fun when you are idle, and to teach you to hold candles on good nights. Gao Zeng cherishes the shade."

"..."

Those voices floating in the wind, who is singing?

He also remembered that he was almost insane after knowing everything in his previous life. He traveled all over the country and begged everyone who should be begged and who should not be begged, just to beg him to be resurrected in front of him.It doesn't matter if he is as arrogant as a young man, or as if he is looking at him from behind his back full of affection and can't speak, as long as he can come back to life, he is no longer a cold corpse in a coffin, he is willing to do anything.

Later, he committed suicide by the side of his coffin, using the long sword that was fired from the same furnace as his candle, and at the last moment of his life, he heard himself singing——

"The general's reputation has been ruined after a long battle. He went to Heliang and turned his head for thousands of miles. The old man died. The water in Yishui is bleak and the west is cold, and the seats are full of clothes like snow."

"A strong man, the sad song is not clear. Birds still know how to hate, but they don't cry to clear tears and cry blood. Whoever shares me, drunk to the bright moon."

Xiao Ning suddenly floated up from the Past Life Ancient Lake, Jiuyin took him over, patted him on the back, but was surprised to find that he was crying.

I don't know whether it's lake water or tears all over his face. The indifferent and bloodthirsty Mozun finally stopped suppressing his emotions when he was young. He tightly grasped Jiuyin's robe, roared a few words, and then burst into sobs.

"you……"

Jiuyin saw Xiao Ning raised his face full of tears, and said to him word by word: "Do you know, I must be the most damned person in this world."

The author has something to say: Jiuyin: No, I am (a spoiler 23

I have been working hard for three days, I am so moved (moved by myself), if I am not tired tomorrow, I will continue...

Note:

1.

The phrase "Dangxi, trance..." is adapted from "The Analects of Confucius Weizi", the original text "Chu Kuang received the public song and passed Confucius and said: 'Fengxi Fengxi, He Dezhi's decline! Those who go can't be persuaded, those who come It can still be pursued. It’s over, it’s over! Today’s politicians are almost gone!’” It is hereby noted.

2.

Sit around and don't speak, listen to me singing while drunk.The spring grass in the pond has not stopped, and the tall trees have turned into songbirds.When the swan geese flew up the river for the first time, the crickets still came under the bed.Whoever wants to cook well, the mountains and rivers have voiceless sounds.

How much fun, the length of the song, the depth of the wine.Now it is not as good as it used to be, and it will not be the same in the future.You have to have fun when you are idle, and teach you to hold candles on good nights, and Gao Zeng cherishes the shade.The white hair is as short as possible, who is the hairpin of Huang|Juqian.

——Xin Qiji's "Water Tune Getou·Drunken Chanting"

3.

The green tree listens to the pelican.Even more naive, the partridge sounded, the cuckoo sounded.There is nowhere to be found when I return to Spring, and I hate Fangfei to rest.It's not arrived, parting in the world.Immediately, Pipa will close the black, and Changmeng, Cuiyan will resign from Jinque.Look at Yanyan and send it back to my concubine.

The general's reputation has been torn to Heliang in a hundred battles, and he has turned back thousands of miles, so the old man will never die.Yishui is rustling and the west wind is cold, and the seats are full of clothes like snow.A strong man, the sad song is not clear.The singing bird also knows how to hate, but it is not expected to cry clear tears and long cry blood.Whoever shares me will be drunk with the bright moon.

——Xin Qiji's "Congratulations to the Bridegroom Bie Maojia's Twelve Brothers"——

Thanks to the little angel who cast mines for me: Salted fish want to eat 1 pickle

Chumi, I will continue to work hard~