i might be a fake gay

"Ugh..." Hang Yusi vomited in a mess while hugging the toilet. Several days had passed since the night when he received the Golden Man Award. In the past few days, he rejected all the interview announcements, drinking and having fun with his friends until late at night.

After returning to the hotel, I fell asleep as soon as I touched the bed. I didn't wake up until one or two in the afternoon, and then I ate breakfast and lunch together.After a hasty dinner, I went to the party to have a good time with my friends, and it was like this every day.

As a result, before it was six o'clock today, I suddenly felt a surge in my stomach. When I got up and touched the toilet, I vomited out all the red, green and green things I ate and drank last night.

Now holding on to the toilet, my head is so painful that it is about to explode, ah, the pain of a hangover.

Hang Yusi reluctantly stood up and went to the mirror to look at himself with a haggard face. He accidentally discovered that since "Meng Jiao" was finished, the boundary between Bai Jiao and him became more and more blurred.

When taking a bath, looking in the mirror, sometimes Bai Jiao would appear by his side, look in the mirror with him, or see himself in the mirror as Bai Jiao.

But it's very strange, this phenomenon was noticed by Hang Yusi long after the filming was finished, was he nervous when filming or something?

Liang Dong once called himself and told him that something was wrong at the awards ceremony.He also asked on the sidelines if it was because he was too involved in the drama.

Hang Yusi didn't take it seriously at the time, and hung up the phone with a few random words to fool him, but now that he thinks about it, it might be true.

Especially after meeting Liang Dong, the subconscious mind can't help but want to get close to Liang Dong, just like Bai Jiao in the movie when he meets Chen Yiming, knowing that it is a deep abyss, but still can't help it like a moth to a flame The obsession that Bai Jiao would rather burn himself to death is his most distinctive character trait.

"Yi Ming..." There was a murmur in the empty bathroom, and even the sound of breathing felt strange after it calmed down.

"Fuck, uncle, no, no!" Hang Yusi scrambled to the bedside table, picked up his phone and pressed a number.

It rang for a long time before the other side was connected, "What's the matter, the great actor, there is no need to rush the announcement today, can you let me sleep a little longer!"

Manager Rainy was about to cry, he was busy last night until after two o'clock before going to bed, and was woken up before six o'clock.Life is so difficult, why is it easy!

"Rainy, I found out that I may be mentally ill." Hang Yusi thought for a while and felt that this description was inappropriate, so he changed the phrase: "No, I think my mind may be a little confused!"

"What's going on!?" Rainy suddenly raised his voice and asked nervously.This is a new actor, he doesn't know what to do if something goes wrong.

"Sometimes I can feel that Bai Jiao is by my side. Is this a problem of getting too deep into the drama?" Hang Yusi asked.

"I'll help you make an appointment with a psychiatrist right away. Don't worry. It would be better to consult a psychiatrist."

Hang Yusi asked his agent to send him the address of the psychological clinic, and then turned off the screen.He slammed himself into the big soft bed, his head hurting to death.

Hang Yusi sat on a very comfortable leather chair, and the female psychologist sat face to face with him, and asked softly: "Mr. Hang, you said that sometimes you think you are Bai Jiao, right?"

"Yes."

"When did this phenomenon start?"

"Well, the period when "Meng Jiao" was finished."

"Just like what you said, Mr. Hang, do you have any special feelings when you think you are Bai Jiao?"

"It doesn't seem to be me, my consciousness is very hazy."

"How long has this been going on?"

"Just a few minutes."

"Does it happen only under certain circumstances?"

"No way, usually when I look in the mirror, I feel that he is standing beside me. If I see Liang Dong, I often feel a little out of control."

Speaking of this, Hang Yusi seemed to suddenly understand what Doctor Wu meant.Liang Dong, it may be related to his frequent hallucinations.

"May I think that Mr. Liang Dong is different from other people to you." [Liang Dong, who was far away on the other set, sneezed hard] "I don't know, but Chen Yiming is indeed different from Bai Jiao. different."

"Are you afraid of that?"

"A little bit, I'm afraid that if this goes on, one day I won't be able to resist jumping off the building."

"Has Mr. Hang had any mental illness before?"

"No, mental health."

"Mr. Hang, you are a very good actor, and you have just stepped into the entertainment circle. You may not know that many actors have been too involved in the drama and suffered from emotional and mental illness, and in severe cases, they may also suffer from schizophrenia. disease."

"If Liang Dong is really the inducement that will make you unable to distinguish reality, you should try to keep some distance from him as much as possible."

"I……"

"Your subconscious mind is still stuck in the fact that you and Liang Dong are a same-sex couple. I personally suggest that you should not meet Mr. Liang until you find a way to relax your mind."

"I see, thank you, Dr. Wu."

When Hangyusi walked out of the building, the sun was so harsh that he couldn't open his eyes, and the shadows were forced to hide behind him.Taking a deep breath, he got into the car and drove back to the company.

Sitting in the car in a daze, he would unconsciously think of his youthful appearance when he first joined the filming crew.

With his strong background, Young Master Hang insisted on squeezing out the actor originally selected for "Meng Jiao". Therefore, when the film first started shooting, his acting skills were shallow and he couldn't understand the script thoroughly, so he was often scolded and cried by Director Zhao.

"Cut! Cut! Hang Yusi, are you a zombie? What about your expression, your movements are so stiff, you are not as good as a piece of wood, do you really major in acting?! I really don't know how the investors got you here !" Dao Zhao threw the notebook down to the ground angrily, pointed at Hang Yusi and started cursing.

Everyone on the set knew Director Zhao's temper, and no one dared to persuade him.

Hang Yusi kept bowing and apologizing: "Director Zhao, please give me another chance, I will definitely be able to perform this scene well. Please give me one more try!"

"I don't have that much time. Since you want to act seriously, make preparations in advance next time, and don't waste the time of us staff!" Director Zhao asked the props team to place the props needed for the next show, and said to Liang Dong: "Shoot the rest first, Liang Dong will prepare."

At that time, he had just joined the crew, and the staff of the crew knew that he was a vase forced by the sponsor, and they didn't treat him well.And he is often scolded by the director, and basically no one talks to him except for filming needs.

Taking advantage of his assistant's absence, Hang Yusi secretly ate and cried in a place with few people.The little sobs were held back in his throat and he dared not let out, he had never been wronged like this since he was a child.

Still being noticed, someone came over and handed a tissue to him, "Are you okay?"

He raised his head blankly, "Teacher Liang Dong." Liang Dong was only five or six years older than him, but he was born as a child star. He has been in the entertainment industry for more than ten years, which is much better than a stunned young man like him.

"I don't dare to be a teacher, just call me Liang Dong." Liang Dong has been watching the state of Hang Yusi's filming. The young man in front of him has changed from the excitement and nervousness when he first joined the group to the fear and anxiety now. This crying young man Just like him back then, he was as young and immature, with anxiety and fear all written on his face.

But at that time, Liang Dong was not as popular as he is now, and he was just an inconspicuous little star in the third and fourth tiers.No one cared about his feelings, all by himself in the entertainment circle, whether it was acting skills or interpersonal communication.

"Well, Liang Dong, thank you."

"What kind of person do you think Bai Jiao is?" Liang Dong read the whole script, and even went to buy a book to read it. He has his own understanding of the character of each character in it.

Hang Yu Si hesitated to answer, "Stubborn? Bold? Lonely?"

Liang Dong shared his understanding of Bai Jiao to Hang Yusi, "You can think about it from another angle, Bai Jiao has nothing, no parents and no one has given him warmth. But he feels like aloof A swordsman only needs one knife to make people surrender, and you need to show Bai Jiao's unique charm in your own way. Understand?"

"Such strings... no wonder they were beaten so badly."

"Ha, most of them were very passionate when they were students, and collisions are hard to avoid."

"Then I'll give it a try." Hang Yusi gratefully thanked Liang Dong.

"Try to squeeze yourself into Bai Jiao's emotional aspect, I think you have the ability to do it."

What Liang Dong said made him a little confused, how to squeeze in? !But Hang Yusi can't help it, now he's stuck, so let's try everything.

"The second scene of the eighth scene of "Baijiao", action!"

Bai Jiao fell down in a deep alley in the back street of the school with his body bowed. Because he offended the bully in the school, he was blocked in the back alley after school and beat him up. ha."

"Bai Jiao?"

Bai Jiao squinted his eyes and looked at the good student Chen Yiming who suddenly appeared at the entrance of the alley, "You misidentified the person, I am not Bai Jiao."

"Bai Jiao, who beat you like this, I'll tell the head teacher." Chen Yiming put down his schoolbag and went to help him up.

"Ha, a nerd is a nerd, do you think that eighth woman really cares?" Bai Jiao spat blood.

"you……"

"I'm different from you, Young Master Chen, you'd better go home obediently." Bai Jiao swallowed a mouthful of bloody saliva, the whole mouth was filled with a spicy taste, Liang Dong said stubbornly, "No, I won't let go, let's go, I'll take you to the school infirmary."

"Heh" Bai Jiao didn't speak any more, just let him drag and pull as he liked, Chen Yiming was a head taller than him, and much stronger than him, so carrying him on his back was no problem at all.

Bai Jiao lay on his back, the setting sun shone into his eyes, and for some reason his nose felt sour.When he was young, Bai's father used to carry the young little Baijiao on his back like this. It has been more than ten years since little Baijiao leaned on his father's strong back and had maltose in his mouth. If there hadn't been that disaster, he would still There will be a happy family.

He lightly rubbed Young Master Chen's back, and muttered, Chen Yiming didn't care what Bai Jiao thought about him, he was eager to go to the infirmary quickly.

"Cut! Cut! Until the director called stop.

It was only then that Hang Yusi realized that he seemed to be really Bai Jiao just now, feeling his bitterness and fearlessness. "Brother Liang, thank you, I finally joined the show!"

Seeing Hang Yusi who was so happy and jumping non-stop, Liang Dong was also in a good mood, "You don't need to thank me, you did it yourself."

"Old Cao, add chicken legs to Hang Yusi's rice." The director happily encouraged him.

Since then, Hang Yusi has often sat with Liang Dong to discuss the script, thinking about how the characters in the play can be more brilliant.Sometimes director Zhao would join in to discuss character setting, talking and laughing, although the filming was very hard, but it was Hang Yusi's happiest day in the crew.

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