looking for beautiful boy

Everything is difficult at the beginning, and dew love is the same.

Zhang Wei believed in his own judgment, judging by Xiaoxin's physical reaction, this should be his first date.What a man is most afraid of is showing timidity on this kind of issue. Even if he is inexperienced, he must try his best to appear talented.So for Xiaoxin's lie, Zhang Wei understandably did not expose it.

Instead, he's going to take advantage of his aggressiveness and make the night more interesting.For veteran drivers, the atmosphere is not important. Even if they eat together, drink, or play World of Warcraft in a group, it will not affect their state after entering the room.

But for newcomers, the atmosphere is very important, because they are thin-skinned and shy, and they pay attention to quick decisions.

Thinking so, Zhang An and Xiaoxin entered the room, he planned to have a wall-dong first, kiss all kinds of meat and vegetables, and then hug him directly to the bed.

But before he had time to thump, Xiaoxin went straight to the big bed.This, the pace is a bit fast, the coat is still on.I saw Xiaoxin take off the backpack on his back, like opening a suitcase, and flipped the entire backpack...

Speaking of this strange backpack, Zhang Cong had noticed before that although it was a business style, wouldn’t it be strange for a man in his twenties to carry a backpack?

What's even more strange is that the sheets, quilt cover, pajamas, toiletry bag, and two towels are neatly placed in the backpack...

"Do you want to earn some money?" Xiaoxin stood with his shoulders open, confident.

Countless thoughts flew through Zhang Cong's mind, how to make money?Do SPA for him?Or was he taken to cut it with a razor?If there were some strange toys in the backpack, Zhang An could still be calm; but now, facing a pile of toiletries, he was completely dumbfounded.

"I asked you tonight, so you have to do it my way. Of course, I won't do anything to hurt you, but I will give you a sum of money after it's done." At this moment, Xiaoxin really changed from the beginning to the end. This newcomer, unusually firm and agile, is completely different from the shy and introverted him before.That look is like the head of a department assigning tasks to himself.

Zhang Wei suddenly remembered Xiaohao's warning: "You don't have to worry about being tricked into a hotel to dig out your kidneys." He broke out in cold sweat behind his back, checked the door to make sure it wasn't locked, and escaped in time.

"You don't have to be afraid, I told you I'm not a bad person. You don't have to do anything tonight, just don't go to bed earlier than me." Xiaoxin's smiling eyes sparkled, and Zhang Cong was terrified.

"Don't act recklessly. Skynet is not missing anything. As long as you violate the law, you will pay the price."

Xiaoxin laughed and explained patiently, "I want you to chat with me. Of course, the content and method of the chat are all up to me."

"And then?" Zhang Wei was more concerned about the next request.

"There's nothing else to do, just wash it up, lie down with me, and listen to me." After Xiaoxin finished speaking, he cast a positive look at himself, as if saying, "It's very simple."

Zhang Cong recalled Xiaoxin strike up a conversation, to the Japanese food in lieu of gold rolls, to the delicious state of mermaid meat in the private room; Zhang Cong knew that he had been tricked, and it was really capsized in the gutter, and it would not be safe at the end of the festival.I haven't been in the circle for a long time, even if I open my mind, I don't understand what the situation is now.

"Of course, you can leave now. But since you've come here, don't you plan to earn any money you have?" Xiaoxin seemed to see through Zhang Cong's heart and was about to withdraw.

"You always talk about earning money, how much can I earn?" Zhang Wei tried his best to stabilize, don't guess randomly at this time, let alone provoke the other party, the best way is to follow him, listen to it, and wait for the opportunity.

"Make a price. If it's reasonable, I'll pay half first, and the other half tomorrow morning." Xiaoxin sincerely took out his phone and opened Alipay.

"You're not afraid that I'll take the money and... force you." Zhang Wei gradually regained some initiative.

"Didn't you just say that as long as you violate the law, you will pay the price. Besides, I dare to ask you out like this, do you think I didn't hold back?" Xiaoxin sat down and patted the big bed.

Zhang Wei chose to sit on the opposite sofa with a guilty conscience, his thoughts finally cleared up, the world is full of wonders, maybe tonight he met a strange person who was willing to pay others to listen to him.

Zhang Wei once again felt that he and Xiaoxin were destined for each other, and he found the right person.Zhang Wei quickly made a calculation in his mind. During the day, he would pay 3 yuan an hour to register with my account. Now that he works overtime at night, he has to serve as a pillow, warm the quilt, and wipe tears for others. It costs 300 yuan an hour.

"Three hundred an hour." Zhang Cong began to shout the price.

"Okay, then there will be ten hours from now to 8 o'clock tomorrow morning, a total of [-]. You go to take a bath first, and I will transfer you [-] when you finish washing."

Xiaoxin agreed so readily that Zhang Wei couldn't help regretting that he underreported, but he is a principled person.

"Do you think you can bribe me with money? What about my self-esteem!"

"Another two thousand, no more. Just treat it as a good deed, and listen to a desperate person." Xiaoxin stood firm and handed over a towel.

Zhang Wei thought about it, let it be like this, he took the towel, and accidentally touched Xiaoxin's slender hand again, his hand was no longer warm, but cold, a thought suddenly flashed through his mind, " Tell me why, why are you doing this?"

Zhang Wei watched, not letting go of even the tiniest change of expression on the other person's face. In these three seconds, he used almost all the techniques and theories he had learned since he studied psychology.

Xiaoxin opened his eyes wide in surprise, then immediately returned to his smiling face, and looked up as well.

"Even if it's a lie, you have to give me an answer. Otherwise, no matter how much money you give me, I won't do it." Zhang An wanted to stay because of the money, and because this night was too wonderful. It had been a long time since a single person could arouse his curiosity.But his intuition as a psychiatrist told him that if Xiaoxin said nothing at this moment, he would definitely not stay.He needs to hear the simplest answer, even if it is false, he also believes that he can tell whether the other party is a desperate freak or a pervert hiding a secret.

Xiaoxin bowed his head in silence for a moment, then raised his head and looked directly into Zhang An's eyes again:

"Tonight is the anniversary of my boyfriend's death."

He is lying, Zhang An can be sure, but his frown, slightly narrowed eyes, drooping corners of his mouth, and gloomy eyes all show that the man in front of him is a desperate person.

Zhang Wei guessed that if he didn't stay tonight, then next year today would be Xiaoxin's death day.

The author has something to say: Chengzi will update, and update to the end~

☆、Final Chapter - Blue Iris

It was already past midnight, and if one looked from the lawn of the hotel, only the room at the far end of the fifth floor was still lit with soft and warm lights.The two men in the room were leaning against each other on the head of the bed.

"My boyfriend's father is a teacher." After a long silence, Xiaoxin finally spoke, "He was taught very strictly since he was a child. His parents have a cold relationship, but both of them value him very much, and he works hard."

Zhang Wei hummed, and quickly began to draw the relationship between the characters in Xiaoxin's story in his mind.

"However, he was not happy at all. Because he felt that he was not being himself, but being the kind of good boy his parents expected."

"Then what does he think the real self is like?"

Xiaoxin thought for a while and smiled sweetly, "He thinks being with me is the happiest and most real."

Zhang Cong was a little puzzled, and chose to continue listening silently.

"Do you know how we met?" Xiaoxin's eyes lit up, as if he saw the old scene, and recalled it reluctantly.

"There are two versions of our encounter, one mine and one his."

"That day... I'm going to an interview. Before entering the building, I want to arrange my hair and clothes because I just squeezed the subway. The time is too urgent, so I have to use the window glass on the side of the road as a mirror." Xiaoxin paused For a moment, it seemed that he was looking at two shadows leaning together on the black screen of the TV.

"At that time, he happened to be buying flowers in the store. So in his version, it was Teacher's Day, and he wanted to send flowers to his father. As a result, he saw a man in a panic looking at himself in the mirror. I couldn't help laughing, but I also remembered the man who looked in the mirror."

"And then?" Zhang Wei guided silently.

"But when I was outside the window, I saw a man standing beside the blue iris and smiling at me. The sun shone on the flower, but he was more dazzling than the flower under the sun."

Xiaoxin suddenly turned his head to look at Zhang An, "I fell in love with this person immediately, but I hurried to the interview. When I left, he kept looking at me. I thought that if God let me meet again When I see this man, I must go up and talk to him."

"But after that, I didn't see him again for a year. I don't know why, but I always think of him. I even went to the flower shop where I met many times and bought irises many times."

Xiaoxin stopped and looked at Zhang An, he looked lost as if these things happened yesterday.

"Then how did you meet again?"

"Later, I did a stupid thing. A year later, on Teacher's Day, I went to that flower shop again. I didn't know if he would come, and I almost forgot what he looked like. I just remembered That feeling, for this feeling, I waited for him all day."

Looking at Xiaoxin, Zhang Wei began to doubt his own judgment. He felt that Xiaoxin was not the kind of person who would put romantic ideas into practice.

"The store was about to close, and I thought we'd missed it, but here he is, in a hurry. As soon as he came in, I knew he remembered me too, and he looked at me like, ' You finally reappeared'." Xiaoxin said, got up excitedly, and sat cross-legged, like an excited child.

"That night, we ate together, walked, chatted, and ended up talking until dawn in a 24-hour convenience store. I told him that I had been waiting to meet him again all year. He said, I was the one he met The first person who can tell the truth, he has always liked men, but he is afraid of disappointing his parents."

Xiaoxin said excitedly, "Do you believe it? Do you believe that there will be two people in the world who, when they meet, trust each other as if they were destined to meet?"

Zhang Wei smiled, "The world is full of wonders, isn't it?"

"Yeah..." After finishing speaking, Xiaoxin fell into silence again, as if the ending of the story was so beautiful.

Zhang Cong's heart was a little heavy. Originally, he wanted to enter a working state and listen to this person's confidant silently. This was the best thing he could do tonight.

But at this moment, when he saw the adult with drooping head in front of him, as helpless as a child who lost his beloved pet, he knew something was wrong.In this dimly lit room, Xiaoxin's story hypnotized him, even though he kept reminding himself to withdraw, to withdraw.

"What happened later? Are you together?" Zhang Wei tried his best to continue to guide, instead of rushing to ask.

"Later, he invited me to his house. It was our first time with each other, and we were impatient and cautious..." Xiaoxin paused, showing a gray expression.

"His father came. He didn't receive flowers like in previous years. He thought something must have happened to his son. Then he came in and saw his son naked with another man..."

Xiaoxin couldn't continue talking, his voice trembled, and his body shrank into a ball.Zhang Wei finally couldn't help it, and hugged the other party.

"It's okay, don't talk if you don't want to talk." Zhang An hugged him tightly, wanting to convey warmth.

Xiaoxin shook his head, "Dad looked very disappointed, and left without waiting for him to explain. I want to stay with him, and I want to tell him that it's okay. Isn't this good? He can finally be his true self."

Xiaoxin fell into Zhang Cong's arms, his face was buried in Zhang Cong's wrinkled bathrobe, he seemed to be sniffing Zhang Cong's breath.Zhang Cong knew that what Xiaoxin was looking for was the scent of bath liquid emanating from Zhang Cong's body, it should be the smell of Xiaoxin's boyfriend.

"He asked me to leave, I didn't have time to say those words." Xiaoxin's tears soaked the clothes on Zhang Cong's chest, and he felt a burst of coolness penetrating into his heart.

"He killed himself. I understand, he's never lived himself, and he can't be a good boy now. He can't live anymore... Am I right, I shouldn't blame him, can I?"

Zhang Cong didn't answer, he just comforted the person in his arms silently, stroking his spine trembling from crying.

For a long time, Xiaoxin wept silently in Zhang Condolence's arms.Zhang Cong thought a lot. Is this story true?Is Xiaoxin's boyfriend really dead?Zhang Wei felt something was wrong, but couldn't explain it.He felt that Xiaoxin seemed to be the dead boyfriend who was struggling, so who was the person standing outside the window looking in the mirror in the story...

At this moment, he is no longer a psychiatrist, and this is not his consulting room.He couldn't pull himself away.Zhang Cong raised Xiaoxin's face, the round face was bloodless from crying, he suddenly missed that flushed face from shyness very much.Such Xiaoxin is alive.Zhang Yu lowered his head and kissed the white forehead of the person in his arms, the eyelashes with teardrops, the cold bulbous nose, the cheeks that were gradually flushing, and the trembling lips.

Xiaoxin wanted to push Zhang Consolation away, "I don't want to do this tonight."

"Just kisses, I promise..."

Hearing Zhang An's assurance, Xiaoxin no longer struggled, he began to slowly relax his body, lying in Zhang An's arms, he couldn't help wrapping his arms around Zhang An's waist.Their legs intertwine on the silky gray sheets.

In the early morning, Zhang An was awakened by the sunlight that slipped in through the cracks in the curtains.That warm, soft person is gone.

Zhang Wei searched all over the room, but couldn't find the 2000 yuan that Xiaoxin should have left.But instead he smiled reassuringly.No money was left behind, whether it was forgotten or intentional, Zhang Tong knew that this meant that one did not want to settle everything.

He put away the sheets and quilt covers on the bed, and took all the things Xiaoxin left behind.Just when he was about to pull out his card to leave, he found that besides the room card, there was also a cash receipt in the card slot, which was the consumption at the shore bar last night. On the corner of the cash receipt, there were three characters of different sizes, which read "beautiful boy".

"Did you make it to the end?" In the bar, Xiao Hao couldn't help but ask. He always wanted to know whether the two protagonists had finally achieved the right result when he heard the story.

"Guess?" Zhang Wei blinked.

"Cut, talk if you like." Xiao Hao lowered his head and continued to drink Coke.

The boss looked at the cash receipt and was a little puzzled, "Beautiful boy, what does this mean..."

"I'm a beautiful boy in his heart! What's the point?" Zhang Wei snatched back the silver bars from the boss.In the past, after he had a one-night affair, as long as there was a little bit of novelty, he would always come back to show off to the boss and Xiaohao.But this time, although I did it according to the old rules, I didn't feel as proud as before, but instead felt bored and regretful.

"Narcissism! You are at most a middle-aged mistress, and you are still a beautiful boy!" Xiao Hao was impeccable, but suddenly remembered something, "Have you seen a movie in which Wu Yanzu acted? The same-sex theme, very famous Yes, it's an old movie!"

Zhang Cong was confused, "What are you talking about?"

Xiao Hao suddenly became excited, looked at the boss and Zhang Wei, stomped his feet anxiously, "What is it called...you haven't seen it?" Xiao Hao slammed the table, "Yes, the name of the beautiful boy's love is called Pretty Boy's Love. How does that Xiaoxin's experience look so similar to this movie!"

Zhang Wei was startled, and ran straight to the owner's room behind the bar.Seeing that something was wrong, Xiao Hao hurriedly followed.Only the boss was still sitting comfortably on the chair. He took Xiaohao's remaining drink and drank it.

"I'm finally getting out of the single."

With the help of Xiaohao, Zhang Cong found this movie called "The Love of a Beautiful Boy".After reading it, he will understand everything.My doubts were correct, but I was thinking in the wrong direction.Xiaoxin's story is not even an ounce of truth, but it has a lot of truth.Once, this person could only resolve his inner loneliness in movies and stories.He didn't meet any man with blue irises, and he always lived in the setting of "good boy".The night he met Zhang An, he was completely tired and wanted to commit suicide.

That night, when the two fell in love, Zhang Wei looked at the red cheek that was about to bleed, couldn't help leaning into his sensitive ear, and deliberately asked:

"How much truth are you saying?"

The man didn't answer him, but diverted Zhang Cong's attention with other things, making him sink.

Maybe this note, this movie, is the answer that Xiaoxin left for himself.Zhang Wei felt that he had completely fallen into the trap of the other party. At this moment, he really wanted to find Xiaoxin and ask him, how many little tricks do you have...

From that night onwards, the Shore Bar put up a missing person notice with the title "Looking for a Beautiful Boy" and a photo of a bouquet of blue irises.The guests who came all asked, who are you looking for? Since he is a beautiful boy, why didn't he post a photo.

The boss always smiled lightly and said nothing.On the contrary, Xiao Hao, a bar singer, always looks at the door, as if waiting for someone to appear.

The missing person notice has been posted for a long time, so long that people are familiar with his existence and are no longer curious.Zhang Wei didn't give any hope anymore. In fact, his character is not able to tolerate anything too romantic. He won't go anywhere and wait for a day. This missing person notice is to do his best.

It was a sunny day, but it was still cold inside.Zhang Cong was reluctant to turn on the air conditioner to keep warm, so he wanted to go out for a walk to bask in the sun.Unknowingly, he came to the high-tech zone of this city, which is the office area of ​​high-tech companies such as software and network developed intensively by the government.

Suddenly, he saw a flower shop standing abruptly among the high-rise buildings. The glass shop window of the flower shop was so large that he could clearly see the flowers in the house.Zhang Cong came to the window slowly, he wanted to try, can the glass of the window really look like a mirror?

Just as he was looking at the glass, he felt a familiar atmosphere around him.

The window glass could really be used as a mirror, and he saw the cute little fat man smiling at him beside him.

Zhang Wei didn't look back, he was afraid that this was just his hallucination, "You are willing to show up."

The man in the mirror showed a sorry expression.

"You're such a liar."

"It's my luck that I met you when I wanted to lie the most." The person in the mirror said.

Suddenly, Zhang Wei's heart became hot, routines, routines, it turns out that as long as he is the protagonist, routines can also move people so much.He really wanted to grab this little fat man and spank his ass. On the one hand, he thought it would feel good. The most important thing was that he wanted to teach him a lesson. How could he have the idea of ​​giving up? What if he didn't meet him that night? What if I can't meet Little Fatty...

The two men standing outside the window of the flower shop smiled at each other and left together silently. They still had a lot to say and a lot to do.

The author has something to say: Chengzi will update, and update to the end~

"Looking for a Beautiful Boy" is over. In fact, this story and "Mirroring" can be regarded as a series. Chengzi likes this kind of short stories that have a little connection with each other.

The story of "Looking for a Beautiful Boy" takes place after "Mirror Mirror" in terms of time, Zhang Cong, who is provocative but lonely in his heart, finally finds his home.

See you in the next story~