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Only 21 years have passed before and after the story, but I painfully discovered the length of life.

The black bug-like train shuttled through the endless night, and a dense group of people fell asleep in the crowded carriage.On such a dead and unpopular night, the cold "swish" wind in the mountains cuts through the gaps in the car windows with sharp and broken sounds, like howling wolves and apes.The roaring and noisy train is running through the quiet and weird mountains and forests, and through the black mountains and bad waters. The cold machinery does not hesitate to separate.

I watched my blurred silhouette reflected in the window in the speeding car.I have never looked at my own face so carefully and carefully.It had nothing to do with him, an outsider-like indifference, a haughty face, dust covered it with sleepiness and loss.Those eyes, which always shone with indigo light, were slowly settling black.

When I arrived in M ​​City, someone snatched my wallet in the crowd.Now I only have a few hundred dollars in my pocket and a platinum earring on my left ear. This earring was forced to wear when I was in Wanqi's house. I was on the earring with a child who was only 4 years old. Exchanged each other's names and vows.Now that I'm free again, I'm reluctant to take it off, as if I'm out of love.

I had to endure cold and hunger because of poverty, curled up under the overpass and silently watched the dirty river flowing slowly on the side of the pier, the bottles and cans floating on the river, and the blue sky and white clouds reflected on it.The undulating river distorts the contours of the city and the faces of pedestrians.I was stuck like all bearded, unkempt bums.Because he didn't have an ID card, he was afraid of being caught by the Wanqi family, so he didn't dare to act rashly, so he could only follow a group of migrant workers to the construction site to earn a living.Fortunately, what I have is strength.

I was mechanically farming like ants with everyone on the construction site.At first, I would think of Lisbon, who is now the son-in-law of a big chaebol, and he is so surprised to know my situation.Mrs. Wan Teng must hate me, because Wan Tengzhi's mental illness must have worsened.

I gradually forgot the time and those people who walked through my life.I just want to live.What I feel is no longer pain and despair, he thinks that the hard and heavy work makes me have no time.When squatting in the crowd and swallowing the rough and dry box lunch, looking at the sallow and haggard faces around me, and the dark bodies that were either thin or thick, I thought, this is a kind of life.

But even this stagnant calm could not last long.When the project was about to be completed, the wage problem on the construction site finally broke out.But I was forced by the presence of media cameras, so I had to give up my wages and leave there in despair.

I went back under the overpass again and lived the life of a tramp.No matter how frugal I was, I was soon penniless.I'm bearded and dirty.I don't want to sell my dignity, but I can't maintain my pride either.I finally shamelessly begged a shop owner who set up a stall by the overpass for a few days. On the fifth day, the old man finally couldn't bear it anymore and agreed to allow me to help in his small shop under the premise of pressing down on my one month's salary.

I looked at myself in the mirror.It was still the same face, the matching of those facial features, but at this moment, the arrogance and nobility were slowly weakened, the indifference was melted away, and a touch of compassion and mercy spread out.The thin and tough outline is calm and firm, with gentle eyes and affectionate restraint.His skin was tanned to a healthy wheat color, and he was about 188 cm tall. He was slender and strong, showing a bit of masculinity.

The aristocratic etiquette I learned since I was a child and the tempering of my later life finally reconciled and merged into a gentle and elegant temperament in me.Although this is just a camouflage evolved for survival.After wearing a mask for a long time, it becomes a face.

I can hardly believe that this person in the mirror is me.My nobleman-like arrogance has long since disappeared, leaving only traces of life.

All the shopkeeper found for me were some old white shirts. I washed them, put on a pair of dark brown slacks, freshened up, and instantly shocked the shopkeeper.

My dependable appearance did me a great favor, and it made me a living figure in the commissary.This satisfied the owner very much.Although he didn't give me a raise directly.

During that time, I had been laying the floor in the dirty and narrow aisle of the commissary.More than once, I thought of the warm and soft big bed in Wanqi's house, the soft blanket covering my body like a cloud, and the child's hug full of attachment.It's a pity that none of these can compare with the vast and bright starry sky.

I feel like I have finally learned to smile and trust that God has his way.The shopkeeper expressed his incomprehension.This bloated, aging man with a known destiny began to appear noisy.He told me about his beloved wife who died young, his only daughter who was married.She had a quarrel with her neighbors last week, just to fight for an open space in front of the door to grow vegetables.

I am very grateful to this old man who is the only one who is willing to take me in.Now I can naturally say some flattering words against my will, and show understanding and tolerance for annoying things.

It was in such a situation that I met that girl——Huang Xiaomi.

She is a frequent customer of the canteen and a sophomore in a nearby ordinary college.She has a doll head that reaches her ears, and her light eyebrows cover her bangs, making her round eyes bigger and brighter.The pink lips are slightly pouting forward, and the smiling lip overflows with two deep dimples, looking lively, innocent and endearing.

Speaking of which, our encounter was dramatic.I seldom go out at night that day and went for a walk in the park on a whim.I spotted her from a distance through a few mango trees.She was cornered by two rambunctious youths, who were pulling her purse and skirt, and she was frightened and stubborn saying something.She also saw me at a glance.Called at me: "Brother, save me!" The two young men looked at me with unkind faces, and one of them swung a knife at me arrogantly.

I looked at the girl's firm eyes expressionlessly.I was very curious in my heart why she thought I would definitely help.Seeing that I was advancing instead of retreating, the two hooligans left her angrily and walked towards me.It seems to be planning to teach me my ignorance.Fortunately, my many years of training at Wanqi's family did not embarrass me too much.

As soon as they approached, I was the first to come first, and directly pressed the Jianjing point of one of them, and twisted his left wrist with the other hand, and threw him back three or four steps with a ruthless over-the-shoulder throw. Far.The other person was even more vulnerable. My back kick and spin kick had already made him curl up on the ground with his stomach in his arms, and he was "hissing" in pain.I was a little surprised, I had never fought anyone other than the instructor.After the two young fellows ran away cursing and supporting each other, I looked back at the girl who stood aside and watched the whole process.She also looked dumbfounded, with big round obsidian eyes wide open, her mouth slightly opened, and she stared at me blankly.

I said, "Do you need me to take you home?"

She came back to her senses and blushed quickly.He hesitated a few words, then followed me obediently.I subconsciously slowed down and walked behind her a few steps, not shoulder to shoulder with her.

That's how we got to know each other.In the following days, Huang Xiaomi reported to the commissary almost every day.In the beginning, she just sat and watched me work, and gradually she began to use her spare time to be my helper, which was of course unpaid, but she enjoyed it.And I envy her.If I were her, I would cherish the opportunity to study.Because not everyone is so lucky.

Since she knew my living situation, she became more considerate and almost volunteered to take care of my daily life.I feel uneasy, I don't have the confidence to let new people into my castle yet.Will she snatch everything that destroys me like Yue Lin?Will he control me and boss me around like Wan Qizhi?Will she end up leaving me like Lisbon did?I am very disturbed.

Huang Xiaomi also seemed to see through my timidity.On a breezy and sunny afternoon, on the park avenue where we go for a walk every Sunday, she shyly grabbed my sleeve and stood on tiptoe.I looked at her slightly trembling eyelashes and forgot to react.

"Big idiot, you are such a big idiot!" That's how she defined me later.

Huang Xiaomi is a strange girl, she never asks about my past, she believes that she will be in my future.She recalled our encounter with joy and sweetness, but she warned me against such reckless rescues.She is always worried that I will be bullied or peeped by others, and she always nagging in my ear while arranging my life.

I didn't have the throbbing and anticipation for Huang Xiaomi that I had for Lisbon, but this girl gave me a stable desire.I wish I could live with her.What is love, isn't it a compensation for emotion?All love eventually turns into family affection.

Another year passed like this.Huang Xiaomi told me that she was admitted to XX University in C City.She was as happy as a child, and said: "Let's go there and live together! I have saved a lot of money now, we can rent a small dormitory outside, I can study, and I can earn money with you, waiting for us Tell mom after you settle down. Do you agree?"

This is such an innocent and independent girl.I am a little moved.Just yesterday, I just got the drug, and I can finally come and go freely.The shop owner is also preparing to retire and go home to take care of his grandson. He asked me to choose to continue the small shop or sell the shop and give me some dividends.

Yeah, I can live a normal life, I can have a steady job, and I can love again, like all men my age.

I was moved by these wonderful fantasies.Sadly, however, this dream can only be fulfilled in City C.

Yes, it is that city C, the city that I have been away from for 5 years.I left with a battered body on a freezing night of thunder and lightning, and returned there 5 years later with no choice.

The day I left City C was three months before my 18th birthday.It was raining slightly that day, and there were few pedestrians on the road.I couldn't see the mood of the sky, nor the colors of the passers-by and the street. I was only wearing a pure white bathrobe, dragging bloody whips and tooth marks all over my body, and ran stumblingly.At that time, I still had the pride of the proud son of heaven in my heart, and the luxurious and comfortable aristocratic life had never been reflected in my eyes.Now I am standing in the bustling street again, I am physically strange but mentally accept it all.This is my hometown.

Huang Xiaomi and I rented a simple apartment with two bedrooms and one living room, and found our first job in a coffee shop.We started living together, sharing living expenses and sharing feelings.Holding hands for a walk on weekends has become the most romantic thing.Unexpectedly, Huang Xiaomi showed more enthusiasm for this kind of life than I did.She worked hard to maintain this relationship. Not only did she regard all my shortcomings as the necessities and adjustments of life, she even wanted to make a show to her family.Sometimes she would deliberately make obvious hints that I could take the initiative to take action, and I would deliberately tease her, but in the end there was no action.Poverty makes me lack self-confidence.

The past two months in City C have been so busy.The days of simple bliss came to an end when a black car pulled up in front of me.I knew it was inevitable, I just didn't expect it so soon.They directly showed Huang Xiaomi's student ID card, so I had no choice but to cooperate.

This brightly decorated and spacious study room, I visited once when I was 12 years old.That was the first time I stepped into Wanqi's house, and Mrs. Wanqi led me here.Here she explained the situation of Wanqizhi to me and gave me orders.I have faithfully carried out that order for 6 years.

Once again, I was brought into this room, standing silently with eyes downcast in the middle of the room in isolation.

The woman standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window with her back to me seemed to be the same as before.With an exquisite figure, tall and plump charm, a red suit, red curly hair and high heels, she is confident.Hearing me enter the door, this noble woman who has always been very well-bred immediately turned around, walked up to me like a gust of wind, and slapped me hard, knocking my face off.

I silently watched her red and trembling palms that were still in mid-air after beating, then her distorted and beautiful face that was gnashing her teeth, and finally I silently set my eyes on her wide-open, slightly panting eyes. above the red eyes.

"What do you think you are, huh?" Mrs. Wan Teng spat at me unceremoniously, regardless of the image she had always tried to maintain. "You are a dog I bought with money! Want to live your own life, huh? Need me to help you identify yourself?"

Mrs. Wan Teng pouted at the three bodyguards standing in the corner.The three of them understood immediately, one of them held my arm while the other gave me a few hard fists in my stomach.I grunted, and when they let go, I bent down in pain.

Mrs. Wan Teng sneered, and lifted my chin with the toe of her high heels: "Oh, I almost forgot, there is another woman, right?"

My pupils constricted sharply, and I wanted to stand up when I opened her shoes.The bodyguard who was waiting for an opportunity behind me immediately twisted my arm and pushed me down.

Mrs. Wan Teng laughed viciously, and patted my face: "Are you worried? Ha ha! My hometown is in M ​​City, and my parents are in a leather goods business. It's not easy for such a daughter..."

She lengthened the ending, happily sat on the swivel chair, folded her legs gracefully, and looked at me sideways.

I spit blood out of my mouth. "It seems that Zhi'er still misses me very much." I imitated her disdainful tone and replied, "Aren't you afraid that I will let your baby do bad things? He is really an obedient and silly boy."

Mrs. Wan Teng froze suddenly, stood up abruptly, and rushed to me quickly, making gestures to slap me again, but she held back.She was shaking with anger.

"Threatening me? Have you grown a little bit of backbone in the past few years?" She tightened my jaw, and I was forced to raise my head.

I smiled sarcastically. "There must be something to gain."

Mrs. Wan Teng's face was extremely ugly.If it weren't for Wan Chengzhi's obsession, I have no doubt that she would strangle me directly.She stared at me like a snake and scorpion, and said "yes" three times in a row before letting go.

We finally came to an agreement.

In order to protect that girl, I have to face these monsters.